Chapter 9 Reign of Love
"It's a surprise to see you guys here," Kevin said while leaning back in his chair. He was sitting in one of those quaint yet modern coffee shops in New York City. It was one of those places where college students and young adults in the work force often frequented. Sitting opposite to him were his brother Joe and Stella Malone.
"Stella and I were actually in the neighborhood doing some shopping but we really need to talk to you about something," Joe said seriously.
"It's about Nick," Stella added.
The oldest Lucas boy gave a loud sigh of annoyance. If there was one thing he didn't want to bring up, it was the subject of his pesky brother.
"There's really nothing to say," Kevin said nonchalantly as he took another long sip of his mochachino.
"Kevin, we know the whole story behind you, Nick, and Macy," Joe pointed out. Stella nodded her head quickly to show that she too was in on the scoop. "And apparently, Nick is not taking it too lightly. I just got a call from mom and she's worried sick about Nick because he's not acting like he normally does. He's always angry and irritated with everyone. He even made Frankie cry. Nick never does that and dad said he destroyed all the demo tracks for the new album without giving any reason. They tried talking to him but he won't budge."
"You said you know everything then you are fully aware about what he did to me and Macy," Kevin said as calmly as possibly but his hands were shaking because he was still angry at his brother's betrayal.
"Kevin," Stella said kindly now placing her hand over his. "Nick told me why he did that and he feels terrible about all the lying and deceiving that took place. But he didn't manipulate Macy to be with him. You know Nick wouldn't do that to you on purpose without having a valid reason for it. They love each other, Kevin."
"AND HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT?" Kevin yelled out frustratingly. "It's so typical that everyone sides with Mr. Perfect. He can never make a mistake because he's such a saint. Well, I have news you guys. That scumbag - good-for-nothing-brother of mine- was having an affair with MY GIRLFRIEND. Don't you see anything wrong with that?"
"Yes, that was wrong but—
"BUT WHAT?" Kevin said loudly. "Are you going to say he had a valid reason to do it?"
"Bro, chill for a second and hear us out," Joe tried calming him down; he nervously glanced at the other customers who were now staring at them wide-eyed after Kevin's outburst. "Remember two years ago when we noticed that Macy wasn't acting like herself?"
"Huh?"
"You probably don't remember because you were with Anya and that was also the time when Stella and I first got together," Joe pointed out.
"We were so consumed with our relationships that we didn't realize that one of our closest friends needed us," Stella said solemnly. The blonde-hair girl still felt really guilty that she wasn't able to help Macy during her time of need. "Well, apparently, Macy was going through a very tough patch. It got so bad that she would throw up every day after school on purpose and she'd even cut herself. We missed all the signs but Nick didn't. He was there for her."
"Yeah, he helped her get through it and he helped Macy see that life was worth living again," Joe continued for his girlfriend. "Kevin, Nick was the one who helped Macy and that's how they fell in love. We weren't there for her when she'd rather have death than face life. I know this is probably tough for you to hear but it was Nick who taught her how to live again."
Kevin was shaking his head and said, "Macy never mentioned anything about that to me. How do you know that Nick isn't making this entire thing up?"
"Is this really something he would do?" Stella argued. "But apparently that's what Macy wanted to tell you during the day of the accident. She wanted to explain why she left you for Nick."
"Don't get us wrong. We don't like the fact that they snuck around behind your back to start their relationship but when you're that in love, sometimes the difference between right and wrong gets blurred," Joe said.
"Nick waited for four months before he told me anything. Actually he didn't even tell me anything I found everything out myself!" Kevin pointed out. "He chose not to tell me. That in itself just goes to show that he didn't care about my feelings."
"Yeah, that was wrong on his part…but do you really think what you're doing is much better?" Stella asked him honestly.
"I'm just letting him see how it feels like to lose the love of your life," Kevin said curtly. "Macy chose me this time around. It just goes to show that the love she had for me is much stronger than the one she had for Nick."
Joe looked over at Stella who, judging by her facial expression, was also at a loss for words. She wanted to say something more but Kevin abruptly stood up and grabbed his coat.
"Look, I don't know if Nick sent you over to try to change my mind but it didn't work, okay?" Kevin said harshly. "So you two can just tell him that it's over for him and Macy. She made her choice and there's nothing he can do about it."
"So you're comfortable knowing the fact that you're breaking up a love that's so strong without feeling any guilt?" Joe asked him incredulously.
"And how do you know that their love was so strong, Joe?" Kevin asked him derisively.
