Chapter 9

I decided not to go to school for the rest of the week. I couldnt see his face. The face that was filled with anger, betrayel, confusion, and hurt. I did all of that to him. To a guy who doesnt deserve it. I didnt know you could hurt a person as much as I hurt Lucas. You could see it in his eyes. He said he loved me but because of a stupid stupid mistake I will never ever have that love again. But truth be told... I dont deserve to. I couldnt stand to stay at my house, so I went to Peyton's.

"Hey." said Peyton

"Hey."

"Feeling any better?" asked Peyton

"No. I dont think I ever will."

"Brooke." said Peyton

"No Peyton. I messed up. Now he doesnt want anything to do with me."

"Maybe you should go talk to him." said Peyton

"No thank you."

"Brooke, you cant just sit around feeling sorry for yourself." said Peyton

"Yes I can. Watch."

"Brooke get up. I'll take you. Please? Come on." said Peyton

Peyton drove me to the cafe and I saw Lucas. I took a deep swallow and exhaled. My body was shaking and I felt like I was about to throw up. Then I looked at Peyton.

"You're gonna be fine." said Peyton

"Ok."

I knew I wasnt gonna be fine but I got out of the car anyway and walked into the cafe. I stood behind Lucas and said:

"Hey."

He turned around and looked at me. Fustration came upon his face.

"What are you doing here?" asked Lucas

"I.. umm... wanted to talk to you."

"Why?" asled Lucas

"I love you, Lucas. Im sorry for what I did but it felt right at the time. I didnt think it would matter."

"Well it does matter. How could you be so selfish?" asked Lucas angrily

"Im sorry. I didnt want to be the girl that was pregnant in high school. Nobody wants to be that girl."

"So instead you choose to be a murderer, a liar, betrayer." said Lucas

"I didnt think about that when I did it. But after... I hated myself for that. I love you and I dont wanna lose you."

"You shouldve thought about that." said Lucas then walks away

"Lucas! It was a girl."

"I hope she wasnt gonna grow up and be anything like you." said Lucas

"What?"

"Get out. Now!" yells Lucas

I felt my heart sank. I can never look into his eyes again. It hurt too much. 2 days passed and I never left Peyton's House. That next Monday, I built up enough courage to go to school. Wish me luck.

"Hey Brooke. Gaining weight recently?" asked a girl

"Just ignore it." said Peyton

"Umm... I think this year is a lovely year to have babies, huh Jack?" asked a girl

"I dont know. Lets ask Brooke." said the boy then he and the girl walk off laughing

"I cant take this."

"Where are you going?" asked Peyton

"Who else did you tell?"

"What are you talking about?" asked Rachel

"Dont play dumb with me bitch."

"I'd never. That's your job." said Rachel

"Prepare to get you ass whooped bitch."

"Brooke." said Peyton pulling me back

"Rachel, hey." said Lucas

"Hey." said Rachel

"Wanna walk with me?" asked Lucas

"Sure." said Rachel and looks at me as she walks to Lucas then she and him walk off talking

"Its ok." said Peyton hugging me

"Do you really think there's one person in this entire planet that's right for you?" asked Rachel
"I do." said Lucas
"Maybe we're still in high school, and you haven't met the one." said Rachel
"But, I have, it's Brooke." said Lucas

"Then why wont you get over yourself and be with her? Instead of using me to make her jealous." said Rachel

"What she did hurts." said Lucas

"I'll make a deal with you. You make the shot, you can stay mad at Brooke for as long as you want. You miss, take her back." said Rachel

"Why do you even care? You hate Brooke." said Lucas

"Yeah but everyone deserves a second chance." said Rachel

"Fine." said Lucas then shoots and makes the shot

"Wow. Well... do what you gotta do." said Rachel then walks off

"Hey Rachel!" yells Lucas after her

"Yeah?" asked Rachel

"You're pretty cool." said Lucas

"Thanks." said Rachel then walks off

The next day, when I was leaving to go to school. Rachel was standing on my porch. I walked right pass her like she wasnt even there.

"I didnt tell anyone." said Rachel

"You're just a slutty lying liar who lies." then I walk off

"Do you think people can change, Brooke? I mean, truly change?" asked Rachel

"Well, Id like to say yes but honestly... I dont think people can change, you know? At the end of the day you are who you are and its probably who you've always been."

"Right. Lucas loves you, you know? He thinks you're the one." said Rachel

"Look, I dont need you to try and make me feel better."

"Im not. He told me that and I wanted you to know. I didnt want things to mess up for you. When I told Luke, I thought he already knew. And I didnt tell everybody." said Rachel

"Id like to say I believe you but honestly... I dont." then I leave