Chapter Nine – Party In The Pool Or Drowning In Hell?

It wasn't long that Ceecee's pool party was just around the corner,

Saturday 12th September 2009

I woke up on that Saturday morning to the smell of eggs and bacon. I jumped to my feet hearing the roar of hunger coming from my stomach. I quickly washed up then ran downstairs to hug my daddy but he wasn't there, just Heidi, Gina and Brad,

"Where's daddy?" I asked Gina who was setting up the table,

"He's in the bathroom," Gina replied

"Then who made eggs and bacon?" I sat down,

"Me!" Heidi grinned hard, "Mathew told me you loved having this as your breakfast, so I thought of making you happy,"

"Umm…Thanks," I smiled weakly, she's trying so hard again,

"I need some kind of lady who will feed me daily just like my sweet mama!" Brad dug into his food,

Heidi laughed softly then looked over to me with an expecting smile,

"Oh…Sorry," I turned to the food after realizing why she's staring at me.

I picked on my breakfast taking my time to push it down my throat. Daddy came in a little while later and after kissing my forehead he sat down with Heidi and they discussed work-related things. I sat there eating quietly until Brad turned to me,

"I heard you're invited to Ceecee's party," He swallowed his drink,

"Party? What party?" Daddy asked

"I told you, the pool party that Ceecee invited me to," I said, "You said I could go,"

"It's today?" he looked confused,

"Well I gotta jet," Brad got up,

"Finish your food," Gina glared at him,

"I can't I'll be late," he looked at his watch, "I gotta meet Jesse and Guy in exactly 20 minutes,"

My ears pinned up at the mention of Jesse. I always forget that Brad and Jesse are like best friends,

"They can wait," Gina shook her head waving at him to sit back down,

"You know how inpatient Jesse is," Brad pleaded, "I'm going,"

He quickly went and Gina puffed taking his plate to the sink,

"So what are you going to wear?" Heidi asked me,

"Umm…I don't know, I was going to ask you," I sat up,

"Well dress warmly it'll be cold," Daddy pouted

Heidi laughed softly shaking her head,

"Aww Mathew you are really such an over protective father," She cooed pulling his ear, "It's a pool party,"

"Susannah you have a phone call," Gina informed me while I watched the daddy and Heidi act like a love sick couple,

I quickly got up and rushed to the phone to be greeted by Carter who asked me what time he should pick me up, I told him around 2 o'clock and he hung up. Once I got off the phone I called Ceecee but she was in a hurry so I couldn't really ask her what to wear so when the time came to getting ready I wore grey combats with a baggy white t-shirt,

Carter arrived exactly on time wearing shorts with a half-sleeved shirt. We got into his car and drove to Ceecee's house. We got there by quarter to three.

The second I got in I felt out of place. All the girls were wearing bikinis and boys were in shorts.

"Well you wanted to come," Carter mumbled when I told him about my nervousness,

"I know," I looked around. Everyone was enjoying themselves, some were in the pool playing volleyball, others in the Jacuzzi relaxing and making out,

I felt uneasy because of the entire PDA!

"Ugh! What are you wearing?" Brad frowned coming from behind me holding up a drink to me,

"Umm…clothes?" I replied taking it of him,

"What part of 'pool party' didn't you understand?" He glanced at Carter who was looking anywhere but at Brad,

"Is this alcohol?" I sniffed the drink,

He laughed walking past me,

"Ceecee said there wouldn't be any alcohol," I turned to Carter,

"And you believed it," Carter rolled his eyes, "Well of course you did, you believe everything, you're the fish sign"

"Oh Carter," I put the drink down. I looked around for Ceecee, I couldn't see her but I did freeze due to pheromones,

Jesse was in the Jacuzzi with a very beautiful woman and they were laughing and talking and drinking. My eyes wouldn't move until Carter thankfully stood in front of me,

"You do have a crush on him!" Carter narrowed his eyes, "Admit it Susannah Simon,"

I blushed slightly nodding my head and just then Ceecee showed up in a bright pink bikini holding a martini glass,

"Hey guys! I'm so happy you came," she grinned looking slightly drunk,

"You shouldn't drink, you're you know" Carter grabbed the glass of her,

"It's cool you guys, enjoy the party," She laughed then walked past us to some other people that I recognized from high school,

"She…" I shook my head. The music got louder and I felt more and more insecure, my first experiences never turn out to be good,

"Oh look who it is," Kelly sneered, "One brow girl,"

I gulped burning in embarrassment,

"Allow it Kelly," Adam surprisingly showed up beside me,

"What exactly are you doing here? Wearing that?" Debbie pulled a face,

"Don't you know where you stand in SM Beverly? No one cares about you. You're just a total waste of perfectly good year book space with that mug of yours," Kelly snorted,

The two stuck up their noses then walked away from me to flirt with some boys,

"You should just ignore them," Adam put a hand on my shoulder, "Have you seen Ceecee?"