"Because if I was at the end of my rope to the point of contemplating suicide, the person who can help me see that I'm someone worth saving, is going to be pretty darn important to me," Joe fired back. "And that was what Nick was to Macy. He saved her, Kev. Neither you, Stella, nor I can say that. He was there for her when no one else was."
Kevin was looking at the ground. He listened to what Joe had to say but he had enough of this because all of these were just excuses to him.
"Macy made her choice," Kevin said finally. "If she really wanted to be with Nick then she would've remembered him by now. You can't force her to love someone she doesn't want. I'm sorry that you wasted your time but I'm not letting go of Macy if that's what you wanted. Good-bye, Joe, Stella. "
He said this while he was making his way towards the door. He gave them a final wave before exiting.
Joe slumped back in his chair and looked over at Stella and said, "We tried."
"Yeah, but obviously he didn't want to hear what we had to say."
"Do you think they'll be okay?"
"Well, I hope so…I mean I'm a firm believer that true love will always prevail," Stella finally said. "I just hope everything ends well."
"That makes two of us."
Meanwhile, Nick, who had no idea about Joe and Stella's visit to Kevin, was going crazy. He couldn't stop pacing back and forth in his room. There were so many images of Macy and Kevin together flooding his mind. He wanted to yell out and get away from it all but his brain was being stubborn as scenario after scenario of all the things that could happen between Macy and his brother continued to manifest itself. He needed some fresh air so he headed to the park but it was a bad idea because people started to recognize who he was and one little girl even asked for his autograph. However, due to his bad mood, he uncharacteristically snapped at her which left the young girl in tears. Nick felt so bad afterwards that he wanted to apologize but the child was gone along with her mother who wasn't afraid to use rather 'colorful' words against him after the whole incident. So he just drove along the highway trying to forget about Macy but it was impossible because how can he forget a part of himself? His journey led him to a clearing. It was the perfect place for him to have any form of isolation because right now, Nick Lucas did not want to be bothered. All he could think about was Macy…his Macy...the same Macy who was about to sleep with his brother. Nick parked his car and yelled out in complete frustration. He was losing hope. Even though Nick Lucas always wanted to be seen as strong and independent, right now he was weak and fragile because Macy made it clear that she no longer wanted anything to do with him. Tears were streaming down his eyes and his legs gave way because he was too drained to stand up. And while kneeling on the ground, Nick Lucas wept and wept some more. He lost. It was the end for him.
Back in NYU, Kevin tried to forget the whole conversation he had with Joe and Stella. They had no idea what they were talking about. And it was a good thing he headed back to his dorm because everyone was happy to be back to share some exciting holiday adventures.
"Hey, Kev!" yelled a pretty, tall, brunette girl.
"Hi, Dani," he greeted her quickly. She was also in Professor O' Conner's class and she wasn't shy about getting his attention.
"How was your break?" she asked him excitedly. She always had a huge grin on her face every time she saw him.
"Oh, it was…um…pretty uneventful," Kevin lied because he really didn't want to converse with her since she loved to openly flirt with him, which was why she was batting her eyelashes at him and twirling a strand of her hair around her finger.
"Well, I had my whole family come over," Danielle said without waiting for Kevin to ask her how her holidays went. "And my mom cooked A LOT of food so here! I got you some of my mom's homemade apple pie. It's the best."
She handed him a box containing her mother's dessert.
"Wow, thanks, Dani," Kevin said kindly. "I'm sure it tastes awesome."
"Just to let you know, I helped make it. So it's EXTRA special!" she said happily.
"Uh…okay…thanks," Kevin said hesitantly because Danielle was staring at him with a hopeful expression on her face. "I'm sure it's delicious."
He felt bad that he didn't get her anything so he quickly waved good-bye. He wanted to hurry to his room so he can have the privacy to call Macy. He missed her SO MUCH. But when he reached the door of his room, boy, was he in for a huge surprise. Sitting on the floor of the hallway next to his room was the girl Kevin so desperately wanted to talk to all day long.
"MACY!" he cried out excitedly. "What on earth are you doing here?"
"I really wanted to see you," she said as she jumped up to give him a passionate kiss on the lips.
As much as he wanted to continue this, Kevin had to pull Macy away because she was causing quite a scene, "Um, Macy, why don't we go to my room. I don't think we should be doing this out here."
He looked around and sure enough, everyone was staring at them and some of the guys on his floor started giving him a thumbs-up. Truly, college guys were still immature.
