Logan 101
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They seemed to melt into one, darkness and emotions swarming their brains as they both closed their eyes, Logan and Dana deepening their kiss with every passing moment. Logan's excitement rose as he heard a short, muffled moan escape Dana's lips that were interlocked with his, her lips granting his tongue access willingly.
Logan tightened his embrace on Dana, removing his hands from her hips as he wrapped them tightly around her waist. After a few more seconds, Dana ended the kiss, placing her hands on Logan's shoulders and pushing her body away from his with unexpected force. Not sure what to expect, Logan allowed her to break the embrace, not fighting to keep her close to him as he released her waist.
Dana backed up a few paces, rubbing her fingers on her lower lip as she beamed at Logan, too many emotions on her face for Logan to decipher what her response was going to be.
"What…what are you doing?!"
Dana's tone of disgust had Logan on the defensive.
"What are you doing?"
Dana continued rubbing her lips, quickly dropping her hands to her side when she realized what she was doing. Looking at Logan with anger, she replied in a confused tone that held anger and frustration.
"I don't know what you're doing, what game you're playing…or why the hell it's working, but that's it!"
Logan stuck his hands out to his sides in confusion as he stepped towards Dana. "I don't know what you are talking about Dana." Before he made another step, Dana stuck her hand out. "Stop, don't come any closer!"
Logan rested his hands on his hips in frustration, raising an eyebrow as he gave Dana an irritated, and frustrated, look. "Why?"
Dana spat out, "Because, I don't know what you'll try to do again!" Logan scoffed in anger, replying back as he raised his voice to almost match Dana's.
"First off, you're the one that kissed me, and you almost kissed me earlier! It sounds a lot like you don't want me coming any closer because you're afraid of what you will do again!"
Instinctively, and against her own will, Dana immediately broke eye contact with Logan as his assumption was entirely correct. Not wanting Logan to realize he was right, Dana snapped her face back to stare at Logan, realizing that her best possible option at the moment was to get as far away from Logan as possible.
"You know what? This is why I could never be with you!"
Logan was taken back a bit by Dana's comment, trying his best to cover up his hurt as he replied.
"Why is that?"
Dana immediately responded, "Because, you are so…you just…" Dana shook her head, giving up as she started to make her way off the rooftop. After a few steps, Dana turned to face Logan, letting anger out instead of her other emotions.
"I don't want to see you, I don't want to hang out with you, and I don't even want to be in the same room as you! I should have stayed in Europe…Logan, stay the hell away from me!"
Dana faltered as she saw the instant change in Logan's demeanor, as he went from as equally agitated and aggravated as her to as if someone had just ripped out his heart, her. Swallowing back her own heartache and pain, Dana fought against the lump in her throat and turned her head away from Logan, making her way towards the exit with haste.
When she was almost at the exit, Dana held her breath as she felt Logan come up from behind her and once again wrap his arms around her in a giant embrace, this time more desperate, as if he was trying to hold on to her forever and never let her go.
Dana wasn't sure what her mind was thinking, or wouldn't allow herself to know what it was thinking, as her exterior finally cracked and tears began to stream down her face. This only caused her to get more angry over the fact that she, who was always in control, wasn't even able to maintain her composure in front of the person she feared losing it in front of the most.
Getting more frustrated, Dana contorted her body as she tried to rip herself from Logan's grasp. She failed as he only tightened it, not hurting her physically but mentally as it was becoming unbearable for her to be near Logan in her current emotional state.
"Logan, get the hell off of me!"
Dana's body shivered and the strength she had from being upset instantly ebbed away as she heard Logan's voice crack and falter as if he was trying not to break down into tears.
"Please, don't leave…"
At the same instant, Logan dropped his hands to his side and hung his head as Dana turned around to stare at him with a concerned look, forgetting that she was trying to be furious at Logan. Dana froze in place, unsure of what to do, as she tried to get Logan's attention with a soft voice that also faltered with every word.
"Logan…what…what's wrong?"
Logan managed to regain some of his composure, fighting back the urges that his body had to continue crying, as he looked up at Dana with tears in his eyes that mirrored her, and that caused both of them to feel even worse. Logan had never seen Dana cry. He figured she did, she was a girl and she had a tendency to bottle up her emotions inside, but it still caused him to feel horrible knowing that he caused them.
