Yes! I am back, enjoy and read my note at the end please!

Dimitri's POV

It was never my intention to admit my feelings for her. At least not so soon. I was suppose to woe her, take her out on dates, win her love. I was going to give it my all and make her see that what we had deserved a chance. I wanted her to know that I truly meant what I was saying to her. I wanted Roza to see me and feel the same thing, and not doubt it for one moment. We were not a normal couple, but I would never have it any other way.

I even had managed to make a plan of sorts, to win her over. A plan I was certain would most definitely work. I had a plan and everything was suppose to work out. But then again since the day I met Rosemarie Hathaway, nothing had gone the way I had planned out. Everything just happened whether I wanted it to or not.

There was something about her that drew me to her, almost like a moth to a fire. It was dangerous to float around it, though I could not get myself to stop. My mother would call it destiny, I called it a change of plans. I had spent a lot of my life fighting the normal, the way things were suppose to be. I suppose it was time for things to fall into place, for the most part.

My life had taken such a drastic turn. A turn I could say I did not willingly take, though I had not noticed I had taken. Not that I regretted anything. The short few months I had spent with Rose had been the best thing to happen to me. I grew as a person, as a man, and became someone I never thought I could be. I wanted to changed, to be the person my mother wanted me to actually be. And for the first time in forever I wanted to be that person. Being here with Rose even showed me I could be him.

I had never planned on becoming what many would call a family man, but I suppose like my mother would say it was in my destiny. Even though my Roza and I could not have kids, we would in the end always have each other. Plus, there were ways around us having kids. Adopting being a choice, but that was something we would talk about later on. I was not even sure myself if I wanted children.

Everything seemed to be going well, at least in that moment. I knew I should have waited to admit my feeling, but like they say there is no time like the present. The timing seemed right, and in actuality I could not stop the words from tumbling out my my mouth. I had to tell her, she had to know. If anything I needed this. Deep down I knew she needed it as well.

Yes, my secret being exposed had thrown a hell of a curve ball my way, and it sucked beyond belief. But I knew somehow, some way I would and could come back from this. Who ever did this to me was not going to stay in the dark. I would find out who it was and I would feed them to the wolves. Honestly, I already knew who it could be, it was a matter of getting people to listen to me.

All of this did not matter right now though. No, not even at all. I had just spilled my heart out and had yet to get a reaction. I had felt her tense around me, her eyes growing in size, and fear clear in them. I knew what she was thinking, the thoughts coursing through her. They had once been in me, and even now still planted a seed of doubt. Love was never something I had opened my heart up to.

I always cared about my mother, my sisters, and even my crazy grandmother. But even as a child love was not something I ever felt. It was not for the lack there of though. No my mother loved me like no other mother could. She showed me love and affection any child would envy. I just could never process it. Love was too complex for me, and even though I tried to comprehend it I never did. That was until I let Roza until my life.

"Dimitri." Her voice was soft, almost defeated. I could feel my heart shattering, but I had to stay strong. I had told her I loved her, and it was not going to be an easy pill to swallow.

"Roza." My voice was just as low as hers, as my hands reached up and cupped her cheeks. "I love you Roza. I have never once felt love my entire life but I am certain of what I feel."

"I'm scared." Her eyes met mine and I saw something in them I had never seen before. She was scared, truly and completely scared.

The entire time I had known her, her fear had never truly spiked. She always had a handle on everything, and she prided herself on always being in control. I knew what it was like, I had been there, and in a way still was. The people we were, the people we claimed to be were not real. We had let one thing control our lives. And it was funny because all we had ever wanted was control.

"I am too." Her eyes drooped closed and her forehead landed on my shoulders. I pulled her closer to me and laid down.

We had a lot to talk about, but for now I was going to let the comfort she had offered me take over. She may not have been able to tell me how she felt, but I knew. Deep down inside I knew she felt the same way. I would spend forever trying to convince her that this could and would work out. We were just messed up enough to ensure that this would all end up OK.

Rose's POV

Enjoying someones company is one thing. And needing them there with you is another. There are times when you like being around someone so much that when they are not around you do not know what to do with yourself. You find yourself lost and confused, and wondering when you are going to be put out of your misery.

That was what time without Dimitri had been. That was how I was without him near me, without knowing whether or not I would ever see him again. That is why waking up next to him was heaven. I had never felt so complete in my entire life. I needed him more than I was willing to admit.

I had cursed myself over and over again for not being able to tell him how I really felt. I hated myself for doing that to him, it had clearly taken a lot for him to tell me he loved me, but yet the words would not come out of my mouth. Fear coursed through me in a way I had never felt before. I wanted to tell him, but I was afraid of what it would entail in the end.

I suppose we had a lot to talk about. I suppose I should have not been such a coward, but then again I had been hiding behind something for a large portion of my life. That is why when he got dressed and left the next morning I could only bring myself to give him a kiss. It was a hell of a kiss, but not what I should have been giving him.

