Knowledge
You had to know him first, before you could read him, and that was easier said than done. Even now, after all these years, I still don't know if I know him completely. But I know him as well as anyone can. We have shared so much after all, it's only natural that I would have picked up some reading tips. I know when he is in pain from the way his eyes glazed over. I know when he is angry because his eyes change to an icy blue. I know when he wants to touch me, his pupils dilate and his eyes go a shade darker. I know what he's thinking when I am trying to be angry and his eyes flicker down to my mouth; it throws me completely off balance. Or when he turns up at my door, with the most intense look in his eyes, I know what he is doing there. I know the secret places that he hides his emotions and the right buttons to press to make him angry. I know how to hold him after another nightmare; I know how to touch him to drive him crazy. I know what to say to shut him up. I know he is a bastard, but I know he is my bastard.
I also know that I will love him for the rest of my life.
V!
xox
