stuff in italics are Shadow's memories. Sorry it took so long had like a huge project in all of my classes, I will try to update soon though :) enjoy oh and I also fit some things in about shadowlings as well as with their elemental powers.

ok I was asked about this earlier so the shadow realm is like a parallel realm ok, it come close to earth in the form of shadows, and shadows are like gateways for shadowlings who know how to use them. In the shadow realm there is no sense of time.

oh and only shadowlings who have come to earth can have power over light, not all shadowlings look like shadow some look like animals, mostly ravens, it is particularly rare that shadow looks human.

I don't own TMNT, alice in wonderland, or anything else except OC's like reed and shadow! :D enjoy and review pls!

Chapter 9

They all wear masks in different colours, one in orange, one in purple, one in blue, and one in red. The one in blue is obviously the leader, I can tell just by the way he carries himself. "I don't get it" the one in purple says "she looks completely human. How is she a mutant?" he asks staring right back at me.

'Ok that is insulting' I think to myself, but I don't let it show,

"i'm sorry," I say " but it seems like I am fairly late for a very important date" I say with a mocking bow, quoting the white rabbit from Alice in wonderland.

I turn on my heel and head towards the curtain, but the turtle in red steps in front of me, I simply raise my eyebrow,

"are we really going to continue this in such close quarters" I ask annoyed.

He just narrows his eyes. I can tell he's all for it but I am truly tired so I decide to break this up before anything gets too out of hand. I turned my back on all of them and walked towards the desk again and sit down, and turned my chair so they could all see me the only ones paying attention were the one in orange and the one in red, the one in blue was arguing with the one in purple over if I was a mutant or not, I looked at each of them before closing my eyes and sinking back into the shadows behind me cast by the desk lamp on my desk. I smiled before I was fully in the shadow realm. I opened my eyes once I was fully in the shadow realm and watched as the one in orange gasped and started to stutter something to the other two who were trying to make him stop, so they could continue their argument, before realising I was gone. I couldn't help myself I laughed out loud as their jaws dropped. The one in red came over from the doorway and waved through the shadows on the chair. I couldn't help it I was almost rolling around on the ground laughing at this point they just looked so dumb struck. My laughing fit continued until they opened the window and looked around for me on the rooftop over.

I laugh and appear, still hunched over from my laughing fit, out of the shadows, and looked up as their jaws dropped again and the one in purple started muttering about how its impossible. I disappear again, laughing fit over, on the roof next to my building. They are still looking around the room probably expecting me to reappear, so I pick a rock up off the roof beneath my feet, and chuck it through the window's tiny opening around the bottom with amazing accuracy and hit the one in orange on the back of the head.

"OW, raph what was that for!" he asks looking at the one in red, I smirked and whistled softly to get their attention. They all looked over at the same time, it kind of reminded me of dogs when you offered them a walk or a treat how all of their heads swivel at once. They didn't move, probably for fear that I would disappear when they got over here. I smirked and sat down. I looked down at my nails and stuck my hand into the shadow realm and out another shadow on my desk back at my apartment, to grab my dark purple nail polish.

I retracted my arm from the shadow realm to see three of four turtle standing on the same roof as me, watching my arm, I slowly brought my arm out of the shadow and held up my nail polish and gave it a little shake to show them what it was, they all visibly relaxed. Do they know…. no, how would they? I thought to myself as I opened the nail polish and looked up at them again to see all four turtle standing there just watching me, it was kind of uncomfortable and boring.

"Now," I started off "we can go at it again if you would prefer" I say directing the last part at the one in red. I watched as his eyes narrowed and I could tell he was about to make a snarky remark, because its what I would have done. When the one in blue buts in,

"Who are you?" he asks trying to sound not so confused when I can tell he is absolutely baffled, this makes me smirk.

"I am everyone and no one", I say once again bored with this as I go back to my dark purple nails. I look up and see their once again confused expressions I sigh putting my nail polish down on the roof and brushing my dark jeans off as I stand up "but you can call me, Shadow" I say.

I look up at the night sky, the stars are covered by light pollution, but a few brave points of light and the moon tell me all I need to know and right now, I need to know that I have to be awake in a few hours for morning training and then I have a class to attend, Karai's trying her hand at teaching this morning with a bunch of the more hopeful students. I sigh not realising that those turtles were still their, Damn why do I keep tuning out like that, I glare at them like this was their fault even though it wasn't, they all backed off a little while I glared at them except one, the one in red. For some reason this got me angry, I rarely find myself getting angry, I can keep my human emotions in check fairly well, but this one escaped me. I stand up straighter to show off my height and make myself look bigger, he still didn't back off, and thats when the animal part of me started to get restless, and was about to snap when the one in blue grabbed the one in reds arm. They briefly had words, I tuned them out while trying to get my inner animals to settle down, and return to their natural state. I turned my back to the turtle's, finally to get my animals to settle down, because I refuse to go and rip the oppositions throat out when there is no other reason than he didn't back off, even if that was extremely unusual even in mutants… any way I need to get back, and stop getting side tracked. I looked over my shoulder to see the ones on orange and purple were watching me but keeping their distance, but the ones in blue and red were getting into a pretty heated argument over something, I didn't bother to tune in to their conversation though. I walk slowly over towards the edge of this building, hoping to get their attention with just my movement alone,

