Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter. All locations, items, spells, characters, ect. are most likely property of J.K. Rowling.
Review Responces:
Dreamer:
I know how you feel. I love reading fanfiction and now I'm kind of mad
at myself for writing one, because it takes a lot of my time. They are
fun to write though. Hope you enjoy this chapter. You'll find out why
the cutting occured. Thanks for reviewing!
hye em yes:
-grumbles- Should have combined chapters 8 and 9... Yes, cutting is out
of character for Harry. Please keep reading though, because it's not
what you think. Thanks for reviewing!
Faith-Tse: Don't
worry, I don't like writing romance, so it will be very slight if there
is any. I'm assuming OC is original character? I might make the first
years and replace some Quidditch positions with original characters,
but you won't see them too much. I wanted to put my close friends in
the story too. Thank you for reviewing!
The Vampire Story Hunter:
Whoa! Umm... I have the feeling you really hate my story? I completly
respect your opnion. Can you please not curse in the reviews though? I
don't like cuss words and this story is rated PG. Some younger
audiences could be reading the reviews. Like I said, I don't mind
flames. If you really mean what you are saying, that's cool. I'll try
to improve the story, but I'm not the best writer. "sigh I never knew
someone could be as STUPID! AS YOU! He accepted them WAY! To fast. I'm
sorry but. that's. just. NOT "NORMAL"!" Dude, in my point of view he
would accept them really fast. I agree, I can be pretty stupid, but
that is beside the point. I like Harry being "soft" and he will
probably change anyway. I always thought boys could scream, I'm sorry
if they can't. The flame for the Diagon Alley chapter, I completly
agree with you on. Why wern't people like, "oh my god, it's the
Potters!"? I have no clue... must have been out of it when I wrote that
chapter. If you want to flame, go right ahead, but please try not to
cuss in them. It's quite disturbing. And if you are ony flaming to try
to make me mad, go right ahead because I find flames amusing actually.
Anyway, thanks for the flames/reviews! They encourged me to try and
write the story better.
Silvercrystal77: Thanks for reviewing! Hope you didn't get the wrong impression from chapter 8.
volleypickle16: Thanks! I just caught up on your fanfic.
yaminy-grint4eva:
Hermione/Draco? hmm... it is fun to read those, but i need Harry to be
with someone for my story and I just don't want to write Ginny's
dialog. Still trying to get a chance to read your stories. I've started
some of them. Thanks for reviewing!
PrincessSkywalkerOrgana: Thanks for reviewing1 Glad it's improving a bit.
Eric2:
Wow, I didn't even think about that being symbolism. I guess it was.
Wow, read this chapter. Only one other person guessed that. Thanks for
reviewing!
kenshin-chan345: Should have combined these chapters... Read on, it's not what you think. Thanks for reviewing!
Serena: More is comming. Thanks for the review!
Krissy:
I didn't like chapter 8 at all myself. I'm not sure if I'll even add
the Harry/Hermione though. I think I could just make them closer
friends and the plot would still work out fine. I wanted to hook Ron up
with someone, but most people are Ron/Hermuione shippers, so if I had
Ron with Luna or something, I see myself losing a lot of readers. Hope
you continue to read my fanfic. Thanks for reviewing!
Author's Note: Whoo! Another chapter down. I'd like to deticate this chapter to Lizzy and Eric2
for using the clues to guess why Harry was cutting. Good job to both of
you! I know what I'm write for chapter 10, but when I get around to
typing it is another thing. I also have writer's block where I left off
on chapter 10 I hope to get out of my writer's block soon. Also, I
kinda found my Zelda game and have been getting really into it...
Hopefully it won't take up all my time. Looks like some people won't
like it if I add H/Hr. I have been going over my notes and I may be
able to keep them as just friends for my plot. If I do add the
relationship, it won't be all heated with kissing and making out and
stuff. They will just hang out a little more most likely.
Chapter 9: Nightmares
He
was in a dark room, lit only by a few red torches. Two men stood there
in black robes. One was tall and had a white snake-like face and red
eyes. The other was shorter with a silver hand.
"Wormtail!" he snapped.
"Y-yes m-m-master." stuttered Wormtail.
"Why
is Potter still alive? It's bad enough you let Lily and James come
back! Why aren't the three of them dead? You said he'd be committing
suicide!"
"I'm s-s-sorry m-master. He was s-s-suppost to. J-James s-s-saved him. I didn't know James was s-s-so overp-protective!"
"You will pay for this mistake, Wormtail!" said Voldemort raising his wand, "Crucio!"
Peter
fell to the ground and began screaming in pain. Voldemort laughed. He
finally lifted the curse.
"I'll give you one more chance,
Wormtail. Bring me Harry Potter! Kill Lily and James again if you have
to. No mistakes this time, or I will be killing you personally!"
