Still holding the file I began to make my journey home without the use of my vampire speed. I just walked. My whole mind cluttered with questions of things such as, why I wanted to become this monster? What the hell did they put in me? Is there a cure?

By the time I reached Mystic Falls the sun was starting to go back down. I walked into the woods without hesitation of following where my feet led me. I ended up in front of the Boarding House hesitating to go inside. I looked down at the file in my hand before letting out a long unnecessary breath.

I opened the door and closed it behind me. Damon spun around from his place in front of the fireplace. HE looked furious. He slammed his drink down on the table as he stalked towards me. Elena and Stefan stood up looking at me. Bonnie and Jeremy were there as well.

"Where the hell were you?!" Damon yelled at me. I didn't answer him.

"Did you know that Klaus was back in town?! He could have taken you!" he kept yelling.

"Damon-" Elena started to try and calm him down.

"Shut up, Elena!" He barked at her. She flinched which made me flinch too. Okay so even though I hated her at the moment didn't mean that I stopped caring about my little sister.

I walked past him and took his whole bottle of bourbon holding it up in the air waving it a little making a sarcastic toast before drinking out of it. I downed half the bottle before it was ripped away from me.

I glared at Stefan who actually looked at me with concern. I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand and said, "I had a dream last night."

"Don't tell me you left because of some fucking dream!" Damon yelled at me.

"It wasn't a dream. It was a memory," I whispered. I tossed the file on the table in between the two couches.

"All this time I was blaming the academy for making me a monster," I spoke up with tears in my eyes.

"What do you mean?" Jeremy asked me.

"Last night my dream memory made me see things I wish I hadn't seen. And that file," I said pointing at it.

"Proved that everything was real. All the pain and suffering I went through to become a monster," I growled.

"It wasn't by choice though," Elena said standing up and walking over to me placing her hand on my arm.

"I wanted to become a monster. I would go back and ask for more. More speed, more strength, I wanted to be invincible," I whispered. I wouldn't let the tears fall. No. I was done being soft. I wanted to find the people who did this to me and kill them.

They all stared at me, but I kept my glare on the folder. Elena moved back over to the table and picked up the file. When she opened it she nearly let out a scream and it dropped from her hands. I turned to face the mantel and gripped it. I was light head. I was angry. I wanted revenge.

"How-How could they do this to someone?" Elena asked letting out a sob.

"I don't know," I said in a hoarse voice.

I slammed my fist on the mantel cracking it before I sped out of the room and into Damon's room. I sat down on the floor in front of his bed where I placed my elbows on my knees and gripped my hair in both of my hands.

I felt two arms wrap around me and I was pulled into Damon's chest.

"I'm sorry," he whispered as he rocked us back and forth.

"Why did I do this to myself," I sobbed into his chest, finally breaking down.

"You didn't, they made you into something you never wanted to be," he whispered. I didn't respond I was exhausted mentally and physically. I closed my eyes and slept.

I found myself sitting in the same chair that they always operated me. I was still strapped down much like my last dream, but this time there was a whole lab table sitting in front of me.

"We made a break through this time Jade," Cress exclaimed as I was literally breathing heavily feeling myself sinking in out of consciousness.

"What-more-could-you-possibly-do," I said in a hoarse voice needing to take a breath with every word.

"Oh, you have no idea," Cress said motioning for a nurse who stood beside him to the table. She picked up this needle and walked over towards me. It looked like a thick painful needle.

"This will enhance your ability to heal, also it prevents you from becoming a vampire," he continued.

The lady stabbed the needle in my arm causing me yell out in pain.

"Even if you do become a vampire, this will always change you back to human," Cress continued.

"Why?" I croaked.

"Jade, Jade, Jade, we can't have a serial Vampire killer on the loose for all of eternity. WE do plan to make copies of you of course, but they will die too," he said as he took notes on how my heart rate accelerated. I felt my body feel like it was on fire. I screamed in pain. The nurse was still injecting me with this stuff.