"Uh…She went that way," I pointed in the direction I last saw Ceecee go towards,

He smiled at me and Carter then went to find Ceecee.

I wanted to leave but I had only been there for 20 minutes and hadn't even spent time with Ceecee.

"Oh right!"

I looked up at the diving board. Sophia was getting ready to jump, she stepped back then bounced heavily onto the board and jumped diving into the water causing a huge splash and a rattle of cheers,

I looked away from her and around the party. My eyes spotted Ceecee, she smiled at me weakly as Kelly, Debbie and Katie surrounded her and laughed. It was obvious they were talking about me,

I tried to the look the other way but it was really hard especially with Carter staring at me with such conscientious eyes…I had never been to a party and I wasn't liking that one. I wanted to leave right away but I was too confused,

Carter wasn't looking at me anymore, I didn't know where he was looking because I couldn't see him anywhere, it was like he just vanished,

"Hey!" Zoe grabbed my arm,

"Hi," I smiled

Seeing and talking to Zoe always cheered me up…I was happy we became friends, she's so bubbly and full of live!

"You don't wear combats to a pool party!" She hissed in my ear,

"I didn't know it's my first time," I shrugged

"Oh Suze!" She laughed, "Stay here, 'I'll be right back,"

I watched her walk away to a guy and the PDA began. I looked the other way, eyes searching for Carter.

"Hey everyone let's play dares!" Kelly announced holding a bowl full of strips of paper,

The dares were really … I don't have a word for it. 'Make-out with the same sex' 'give a lap dance' and many others,

"Alright! You have to call up your crush and tell him you love him," Kelly read out the strip to Debbie,

Debbie giggled taking out her cell phone. She dialed the number and Jesse sighed answering it,

"I love you Jesse!" She screamed over the phone to which he just hung up saying "How troublesome,"

The dares went around the party, one awful dare after the other,

"Jesse," Kelly held out the bowl flirtatiously to him,

He picked out a strip and instantly his eyes rested on me,

"Make someone fall in love with you," Kelly chuckled,

Everyone waited for his reply,

He looked around slowly, his magical eyes resting on one girl after the other until he pulled one of my braids,

"I will make you confess to me," He winked

Some girls looked at me enviously, the others laughed,

"This will be interesting," Drake crossed his arms looking deeply interested,

"What…what are you saying?" I ran away from him,

He's such a jerk. Using me for a game!

I found myself wandering around the beautiful house looking for Carter,

"Oh my god! I'm sorry!" I jumped back,

The couple didn't pay attention to me at all; they carried on groping each other and making dairy noises,

I quickly closed the door to the bedroom and went red making my way back outside,

I wondered where Carter was and my eyes rested on Jesse,

He winked at me and I turned my head away,

Jerk!

My leg felt slightly wet, I looked down and noticed I was standing at the edge of the pool,

"No!" I said realizing Sophia holding my ankle to pull me in, "Sophia!"

She pulled me into the pool and I was drenched,

"God!" I breathed holding onto the edge,

"Don't you know how to swim?" She laughed

"I know how to swim!" I called out to her, "But…-

I was so embarrassed and I couldn't let her know what it was that was stopping me, but she realized on her own,

"You're on your Cherry!" She laughed hysterically, she obviously drunk,

I felt tears flow down my cheeks, I couldn't even pull myself out, it was so slippery and I was pushed back into the corner of the pool,

All I could her was laughing, and screams. I felt like I was drowning, I couldn't see properly too because I lost glasses when I fell in,

All I could do was cry which was not a good idea because I just looked like a sulking cry baby,

"Hey," A hand came towards me,

My vision wasn't clear, also the tears in my eyes blocked who it was that was trying to help me,

He took my hand and just when I was nearly out let go of it and I fell back into the water,

"Suze!" Ceecee screamed, "Are you ok?"

I pushed myself back into the corner, not being able to see a thing; all that I could hear was uproarious laughter. I didn't want to be touched; I wanted to drown alone,

Again a hand came towards me but this time I slapped it away,

"Suze," I heard a familiar voice,

Carter?