Wormtail bowed, "Y-yes, m-master. T-t-thank-you."
He transformed into a rat and ran out of the dark room.
"I'll be in charge of the wizarding world again soon!" Voldemort laughed.
"Harry! Harry wake up!"
"Wake up, son!"
Harry
awoke being shaken by his parents. Harry realized he was screaming and
quickly stopped. He was covered in sweat and his scar was burning again.
"What's wrong, Harry? Are you okay?" Lily asked worriedly.
"Wormtail…" said Harry.
James looked at Harry questioningly, "What?"
"He made me slash my wrists. I was being possessed by Voldemort… it was his plan!"
"Harry, that's impossible." said James. "Peter couldn't possess anyone if he tried."
"But Voldemort can! He did it last year. He did it again. He wants all of us dead."
"How do you know?" Lily asked.
"I just saw it!"
"How do you know it wasn't just a dream though?"
"My scar is burning, and it doesn't burn during regular dreams. I know what I just saw really happened!"
"What did you see?" James finally asked.
Harry
proceeded to tell them all the details of his dream. Lily gasped as he
finished and wrapped Harry into a hug.
"Would he really kill his friends?" James wondered out loud.
"He betrayed you guys before, remember?" Harry said quietly.
James
knocked everything off a nearby table with his arm. Little glass
objects and dishes fell to the ground and shattered.
"James!" Lily snapped. James ignored her.
"I
remember… Peter is the reason I missed fifteen years of my son's life!
The reason Padfoot suffered twelve years of Azkaban! The reason Sirius
died known as a murderer and a betrayer! He's the reason you didn't
know about the wizarding world until you got your Hogwarts letter.
After you had grown up your whole life being abused! He's the reason
you never got to live with Sirius, why Lily and I died that night! I'll
never forget what Peter did!"
"Sorry," Harry muttered.
"The
only person that should be sorry is that bloody scum called Wormtail!
I'm can't believe I ever hung out with him! He doesn't deserve the
Marauder title! I never should have taught him animagi! If he couldn't
transform, Sirius wouldn't have went to Azkaban. You would have lived
with him. Everything would have been so much different!"
Lily
took out her wand and cleaned up the glass shards. She walked over to
James and put her arms around him.
"Calm down, James. Yelling
isn't going to change anything." She said kissing James on the lips.
They held the kissing for a few minutes.
They
broke away and looked over to see Harry already back asleep. They went
to the bed beside Harry's and wrapped their arms around each other,
kissing passionately.
Harry
awoke the next morning and looked to his right. His mom was laying on
top of James, her head in his chest. James arms were wrapped around
her. Harry laughed to himself and began looking at a muggle literature
book that was sitting on the nightstand. Lily woke up a few minutes
later. She got out of James' grip and stretched. She glanced at Harry
and turned a light shade of red.
"Good morning," she said.
"'Morning." said Harry.
"I'm really sorry Harry, but I have to go to Headquarters to help with the Order today." Lily said sadly.
"That's alright." said Harry turning to James. "Is he staying?"
"He wouldn't leave unless Madam Pomfrey kicked him out." laughed Lily.
"I wonder where Madam Pomfrey is then…" Harry muttered.
"Harry, that's not very nice. You know how much he loves you. All he talks about is you everyday."
"I wish he wouldn't."
"You don't mean that." said Lily.
"Yes, I do. He never leaves me alone."
"Well… I can't argue with you on that. Anyway, I have to go now. See you tomorrow." she said walking out of the room.
Harry
went back to reading the literature book only to be disturbed ten
minutes later by James waking up. He yawned.
"Where's your mum?" he asked Harry.
"Had to go out, something with the Order." said Harry not looking up.
"Guess it's just you and me then." said James.
"uh-huh," muttered Harry.
There was a long silence. James finally broke it.
"Er… I'm going to go get some breakfast. Want anything particular?"
"Not really," said Harry.
James
left and returned a few minutes later carrying two trays of pancakes.
He handed one to Harry who just set it aside. James began eating his
pancakes. He glanced over to Harry.
"Aren't you hungry?" he asked.
Harry shrugged, "Not right now,"
They
both sat in silence for a few minutes again. James finished his
pancakes and got up to set the tray aside. He turned back to Harry.
"Want to play chess?" he asked.
"Nothing better to do." Harry shrugged.
James conjured a chess board and placed it on Harry's bed.
"Normally I'd play on a table… but Madam Pomfrey won't let you get out of bed yet, so we can't"
Harry let out a loud sigh, "As if it really makes a difference whether or not I'm in bed."
"Well,
unfortunately for you and me, we have to follow Madam Pomfrey's orders.
Maybe you can come home tomorrow though." James said brightly.
"Yeah, maybe." said Harry setting up his chess pieces.
They
spent the majority of the morning playing chess. James won the first
two games and Harry won the third. James kept insisting Harry won,
because he was good, but Harry knew James had let him win out of
sympathy.