I spent the time before work chastising myself for being so weak, so afraid. If there was ever anyone I should be letting in it would be him. The thought still sent something through me, something that was enough to stop the words "I love you" from leaving me lips. But I promised myself I would be saying them to him, and soon. Just as soon as I found some damn fucking courage.

"Agent Mazur I strongly suggest your daughter stay away from him." I had been walking to meet up with my father in his office for lunch, when a familiar voice in there stopped me.

"I don't think you know how stubborn my daughter can be." My father sighed and I heard his chair scrape against the hardwood. "She considers Belikov a good friend, she's having a hard time seeing him as the bad guy."

"Well I suggest you get on her right away. Because I will have no choice but to bring her into this." My anger spiked at the hidden threat Adrian was throwing at my father. I was through the door and in the office before either of them could react.

"How dare you?!" I walked straight up to Adrian my finger jabbing his chest. "You are nothing but a jealous fuck. What not happy I said no to you."

"Rose. I assure you I have no idea what you are talking about." Adrian's green eyes turned into slits and I could tell I had hit a nerve. I also started to see red, and found myself knowing who had screwed Dimitri over.

"You did this to him didn't you?" His eyes widened and he started to shake his head, his mouth opening to spew out some useless shit.

"I would nev.." In a split second I had him against the wall my forearm applying pressure to his neck.

"I don't give a shit about what you have to say Adrian. You started this didn't you?" When he tried to speak again I put all my weight into holding him. "DIDN'T YOU?"

"Rosemarie, let him go." My father tried to take me off of him but rage filled me.

"Father he did this! He fucking did this to Dimitri because he was mad I did not choose him." Adrian's green eyes were practically glowing. My father was a strong a powerful man, I was making a hell of an accusation, but I was certain it was him.

"Rose honey let him go and we can talk about this." I slowly let off of Adrian and he let out a small cough as he rubbed his neck.

"Now what do you mean you did not choose him." My fathers eyes focused on me and my mind reeled.

I had let my anger get the best of me, and now I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. I had been so caught up in trying to get Adrian to confess that I nearly had forgotten that my father knew nothing about what had happened with Adrian and I. I had let his jackass ways slide by, assuming he would just move on to the next victim. But he had threatened me before he left. He knew about Dimitri and had gotten mad when I had sent him away.

"I... ummm." I had never stuttered or faltered around my father before. I had always been a great liar, but now suddenly nothing was coming easily to me.

"Agent Mazur the meeting is starting now." My head shot over to Jesse who was standing in the doorway uncomfortable. I wondered how much he had heard and seen. And for the first time I did not care, he had saved me from having to explain this whole awkward situation.

"Of course I am on my way now. Actually we all are." I had no idea what meeting he was talking about.

A quick look at the clock had me worried. It was now 1 o'clock, the time Dimitri had said he had a meeting. Was my father attending it? Was Dimitri's future really going to be determined in one meeting. My mind was spinning, I had no idea what to do.

"Why don't you two follow me. You will be needed there." Abe's eyes bore into mine, sending a message I did not get. But I followed him regardless, if there was one thing I knew it was my father, and he was clearly up to something.

Dimitri's POV

I had spent the last three hours locked away in a room. My boss had asked me question after question and I had answered without hesitation. I had lied slightly, but I had only done it to save my ass. I admitted to sleeping with a couple of co-workers but that was the most they were going to get out of me. I had stated that I had slept with them making sure to tell them there were no strings attached, that I had left them knowing what it all entailed. He was upset but had yet to state what he thought of the issue.

There was no way I was going to tell him I was a sex addict. Plus, no one needed to know what I had done on my free time. I knew I was in trouble but I was not stupid. I just hoped he could over look the no fornicating rule with co workers. I mean it was bond to happen, and in reality it was a verbal rule not a written one. But I was not going to tell him I loved sex more than anything in this world.

Not only that telling him I did that would only cause me to lose my job even faster. I was a lawyer, I knew every trick in the book. So far I had not seen any evidence. Who ever had told on me had only said I slept around, never saying with who. It was obvious who had said it, but I could not find it in me to sell her out. I had felt bad when I called her and then sent her away.

I understood she was mad, but I never thought she would do this to me. Ruining someone like this was evil. And even I was not, had not been capable of doing this. Figures it would happen. What is all that talk about bad karma? I thought I had been safe from it but apparently no one was.

It was odd though that even though I was going through all of this, I was glad it was me and not Rose. It was fucking hell for me yes, but for her it would be even worse. But I also knew if this happened to her I would do anything in my power to save her. I felt a little put down that she was not coming to my rescue, but then again I had no idea what she could do. I was in this alone and was going to have to save myself.