But the minute he led her into his room and shut the door, Macy once again couldn't resist kissing him fiercely on the lips. Kevin was really caught off guard because he still wasn't used to this aggressive side of Macy. Was this how she was like with Nick? Because during their time together, Macy was always reserved when she and Kevin would be alone. But Kevin didn't want to linger on that thought because he knew the exact reason why she wasn't active before. It was because she was screwing his brother behind his back. However, Kevin found it in his heart to forgive her this time around because he was still under the impression that Nick manipulated her into falling in love with him.
"Macy, can we slow down for a second?" Kevin asked while prying himself away from her.
"Huh? Why?" Macy asked sounding a bit hurt because she desperately wanted to make amends with him. She still felt very ashamed that she was tricked into having sex with Nick. How could she have done that without any regards to her her boyfriend , Kevin?
"I mean you show up here unexpected and you want to make out right away without any explanation," Kevin pointed out.
"It's just that I really wanted to spend more time with you," Macy said as she placed a light kiss on his lips. "And I really, really wanted to see you."
She whispered the last part into his ear while gently tugging his ear-lobe. This made a certain part of the young man's body become very excited. Was Macy this passionate with Nick? Because this wild and very sensual side of Macy was hidden from Kevin until now.
"M-macy, I think you should stop doing that," Kevin said as he felt his knees grow weak from the affection Macy was showing him.
"Stop what?" she asked him innocently but she continued nibbling his ear. Her mouth traveled down his jaw and soon she found herself sucking on his neck very gently.
Kevin was beginning to lose his senses because the ring on his finger that stood for his pledge to stay pure was steadily becoming more and more meaningless as Macy continued showing his body more and more affection. She placed her lips against his while she slowly began to unbutton his shirt.
"Macy we really need to talk," Kevin said adamantly but it was clear that the girl was not paying attention to him because she pushed him back on his bed and jumped on top of him.
His shirt was now unbuttoned all the way down exposing his bare chest which Macy noticed wasn't as toned as his brother's. But she tried to shake off images of Nick because the guilt she felt inside was beginning to magnify ten-fold. She tried concentrating on pleasing Kevin so with steady hands she lifted her shirt over her head. Kevin gaped at Macy who showcased a very sexy white frilly bra.
"I love you Kevin," she whispered seductively. "And I want to show you how much I love you."
She dipped her head down to kiss him very passionately on his lips. This time Kevin couldn't resist but run his hands all over her body. There was so much touching and kissing going on that when the two of them finally broke apart Kevin was now on top, pinning Macy on his bed. He kissed her gently on the lips and he gently tugged on her earlobe which elicited her to make quite an erotic moan. Steadily, he kissed down her neck and at one point Macy was moaning quite loudly when he paid particular attention to a spot just below her right ear.
"Oh YES…yes, right there…NICK…" the brunette girl moaned in ecstasy without realizing she called out the wrong name. However, her slip of the tongue didn't go unnoticed by Kevin.
"NICK?" Kevin said obviously offended.
"What?" Macy said confused because she wanted to feel his lips against her skin again.
"You just said 'Yes Nick'," Kevin pointed out as he now got off of her.
"I did?" Macy said nervously because it was clear that her body was still remembering her time with Nick from the day before. "I…don't know why I said that…I'm sorry…Can we just continue where we left off?"
But Kevin was shaking his head because he couldn't believe she said his brother's name so he had to ask, "Are you thinking about Nick right now?"
"WHAT? No, of course not," she said half truthfully since her mind started playing games with her because images of Nick were beginning to flood her brain. "I'm thinking about you, lover boy. Now come here, Kevin."
She pulled his head down to hers so that they could continue kissing passionately and this time she nervously unbuckled his belt. For some reason, Macy was getting very nervous about doing this with Kevin. This confused her because when she did this with Nick it felt so right. Nevertheless, she needed to stop thinking about him. He was the wrong brother to be thinking about right now! It was only when Kevin noticed that Macy's hands were lingering near dangerous territory that he knew that Macy wanted to go all the way with him. And as much as he wanted to do this with her, Kevin knew this wasn't right.
"Macy, we can't do this," he said firmly as he took her hands away from his body.
"What? WHY NOT?" Macy exclaimed clearly devastated. "If you're worried about protection, I brought a condom. There's nothing to worry about, Kev. I came prepared. I really want to do this with you because I love you so much. I remember now that was what I wanted to tell you that afternoon before the accident."
"No, Macy, that's not it," Kevin said in a conflicted voice while shaking his head. Then he said honestly, "You don't love me, Macy."
"OF COURSE I DO!"