"uh, guys" I hear one of the turtles say, he sounds nervous, I can't help but grin. I continue towards my destination. my heels rhythmically clicking against the rooftop. "Guys" the same voice say a little louder and more anxious. That triggered it the memory that I had been trying to forget this entire time, god damnit why did these turtles have to trigger the one thing I have been trying to avoid these past few weeks. My focus shifts as I start to remember bits and pieces of that one day.


A green field, covered in budding flowers and golden sunlight, just outside my window, the only thing between me and this beautiful world. The door opens, I whip around out of habit expecting to come face to face with some sort of shadow beast like back in the old days in the shadow realm, but it is just a human, a foot soldier I believe Master Shredder called it.


My focus shifts back to the situation at hand the turtles are staring at me, well two of them at least, the other two are still arguing. I need to leave this place before their attention once again returns to me, I realize I have stopped at the edge of the building facing towards downtown, I leap to the next roof over and start running towards the next roof over, until I hear the rhythmic pounding of two of the turtles feet, and after a brief hesitation they are joined by two more and some yelling, something about not telling them I was escaping,


I snarl at it, just in case, it doesn't react. I know what it wants, so I do just that but as I pass by it in the doorway I whip my hand to the side and without even turning my body I am holding the fully grown man up against the door jam by his neck. I turn my head to observe him as he struggles weakly against my clearly superior strength and intelligence. I slightly turn my hand to the side, feeling his neck bend with my hand and watch as his head shakes side to side well as best as he can at least, "no," he manages to gasp out even with my hand crushing his windpipe. I simply smirk as I continue to bend his head ever so slowly to the side, until *crack*. I can still remember that sound as though there were no other sounds in my world but that, I was a shadowling after all it was our nature to kill things with no emotions, we are silent killers, assassins, demons. I drop his lifeless body to the floor, and wait and watch for the best part was still to come. I didn't have to wait long as out of his chest it came, a soul, it was an ugly gray colour,

"you know" I say as I watch it like a movie a record of all he's done in his life,

"if you're going to spend you life in shadow, don't try to have good in it too, black and white only become grey, and now as grey you are sent to wander and clog the fields of the shadow realm."

I take a hand and open a small shadow portal for the soul and watch as it is sucked into my home world. I smirk and continue on my way towards the training room, knowing Reed, that bitch, probably has some sort of human torture planned for me.


I hurdled another gap between roofs and try to push the memory from my mind as I run across roofs while the people sleep soundly inside. I continue on my way knowing I will have to lose the turtles on my tail first before I can go home. I take a sharp right and jump down into an alley and break into a run through the streets of new york knowing the turtles wouldn't dare follow me down into such a public place. I lose myself in the crowd as I duck into a noodle shop near by. I look over to notice a blind person making a meal for a redhead, I nod content that I will be fine, here because they wouldn't dare being seen in public by a human. I sit down a few stools away from the other customer and order a bowl of noodles. the restaurant is fairly plain but the food is delicious, I am surprise someone with such a what humans call a handicap is making food that tastes delicious to even a shadowling. Most of the human food is quite tasteless to us as well as having no nutritional value, I don't need to eat I do so to keep up appearances which isn't often. I internally wince as the memory come flooding back.


I walk into the doorway of the japanese training room, not bothering to enter, sensing the foot soldiers on the walls above and beside the door. Probably waiting to ambush me when I enter, usually I walk into the traps on purpose, just to see what they will do. I am not in the mood for it today, I hate being kept prisoner like this, I am not allowed to go outside, or talk to karai when she comes to visit, or interact with anyone other than reed, its what these humans call solitary confinement, I hear the foot soldiers talk about it when they walk to the mess right outside my window.

"what the fuck do you want today" I growl at reed.

