We sit on the couch watching some show on tv until we both wake up fully. He went to take a shower while I cleaned the apartment a little and I went to get the mail to find a surprising cover story of a magazine. I toss the other mail on the table in the living room and I sit on the couch with the magazine open to the story. Paul comes out of my room with a pair of my plain sweatpants on and with wet hair.
"What're you reading?" he asks as he sits down by me and I close it and his face falls when he sees the cover.
"Whose Francie Schwartz?" I ask simply and he runs his hand through his wet hair.
"She was uh a bird I had a fling with." Paul replies and I throw the magazine on the table.
"According to her you had a fling with her for the past two years. Were you seeing her when we were dating?" I ask and he doesn't answer so I get up with the magazine and I throw it in the trash.
"Sweetheart-." he starts.
"Don't Paul, I'm not your sweetheart, I can't believe you cheated on me!" I say as I open the fridge.
"I didn't see her while we were together, please believe me baby." he says and I sigh as I close the fridge.
"Don't call me that." I retort and I sigh and walk into my room and he follows.
"Why won't you believe me?" he asks and I turn around to face him.
"Because how am I supposed to believe you Paul, when you say you were faithful while we were together? And that you even want to be together right now?" I say and he sighs.
"Didn't I show you last night that I want to be with you?!" he says and I sit on the bed with a sigh.
"I'm telling you the truth." he says and he sits down by me and wraps his arm around me.
"I'm just like her aren't i; just some girl who means nothing to you?" I say hopelessly and I cover my face with my hands.
"Amy, that's not true." he protests and he rubs my back.
"I-I don't believe you." I say and I shake my head.
"What do you want me to say?" he asks with a sigh and I shake my head again, I don't know what to say.
"I love you Amy, you're not her and she's not you. I want to be with you and with her it was just some petty thing that was basically for sex. I want you, I don't want her in the way that I want you. I don't want her in the slightest, but with you I want you every day and every hour for all the time. I'm crazy about you and I feel so at home here with you, like I'm meant to be with you and I think I'm falling in love with you." he says and I sigh. I don't know what to say to that. He sits on the floor in front of me and pries my hands away from my tear stained eyes and he makes me look at him.
"Don't you want to be with me? Maybe it was because of what happened last night, but i think you do or I just hope that, I dunno. I know we just jumped back into this relationship together but I-I don't want to leave Amy, I want to stay with you. Tell me that you don't want this together and I'll leave." he says and he holds my chin.
"I can't say that." I say and I shake my head and look away from him.
"But I don't want to end up hurt Paul, I don't want to end up as some girl who you slept with when you look back at your life in 20 years." I say and I stare at my lap.
"And what if we're together in 20 years, married with kids?" Paul says and I sigh and close my eyes.
"Marriage is out of the question right now, we're not even together." I say and he sighs in response.
"Come on Aims, let's just go get married." he says and I laugh in response. He tries to hold my hands twice and I finally just let him and it feels comforting and good.
"What else is there about you that I won't like?" I ask.
"How about we just get everything out on the table? I'll tell you anything that you want and you can offer what you're willing to tell." he says and I nod and we lay on the bed next to each other but we aren't touching or anything. He starts and I eventually get comfortable and we tell the other our life stories.
"I uh, had a girlfriend named Dot after highschool and she got pregnant. She ended up losing the baby and when she did, I left her." Paul says and I nod to myself.
"I'm not proud of it and I know what I did was wrong. I was a young guy and i surely wasn't ready to be a dad and get married at the time." Paul adds and I nod and I don't say anything about that. It really shocks me to hear him confess that, and frankly I'm scared because what if I end up pregnant with his baby like next week? We're rather careless about using protection and I'm almost surprised it hasn't already happened. We go on to talk more about our lives and we spill secrets to the other, ones we're willing to tell the other anyways.
"I've always hated my dad. I found out he cheated on her while they were married." I confess.
"I'm sorry about that, love." Paul says and I nod silently and we continue on with this talk that's lasting hours. I hear knocking at the door and I throw on a sweatshirt and Paul follows me to the door. I open the door to see my ex Tommy, the last time I saw him was years ago.
"Aims darling, who is it?" Paul calls out and he walks up to stand next to me in Tommy's clear view.
"Uh this is my ex fiancee Tommy." I introduce and I look to Paul to see his shocked, taken aback face that's white and his mouth is in open in shock.
"Fiancee?" Paul asks in a cold tone.