"No, you don't," Kevin argued on the verge of being angry because he knew what he was doing was the right thing to do even if it meant that he would lose once again to his brother.
Macy tried to argue and proclaim her love for him once more but she broke down and started to cry.
"I n-need to d-do this with you…K-kevin… because I messed up," she said in between sobs. "Even when you warned me about N-nick…Yesterday…I…um...had sex with him. I'm so sorry, Kevin. I really w-wanted to save myself for you. I feel so terrible…Please, f-forgive m-me. I wanted to have my first time with you…I really did…"
She was weeping openly as she stared anticipatingly at her boyfriend. She expected him to yell at her and scold her for doing something so dumb. She knew it would be a matter of seconds before Kevin would break up with her. She just knew it. But Macy tried to show him her utmost sincerity because she truly felt horrible for betraying him.
However, Kevin was far from being angry with her. Instead, he was very shocked that Macy still didn't remember Nick at all. Letting out a loud sigh, he finally spoke.
"I'm not surprised."
"Huh?" Macy stared at him with a look of complete confusion. "I just told you I slept with your brother. Just yell at me so you can get it over with. I deserve it after all…I betrayed you and let it happen."
"No," Kevin said as he put his shirt over her so that she could cover herself. "I can't have sex with you because you belong to Nick. You told me this that day of the accident."
"I didn't say that!" Macy argued because she really had no recollection of ever saying those words to Kevin.
"Yes, believe me, Macy, you did say that," Kevin said as he sat at the edge of his bed with his back towards her. "You and Nick had-um- a very physical relationship with each other so you sleeping with him isn't really a surprise to me."
"No! That can't be true because I'm pretty sure I was your girlfriend before the whole accident."
"You were!" Kevin said frustratingly because he really didn't want to think about Nick and Macy's betrayal but this was the only way for her to realize that she loved Nick and not him. "I loved you Macy. I really did. And for a while I thought you felt the same way about me but only recently did I find out that your heart laid elsewhere."
"Are you saying that I cheated on you with Nick?"
Kevin grimaced because he didn't want to admit this but he nodded his head slightly to confirm that her statement was indeed correct.
"You…love…him, Macy," Kevin said with great difficulty.
"I love Nick…?" Macy repeated it more to herself than to Kevin because she didn't believe this at all.
"Yes, you do," Kevin said and then he turned around and took her hand in his. He turned her arm upwards so that her wrist was exposed and sure enough, there were marks from when she used to cut herself. "I didn't know how depressed you were during your parents' divorce and it got so bad that you resorted to cutting yourself. You see these scars?"
"Yeah, but I thought they were from the accident."
Kevin shook his head and said, "No, they aren't. Apparently, Nick was the one who helped you during that difficult time. He stopped you from harming yourself even more because he wanted to show you that life's worth living."
"He did?"
"Yeah. Joe and Stella actually came over this morning to tell me this but to be honest, I already knew all of this because of the letters you wrote to him," Kevin admitted. This time he stood up and opened the bottom drawer of his dresser. He took out a pile of letters and handed them to Macy. "Here. You should read these. I actually wanted to burn them but I didn't have the heart to do that. And so, I'm giving them back to you."
Macy stared at the pile of letters that Kevin placed on her lap. She recognized her handwriting. Why did she write so many letters to Nick?
"I think those letters will help you remember my brother," Kevin said solemnly. "Even though I'm furious with the two of you for going behind my back, who am I to stand in the way of true love? Macy, as much as it pains me to say this but you should go back to Nick. You love him and I'm pretty sure he loves you a lot."
"Kevin—
"No, Macy, I don't really want to hear anything else from you," Kevin said a bit harshly because even though he was being a good guy, it conflicted him that once again he had to cater to his brother. But deep down he knew this was the right thing to do since Macy never really loved him. "Because the more you speak, the more I'm going to be tempted to steal you away from him. So just leave it like this. I'm going to meet up some friends at the dining hall so I'll leave you by yourself. But you should-um- leave before I come back...Bye Macy."
Macy stared at him speechless. She watched him get dress and shut the door, leaving her completely by herself. With shaking hands, she opened the first letter. She read it and phrases that were on the piece of paper began to jump out at her:
I need my best friend…
I don't want to lose you…
You make me become a better person…
Please, don't leave me…
I really, REALLY LOVE YOU, NICK…
The more she read, the more these words transformed into keys that began to unlock a distant past. Her mind began to unravel as the truth slowly came into realization. Macy tried to read some more but it was difficult to concentrate on what she was looking at because tears were now flooding her eyes. She was sobbing now because Kevin was right…She chose the wrong brother. Her heart belonged to Nick. It always had. And now she remembered how harsh she was with Nick after their little tryst together…Her body began to tremble because she realized that she accused Nick of raping her—an act that was so detached from love. How could she have done that to him?
