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Loredas 5, Second Seed
Dear Diary,
Apparently Momma's body is recovering from the fight on Bleak Falls Barrow, which means she can't be whole yet. So she can't kill Miraak herself. On top of that, Faendal wrote, telling me frightening news. He mentioned that by now I should have talked with Momma, having given me the gem, so he hoped the news of Miraak would not come as a surprise. He said that Cultists were at Sky Haven Temple when he went there. Delphine is missing, probably dead. The Cultists had been burning the documents. He managed to save some pertaining to Miraak.
Miraak was once a Dragon Priest. Eventually he turned against the Dragons he served. Miraak became the champion of Hermaeus Mora, the Daedric Prince of Knowledge, but he decided to break free of him too. During the events of Dragonborn, he is imprisoned within Apocrypha. He can only escape to Tamriel when he gains sufficient power to set himself free from Hermaeus Mora's service. Apparently he was even asked to deal with Alduin, but he flicked them off.
I think he's an ass. Who knows what kind of trouble he has planned. I know I was saying that adventures were dangerous, and that people die. But now I see people die even if there isn't an adventure. If this is my Momma's personality bleeding into mine, I'd have to say I don't mine the confidence I feel. Is it cheating to view the world through experienced eyes? Just because I wore a necklace?
I think I'll avoid answering that question...
One more thing. When I finally gave in to the journey to Solsthiem, Farkas offered to come along. Momma said having a Companion to help would be a smart choice. Aunt Lydia has business in Whiterun, so she can't come, and Faendal is still not back. I was polite and told him he was welcome to come. Inside, I was squealing like a little girl. Farkas! Oh, on the road with Farkas! I'll have to set Momma's necklace aside if I don't want any awkward conversations coming up.
To start off, I'll have to write a list of things to get. The Jarl was informed of what was going on and he agreed to help with anything I needed. Oh, and, now that everyone knows I found out about Momma, they are much easier to talk to. They compare similarities and celebrate the differences between us. The Companions say my temperament is more like Poppa. They say Momma had a sharp tongue and she was known to get in bar fights. I think-
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Okay, so, Aunt Lydia just came up and told me a few things. One thing is she heard about Farkas's offer. Apparently I'm not allowed to go with just Farkas. I have to ask someone else to come too. I refuse to ask Aela. She's a rain cloud. But you know what? Vilkas is probably a good choice, due to his knowledge of Tamrielic history. Now that is said, I hope he agrees. I haven't been the most polite with him.
The second thing is that Solsthiem is actually a large island in the Sea of Ghosts, to the north of Tamriel. Northwest of Vvardenfell in Morrowind and east of Skyrim. We have to get a boat ride to it. The closest place in Skyrim to do that is the docks at Whinhelm. That's a long journey. Momma said I can summon Arvak if I want. But riding on a skeleton horse seems creepy to me. We'll take a cart ride. Besides I'm not getting saddle-butt for this trip, I'll end up walking funny. And that would look awful for my figure.
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Fredas 11, Second Seed
Dear Diary,
I may have not written in almost a week, but I have good explanations. A person can't write too well while traveling. At the moment I'm curled up on a bed in the Palace of Kings! Vilkas and Farkas are here too, down the hall. Tomorrow we're going to speak to a guy named Gjalund Salt-Sage, of the 'Northern Maiden' down at the docks.
First of all, the 'cart-guy' got sick. I couldn't afford three 1,000 Septim horses (each), and the Jarl didn't come through with his promise of giving me everything I need. I mean oh yeah, free food, new gear, he can get me that, but a horse? Ha! Apparently the horse-guy Skulvar Sable-Hilt isn't obligated to hand over three free steeds. What is that about? So then we negotiated him down to 500 each, because I sneaked in a few potions of haggling before hand. I've got 42 Septims now.
Thankfully I didn't have to spend any money on my other things. Momma had a myriad of armor and weapons to choose from. As well as potions and a magnificent skeleton key that Aunt Lydia told me not use on people's houses.
