9-

It's our graduation after-party.

I'm pretty drunk.

I'm sitting on this uncomfortable sofa.

Beer in one hand; joint in the other.

Inhale. Exhale. Drink.

You're not here.

Jasper and Alice are.

They tell me you didn't want to come.

They don't know how I feel.

I shrug it off and say 'whatever'.

I drink some more.

Heidi sits next to me.

She's all wrong.

Her hands are all over me.

I'm too drunk to care.

She kisses me.

I kiss her back.

I pretend she's you.

She moans into my mouth.

I break out of my beer infused haze and pull back.

I look at her.

Her eyes are ice blue.

Not chocolate brown like yours.

She's definitely not you.

I stand and leave, waving goodbye at Jasper and Emmett.

Heidi is already sitting next to Tyler.

I really don't care.