So the whole point of "Anamnesis" is so I can do weirdo flashbacks and time travel. Soooo, hopefully you don't mind. And it's a really short chapter IK! Reviews encouraged!
Cut to a few (4) days after visiting Lauren…before he visits Lacey:
Danny was sitting in his room staring at the ceiling wishing he wasn't so awake, he had work in the morning! Friday mornings were the worst! What a sad, tormented soul I am. His thoughts of his weekend with Lauren were skewed. He had tons of fun, he was glad he had stayed the whole weekend. However, he couldn't shake that moment when she left to talk to that other guy. And the tiff Danny and Lauren got into afterwards didn't help much either. He knew it was a guy, a guy she was probably talking to…and he couldn't stop himself from confronting her about it. His heart raced as he replayed the argument in his head.
"Danny what is your damage?" Lauren shut the door after the last person had left. Her roommate was going home with one of Danny's juvie friends.
"My damage? You think I'm stupid?" Danny motioned with his arms towards the door.
"Who was…who is he?" His voice plummeted to a whisper.
"He's…he's Kevin." She answered unapologetic.
Danny just stared down at her. He braced himself, knowing his feelings were about to take a major hit.
"Listen," Lauren began softer this time. "I don't know-well, we never really stopped to define this-thing we have going on…"
Danny couldn't remember her facial expression thinking back retrospectively. He was having a hard time remembering what else she said through his anger. But he forced himself to recall all the details he could.
"I know you had other girls texting you. I never questioned it. I figured we were both on the same page…"
"You assumed." Danny had corrected her.
"Was I wrong?" She held her stance, her tone firm. When he didn't answer, she continued.
"I like you Danny, I do. But I dunno, I think this might have to be the last time we hang out. We-me and Kevin-we want to try to do things…the right way ya know? Seriously." She hugged herself and looked down at her shoes. Danny was glad she couldn't see how she had knocked the wind out of him. He had left without saying another word to her, he didn't want her to see how upset he was, and he couldn't handle seeing her distraught either.
As Danny laid there in bed he began to question how he could let Lauren's signals elude him so. What was he thinking? He had never had the best of both worlds because he had been playing with fire. Whose intentions had he really ever known? Not Lacey's, not lately anyways. Definitely not Lauren's and if he was being completely honest with himself, he hadn't really known his own. But an epiphany hit him suddenly. When he thought of Lacey's intentions he reminisced on their last meeting together. He knew she still cared for him. The memory of her kiss was enough to make his face and body grow hot, and she had visited his house he just wasn't there! Lacey was not one to come right out and admit her feelings, that had never been her way-but she had done everything but and he had missed it! Feeling suddenly giddy, and wide awake he decided to go on facebook and creep through her recent pictures, aching to see her face. He grabbed his phone off the nightstand and pulled up his newsfeed.
Before he had even typed anything in a giant alert caught his attention.
Lauren is now in a relationship with Kevin.
Danny slammed his eyes shut and then forced them open again just to be sure. And plain as day, there it was, the icing on the cake. He didn't know what hurt was until that moment he realized. Placing his phone back down, he turned over on his side. They had ended things only four days prior...
I'm going to see her tomorrow. After work, yes! I'm going to see Lacey tomorrow and tell her I'm sorry, tell her I don't want to be cruel to her…tell her I love her…because I would never do to Lacey what Lauren did to me, and that must be love…it must be…
Danny fell into a restless sleep.