Fresh tears replaced the old tears that had already made their way off of her face as Dana stared at Logan who had tears in his eyes. Never, not even once, had she seen Logan cry, and the fact that she caused it made her feel sick to her stomach.
"Dana, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was always a jerk, I'm sorry about how much of an ass I've been to you since we met, I'm sorry I let you go to Europe and didn't go after you and that I never told you how I felt. But, you're back now and…"
Logan broke eye contact with Dana as he felt like he was about to break down, hanging his head as he turned around and gave up on speaking. Trembling, feeling more horrible every second, and wanting to comfort Logan, Dana closed the distance between them, this time wrapping her arms around Logan from behind as she rested her head on his back. Logan placed his hands over Dana's arms that were wrapped around his midsection and gently released himself from Dana's grasp.
"A…a great men once told me it was better to have love than lost than to have never have loved at all."
Logan turned around to face Dana, resting his hands on her hips as she placed her hands on his chest, both of them staring into each other's eyes deeply as nervousness sank into both of their bodies as they stared at each other. Dana managed a weak smile, quickly wiping away a tear from her face with her hand and just as quickly placing it back on Logan's chest.
"What do you mean?"
"Every time I was mean, I asked you if you wanted to "make out", every time I was an ass, or just…everything, I was just lying to you and myself. I didn't want to get hurt and I wouldn't open myself up, to tell you how crazy I was about you."
Logan removed his hands from Dana's hips and wrapped them gently around her neck, staring deeply into her eyes.
"But, I don't care anymore. You're back and I want you to know how I feel,"
Logan turned his face away from Dana nervously, fearing the rejection he spoke of, as he looked out over the rooftop.
", and I would much rather be completely rejected by you, and you know how I feel, than to wonder what if for the rest of my life."
Logan was caught off guard as Dana removed her hands from his chest and wrapped her arms as tightly around his neck as possible, resting her head snugly between his chest and chin in the crevice of his neck, muttering apologies over and over again.
Logan gently rubbed his hands up and down the sides of Dana's upper back, in an attempt to comfort her, as he looked down at her with a concerned look.
"Dana, what's wrong?"
Dana brought her head up, leaving it only a few inches from Logan's as she looked up to meet eyes with him. Softly, she kissed Logan for about a second, a quick peck, and brought her face back a few inches so they were once again staring at each other.
"I'm so sorry."
Logan shook his head.
"No Dana, I'm sorry."
Bringing her hand up, Dana placed one finger over Logan's mouth to stop him from apologizing for no reason. Just as quickly, Dana dropped her hand, kissed Logan again, and continued.
"No not that Logan, I mean for…everything else."
Dana decided to explain what she meant when she saw the confused look on Logan's face.
"I was the same way Logan. Every time I was a complete bitch or was rude to you…I just didn't want to get hurt by you…I was afraid…but I'm back now."
Dana smiled at Logan. Logan smiled back as he wrapped her body up in a tight embrace and brought her closer.
"I would much rather be with you than wonder what if."
Logan raised his eyebrows in a playful manner as he stared at Dana who was biting her lower lip.
"Oh yeah?"
Dana gave him a warm smile and nodded her head. Logan brought her hand up to Dana's cheek, softly caressing her skin as he leaned in and rested his forehead on hers as he did the same.
Neither one moved for what seemed like 10 minutes, both Dana and Logan staring at each other with new understanding and a huge smile on their face. Slowly, a smirk slid onto Logan's face as he spoke to Dana in a whisper.
"Hey,"
Dana brought her voice down to match Logan's, her tone slightly seductive, as she replied.
"Yeah,"
Logan tried to stay serious, but a huge smile formed on his face as he continued.
"Want to make out?"
Playfully, Dana placed both hands on Logan's chest and pushed him away a couple of feet. Before Logan had time to reply, Dana tilted her head and smiled. Grabbing the front of his t-shirt with one hand, Dana pulled Logan towards her as she got up on the tips of her toes to meet lips with Logan.
"Come here."
