Chapter 9 – Bones POV
Bones was sitting in here suite mentally going over things to do before her departure. She informed Booth she wasn't going out in the field with him again. She told Cam she was leaving and requested an extended leave. She needed time to get over Booth to compartmentalize her feelings for him. Anger building within thinking about her time away dreaming about him, hoping for another chance just to come home and learn he has been screwing some woman he just met. She understood the need to satisfy those urges, hell she was doing it long before she allowed herself to admit her feelings about Booth. But once she knew in heart there was more between them she hasn't been with a man for three years. She believed his theory on making love and crappy sex.
Her lap top beeped letting her know she had received mail. Moving the mouse she noticed the sender's name was SA-Booth. What could he possibly have to say to that she would be interested in hearing. Her brain was telling her to delete it but her heart wouldn't let her. After reading the email she was so lost. Did she respond to him and give him the opportunity to voice his say or just ignore the email and continue on with her plans to return to the dig and take some time for herself to lock up those emotions that was so damaging to her? Staring at her lap top his words were haunting her thoughts and she needed to have a clear head to execute a more precise plan for herself. She decided she needed to go for a run. Dressed and leaving the hotel she was off to Rock Creek Park to run her troubles away.
Usually running through the park would ease her mind and help release her but Booths' words just kept tormenting her inside of her head. The faster and harder she ran, the more she kept hearing his words haunting her every step so she pushed harder and harder. Bones just kept going – trying to out run her thoughts until she couldn't go anymore. Against her will she found herself leaning up against crying. Between the text messages and the email she found to be very overwhelming.
"This is not the way I wanted to go about this but you're not giving me any other option here. I want to talk to you face to face, look into those beautiful blue eyes that takes my breath away when I look into them."
"I spent my time away thinking about how I went about it all wrong and how I could fix it with you when we returned. I wanted another chance to convince you to give us a chance to be more."
"Bones please! Please don't do this. I deserve the chance to explain. After six years please don't walk away from this – from us like this please. I'm begging you."
"Bones please believe me when I tell you that Hannah was a mistake."
"told her that I was in love with you." "I hadn't heard from you, I didn't know where we stood, where I stood in your life anymore." " I need you and only you. I love you Temperance."
"Don't shut me out of your life and please don't leave me again Temperance. My heart won't survive it again. I'm begging you baby, I'm begging you."
She was crying so hard that she realized if she didn't get it together she could hyperventilate. 'So much for clearing my thoughts' she signed wiping her eyes and sobbing while making her way to her car. Once inside she composed herself enough to go back to the hotel and make her way back to the suite.
After taking a long hot bath and drinking a cup of organic tea, she found that she still couldn't get Booth off of her mind. Was she making a mistake leaving before talking to him? Did she want to talk to him? Was it to late for them?
She felt a headache coming on so she decided it was time to go to bed and let the tension of the day drain from her body. Maybe tomorrow will bring some insight.
She fell into a restless sleep.