I took the hand and it one go he pulled me out of the water, I couldn't lift my head up I just dug into his chest and to my surprise he lifted me up in his arms, I was too embarrassed to take my face out of his hard chest,

The sound of the laughter decreased and became fainter with every step Carter took…Only it wasn't Carter,

He put me down onto a sofa and I quickly picked up a cushion and buried my face into it,

"Are you ok?"

I didn't answer, I moved myself away from him, so embarrassed that I could shoot myself if I had a gun,

"Come on look up,"

I slowly moved the cushion down only to reveal my watery eyes,

"Jesse," I whispered my heart thumping loudly against my chest,

He put a towel on my head,

"Are you ok?" he repeated

"I want to go home," I squealed into the cushion,

He leaned in closer to me, his eyes piercing into mine,

"You…you look even more…"

He touched my cheek leaning in close,

"scarier!"

I blinked and he leaned back laughing,

"Suze!"

I moved back looking up at Carter and Brad,

"Are you ok?" he rushed to me, "I should never have left you alone,"

"I want to go home," I cried as he hugged me,

"How troublesome," Jesse ran his hand through his wet hair getting up, "You shouldn't have come on the first place. Now you've ruined my mood,"

I stared at his back as he walked out of the room. I didn't get him at all, he had just rescued me and now he's acting like it was nothing that happened.

Jesse Di Silva sure is mysterious…

"Jesse's right, you shouldn't have come?" Brad passed me his jacket, "You're not going to tell Mathew about this are you?"

I instantly shook my head,

"Never! I can't tell dad," I wiped my face, it'll be another lie, but I can't tell daddy what has happened,

He'll get pissed.

"Suze!" Ceecee hurried in, "I'm so sorry!"

I looked the other way. At that moment I thought that Carter was right I shouldn't have trusted her, she was setting me up the whole time,

"Ceecee we're leaving," Carter held onto me, "Come on get up Suze!"

"I am really sorry," Ceecee said, "Suze I –

"Save it," Carter said, "Who do you think you are? Lying and then covering it up by saying sorry,"

"Lying? No I haven't lied, well sure to Adam about being pregnant!" Ceecee shook her head, "And to the students of SM Beverly about how I love 'em all when really they are just a waste of space in my life. Especially that Kelly, with her injected breasts shoving in everyone's face, she thinks she can do anything she wants,"

"You're drunk," Carter clicked his teeth, "You're pathetic,"

"I'm not pathetic, I'm pregnant!" she laughed

And that was the end of that day. Ceecee was horribly shocked to realize she had a microphone attached to her, a ruse played by Kelly Prescott. Ceecee's confession echoed in her backyard… everyone present at her party heard it.

And the person that should have known a long time ago heard it too. Adam Walsh.

He stood there silently staring at Ceecee, tears rolled down her cheeks after he ended it with her. He told her he couldn't trust her anymore and that she's lied to him for too long, when he walked out and she dropped to the ground crying, it was then when I realized Ceecee actually did consider me as her friend, it wasn't a set up.

After what Adam said, there was no way that I could leave her there crying on her own. Everyone soon left the party and I took Ceecee home. She stayed the night at m y house and it was a long night. She was restless and sick.

I couldn't see her like that, so I decided to call Adam, at first he didn't want to hear anything but then he did. I told him everything Ceecee told me to be the reason for not letting him know. Adam remained silent and didn't say much at the end apart from that he had to go, I pleaded with him to hear her out just once but he hung up.

The next day just before breakfast, we had a visitor, holding a bouquet of sun flowers. Ceecee came down the stairs and broke into tears.

Adam and Ceecee sat in the living room and talked maturely about everything. He told her he wants to keep the baby and she said she would do anything that would keep him happy.

It was nice ending after all. A happy ending that made me all teary eyed. It was like watching a fairy tale, only the bad guys weren't yet defeated.

The first week of school was ridiculously suffocating for both me and Ceecee. A little more for me than her.

Jesse was still the perverted, jerk! And Kelly still the ruling queen of SM Beverly.

3 weeks went past and the suffocation soon started to fade, but instead of my feelings for the jerk evaporating they started growing, I began feeling what I've never felt before…It was embarrassing for me to feel like this and that to for about a jerk!

I wanted to write it down, express my feelings onto paper. It was much like art, when I felt an emotion or a need I would paint it, only this was slightly different…I wanted to capture my feelings into a book, and that's when I remembered the diary Heidi gifted me.

And now I begin the story of my life in my diary.