Macy got up from the bed and quickly put her clothes on. She ran all the way to the train station and demanded the next ride back. While still holding the letters in her hands, she looked over them again. The letter she read next was the one with the pregnancy scare. But this time she had to close her eyes because the memory itself manifested completely in her brain even before she finished reading the letter.
A Couple of Months Before
"MACY! MACY!" Nick called out to her when he spotted the petite brunette leaving the doors of Horace Mantis Academy.
"Nick! Hey," Macy said a bit uneasily. She looked around to make sure no one would notice anything different about them. They didn't want to give any clues about the extent of their relationship to their fellow peers. "Did you get my letter?"
"Yeah, I think we should talk," Nick said quietly. Thus, they waited for the parking lot to clear before Nick and Macy headed out. He parked his car in a secluded part of the park so that they wouldn't be seen. "What are we going to do?"
"I really don't know," Macy replied as she broke down and cried. Nick put an arm around her to comfort her. "I just can't be pregnant. You know what my mom will do to me? SHE'LL KILL ME! And then she's going to go after you and kill you too! And what about Kevin? Oh God, I can't even think about him...Nick, I can't do this alone…"
"Of course not, silly!" Nick said as he placed a light kiss on her forehead. "I'm going to be by your side every step of the way."
Macy shook her head and said honestly, "I can't make you do that. What about your career, the one where you pledged to stay pure and wholesome? If your fans found out about me being pregnant with your baby, do you know what that'll do to you, Nick? Everything you've been working very hard for will be gone."
"MACY! What do you take me for?" Nick said clearly offended by what she was trying to say. "Do you really think my music career is more important than you? Macy, you're everything to me and this baby is OURS. I'll do anything to be with you and even if my music career gets destroyed because of this, I don't care because you're much more important to me. I love you, Macy."
"Nick…" Macy whispered tenderly as she kissed him softly on his lips. "You don't how much it means to me to hear you say that."
"Macy, you should know I could never abandon you especially during this time," Nick assured her as he wrapped his arms around her even tighter. "I just can't believe it's happening so fast."
"Neither can I…" she agreed. "But there's still a chance that this could be a false alarm. The test I took was pretty cheap."
"Well, whatever the result is," he started off saying. "I'm going to be with you no matter what."
"I love you so much, Nick," Macy said as she kissed him passionately on the lips. "The idea of being pregnant is scary in itself but the fact that it's with you gives me strength. I know I can get through this because honestly, to have your baby is the greatest gift I could ever ask for. I just didn't know it would be so soon."
He listened to what she had to say and he agreed with her 100% because he too was comforted by the fact that it's Macy who will be carrying his child. He trusted her and loved her completely. And he couldn't think of anyone else worth having a baby with.
"Macy, just know that you can count on me," Nick assured her. "No matter what, I'm going to support you and our baby."
The two of them sat in his car embracing each other tightly as they watched the sun begin to set on the horizon. This was one of the times when they needed each other the most. And Macy was so lucky to have the greatest guy in the world be there for her.
The memory ended on that comforting note but Macy was now balling her eyes out. Nick was so self-less. He cared for her so much and look what she did to him? She left him heart-broken on her porch and she even had the nerve to say he tricked her into sleeping with him...How could she have forgotten him when all he ever did was love her unconditionally? And the fact that he was going to give up his music career for her sake just goes to show how much he genuinely cared for her.
Fellow passengers on the train were beginning to stare worriedly at her but Macy assured anyone who asked if she was okay that she was fine. She just needed some time alone. But what she wanted more than anything was for the train to travel at the speed of light so that she could be reunited with the love of her life—a love that she hoped to God that Nick was still willing to return. But what could she say to him? She was very sure that Nick was furious with her...She said some pretty hurtful things to him.
She began to weep a little louder when she recalled the last conversation she had with Nick. She couldn't believe she accused him of raping her. She remembered how hurt and devastated he looked after she claimed that he forced himself on her. SHE SCREWED UP BIG TIME. And when he tried to apologize, she didn't even want to hear what he had to say. He was only trying to help. He was right all along and she accused him of being a liar. She really did belong with him. Her mind was racing because the last thing they talked about was her trip to New York—the trip where Nick found out that Macy was planning to sleep with Kevin. Oh my god, Macy thought. Nick thinks I'm going to have sex with his brother at this very moment. She can't imagine how torn he is by this fact alone. She needed to make amends with him fast before he decides to give up on her completely. Will he be willing to listen to what she had to say?
