Ana's POV
I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything Christian told me last night. I let him hit me with a belt. What was I thinking? I mean was I expecting it wouldn't hurt or that a man who has some kinky room with whips, paddles and stuff like that would go easy on me?
At least I know he didn't lie to me. First, I'm sure no one who by his own admission is in love with me would come up with a story like that if it wasn't true and second I asked Kate and she confirmed that I was a virgin before I met Christian. Apparently I never dated in college or even made out with a guy at a party or something like that.
I still have no idea why though. I mean, I'm good-looking and I think I'm a nice person, so why did I never date? Kate told me I was concentrating on my studies and my work at a hardware store. So, I guess I was pretty boring and judging from my clothes I had no style at all. I looked through all the stuff Kate brought over for me and there were no dresses, one skirt and the rest looked like I wanted to hide myself with my clothes.
Also I don't fit in them at all. I mean, yes, I had a baby recently, but all my clothes were a size 2 and I saw many pictures of me were I was like super skinny. I hope I wasn't suffering from an eating disorder or something like that. Right now, I'm a size 6 and actually I like it. I have some nice curves and my belly is almost flat again, so I don't think I want to go back to size 2.
Mia is great, she gave me a lot of her clothes, which are much nicer than what I have and this morning at breakfast Christian gave Mia his credit card and so we could shop online for new clothes. We had a lot of fun and I can't wait for my new clothes to arrive. Talking about breakfast, Christian was looking at me with a big smile while I was eating. Actually, I noticed my parents and Kate are looking the same way at me every time I eat. At first I tought I had funny eating habits, but I don't eat more than anyone else, so that can't be it. Maybe I really wasn't eating before I lost my memory, but that's a topic I'm going to tackle down another day.
Today, I'm going to meet another friend of mine. His name is Jose and Kate told me he was a good friend of mine in college. I'm looking forward to meet him, maybe he can tell me more about myself. When he arrives, I ask Mia to look after Mireya and go for a walk with Jose. I figured out that it is much easier to meet new people alone, in groups they tend to overwhelm me with all the information they have about me, so this works best for me.
"Tell me how we met" I ask him and he frowns.
"You really don't remember anything?"
"No, so tell me."
"We met on our first week at WSU. We were both kinda lost and so we started talking and became friends. Our fathers were in the Army together and through us they reconnected again."
"Did we hang out a lot?"
"Sure, we would see each other almost every day. You know Ana, we were really close." I stare at him and the way he said that somehow rubs me the wrong way, it's like he is trying to tell me something else.
"What do you mean?" he stops looks at me and takes my hand in his. "Ana, I loved you from the day I met you, but you never wanted me as more as your friend. Then you met Grey and I thought I would never have a chance to be with you. After you broke up with him, I was there for you. We fell in love Ana. We kept it a secret because you were worried what Kate would think of you if you jumped from one relationship into another right away."
I look at him and for some reason I don't believe him. I mean, first I was a virgin until I was almost 22 and then I jumped from one guy straight to the next one. That doesn't sit right with me. Since he said we kept quiet about it, I can't ask Kate, so I guess I have to figure this out on my own.
"So, we had sex?"
"Yes, but more so we were in love Ana. I want to be with you."
"Oh, ok, umm just one question. I have this tattoo, do you know if it has a meaning. You know the one near my pubic bone?"
"Umm, no. You just liked the way it looked." He says shifting uncomfortable from foot to foot.
"You know what, we are no friends. You are a liar and I don't need liars around me. Don't waste your time by coming to see me again Jose." I turn on my heel and start to walk back to the house, but he blocks my way.
"Wait, Ana please. I love you and Grey is not good enough for you" he whines.
"Oh and you think someone who has no problem lying to me is good enough for me? You should be damned happy that you are not in my position, because I have to trust strangers every day. You lied to me once and I won't give you a chance to do it again." I try to walk around him, but he grabs me by the arm.
"Take your hands off Miss Steele now or I have to use force." we both turn around and I'm glad to see one of Christian's security guys. I think his name is Sawyer and boy he looks pissed.
"What do you want?" Jose hisses and with that Sawyer grabs him by his shirt. "I want you to take your filthy hands off her. The lady doesn't want you near her." Jose finally lets go off me and Sawyer pulls me behind him. "If you know what is good for you, you will leave now!" Jose looks pleadingly at me, but I do nothing. He lied to me and in my situation I have to rely on people to tell me the truth, not fill my head with lies or else I will probably never get my memories back.
Finally Jose seems to get the message and takes off. "Are you alright Miss Steele?"
"Yes, I'm fine. Were you following me?" now Sawyer looks uncomfortable, but I don't think it was coincidence that he showed up the moment Jose got pushy.
"Yes Ma'am. Mister Grey asked me to watch over you. He doesn't trust Mister Rodriguez."
"Looks like he was right about it." I mutter and continue to walk back to Grey's home. Once inside I find Mia and Christian playing with Mireya in the family room.
"Hey Ana, you were quick."
"Yep, turns out Jose is not my friend at all." I sigh and flop down on the sofa.
"What, did that fucker try something?" Christian is furious and I roll my eyes. "Whoa, we don't use the f-word in front of Mireya, because if that is going to be her first word it will be you who gets his mouth washed out with soap!" I threaten Christian and he looks shocked.
"What, it's not her fault if she starts saying it if you do it in front of her. So don't do it."
"I'll keep that in mind. So, what did the boy do?"
"He told me we had something going on after I broke up with you. I guess he thought I would just accept that and be his girlfriend, but something about him didn't sit right with me, so I asked him about the tattoo on my pubic bone."
