Edward

"Breaking Through Barriers"

She was here and there; she was getting underneath my skin. She touched my heart in a few short weeks and it scared and excited me. I was falling slowly and I hoped she would be there to catch me. I was hot and cold wanting affection but then closing off my heart.

I wanted to believe she would never be like my mother; I wanted to enjoy my time with her. It was hard to break this habit and I could see it hurt her.

I wanted to ignore the fact that intuition told me she had feelings because it was easier if she didn't. No one would get hurt if she only liked me as a friend.

Could I give her a part of me, and still want her the same? Would she accept less than she deserved?

I should save us both the pain and end our friendship; I should have ended it when I saw the way she looks at me. When I see the conflict in her eyes, I should but I'm selfish.

She gives me everything and I need everything she gives me what I need and I'm too selfish to give it up.

Lately I crave her touch and I live off her compliments, I feed off her affection.

I deserve to be loved but the risk it takes is too soon for my heart.


The pitter patter of rain outside and the stillness lulls me into a reality of peace and the smell of coconut and mint is driving me crazy. The extra warmth in this small space makes me feel things I haven't felt in a while. Bella has her head on my shoulder retelling her point of view on a book subject, I'm watching her so animated and it makes me feel light and happy.

Happy I muse in surprise testing out this new feeling; happy is what I feel right now. Happy is what she makes me and I can't get enough.

She gives and asks for nothing in return and now it's time for me to give, I'll let her take what she needs as long as she doesn't want what I can't give.

I turn to her ready to take this risk as long as she is happy then I'll know it's worth it.

"What do you want Bella?"

She looks at me confused "what do you want from me?"

She blushes and looks down "nothing"

I lift her chin with my finger, staring into her wide brown eyes "there's always something"

She takes a deep breath and it washes over me making me dizzy and I'm drawn to her, my eyes zero in on her lips which looks soft and plump. I feel a stirring deep down.

"Well, I might like you"

She blushes harder making her cheeks a faint pink color, which makes her look even more beautiful against this backdrop and setting. I touch her cheek feeling the heat underneath and she leans into my hand looking dazed.

I smile widely "I might like you too Bella"

Her eyes go wide and her mouth pops open in surprise; I take this opportunity to brush her lips with mine. Just one touch rattles me, a faint shock from her lips. She presses her lips against mine, once and twice. I inhale her scent and press harder, she's kissing me back fervently.

I taste strawberry laffy taffy on her lips and I feel warmth spread through me to my toes. My world is a blast of color and I'm nipping and tugging on her lips and she's tugging back. Its push and pull, it's sweet and sensual.

I lean back to catch my breath, her forehead is touching mine and she's breathing heavily.

"My god, I might like you a lot" I breathe.

Her only answer is a smile; it touches my heart in many ways. I could never give this up.


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