Chapter 9
We were all dressed up in our normal, casual clothes for our final performance. For the music, there wasn't. It was just our voices echoing through the room and halls. We stood there, holding hands or waists. We wanted this song to show strongly with our audience.
"Shadows fall
And hope has fled
Steel your heart
The dawn will come
The night is long
And the path is dark
Look to the sky
For one day soon
The dawn will come
The Shepard's lost
And his home is far
Keep to the stars
The dawn will come
The night is long
And the path is dark
Look to the sky
For one day soon
The dawn will come
Bare your blade
And raise it high
Stand your ground
The dawn will come
The night is long
And the path is dark
Look to the sky
For one day soon
The dawn will come…"
We all took a bow together when our song ended. Our audience clapped for us and some even gave us hoots and hollers. We stood up straight and I looked to my man. He was leaning over to Jon, whispering something in his ear. I couldn't help but wonder what it was.
Everyone gathered around one another, speaking to each other. Only some people were sitting down at the tables. Most of the people were standing.
I walked up to Robb and tapped him on the shoulder, greeting him with a smiling face when he turned around. He returned the smile and put his arm around the back of me, pulling me to his body.
"You sang so wonderfully, my love." Robb said in my ear, trying to let me hear him over the roar of talking people.
"Thank you, Robb." I thanked and kissed his stubbly chin. "What was your favorite performance?"
"I think you know." He replied with a smile.
"The one where I am almost naked?" I teased and he chuckled at my words.
Shaking his head, he spoke. "No, although I wished you weren't so bare." Robb shrugged a bit. "My favorite performance was your solo. I immediately wanted to be up there with you, gaze into your eyes, and just have you sing to me. "
"Someday I will." I promised and we walked off together to talk with whomever.
I walked with Robb back to my room. I had this sudden playful urge to sneak out with him, so it was just the two of us. My urge got the best of me.
When I saw no one was around, I took ahold of his hand and tugged him along. He didn't protest. Instead, he followed me with a smile blooming on his gorgeous face.
While we were running we heard a few maids yell for us, asking where we were running off to. We did not answer them.
"This way." He said and tugged me along with him now.
We made it to a room where it was dark and small, but big enough for two people. I think it was a storage room. All of the cleaning supplies were out because they were being used to clean up the dining hall.
We were breathing uneven together, both smiling like a couple of children and giggling too. I placed a finger over my smiling mouth, shushing us.
I saw the smile change from laughter to adoring. He ran a hand over my cheek and I put my finger down. Leaning into his touch I watched as his eyes roamed my face. What was he thinking about?
"We shouldn't have done that. People will talk and I'll be in more trouble than you, my dear." He stated and I couldn't help but lean closer to him.
"Too bad. I wanted more time with you and you're just going to have to suffer." I whispered and placed my lips on his briefly.
He didn't let me pull away for too long. His left hand was in my hair while his right was on my waist, pulling me to him. Robb was in control of me now and I didn't care what happened next.
I felt the cold stone of the wall touch my back. He was pressing me onto the wall while my front was on his front. Our tongues intertwined as I could feel my body react to his touch, kiss, everything.
"Please…" I whispered when I had a moment to catch my breath.
Robb paused and put his forehead on my forehead. His eyes were closed and I could tell he was trying to control his inner desire. I didn't want that.
I pushed myself onto him, trying to get him to know I wanted this. He responded by digging himself into me. A gasp fled from my mouth and I looked into his eyes.
His eyes were almost foreign to me. This was not my usual Robb Stark. This was not my Beautiful Lord. This was Robb's inner desire, someone who I have not had the chance to meet. I wanted to though.
"Don't stop." I pressed on, hoping it would get my point across more.
"Do you have any idea how hard it is to control my desire, my want, and my lust for you? I need you so badly, but we must wait." I could tell I was losing the battle.
"If this is about sins, I don't care. I know I am going to be with you and only you for the rest of my life. I know you and I are meant to be and I want this." I kissed his lips before adding more. "Don't you, Robb?"
I could tell he was in slight discomfort. Maybe it was the tightness in his pants? Maybe it was him trying to control himself? Maybe it was both?
"Darling, I want to." He opened his eyes and my Robb was back. "It's a moral thing, Love. Also…if I were to save your soul by waiting until marriage then I will. I'm sorry…"
I felt the hurt of rejection. I felt so foolish and embarrassed. How could I let myself get so carelessly stupid?
"I…um I apologize for my rude and unwomanly behavior." I said and removed myself from him. "I guess I should get back to my room then." I curtsied to him but felt his hand on my arm.
"Don't do this. You know I want this, its just-…"
"I get it." I said and took my arm away from him. "It's not what you think, Robb. I'm embarrassed by what I did and almost did. Please forgive me and forget what I did tonight." I turned and opened the door, turning my head enough to see him from the corner of my eye. "Goodnight."
"Love, plea-…"
I cut him off again by walking out of the room and shutting the door. I quickly walked to my room and hurriedly went into it. Shutting and locking the door, I noticed I was alone in the room I shared. Good. I took off my clothes and got into my night time clothes.
Later that night I cried myself to sleep. This wasn't how I normally was. I never felt the way I did with Robb in that room. I never have loved so tenderly and true. I felt horrible and embarrassed. Would he still want me even after tonight? Did I ruin everything I had with him?
A/N: Poor Colette and Robb. :( Jon will soon get his turn at finding his woman. :)