"Wait, what? You don't have a tattoo Ana." Christian says immediately and I grin. "See Christian, and that's how I know that you have seen me naked before and he hasn't."
"You tricked him?" Christian sits down next to me and I look at him. "Well, after I discovered yesterday that I never dated before I met you, I found it hard to believe that I would just jump to the next guy and he seemed nervous. I'm sick of being lied to, so if I have to trick every one I meet to get the truth, I'll do it." I explain and lean forward to grab a cookie from the plate on the coffee table.
"You seem to have a healthy appetite, usually it was painful to get you to eat." he says and I frown. "So, that is why you smiled the entire time when I was eating breakfast this morning."
"Yes, I just enjoy to see you eat like a normal person, you were to thin when we met and as I said getting you to eat a full meal was painful."
"Well, if it makes you happy, I'm not planing on going back to size 2. I just want to do some exercises so my belly comes back in shape. Grace told me about this mommy fitness groups and I think I'm going to enroll one, once I have decided where I'm going to stay."
Christian looks sad all of a sudden and I don't like that look on his face at all. "Georgia isn't one of the options I'm considering any more, I'm just torn between going to Montesano with Ray or stay here at your parents place. Georgia is just to far away from here, I want you to be able to see Mireya when ever you want."
"Thank you Ana, that means a lot to me." he smiles and again I feel this pull between us, but choose to ignore it. Now is just not the right time to start anything. Maybe, if I get my memories back I remember that I wanted nothing to do with him and I have no idea what I would do then.
"Your welcome" I get up and take Mireya from Mia. "Hi baby girl, did you miss mommy? Yes, I know you did. Come on, we are going to check if your grandma has some chocolate ice cream for mommy, maybe if I eat enough you get cocoa tonight instead of milk" I joke and she scrunches her little face up. "Does that mean you don't want cocoa or are you making your diaper poopie?" When she pulls her knees up, which is accompanied by a loud rumbling from her backside I know what it is.
"Wow, was that her?" I have to laugh over the expression on Christian face.
"Yes, she can rip them like a big girl, excuse me, someone needs a new diaper ASAP" I leave the family room, change Mireya and feed her since it is her time. We cuddle a little and once she is asleep I take a quick shower, still thinking about what I learned today and determined to find out why I feel so different from the girl everyone is describing to me.
Two days later Christian and my mom are babysitting Mireya, so Kate, Mia and I can go to a hair dresser. I am in desperate need of a hair cut since the ends of my way to long hair went really dry throughout the pregnancy and nothing I tried to fix that problem helped.
Kate and Mia have picked a beauty salon where you can get anything done and while I choose a new haircut from a book with pictures they have a waxing. They wanted me to get one as well, but since I gave birth only four weeks ago and still have a little discharge there is no way in hell I'll let anyone near that area other than my doctor right now.
I flip through the pages of the book and come across a long layered cut that is really pretty, but it is even more the color of the hair that catches my attention. It a dark ruby-red kind of color that looks really sexy. Before I can stop myself I call Grace with the cellphone my Dad bought me.
"Hello Ana, do you need something darling?"
"Hi Grace, listen I'm about to get my hair done and I'm thinking about changing my hair color as well, is it ok to dye my hair. I mean, I'm breastfeeding and I don't know what they use to color my hair."
"No darling, that will be fine. What did you chose?"
"I show you once I'm back home. See you soon Grace."
"Ok, bye darling."
"Bye" I hang up and tell the hair dresser that I want the cut and color from the picture and she seems excited.
"Do you think you get this done within two hours? It's the first time I had to pump milk for my daughter and I'm not sure if she will take the bottle" I ask my hair dresser.
"Two hours are enough time" she answer and first cuts my hair before she puts the color on.
"Hey Ana, wow are you going to chance your color, you've never done that before" Kate says when she and Mia come from there waxing and what ever else the have done.
"Yes, I want something that is more like me."
"What color is it going to be" Mia wants to know, but I just smile. "Wait and see."
Once Lucy, my hair dresser, washes the my hair and blow dries it Kate and Mia are gaping at me, but all I can do is staring at myself in the mirror. I love the color and finally I feel that my looks are matching my personality. A little wild, sexy, but also mature. Yes, this is much better than my former style.
"Ana, it's red" Kate gasps and I giggle. "I know, it's perfect, right?"
"I ... wow ... you shocked me Steele, but your right, it's hot. You look like a bombshell with that hair. Christian won't know what has hit him." she says and I roll my eyes.
"Kate, I'm not doing this to impress Christian. I'm doing this to discover who I am and today I learned that I want to be a redhead."
"Well, your hair certainly is red now, man your eyes look even more gorgeous now with that hair color."
"I know, let's go home. I want to show my new me to the others." We pay, leave the salon and when we arrive back at Bellevue I hurry upstairs to change into one of my new outfits. I decide on a tight blue jeans, brown boots, a white sleeveless blouse and a wide belt that matches the color of my knee-high boots. I use a little mascara and kohl for my eyes and with that I'm ready.
I go downstairs and hear Elliot and Christian talking in the family room. I walk over to the family room and as soon as I'm in the room all the Grey's and my parents are gaping at me in shock. For a few seconds there is a complete silence in the room and it is Christian who finds his voice first.
"What the hell have you done to your hair?!"
Next chapter will be up tomorrow or a day later. If you have time, please leave a review.
I have also created a pinterest board for this story, you can see Ana's new hair color, cut and outfit there. Since FF won't let me put a link in here, you can find the link on my profile page.
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