A/N: Here's chapter 9. Read and Review :)
Last Chapter
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Sam stepped into her apartment building. Surprisingly, it was pitch black. Before she could reach the switch, a pair of arms wrapped around her waist.
"I don't like Rebecca," He stated simply.
"I know…I was just kinda…jealous."
"No need. You mean everything to me."
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure," Freddie bit her earlobe a little.
"Can we keep us a secret?"
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This Chapter
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Realizing they were still in the dark, Sam slowly flicked on the lights.
"Wha…why…what did I do?" Freddie asked, a slightly hurt look on his face.
"It's not you…look, believe it or not, Rebecca is jealous of me. Gavin wanted me, she hated me. Now you want me…if she found out, she would freak."
Freddie's expression softened and he grabbed Sam's hand. "I don't care what Rebecca thinks. I want everyone to know that you're taken by me. I don't want Rebecca and she's just going to have to deal with it because I refuse to let her be the reason you don't want us to go public."
Sam sighed. "It's not like that. I'm not scared of her; I just don't want to be hated. I finally found a place where I could fit and everything would be ruined if she found out about how serious we are."
"Well, you need to make up your mind. Who do you want to please? Me or Rebecca?"
With that, Freddie turned around and headed for his room.
"Neither," Sam said, very softly. Freddie still heard her and stopped in his tracks but after a few seconds, continued walking into his room. "I want to please myself."
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"Dude, I had the most amazing time with Carly last night," Gibby said, smiling from ear to ear.
"What was so special about last night?" Freddie asked, dully. He still hadn't had time to stop thinking about Sam ever since last night.
Gibby bent over and whispered in Freddie's ear, "We…we did it."
Freddie's eyes widened in a form of excitable disgust. "Wow, man,"
"I know…it was like the official seal of our relationship."
"Woah, woah, woah," Freddie said, frowning a little. "You do know you skipped a step…marriage."
"I know, but I plan on changing that very soon."
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"I have an idea." Carly stated, turning to all her best friends, as they sat in Groove Smooth after class.
Sam groaned, rubbing her already red eyes. She was tired, there was no doubting that.
"Spill," Gibby said, smiling at her.
"We should all go to the beach this weekend."
"That's a great—"
"Sorry, Carls, I don't feel too great."
"I'll go," Freddie piped up. "Because I care about my friends' feelings."
Sam rolled her eyes. "Dude, shut up."
"You know, I've never met a more stubborn, rude—"
"Freddie," Carly warned.
"—Ignorant, thoughtless person in my whole life."
"Chill," Gibby said, eyeing his best guy friend.
"No," Sam said, her face emotionless. "He's completely right. I'm all of those things."
"Sam, you're not—" Carly started, but was quickly cut off by Freddie.
"Glad you see…there's many more things that you are but I don't think there's enough trees in the world to make as many sheets of paper as it would take to write them all down."
"Dude, go!" Gibby shouted, angrily. "You don't deserve Sam. She's done nothing but try to please herself for once and you come around with all this bull—"
"Stay out of this, Gibby!" Freddie shouted.
"No, Sam might not be the easiest person to get along with but she's not the hardest." Gibby said. Carly sat, stunned. "Now go."
Sam shook her head as Freddie left, her face still blank. "He's right, Gibby. Which is why I wonder why I'm in the world if all I do is create trouble."
"Sam, Freddie's just angry." Carly said, not knowing what else to say.
"You're so damn optimistic, Carls." Sam's face showed expression now. "But it's better than being negative. You know, sometimes I wonder why negative people belong. If they weren't here…everything would be so much better."
"Sam, what the hell are you talking about."
"Thanks for standing up for me Gib…but I'll be gone in a few hours. I drugged myself…tell Freddie I said I love him."
Those were her last words before she heard a long, loud scream. Gibby and Carly. At her side in an instant. Maybe I'll be happier, Sam thought before she saw nothing but black.
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"Freddie!" Carly cried into her phone. She had tried calling him at least 10 times and he had not answered.