"You let me win," said Harry dryly.
"Did not! You beat me." James denied.
"Then you are terrible," Harry said. "because I always lose to Ron when we play."
They
cleared up the chess board and had lunch. As they were cleaning up from
lunch, Hermione came in. James said, "Scourgify!" and left the room so they could be alone.
"Hey, Harry! How are you feeling?" asked Hermione.
"Hi, Hermione! I'm good. Can't wait to go home though." Harry replied.
Hermione
laughed and sat on the bed next to Harry. Their eyes locked for a
moment and Harry felt an odd sensation. He, however, had no idea what
it meant. Hermione looked away after a moment.
"Where's Ron?" Harry finally asked.
"Oh! He didn't tell you yet?" Hermione asked.
"No,"
"I can't believe he didn't tell you yet!" exclaimed Hermione. 'Yeah, rub it in'
Harry thought. "Percy apologized to the family today and they all went
out to eat together. They haven't completely forgiven him yet of course
though."
"That's great that he apologized!" Harry said.
"That's
what I told Ron," Hermione sighed. "but he was a bit upset by it all.
He said 'Percy's still a huge git.' He won't forgive Percy."
"I'm sure he'll come around soon. He just isn't used to having Percy around again yet." said Harry.
"Yeah, you're right." said Hermione.
Harry
and Hermione continued to talk until around six, and it was time for
dinner. James came back in about five minutes after Hermione left.
"I've got good news, Harry!" James exclaimed.
"Well, tell me!" Harry urged.
"I talked to Madam Pomfrey," started James.
"And…?" Harry asked.
"You
are so impatient!" James joked. "I talked to Madam Pomfrey ad she said
you could come home tomorrow if Lily and I promise to keep you in bed."
Harry forced a smile, "Well, I'll be back in my own bed at least…"
James
smiled and proceeded to tell Harry about how much fun they could have
together. James continued to talk until Harry drifted off to sleep.
Harry
awoke the next morning no longer in his hospital bed. He looked around
and noticed he was back in his own bedroom. Harry took notice that his
room had been cleaned while he was gone. There was no blood anywhere.
"What the heck…" Harry muttered looking around the room.
James,
who had been walking down the hallway, stopped and walked into Harry's
room. He smiled at Harry.
"Good, you're awake." he said. "Your mum wants to know what you'd like for breakfast."
"I
don't care, surprise me." said Harry still looking around the room
confused. He paused for a moment before asking, "How did I get here? I
was in the Hospital Wing last night."
James smiled, "You were. We brought you home this morning. We didn't want to wake you. You are a heavy sleeper I guess."
"Oh"
"Well, I'm going to go get you some breakfast, Harry." said James.
He
walked out of the room and down the stairs. James returned ten minutes
later carrying a silver tray. Harry sat up and James placed the tray on
his lap. On the tray was toast, an orange, pancakes and a glass of
milk.
"Thanks," Harry mumbled.
Harry
finished his breakfast and grabbed his potion's book on his dresser. He
had left it there before he went to the hospital luckily. The stuffed
Padfoot was also on his bed. He set it on his lap and began reading.
An
hour and a half later Harry looked up from his book. James was sitting
in a chair on the other side of the room reading the issue of the
Quibbler Luna had given Harry. Harry set his book aside and turned to
James.
"You don't have to stay here all day." Harry said bitterly.
"I know, but I want to." James replied.
"No, you just want to make sure I don't do anything stupid. I don't get possessed everyday you know."
"I'm am not watching you, and I know you don't get possessed often!"
Harry rolled his eyes impatiently, "You know I'm right. Knives and razors are all locked up anyway."
James raised an eyebrow, "You looked for them?"
"No, I used common sense. If mum didn't hide them, she'd have to be crazy. Even if I was being possessed when I slit my wrists…"
James nodded in agreement and got up.
"Fine, you win. I'm going to go see if your mum needs any help. Call me if you need anything."
James
left and Harry grinned to himself. Finally, some time to himself. He
picked up his potion's book off the side of the bed and continued to
read.
Well, it's a bit short again. I should have conbined chapter 8 and 9 I think. For those who have not caught on yet, Harry was being posessed when he slashed his wrists. I don't think I wrote it very clearly in chapter 8. He didn't remember anything in chapter 8, because when Ginny was posessed in CoS she didn't remember either.
I changed a lot in this chapter. It started out as being all crying stuff, but I changed it to anger. I was trying to show James' anger, but I don't think it came out very good. Anyway, I checked my outline and Harry will be starting school in just a few more chapters. (Yay!) I don't know how many chapters this fanfic will end up being or when I'll finish it. School starts in August, so updating will be pretty hard. More homework in highschool I bet...
Please review! Honest opinions appreciated. -Michelle-
