Title
Cold Nights and Crickets
Contents

Ouran High School Host Club
Pairings
Hikaru/Kaoru
Narration
Omiscent
Beta
None
Summary
After a bad rape Kaoru begins to tone out sleeping for fear of a repeative nightmare.
Disclaimer
I do not own Ouran High School Host Club or any of the characters mentioned. Trust me if I did, they wouldn't be hosting.
Warning
Yaoi. Rape. Twincest. Ect.
Enjoy
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"Hikaru... I.. I have something to tell you.." "What is it Kaoru?" "It's.. It's reguarding my feelings towards you.." Tears played at Kaoru's eyelids, he wiped them away quickly as not to seem weak. He had to say this, he couldn't live another day knowing Hikaru deserved someone more.. "What is it Kaoru?" "I... I..." Looking up into Hikaru's eyes, he saw worry.. Doubt.. Warm.. Care.. Home.. Love... No, His niisan... "I love you Hikaru." He flung himself into Himaru's arms. Hikaru smiled and held his little brother closer, "I love you too.."

Kaoru held his head, how could he let himself fall asleep? How could he have done... Have done.. THAT with Hikaru? Kaoru sunk to the floor, crying. Hikaru had woken up to the sobs.

"Kaoru?"

Kaoru only cried harder. Banging on the floor, he felt his whole body shake. He swore he could feel Hikaru within him again, just like their first time. Banging, pulverising him. Kaoru felt as though he would be sick, but he couldn't get to his feet. Hikaru rushed to Kaoru's side, rubbing his back gently. But Kaoru swatted him away.

"Don't touch me!"

Kaoru snapped. Kaoru sprung to his feet, backing up to the wall, glareing through teared eyes at Hikaru.

"I hate you! I hate everything you did! We were so close... We were... I used to... Why Hikaru?! Why would you do such things to me!?"

"Kaoru You asked for-"

"LIES! I would never asked for something as vile as that! You probably prevoked me! Didn't you!? I HATE you! Why can't you leave!?"

Kaoru sunk to the floor, in hysterics. He kept whispering to himself, 'why won't you go away... Just go away..'. Hikaru closed his eyes and walked slowly over to Kaoru.

"Kaoru."

"Go away... Please.."

"Kaoru I-... I didn't know you didn't..."

"Please... Leave..."

"I'll pack my bags."

Hikaru turned around and did just that. Kaoru felt terrible, but this was what he wanted, wasn't it? Kaoru watched his once lover pack his bags to leave him forever. He didn't want Hikaru gone.. He wanted his Niisan back.. Hikaru got dressed while he was at it, and sighed as he looked at himself in the mirror.

"An image unfit to love..."

He blinked slowly before slinging his backpack over his shoulder. Kaoru paniced, this was all his fault. He didn't know what to do, he was shaking and his mind was racing even still. Hikaru looked back to Kaoru, Kaoru looked up with tear filled eyes. A last embrace was shared, Hikaru holding Kaoru ever so gently and as close as he could get him. Kaoru rested his forehead on Hikaru's shoulder. Both of them were letting tears shed. As Hikaru stood up he diverted his eyes from his beloved brother. And with that he left. Kaoru broke down, crying harder then he ever had before. His fist hitting the carpet in self haterd, his yelling making his voice horse, his curses louder then any before. Five hours later, after a drastic bawl, Kaoru shakily took out a silver square box, and shakily took out a piece of damp paper.

"It's because of you! If you were never here i'd still have my Hikaru! You make me think he's a monster!... You call my name at night!..."

Kaoru took out two hits and stuck them on his tongue. Soon, Kaoru was shaking violantly from a bad trip. His eyes were bloodshot, and his teeth chattered. Hikaru opened the door,

"Sorry, forgot my ph-Kaoru!?"

Kaoru was quick to his feet. The cold sweat dripping down his face was hit by the moonlight.

"G-g-get out!!"

"Kaoru, what's happening?!"

"I SAID OUT!"

Kaoru scurried to the bed, tripping over himself as he did so. He reached under the bed, drawing a knife. This knife, was stained with his own blood. Hikaru's eyes widened as Kaoru's lips played with a sadistic smile. Lighting flashed and thunder rolled as Kaoru neared in.

"Well well well Hika-chan.. Guess i've got the upper hand now it seems!"

"K-kaoru, don't."

Kaoru pinned Hikaru up against the wall, pressing his body up against Hikaru's fully with their foreheads touching.

"I never loved you... I HATE YOU HIKA-CHAN!"

Kaoru drove the knife into Hikaru's stomach with great force. Hikaru's eyes widened as they whitened. His saddened expression filling his features as he collapsed to the floor.

Kaoru had woken about an hour later in a daze. He looked around, fully awake once he saw Hikaru lying dead on their floor. Kaoru ran out of the house,

"What have I done...?"

The sound of crickets was his only friend as he ran past the crosswalk. It didn't matter to them, together they were unstopable. The world shunned upon them, it was only fine when it was an act. Their parents turned their backs, she turned her back, their fans, half their friends, all turned their backs. They had each other, and that's all they really needed. Shuddering gently Kaoru begun to run. His footsteps hit the ground faster than his heart beat at the moment. "Hikaru.." Kaoru whispered, eyes tightly closed. It was so cold he could see his breath creast over his chin. The rain poured more with every second. Lightning striked, hitting a telephone pole behind him. Goosebumps formed on his skin. A strike of lightning as he came to an abandoned church. Kaoru walked inside, his head bowed low and his hand folded in prayer for forgiveness. This was the day, he had killed his lover.

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Chapter Shoutout To:

Chiba.Kun - Arigatou!!! .w.

For being the first to reveiw on chapter eight

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