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For Raccoonsmate4life, Aprylynn and Hermionesmydawg


Their first time is clumsy. Stupid drunk kids who don't know any better.

She struggles with his belt, him with her bra.

In the end, the bra stays on and the jeans fall to his knees.

It's not amazing or life altering or great even, but it's them.

They laugh together at the situation and the awkwardness melts away.

Later that same night, the buzz of the alcohol lessens and they lay in the back of his pickup staring at the stars, wrapped up in each other.

"Whenever you're missing me just look up at the stars and know I'm missing you."

"Oh my god", she said barely containing her laughter. "That's so cheesy! You're such a dork."

'You're such a dork' is always followed by a snort, a roll of her eyes, a scoff, a smile and a hidden I love you.

The Kensi Blye special.


It's a few days later that he leaves.

Pickup loaded with his stuff, a box full of memories of them and not much else.

His heart breaks as she tries to smile at him bravely.

He's gonna miss her.

"It'll be ok. I promise. We're good. Say it. Say we're good."

"We're good", she replies not believing a word.

Her voice cracked and tears came.

This was the end of them even if they didn't want to let themselves know it yet.


It's been years since she allowed herself think of Marty Deeks. His blue eyes haunted her dreams all through her final years of high school and college. Now a fresh faced agent of NCIS's special branch, Kensi finally allows herself to move on.

A couple of years of work and casual dating and one night stands follow.

She's okay with the empty apartment. The empty bed, the empty life. She's used to it.

In a bid to get out of her funk, Kensi heads out looking for someone to warm her sheets for the night and satisfy her. It's only when she's slightly buzzed and swaying on the dance floor did she feel his gaze on her.

Damn those blue eyes.


How the night went from stuttering hellos after years gone by to him pressing her up against her front door is beyond her comprehension at the moment.

Her teeth bite down hard on his bottom lip as he lifts her higher and he presses himself so close to where she needs him. She tastes the metallic of his blood and licks it away, soothing his swollen lip with her kisses.

He looks at her almost for the very first time tonight, and wonders why the hell did he ever let her go?

Her dress comes off and his eyes see the beauty that is the breasts of Kensi Marie Blye. He sends up a thank you to whatever puberty god there is and gets to work. His mouth wastes no time in teasing and bites down hard on her nipple. She lets out a breathless moan as her hands tangle in his, now, much longer hair.

His hot wet mouth travels further down to reach a destination he never dared to go before. Widening her stance, Kensi braced herself against the door frame.

His hands slowly crept around her inner thighs to spread her legs even further. His mouth, tongue and teeth worked together in perfect harmony to bring her to new heights she'd never been brought to before.

She felt her orgasm rising deep within her, but she couldn't come, not without him. She yanked his head and gave him a sloppy thankful kiss and took his hand leading him to her bedroom.

Kensi quickly rid Deeks of his clothes and he laughed when her eyes bugged out at the sight of his dick.

Damn, she thought. Was it always that big?

The look in his eyes is like that of a lion stalking his prey.

With an animalistic growl, he launches himself at her and they land as a tangled mess of limbs on her bed.


The laughter and clumsiness transport them back to that first time.

"So", he clears his throat, the first word to leave his mouth since they got to her house. "You been looking at any stars lately?"

Kensi whispers her response so softly it barely reaches his ears.

"You're such a dork."


This time is amazing.

It is life altering.

It's not great.

It's perfect.


He makes sure she comes twice during their time together before he finds his release.

A gentle sob of his name, her head thrown back and her fingers grasp at his arms.

A sight he never wants to forget.

They drift off tangled up in each other.


As the early morning light makes its way through the blinds, she peppers kisses along his collarbone and disappears under the covers, and after her morning surprise, they lull off back to sleep.

He wakes around ten. Kisses her. She hooks her leg over his hip and he slips in easily. Their kisses and movements are languid and not rushed. It was almost as if they were still in the midst of an erotic dream.

They spend the rest of the afternoon napping and reacquainting themselves with each other.

Kensi nods off around eight and Deeks carries her to bed.


When she wakes around midnight with a growling stomach, she's met with cold sheets.

She calls out his name but receives no answer.

Walking though her home, she sees no evidence of their time together.

Her heart sinks and suddenly she's no longer hungry and feels as though her world is falling apart all over again.


Kensi decides she needs some air and steps out onto her back porch.

Pinned to the fence is a note

It reads: Look up and then turn this over.

Kensi looks up at the barely visible stars in the LA night sky and looks back at the note.

You miss me?

"You're such a dork", she whispers into the darkness.