Meanwhile, Nick was living life in a complete daze. He had no appetite whatsoever. All he would do is sit in the living room and watch television and it was always the same show on the Discovery Channel that he would always tune-in on: pro-bass fishing. It was Macy's favorite show. And he felt that this was his only connection he had left with her. It was pitiful to say the least how heartbroken he was because Nick never fell for a girl this hard before and he was a pretty emotional guy. His parents had given up trying to speak to him and Frankie was now scared of his brother so he chose to avoid him at all times. But Nick didn't care. In fact, he enjoyed the peace and quiet because he wanted to wallow in his own grief by himself. However, even during his time alone, all he could think about was the fact that Macy was planning to sleep with Kevin.
One night, his family went out for their traditional Friday dinner and movie night. It was supposed to be a family-filled night and Nick was forced to go with them to enjoy their Friday tradition but because he was in such a sour mood, his parents told him to just go home because he wasn't acting "very Lucas-like". So Nick went back to the firehouse even more upset because it really was pathetic that his break-up with Macy was taking its toll on him. He needed to forget her. But how? He had an urge to call Penny but he knew that would be stupid because he would probably do something he would regret later on.
But what he wanted more than anything was to lay on his bed and go to sleep. At least, during his dreams the Macy he encountered during his unconsciousness remembered him as the love of her life. He needed her. She was everything to him. It was dark in his room but he didn't even bother turning on his light. And he probably wouldn't have noticed anything amiss if it wasn't for her voice.
"Nick…" she said quietly. He knew that voice and immediately he turned to the corner of the room where she stood.
"Macy?" he said a bit hesitantly. Was his mind playing games with him?
She smiled weakly at him and she said nervously, "I've been trying to rehearse for a week now how I should say this…"
"How did you get in here?" Nick asked her a bit sternly because as much as he wanted to run up to her and kiss her, he couldn't help but remember the pain he felt the last time he saw her.
"Your window was unlocked. But Nick?…I remember everything," she confessed. "I want to be with you."
Even though those were the words that he wanted to hear, Nick couldn't look at her because the pain was still fresh and it was close to impossible for him to believe that she was there in his room. He didn't say anything because his eye-sight was getting blurry from the tears that were forming. Macy hesitantly stood in front of him. He wasn't saying anything. This was scaring her. Did Nick let her go for good?
"Nick, baby, I'm sorry," she apologized and she ran to him and gave him a hug. "Please say something…"
But this was just too much for Nick because so many different kinds of emotions were running through his mind. He was happy she was there asking for his forgiveness but he was also mad that it took her forever to remember him. And more importantly he felt hurt by the accusations she hurled at him the last time they had sex.
"I can't do this right now," Nick said as he pried her arms away from him. He turned around so that his back was towards her. He didn't want her to see him crying.
"Nick…I'M SORRY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME," she begged him desperately.
But Nick just shook his head as he became overcome with even more emotion.
It was now Macy who felt tears running down her cheeks and she said in between sobs, "So that's it, Nick? You don't want me anymore?"
For a few seconds, there was silence but then he finally spoke.
"Do you think I can just forgive you like that after you accused me of forcing myself on you? MACY, DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT DID TO ME? I couldn't live with myself knowing that you thought I tricked you…I would never dream of hurting you yet you really believed that I took advantage of you…Do you know how that made me feel, Macy? I felt so destroyed knowing that you thought I could be capable of…r-raping you. I felt so ashamed..."
"Nick, please forgive me! I know what I said was wrong but can you really blame me? I don't know why it took me forever to remember you but Nick, I'm here begging for your forgiveness because there's no way you can ever harm me. I was wrong. You didn't rape me. I know why you did that. You were only trying to help...Nick, baby please…TAKE ME BACK."
But Nick was shaking his head because he needed to control his tears. He wanted to take her back but he couldn't look at her because he was still hurt by her accusation.
"And then you said you were going to sleep with Kevin…" he said solemnly.
Macy gulped because she realized that was the last impression she left on him before she went to New York. So she quickly set his mind at ease by saying, "Nick, I didn't sleep with him."
"You didn't?"
"No, in fact he was the one who helped me remember you," she confessed as she looked at him, or rather his back hopefully. But Nick didn't turn around. Was this the end for them? "Nick, why can't you face me?"
