I don't own anything from twilight. I will try to make my chapters longer ok.
"WHAT? I'm a human again? How did that happen?" I screeched at Esme.
"Bella, please calm down."
"How can I calm down? I'm a freaking human again! This is sooooooooooooo not cool! I thought that once you're a vampire there was no turning back into a human!"
"Bella, if you will please calm I will explain everything."
"Fine. Can you really explain this though?"
"Yes. Me and Carlisle did some research and I can explain it very well. Anyways it says that if a vampire's instinct tells it that it's in a lot of pain then it can try to do some unnatural things. Your instincts knew that if you were to 'fall asleep' then the pain would go away. The only way for you to 'fall asleep' was for you to become human. So your heart went to overload and started to pump the venom outside the body. That's why we found you covered in venom," Esme explained to me.
Wow your body sure is weird.
"Wait, what do you mean 'we did research?'" I asked.
"Uh well we did an experiment on Edward. He was very support of this plan."
"Wait Edward's human?" I asked afraid of the answer.
"Yes, it was very hard on him at first. He decided to become human so that way you guys could grow old with each other. Please understand this he still loves you very, very, very much. All he wants is you Bella."
How could she say this in front of me when we both know that he didn't love me. "Esme, I know that he doesn't want me. He decided 4 years ago that he didn't want me forever. Now he gets to die knowing that he choose that," I said knowing that these were the wrong words to say.
"Bella that's not true I do want to grow old with you, have children with you. I want to be with you until death do us apart," Edward said coming into the room.
I knew this would happen. I failed myself; I ran up to him and just hugged him. At first he was surprised by my action but, decided that it was a good action so he hugged me back.
"I'm sorry Edward. I know that you love me and I love you too, but I don't know why but, I just can't forget," I told him crying into my chest.
"Bella, I can't believe that you still love me after what I did to you. I couldn't believe it myself but, I'm glad that we can be together," Edward said.
"That's not 100% true. I mean I still love you but, I don't think I can trust you. I'm sorry but, I still hurt from that day 4 years ago. I still feel the pain of you leaving me 4 years ago. Also 4 years is not a long enough time to heal over what happened between us."
God what am I saying to him. After 4 years he could finally be mine and I'm turning him down. Wow what was I thinking. Sure I couldn't really ever trust him but, here he was begging me to take him back.
"Bella, please if you can't be with me right now then I'll wait for you. If I have to I will wait until the day I die. Just please don't turn me down right now. Let me regain your trust. Let me earn you back however you want me to," Edward pleaded.
He sure did know how to make someone swoon over him. The one thing that could help is if he went back to college with me.
"Edward, come to college with me and then I'll decide," I said to him.
"Ok. I'll go to college with you. I'll do anything with you now. When do you want to leave?"
"I was hoping tomorrow," I said backing up from him to look into his eyes.
"Ok, I'll get everything prepared for us. You just need to sleep until I get everything settled," Edward said leaving the room.
"I hope everything will get settled between you too at college," Esme said also leaving the room.
I crawled under the sheets and went to sleep dreaming about what might happen at college.
~~~~~~~~The next day~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up knowing that today was the day me and Edward would get to finally get to start fresh after 4 years. I still couldn't believe that he agreed to go to college with me by himself. It still amazed me how much Edward to things so seriously.
"Bella, are you ready to start fresh?" Edward asked knocking on the door.
"Yeah, are you?" I called back.
"More than you could ever know," he replied softly.
Edward was one of the weirdest people I knew. I just hoped that when we got to college that people would treat us warmly like they did when I entered my first year. I was still pretty nervous about the ride down to the college because it would just be me and Edward alone for 8 hours driving to Dart Moth.
"Bella, breakfast is ready!" I heard Alice yell.
"Alice, I'm still getting dressed give me a second," I simply said.
"Bella Swan, don't talk to me that way!" Alice yelled playfully at me.
At least things were somewhat settling down between me and the Cullen's'. I just hoped that 3 years in college would strengthen me and Edwards's relationship.
I had already packed all my things last night before the weird attack that happened. I had tried all night to forget about that accident but, that's all I seemed to think about.
All I had hoped for is that Jane was still a vampire and was still alive. I had promised myself that night that as soon as we were done with college I would go visit everyone from the Volturi and tell them what had happened.
Edward and I were going to try to start over again and see where things headed but, I still was edgy on him and me spending so much time together. What would happen if I ended up getting burned like last time but, what if I got hurt even more because we had tried to start over.
I had all these emotions inside me I wondered how I could contain them all inside this fragile body of mine. Oh pancakes are being cooked downstairs.
When I opened the door to run downstairs I ran right smack into Emmet. Emmet looked like he had a lot of stress going on.
"What up Emmet?" I asked stepping back. I started to rub my head because I had just ran into my big brother that was made up of steel.
"Oh sorry Bella, I didn't mean to barge in on you. I just uh, wanted to say I hope you and Ed have fun together. I also hope that you too will get married so that way Ed won't feel so bad."
Wow Emmet could really open up to me. I was surprised because he always played dumb and would always crack jokes. But, yet he was standing here expressing his feelings right in front of me.
"Oh well me too. I just hope for the best no matter what happens between me and Edward. Even if we don't get back together this will always be my family, even if Edward hates me," I said saying my true feelings.
"Well I better let you go. Don't want you to be late on your first day of college," he said stepping to the side to let me through.
"Thanks Em," I said using his nickname this time. He gave me a smile and then hugged me really tightly.
I almost forgot how hard Emmet could hug people. I tried to hug him back but, he put me down before I could.
When we arrived downstairs everyone looked at me.
"Hey," is all I could muster out.
"Hiya Bella," they all called out to me.
~~~~~~~After breakfast~~~~~~~~
After Breakfast me and Edward said our goodbyes and started on our long journey to college. While we were eating Edward had put everything in the car for us and had started the car so it wouldn't be cold.
I gave him my thanks before I got into the car. Edward had put on my favorite song just for me. I started to rock out to "Firework~Katy Perry" when he turned to me and asked me, "Bella, is this what you really want?" At first I was totally stunned but, I turned to him and said, "If I wasn't then I wouldn't be here right now," this was the first time I was sure about anything.
Sorry this chapter isn't long but, it's like really late and I'm tiered and I can't wait for tomorrow because I'm going to visit my cousins and my aunt and uncle. I would update tomorrow but, I won't be able to until Sunday or maybe not until like next week or something. So yeah I'll update as soon as I humanly can since I'm no vampire.(LOL )