Gibby and Carly rushed Sam to the hospital, both trying their hardest not to panic. Carly was failing miserably though.
As they waited outside of the hospital room, Gibby soothed Carly.
"Everything was going amazing…last night…everything was perfect."
Gibby gently rubbed his thumb across her hand. "I know, baby…Freddie's so crappy."
"He is…"
As if on cue, Freddie's picture popped up on Carly's phone and her ringtone sounded.
Defeated, she pushed talk and put the phone to her ear.
"Hello?"
"Get to the hospital now." Her voice was firm, dried up tears visible on her pale face.
"Why? What's wrong?"
"Just get here." Carly growled, now feeling the Sam resent towards Freddie as Gibby.
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"What is going on," Freddie rushed into the hospital. Gibby gave him the evil eye but told him since Carly was choked up.
"Sam," Gibby started. "She drugged herself."
"She…she…" Freddie stood up, feeling weak and stupid.
"She drugged herself!" Carly piped up. "All those things you called her…whatever happened last night…she was tired of it."
Freddie didn't know what to say. "What operating room is she in?" He demanded.
"They won't let you in," Gibby said.
"I didn't ask you that," Freddie said, determination and fear overwhelming him. "What's her room number!?"
"A4…but they won't let you—"
But Freddie was already gone. He pushed past the double doors and into the operating room.
"Hey, this is private—"
"Sam!" Freddie called, rushing over to the now asleep Sam. He took her hand and finally let all his emotions go. He cried into her hand and muttered a thousand jumbled up words. "I'm so sorry, Sam. Please, don't go. Stay and I promise you I will treat you how you deserve to be treated. Please, Sam, stay with me."
"Hey, kid, you gotta leave! We're performing surgery."
"I don't care! This is my girlfriend; she needs me!" Freddie cried, grasping Sam's hand harder.
"Security!"
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"Oh gosh, Freddie!" Carly called, running over to give Freddie a comforting hug. "She'll be okay, I promise. She'll make it."
"Carly, this is all my fault…what did I do? If she doesn't live then I wont either. If she doesn't make it then I can't either."
"Freddie, don't say that." Gibby said, walking over to the still hugging pair.
"You were right, Gib…" Freddie said, all his tears cried out. All he felt now was anger. Towards only himself.
"Um, Freddie Benson, Carly Shay, Gibby Gibson," A doctor came out of the hospital room with a smile. "Samantha is all ready to have visitors. Try one at a time."
The trio looked at each other. "Gib, I think you should go first." Carly told her boyfriend.
Gibby nodded and walked in.
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The last person to visit Sam was Freddie. When he walked in, her smile quickly faded.
"Sam, what were you thinki—"
"Save it, Benson."
Freddie frowned, walking over and reaching out for her hand. And for a second, she actually liked the contact. "I'm really sorry…I don't know what I was thinking…"
"Glad I'm not the only one."
Freddie refrained from rolling his eyes. She was fragile and he knew he was the only person that could break down her walls.
"You hurt me," she choked out. "You broke me…everytime I think we're okay…something goes wrong. I just couldn't take it. I had to escape."
Freddie rubbed her cheek. "It's alright, now. You're okay and that's all that matters."
"No. It's not. Sure, I'm okay. And you're okay…but that's not enough. We're not okay."
Freddie gave a confused look and she continued. "I'm okay as an individual and so are you, but together, we collapse and fight. There's no way around that."
"I know, but we're Sam and Freddie. Were things ever this easy for us?" Freddie asked.
"Was it ever this hard?"
Both sat in silence and finally the doctor came in. "Samantha, we're going to keep you here overnight. You're free to go home tomorrow morning."
Freddie nodded and stood up as the doctor was walking out. "Bye." Sam said, as he stood.
"What?"
"I said bye." Sam told him.
"I'm not leaving you. I'm staying here with you. I'll always be here for you from now on. I promise to be better."
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A/N: WOAH! It's been forever since I last updated. Anyway, that was chapter 9. Extremely depressing, I'm sorry. REVIEW! :D