"Belikov fancy meeting you here." My head shot up as a few more people walked into the room. Abe stuck out his hand and I stood shaking it.

It was odd seeing that Abe was looking at me with pity. This man gave no one sympathy, and I would not expect it with what was happening to me. But yet here he was acting like we were old friends. I was not complaining though being on his good side would be in my favor. I knew what the man was able to do, and I could only hope he could help me out.

I knew there was going to be a meeting, but the people coming in were not who I was expecting. Adrian sat down across from me a fucking smirk on his lips, his green eyes glowing. I wanted nothing more than to punch the fucking bastard. How dare he come in here. He was no better than me, actually he was worse. It took everything in me to calm down, what calmed me completely was meeting the next set of eyes.

Rose's brown eyes met mine and I was surprised to see I could read her like a book. She was nervous, afraid, but yet was sending me encouragement through those gorgeous eyes. I had no idea why she was here but I was more than happy to see her. A small smile played on her lips and I could not help but return it.

"Shall we start." I looked away into the matching brown eyes of Abe and was startled by what I saw there.

He looked between his daughter and I. A crocked smirk making his way onto his lips. The man knew more than he had been indicating. It was clear as day now that he knew that his daughter and I shared more than just a friendship, why he had never said anything confused me. Maybe it was because we were adults, or maybe it was because he did not know what we really were. Either way I felt hope bubble inside of me. If Abe knew we cared about each other he would protect me, for Rose's sake.

A few more people walked in. All the big shots, all the people who had my future in their hands. The last person to walk in sent my body into a fury, even though I did not show it. Tasha's icy blues met mine, and she looked down as if she was ashamed. As she should be. I knew she had done this, and I had never thought she would. She had confessed to me before that she loved me, and I had mistaken it for obsession, which it might have been. But I had forgotten how bad a scorned woman could be.

"We are all here in regards to an issue that has been brought up with Dimitri Belikov." Hans had taken lead in the meeting, he was a man known to show no mercy.

"It seems there have been some accusations made against him. Some things that would ruin the reputation of this agency and those others he works for." Adrian's voice rang out with confidence and I heard Rose growl from her seat next to him. The glare she fixed upon him was humorous, I had to stop from laughing at her fierce protectiveness.

"Explain in detail please." Hans looked bored, almost like we were taking up his time with something stupid. Which if you asked me we were.

"It seems Mr. Belikov had a bit of a problem." Adrian pulled out a few papers and smiled. "He cannot seem to keep his friend down below in his pants." It was me this time that growled, everyone looked at me and I shook my head waving Adrian on, I would get my turn to speak.

"In the last few months it seems Dimitri has gone through his share of women. Sleeping and using them, and then trying to hide what he is doing. If I am not mistaken it seems Mr. Belikov has a sex addiction." I was about to speak up but a high pitched angry voice boomed out.

Rose's POV

My father had clearly been lying to me this entire time. I knew that knowing look. He had looked between Dimitri and I and had spilled the fact that he knew we were more than friends. I should have known better, the man was in tune with everything around it him. Nothing passed by him, and this was not even something big.

Looking back I saw how Dimitri and I had done nothing to hide our affair. To most it might have even looked like we were dating. Constantly going to each others homes. Meeting up at work for lunches, which almost always ending up in having sex. No some people may have not noticed, but my father was not one of those people.

And at the moment my father was glaring at me as Adrian talked. Everything he was saying I knew were lies. Dimitri had only been seeing one woman these last few months and it had been me. I don't know why he was using this approach but it was sure pissing me off. Something my father seemed to be enjoying far too much.

I had no idea why he had brought me in here. If he was trying to be an ass and have me watch the man I love be ruined I was going to kill him. I mean what good would it do to have me in here, hearing this bullshit. There was not anything I could do, or was there?

"Stop lying." Before I could think I was standing looking down at Adrian, his eyes showed shock at my outburst but yet he was not surprised.

"Lying Agent Hathaway? I do not lie. This man here has a problem, something that could make all of us look bad." I had to stop myself from punching him. No one would believe me if I did that.

"Dimitri does not have a problem. He is a good man. And who ever is making these accusations is the one with a problem." My teeth clenched and I stared Adrian down. He gulped and was about to speak when someone cut him off.

"Agent Hathaway, how do you know Adrian is lying? I have a few statements here from fellow co-workers saying they have slept with Mr. Belikov. Saying he has done and said things no one working for me should." My eyes met Hans and my heart started beating quickly, almost too quickly.

A small cough catch my attention and soon I was looking at my father. He looked between Dimitri and I again. It was like he was trying to send me a message, something I was having a hard time decoding. What the fuck did my father want me to do. I was standing up here defending Dimitri's honor but it was clear it was not enough.

