Chapter 9

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Starfire twirled her thumbs. She was nervous, chewing on her lip and starting to sweat.

She needed to tell Nightwing how she felt. And hope that he will feel the same.

It was midnight at Titans tower; most of its residence were inside their rooms or in the main room of the tower.

Starfire stood alone in the dark hallway, in front of Nightwings door. She had been standing there for almost 15 minutes, raising her hand to knock and then letting it rest at her side. Starfire took a deep breath, and raised her knuckles to the door one more time.

I need to do this. I need to hear him say it. Her Tameranian heart begged for it…

She rasped her knuckles on the titanium door, and then waited.

And waited some more.

"Robin?" She asked. She knocked again, but no response came from the other side of the door.

Glorious, she had spent 20 minutes standing in this hallway like an idiot and he wasn't even in his room… Starfire sighed again, and turned around to leave.

Only to come face to face with Nightwing himself. Her eyes went wide

How long had he been standing there?...

"Oh, Hello Friend Nightwing. I did not see you there." She chewed on her lip. Nightwing rubbed the back of his neck

"Hey Star, is there something you need?" He was dressed in sweats and a hoodie. His forehead and hair was damp as if he had been running.

I knew I should have checked the 'training room' Starfire shook her head

"No, what makes you say that?"

Nightwing raised an eyebrow "Because you are standing in front of my door?" He meant it as an observation, but it came out as a question.

"Oh Yes… that. I was wondering if Uhm… We had anymore Mustard!" She mentally slapped herself. Mustard? That was the best excuse she could come up with... Though the condiment did sound quite delicious…

"Cyborg bought a case of it today when he and Beast Boy were out. It's downstairs." Starfire nodded

"Then I shall go to the downstairs and grab the mustard! Thank you friend Nightwing." She plastered on a fake smile and went to walk away. She was feeling insanely stupid inside, and incredibly lame. Where was her Tameranian Honor? They would look down upon her for being 'the wimp'

A pale hand wrapped around her wrist.

"Starfire wait, There's something we need to talk about." Starfire turned to see Nightwings eyes to the floor, his black hair fell over his forehead. She gulped, and her heart started to hammer in her chest.

This could be it… this could be what I need…

"Yes Friend Nightwing?" He sighed.

"I'm sorry." He said. She was confused now. Her hopes dwindled just a bit

"Sorry? Why are you 'the sorry'?"

"I'm sorry for driving the team so hard. And for putting your lives at risk, I wasn't being Nightwing I was being Robin. And I know ever since Slades threat that our Relationship has failed, but I still can't lose you as a friend. Starfire I Lo-… I care for you." Starfire stared at him. She felt her heart shatter.

After all of this time, he still couldn't say it.

After all they have been through, He still couldn't say it…

She needed to hear it… It was the answer to all her problems….

Starfires anger spiked, her eyes stared to glow a bright angry green.

"Star? Are you okay?" Nightwing asked he went to touch her, a gesture she would normally welcome.

These were not normal circumstances.

"Do not touch me! I will not be touched by you anymore!" She hissed. Nightwing was taken aback, his face held hurt.

"Star… What's wrong?" He took another step towards her, but she took a step back.

"Back Off!" She shouted. She was sure her voice was heard throughout the tower.

"Starfire what's wrong with you?" Nightwing was yelling now.

"What's wrong!? What is wrong is you! You are what is wrong!" Her fists started to glow green, her anger was starting to boil.

She was a ticking time bomb, ready to explode.

All she needed was one little trigger…

"How am I the problem? I just apologized to you! You're the one who is freaking out!"

"I am doing the 'freaking out' because you WILL NOT tell me what it is I Need to hear! You cannot drag me along anymore! You tell me now or I will leave." The last sentence was a low hiss. Starfires heart was breaking; it was a pain no Tameranian can live through.

On her planet, love is a very POWERFUL emotion. One that can kill a Tameranian.

And without hearing those three words… without the confirmation of love, Starfire will surely die.

Starfire had chosen Robin… Nightwing to be her mate, to be her lover. And no matter how bad she tried to pry it out of him, no matter how many times she heard it almost slip out of his mouth, she could not get him to say it.

Starfire was growing angrier every second she stared at his handsome face. Her Sorrow was ripping her heart to shreds, but she was fueled by the righteous fury of her planet. A fuel that could keep her going for weeks.

Nightwing may think that their relationship started to end when Slade came back, but no. Their relationship became rough a year ago, Slade only made it worse…

"Starfire no! You can't go! I don't know what it is you need to hear, but please just tell me and I will say it." Nightwing was pleading now.
"I cannot TELL you too say it. You must FEEL it. And you seem to not feel anything except the duty of leadership and the obsession of the Slade! I will not wait here any longer, I cannot wait here any longer! You tell me now, Or I will not see another day."

"Starfire… Please…" Nightwing took a step towards her, holding his hands out, begging for her to take them… Instead she raised her hand, a glowing orb in her palm. She was past angry. She was FURIOUS. She had waited for years, She had done what he asked and remained silent when he needed. She was at his side though it ALL and he still couldn't say those three little words.

Those three little words that could very well save her life.

A Tameranian cannot live through a heartbreak. It is impossible.

Tears leaked from her glowing eyes. She wanted him GONE. He RUINED her! He USED her! She was nothing too him!