He simply raises an eyebrow "why would I want anything" he asks innocently "why don't you come in" he asks probably to sound polite,

"sure, i'll come in when I am completely brain dead and in a coma" I snarl at him sarcastically. He shrugs his shoulders and snaps his fingers the soldiers leap out and on to me I allow myself to be taken into the room and carried towards him with the momentum of the pile of foot soldiers. I take them down easily without even trying. I laughed as I turned and sat down on my pile of now unconscious foot soldiers. "that the best you got? They couldn't stand 5 seconds against a shadowling. I do hope those were one of your novice classes because if you are going to send these to master he's going to be horribly disappointed in you." I mock him from atop my pile of bodies. He scowls deeply and calls in another larger group they look more experienced at least. he does a head count, and turns to me,

"wheres the foot soldier that was suppose to escort you here then join this group?" he asks angrily. I smirk and look down at the pile of bodies I still perch atop,

"I don't know" I reply innocently after a while, "why don't you send one of you lap dogs out to find him" I say nonchalantly, as he turns to his soldiers I try to hold in a smile thinking of the fool who will end up finding the body, after all I made it look like an accident. I watch as two of the foot soldiers peel from the group and exit the room the way they came. I wait as they look for the body, I can feel Reed's eyes on me, sweeping my body, up, lingers on my chest, down, and back up again, I know he craves me, as all human men would, animals. I also know he has more say on me than other human men, we are engaged after all. I hate him and shredder for it. I am surprised shredder stayed long enough to tell me himself, I guess he knew I wouldn't kill him in front of karai. That should mean that there is no say over my future finances life right, wrong Shredder ordered me to obey him, so under a sense of duty I guess I have to stick to the rules for now.

I look up as the two soldiers re-enter the room with a mask in one of their hands. They whisper something to Reed, and I watch as ace goes from calm to surprised to fury.

Then he takes out his own weapon a long cat 'o' nine tails whip. Nasty buggers sting like a bitch. He slides it out to the side advancing on me.

I watch as is follows him creating a rustling sound along the floor. I sit there, as he raises it quickly above his head with the intention of bringing the whip down across my front and face. I watch in slow motion as my superior eyesight flicks in and know where each and every one of those cat 'o' nine tails is going to hit, I move out of the way and watch as he brings the whip down on the innocent foot soldiers that were piled beneath me and grin as I know the lashes they will be carrying when they wake up. He brings the whips back into his hand and brushes off the blood from the soldiers with a grim fury, he turns to me and motions for the remaining soldiers to hold me, I fight them at first until he stops me with a couple of words, they tie my hands behind me with chains, to one of the wooden beams supporting the ceiling, I sigh out loud as I could break this chain if I truly wanted to but I have resolved myself to following this sense of duty, wherever it may take me. He rises up in front of me like a hated spider or pest. I don't wince as the cat 'o' nine tails comes down on my body repeatedly, I let my body rock with the backlash of the hated whip extending from the hated person. All I can think about is how much each of these lashes just heightens my hatred for this man and the man that I had looked up to for the past few human years.


"hey! you okay?" the voice shakes me from my memories. I look down to see my chopsticks broken and my hand clenched into a fist while my nails have lengthened right into my palm leaving four deep gashes in my hand that have started to dribble blood. I look over towards the voice to see a red head looking at me with concern in her eyes,

"yeah," I say "i'm fine" I repeat with a little more conviction. I glance at the wall clock to see its pretty early in the morning. I still need to get back. I get up and pull a 20 from my pocket and put it under the bowl and leave. I walk out of the small shop and look up at the sign "Murakami's" I read out loud to myself. I walk so I am covered in shadow and I know that the people in the restaurant and on the street can't see me and I cross completely over into the shadow realm. The shadows brush around me like friendly pets welcoming me back from a long trip. I feel the familiar weight back on my hips and shoulder. I adjust the thin strap across my shoulders, and allow the shadows to curl around my feet and legs. The shadows take on different shapes representing different animals, a snake, a tiger, a wolf, a raven, and a hawk. I continue towards my destination, there is no such thing as time in the shadow realm.

I arrive at my dark penthouse suit walking in right through a shadow on the wall. I stretch and pop my shoulder, although I know it isn't my shoulder thats sore. I shrug out of my leather jacket as I walk over to the full length mirror. I start to peel off my tank top revealing my sports bra and I close my eyes to let them return to their natural state as I slowly relax the muscles in my back and unfold the volumes of feathers, muscle, and bone from the middle of my back opening them to their full length and stretching them. My longest feathers extend to over twice my arm span, my down feathers are softer than the softest material on earth.

Shadowlings feathers are a warning, and a death sentence, those who are dying or are going to die soon, find our feathers. But if a shadowling wants it can save a human from death, this doesn't happen often, for that shadowling must have control over all of the elements including light. When a shadowling does this the feather turns blood red, mixed with orange and gold, or as humans have called them phoenix feathers. Contrary to popular human belief phoenix's don't exist. They are just a figment of the human imagination. I focus on my wings in the mirror and start to clean the dried blood off of my left wing, luckily for me the bullet didn't go all the way through my shoulder. I sigh when I realize it's not coming out without some water, as I head to the washroom attached to my room.

I dip my wing under the small stream of water and maneuver the water so that it cleans the blood off completely. I walk back into my room and lay down on my side on my four poster bed. I am asleep before my eyes are fully closed.