"Because I need some time to think about this…"
But Macy was crying loudly now because this wasn't the reunion she was hoping for. She was hanging by a thread because she really wanted to be with him but right now, it seemed as if Nick didn't want anything to do with her. This was her worst fear and so she said:"Please, look at me, Nick...Please...Why can't you look at me?...Do you hate me that much?...I... knew it will be only a matter of time before you realized that I was a mistake. That's why you're acting like this...am I right?...But I'm so sorry, Nick, for all the trouble I caused you…Now...I wish I could've... just died in that accident…because the pain I'm feeling not knowing if you'll take me back...is worse than death…"
This time Nick had the courage to face her and yelled, "Don't say that! You weren't a mistake, Macy. And stop talking about death so lightly. There's more to life than me."
But Macy shook her head and admitted, "But it's true Nick. You're the only reason why I find life worth living. If it weren't for you I wouldn't be here right now. I would've taken my life that year when I felt so hopeless. But then you happened, Nick… You saved me...Please, Nick, I can't live without you..."
She was crying even louder as she reached the end of her rope. Nick wasn't saying anything and Macy took this as a sign to give up. She couldn't stand it. If he wanted to end things, then he needed to say it clearly without leaving her guessing.
"Just say it Nick...Say you don't want me anymore instead of making me wait here with my heart...on the verge of breaking. Say I was a mistake...because you know as much as I do that you wouldn't be in this situation if it wasn't for me. Tell me right now that you don't want me anymore and...I'll be gone forever."
Macy was staring at the floor the whole time she spoke because the tears were now pouring and the top of her shirt was now soaking wet. Her body was trembling because she didn't know what to do. She wanted to collapse on the floor and cry because it was clear that Nick no longer wanted her. It was the end for her.
Nick couldn't stand seeing her cry so he wrapped his arms around her and tenderly he stroked her hair and said quietly, "Don't say that, Macy. Because if I lost you, I wouldn't know what to do with myself."
Macy looked up at him hopefully and she was surprised to find that Nick was also crying.
"Nick—
"Shh…" he said to silence her and he tilted her head up very gently with his finger and kissed her lightly on the lips.
When they broke apart, Macy was smiling now and she asked him, "Does this mean you'll take me back?"
Nick smiled back at her and nodded his head.
"Macy, I'll never consider you a mistake because you're the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I love you. I always have. I don't think I could ever let you go even when I thought you did because Macy, I gave you my heart and to be honest, I don't think I can ever take it back."
"Nick…" she said tenderly as she wiped away the tears from his face. She never saw Nick cry before. It was truly heartbreaking so she kissed him lightly on the lips again and said, "I'm sorry about saying those awful things to you. I wasn't myself because there is no way you can ever hurt me, Nick. You were right. I wanted to do it as much as you did."
Nick was listening to what she had to say and then he felt her unbuckling his belt and she added, "I'm yours, Nick...only yours. You're the only one that I want..."
He looked at her and saw the utmost sincere love she had for him in her eyes. She really was his again. And that fact alone, made him the happiest he had ever been since the past few weeks. So this time he bent his head to close the gap between them but instead of the gentleness and tenderness he exhibited before, Nick kissed her fiercely because he wanted to show her how much he suffered. He needed her. Macy at first was taken aback by his forcefulness but she knew he needed this. So she wrapped her arms behind his neck tightly and Nick embraced her so that their bodies were tightly pressed against each other. Because she was petite, Nick was holding onto her without realizing that her feet was no longer touching the ground. She wrapped her legs around him so he carried her to his bed and there, they continued kissing each other with so much passion.
"I love you Nick," she confessed as she stared up at him. Nick was gazing down lovingly into her eyes.
"Macy, I love you, too."
And this time he kissed her again as his tongue played with hers. He felt her hands struggling to take his sweater off his body. When it finally came off, she tried removing his shirt but it was tucked tightly in his pants. Nick found it amusing how determined she was to strip him so he broke their kiss and with one steady movement he took off his shirt. He wanted to resume where they left off but he noticed that she was also removing her top. They stared at each other both half-naked and this time Macy reached her arms out to pull him back down again towards her. The two of them couldn't suppress their moans of satisfaction when they felt their bare chests make contact as they took comfort in each other's embrace.
"Yes, Nick," Macy moaned when she felt him kissing her weak spot. Unlike when she tried doing this with Kevin, she felt so comfortable being with Nick. Her body became hot with desire. And as if they had some connection telepathically, Nick stopped what he was doing because he needed to know something.
"Macy…" he whispered as he stared at her.
"What is it, Nick?"