She wanted him Dead

With a war cry, she heaved the starbolt straight towards Nightwing chest…


Raven was shuffling down the hall towards her room.

She had just returned from the main room and she had a steaming cup of herbal tea in her hand.

Raven knew she wouldn't be able to sleep. Her nightmares would come back and after her apparent date with Aqualad, it had complicated things with her sleeping arrangements. She had no Idea how Beast boy could keep her demonic side at bay… but she was starting to need him more and more.

She sighed, how could she be so stupid? Yes, she liked Aqualad. He was handsome and funny but Raven didn't… LIKE him. She had made the decision because Beast boy was being possessive for whatever reason.

And Raven was not an object.

She sipped her tea, and came to a stop in front of her door.

So, Instead of sleep she decided to do some meditating and a lot of reading. Her mind could use the break, and her powers had only just returned. Her energy was cut in half due to the war in her mind. She tapped in a code on the green pad next to the titanium door.

It wasn't until her door slid open did she felt it.

She gasped, and her cup of tea slipped out of her hands, shattering on the floor.

The Air in Titans Tower shifted. It grew dark, and angry. Hurt and Sorrow filled Raven's chest and she knew only one person could make their emotions that strong. Panic rose in Ravens throat and she quickly thought of something to do.

Cyborg, she needed to wake up Cyborg.

Without another word, she ran back down the hall glass slicing her foot as she stepped on the shattered mug. She came to a stop in front of his door, and heard a muffled moan come from inside.

I'm sorry Cyborg. Raven said. She pounded on the door.

"Go Away!' Cyborgs breathless voice shouted.

Raven knocked again

"Starfire is in trouble!" Raven shouted.

"Stars in trouble?" Another voice asked. One that was NOT Cyborgs. Raven couldn't help but smile. Looks like Bee got some quality time with Cyborg after all. Too bad she had to ruin it…

"I'll be out in a second." His voice was strained and forced. Raven winced.

"I promise I'll make it up to you later!" She shouted as she ran back down the hall towards Beast Boy's room. Her foot ached with each stepped she took.

As reluctant as she was, she needed him to be there.

He was the only one who could hold of Starfire, even if it was for a few seconds. She came to a stop in front of his door, as soon as she raised her knuckles to knock, the door slid open.

"I heard." His voice was a monotone; no emotion was on his face. Raven could feel no other emotions but Starfires at that moment, but she figures she would get nothing from him anyways. He brushed past her; his hair was tangled as if he had just rolled out of bed. At least he had the decency to pull on a black beater.

Raven sighed, she was feeling guilty. Why? Beast boy shouldn't care what she does…

She couldn't stand him treating her like this, it was tearing her to pieces

"Look, Beast boy I-" Her voice left her, the air in Titans Tower grew thicker, like black tar clinging to her lungs. She felt her emotion draw power from the anger around her, and she saw images flutter past her eyes…

A glowing green hand was raised, tears streaked an orange face.

Masked eyes wide, fear pouring from them. Black gloves rose, hoping to stop whatever was bound to happen.

Though it was futile.

The green orb left the Orange hand and slammed into his chest. The blue bird on the black spandex changed to black and red. His body was pushed back into the titanium door, blood sprayed, the smell of burning flesh and copper filled the air.

His body lay unmoving.

"No!" Raven shouted. Though the vision was choppy, she knew what was bound to happen. Beast boy was now looking concerned. Raven met his eyes, but said nothing as her white rimmed power encased the two in the dark void.

"Starfire No!" Nightwings cry filled Raven's ears as a black vortex came out of the ceiling. Beast Boy dropped on the ground with a 'thud' but Raven was already flying towards her two friends.

Starfire spoke, though Raven couldn't hear what she said. All Raven heard was the thumping of her own heart. Starfires emotions beat into her like waves, Raven's mind screamed.

Knowledge: Stop this! The door is breaking!

Bravery: Happy tighten up that stream! PUSH HER BACK!

Rage: I have no idea why you are all complaining, I feel overcharged!

Timid: Guys… She's… She's coming.

Knowledge: Dammit! Everyone on the count of three throw everything you have at that door! 1…2…3!

Raven felt her body grow weaker, she was growing tired but she kept flying towards her friends

Just hold on… Hold on a little longer... She begged. Starfires hand began to come down.

Oh Azar… She wasn't going to make it!

Raven began to panic; she would NOT lose a friend today. She outstretched her hand, her emotions shouted at her.
White rimmed magic hissed around her fingertips.
The starbolt had left Starfire's hand, Nightwings eyes opened wide. Raven saw a small glimmering tear roll down his cheek.
"Azarath Metrion Zinthos!" she shouted her mantra, and the ebony magic flared.

A black barrier formed between the two, the Starbolt exploded against the shield sending Starfire flying back into the opposite wall.

"Starfire!" He cried. Her body was smoking, blood leaked out of the corner of her mouth.

Raven's mind screamed and she felt herself drop to the floor. She heard voices, muffled voices. But she saw only dark shadows. A Green man came in front of her, and scooped her small form up.

"I've got you Rae… I've always got you." The voice spoke. Raven groaned. She opened her mouth to speak, but no words came. She felt nevermore call to her, and feeling started to leave her body.

Starfire… What about… Starfire. Her mind hushed, and she slipped into unconsciousness.