"Maybe its time Rose." It was a vague statement but I knew exactly what Abe wanted from me. He knew about Dimitri and I. And he was giving me a way to save him. A way to make this all go away for Dimitri. I just had to find the courage.

"I-I..." My mouth suddenly dried up and all eyes met me.

I had never been one to fear attention, if anything I craved it. I did the things I did in order to be acknowledged and praised. But right now I could not breath. I could not get the words out. I had never had to do something like this my entire life. And how could I say it now when I could not even admit it to Dimitri behind closed doors. I had just only myself noticed my true feelings.

"I-I, umm there's..." I coughed a little but I felt like I was having an asthma attack.

"What is it Agent Hathaway we don't have time for your stuttering." Hans was once again looking bored, and annoyed. Something that suddenly fueled me.

"None of this can be true. And I have a hell of a reason as to why not." Tasha's eyes bore into mine. Anger clear in them. I looked back to Adrian and was met with the same expression. I suddenly knew it had not just been Adrian. They had been working together. And if I let them ruin Dimitri they would soon be coming after me. I loved my job, my reputation, and I loved this man they were bad mouthing and lying, to an extend, about.

"Well spit it out." Hans slammed his closed fist on the table about to lose his last strand of patience with us.

"It's not true because Dimitri... Ahem... Dimitri and I have been dating the last few months." Everyone's mouths dropped except my father's, this was what he had been wanting me to do.

"You and Mr. Belikov are together?" Hans leaned forward interest shining in his eyes.

"Y-y-yes, we have not said anything because, well one it is no one's business and two well, we are technically co-workers and have worked on projects together, we did not want anyone... umm judging." Hans chuckled a little under his breath and sat back.

"How do I know you are not just saying this to save Mr. Belikov, anyone can pretend to date, and it seems no one knew about this said relationship." The mother fucker was going to make me say it. My mouth grew dry again and my eyes darted to my father's, I had not dared to look at Dimitri just yet.

"I-I... I mean well... I lo-o." I stopped and finally met Dimitri's eyes. If I was going to say it I might as well say it to him.

"I love Dimitri Belikov. I love him with everything inside of me." Dimitri's eyes became soft and his fierce features were highlighted with his happiness.

"So you two are in love. Have been dating for months now, in secret. But no one knew?" Hans was clearly still skeptical, clearly not noticing the beautiful moment happening before him.

"I knew sir. Rose and Dimitri deserved a chance at keeping things private so I let them. They were doing nothing wrong." Abe's voice was full of love and admiration at what had just done, but it also was sending a warning. He was siding with us, he was helping us.

"Well, then this is waste of time. Adrian, Tasha my office as soon as I leave here." With that Hans stood up and left. Leaving everyone behind shocked.

Soon the room emptied, the last to leave being Tasha and Adrian who were in clear shock, and disappointment. Served them right the fuckers. I was sure going to get payback on them, and soon.

"So I suppose I shall leave the happy couple alone." Abe stood up and planted a kiss to my temple. "I'm proud of you Rose. I know this was not easy. But I've been waiting for this day for a long time." Before I could answer the bastard he walked out leaving me alone with Dimitri.

I felt like a young school girl when I looked back at him. He was smiling a wide smile. Looking at me with the same look he had given me when he first admitted his love for me. A look that made me feel special, wonderful, and complete. I had done the right thing. And though it hurt and was hard it was worth everything.

He stood up and walked around the table slowly. I had yet to move from were I had been standing. Still trying to process everything that had just happened. My hands were caught into Dimitri's big ones, him interlocking our fingers.

"Thank you." I looked up between my lashes and smiled.

"No need to thank me it was the right thing to do." I shrugged it off like it was no big deal, but even I knew what I had just done.

"So, you love me?" His voice was low, teasing me.

"Yea I love you." We both laughed lightly and he leaned his head down his lips barely touching mine.

"I love you too." And with that he kissed me with all he had. I making sure to return it as well. We had a lot to talk about, and a lot we were going to have to deal with, but I suppose the first step was admitting how we were feeling.

Ok, so I know I have been gone for like ever! But I am now back... Sorry it has been like three weeks, but I wish I could say I regretted it but I don't. I had an amazing trip, I moved from South Carolina to California and made a hell of a vacation out of the trip. I saw and did things I never thought were possible.. Truly an eye opening and amazing trip... If anyone would like the detail, so I don't bore you, feel free to PM me... I have yet to stop talking about it.

I promise I am now going to get back on track and try to update both stories every week. I have yet to write the next chapter for Assassins but I can assure you it will be up soon!

SO what did you think? Bet you were worried when Rose did not say it back right away! I know it sucks to hear but soon this story will come to an end. I can maybe give you a couple more chapters, but anymore and I think it will be lame... So tell me what did you like? What did you not like? And is there anything you guys would like to read about with them? Let me know and again thank you for all the love while I disappeared... Muah you guys are lovely!