"You're only human. You were meant to die."

"I will remember!" I roared at him.

He looked frightened at my sudden outburst of rage and energy.

"When I do I will make you suffer one hundred times the amount of pain you are putting me through. I will then look you in the eyes and kill you. Without. Any. Remorse," I growled.

I awoke scratching my arm that the nurse stuck the needle into as it was still there and I had to claw it out of my skin. I saw Damon was there and thanked god before I felt the urge to throw up. I found myself in the bathroom hurling into the toilet. I pulled back to see blood. I instantly flushed it freaked out. I zipped over to the sink and rinsed out my mouth. I splashed water on my face feeling hot. I towel dried my face before I went back to the room and got dressed in casual clothing for today which was a white button up shirt and dark blue skinny jeans.

I was pulling on my shirt when Rebekah walked in.

"Way to knock," I grumbled as I buttoned up my shirt.

"Hm, to old fashioned," she said giving me a smirk.

"That's got be a while for considering you're how old, one thousand eight hundred and ninety six years old?" I replied as I pulled on a pair of socks.

"Funny," she replied sarcastically rolling her eyes.

"What do you want Barbie Bitch?" I asked her.

"I'll ignore that nick name…can you explain to me why your sister wants to suddenly be my BFF?" Rebekah asked as she took a seat at the edge of mine and Damon's bed.

"I don't normally take tally of what my sister does, but if I were you I wouldn't fall for the whole BBF let's shopping bullshit. I mean I did and she's my sister yet she stabbed me in the back," I told her as I pulled on a pair of black vans. Rebekah was silent for a while and said, "I grew up with a whole family of boys. I was the only girl in the family. I really always wanted a little sister."

"Want mine?" I asked her as I pulled on my leather jacket.

"Why are you talking to me like you have known me your whole life?"

I frowned and said, "Well I'm not going to be a bitch and claw at her throat…unless you prefer it that way."

"No…I just…you're really nice to me. After all I did to you and your family," she said with a confused look on her face.

"Has your brother told you about all of those people I took in?" I asked her with a sigh. I took a seat next to her.

She nodded her head saying, "He loves talking about you, in fact he never stops."

"Well they all have done things, just like you have done thing, but all they want is a place to get away to, a place to start new and forget their past. I gave that to them. That is why I am treating you the way I am, because I don't judge you for what you have done in the past. I judge you for what you do now," I told her before getting up. I walked out of the room and pulled out my phone dialing Caroline.

"Hey do you want to hang out today?" I asked her.

"Yeah sure, is Elena going to be with us?" she asked back.

"Like hell," I replied with a small smile.

"Cool. Can invite Bonnie?"

"Why the hell not."

She laughed and we said our goodbye before I texted her that we would meet at the grill. She sent me a quick text saying that both her and Bonnie would be there shortly. I grinned before zipping out the front door and was in the alley of Mystic Falls under three seconds. I walked around the front and opened the front door being greeted by warm air and the smell of food. I heard my stomach growl in anticipation to eat some-wait, my stomach just growled?

It was starting. I was becoming human once again. The speed hasn't worn off, but I am pretty sure my organs started working again, including my heart. I quickly walked in and took a seat at an empty booth in the corner.

I checked my pulse and found my heart beat. I jumped when Caroline and Bonnie took a seat in front of me.

"Well aren't you the jumpy one today," Caroline laughed. I stole a glance at the bar and saw Damon wasn't there.

"I have a pulse," I hissed at them. Their eyes widened and I saw Caroline's eyes focused before her eyes widened even more saying, "I can hear it."

"How is that even possible?" Bonnie asked us. I shrugged and said, "I had another dream last night. This time they sped up my healing process. Cress said it would make me unable to become a vampire and even if I did become a vampire it would reverse the process."

"So you're not going to be able to stay a vampire, you're going to become-"Caroline said.

"Human," I finished with a nod.