Anyway, we started out early on the 6th and set out Eastward. I felt alright until after mid day, when I really wished the cart-man wasn't sick. I hate getting that stiff sore feeling in my legs. I was in a bad mood. Momma and I were arguing about pace. I wanted to go faster, but she was saying not to. Then she said Vilkas was a bad choice to invite. The boys were looking at me funny because I was making faces while talking in my mind with Momma. I felt bad for saying 'You can be a pain in the neck, Momma!' before tossing the necklace into my satchel. I apologized later.
The next day a saber cat attacked us in the morning. I forgot to put on Momma's necklace, so I was proud of myself when I killed it. Then I hid my sadness about the giant dead cat. I guess Momma's influence wears off a little after a while of not wearing the necklace. I felt a little better and I talked with Vilkas and Farkas. I think I didn't give Vilkas a chance before. He's really witty. But it's just that he talks a little much. I like to talk. I want someone to listen. Momma said I'm being persnickety. Whatever that means. You know, I forgot how much Momma and I would bicker. Thinking someone is dead washes away the unsavory moments you had with them. Now they're coming back like a flash flood.
The following day we rode wildly away from bandits who were on some kind of stone bridge. They were bad shots. It was so funny how bad they were that I sat backwards on my horse and shot them. Momma then told me not to be a show off. My smile dropped and we got into a hissy fit again. I told her she was just upset because she wished she could do it. Then she ignored me. I put the necklace in my satchel again.
Early the next morning I wore the necklace and I promised that I would not shut her out and I was glad she was alive. But another thing came up between us when I went to the bathroom. A thief jumped out and demanded my money on my walk back to Vilkas and Farkas. So using her influence, Momma had me blast him. I was furious, but she called it a reflex. I said I wanted to fight people if I had to. She told me no matter who you are or what you say, thieves are stupid enough to attack anyway. I refused to believe that, and I told her not to do that again. Unless there was an actual danger I couldn't handle.
By the next day, an unexpected thing happened. Through this trip I found I really liked Vilkas. A lot. And since Farkas hadn't actually asked me to be his girl, I was catching myself thinking it wouldn't be so bad if Vilkas asked me. Despite his tendency to talk. Momma told me not to think about that stuff until after my journey, since I might not live through it. I was taken aback by that notion and she told me she was mostly kidding. But I knew she wasn't. Then she was like 'Oh look, a traveling Bard' but I was too upset to ask him to play anything.
About this time we saw Windhelm. I was relieved. Momma told me to look around for a black horse with red eyes. I told her that was ridiculous. Then, as if trotting out of some nightmare, a black stallion walked right up to me after I got off my mount near the stables. It had red eyes! Then he sniffed my necklace. Momma was saying 'Oh, Shadowmere, I've missed you!' She made me say it to him. Vilkas got all excited and told us who 'Shadowmere' was. Momma explained to me that he was more than just some horse. It was strange. I felt happy and disturbed at the same time. Looking into those vibrant crimson eyes.
Farkas was able to pet Shadowmere, but not Vilkas. Apparently Momma said Shadowmere is also 'persnickety'. Vilkas was visibly irritated. Farkas and I teased him all the way into Windhelm. I was not prepared to be greeted by the people of Windhelm. They either didn't get my Momma's memo about keeping me from knowing she was the Dragonborn, or they didn't care, because they were all so excited and we had many offers of dinner. They talked about Momma and I had to feel both her emotions, which were prideful and thankful, as well as my feelings of pride and irritation. I don't want to be only known as the Dohvakiin's daughter.
Momma reminded me that I was the one who left to Whiterun. I thought she was going to get on my case, but then she said 'Your story began that day.' I felt really good about that. But then I started boasting and she told me not to push the story down their throats.
I didn't want to show favoritism, so we ate at the Palace of Kings, where Ulfric Stormcloak set a feast for us. He is handsome for an older guy. We told him of what our mission is. Vilkas explained most of Miraak and Solsthiem. I told him everything from my point of view as well as what Momma wanted me to say. Farkas went to the point of asking about Momma and the Civil war. As well as offering his services if and when the Dominion and Skyrim declare war. Vilkas made an obvious sigh of disagreement. Before Momma, Vilkas, Farkas, and Ulfric could start in on politics I asked to be excused and they brought me to my room.
So here I am, writing away. I think Vilkas and Farkas are asleep. Just like I should be doing.
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