"You said you didn't sleep with Kevin but…um…did you guys do stuff?" he asked her hesitantly because he needed to know if his brother saw more than he needed to see. Even though Nick knew what she could say could make him uneasy, he really wanted to know if his brother, who he was grateful for bringing Macy back to him, took advantage of her before his moral conscience steered him in the right direction.
"Well…um…" she hesitated because she could tell that Nick wouldn't want to hear what they did exactly. "We…um…kissed and-uh- there was a lot of touching."
Nick grimaced because images of them together flooded his brain but he needed to ask something even more, "Did he…um…see you?"
Macy knew what he meant and she shook her head, "I just took off my shirt but I was wearing a bra...He...uh... really didn't see anything...below that..."
This brought great comfort to the already stressed Lucas boy but because curiosity got the best of him, he asked her even further, "That's good to know...but did you-um- see him?"
Macy was blushing when she spoke next.
"No, not that part. But I saw his chest. That's it, I swear," she said quickly and added. "But trust me, Nick, I wasn't faze by anything."
Nick gave her his signature smirk because he was glad to hear that Macy wasn't turned on by his older brother.
"So I guess Kevin is finally accepting us…"
"Yeah. I was also surprised that he set me straight but now that I think about it, I think the fact that I moaned your name when he was kissing me could've played a big part in him coming clean."
"You moaned my name while you were with Kev?" Nick repeated with raised eyebrows.
"Yes, I did," Macy repeated seductively as she gently nibbled his ear and whispered, "Even if I didn't remember you, my body and heart knew what it wanted. But let's stop talking about your brother because, Nick, you're the only one who can drive me wild with desire. Come on, Nick...I'm yours...You don't have to hold back."
And Nick wasn't planning on being gentle because he wanted to show Macy how much he missed her mentally and physically. And so the intensity ensued but he made sure that he didn't hurt her. Their lips made contact once again but Macy was overwhelmed by how forceful Nick was making their kiss. It felt as if he wanted to suck her soul right out of her body. She tried to match his passion by pulling her head up to kiss him back fiercely and for awhile, Nick and Macy looked as if they were wrestling half-naked on his bed. They were rolling and turning so much that it was only a few minutes later when both of them fell off his bed and landed on the floor.
"OW!" Macy said since she was the one who fell first and hit her head.
"Macy, are you okay?" Nick asked her worriedly.
"Yeah, I'm fine but let's continue," she quickly assured him because she didn't want to stop doing what she was just doing with him and boy, did they continue because now Nick quickly discarded the rest of his clothes and he was eagerly helping Macy out of her pants and underwear. It was good to know that he was still the only guy who got to see Macy like this.
Because it felt like a beast inside of him woke up, he warned her, "Mace, I might not be able to control myself…I don't want to hurt you."
She looked up at him and stroked his cheek tenderly, "How many times do I have to tell you, Nick? There's no way you can hurt me. What I said before about you forcing yourself on me, wasn't the real Macy speaking. Because, Nick, I love you completely. You can have your way with me because I'm yours. My body is yours. Everything is yours. I belong to you—
As much as he wanted to hear her continue professing her love to him, Nick was once again consumed with desire as he kissed her passionately on the lips and whispered, "I belong to you, too, Macy."
After that moment, no words were spoken as Nick carefully spread her legs apart and pushed them up against her body so that he could have better access to her entrance. And with one forceful thrust, he was inside of her. Macy dug her fingers into his rug as Nick drove himself in and out of her with so much force. Because of their position, he was able to get into her even deeper than ever before causing Macy to moan loudly in complete ecstasy and satisfaction.
"Yes…OH GOD…YES…NICH-O-LASSS…" She moaned with every thrust he made.
But Macy wasn't the only one vocal since Nick found himself moaning her name incessantly.
"MACY…good-ness…gracious…Macy…Macy…Oh…MACY..."
Nick and Macy stared into each other's eyes as they continued their steady rhythm. She took his face in her hands and whispered, "Kiss me, Nick..."
And so he slowed down his pace as he dipped his head lower for yet another heart-warming kiss. With their lips still connected, Macy brought her hips up to meet his so that she could feel more of him inside of her. Their bodies were touching at all points. They were figuratively and literally one with each other.
The tightness and wetness of her passage left Nick wanting more and more of her. Just being inside of her was confirmation that Macy was truly his again. Yes, they had a very, VERY physical relationship with each other. Because Nick wasn't a man of many words, the act of sex in itself spoke volumes for him and Macy because both of them treasured such an intimate act as a sign proving how close and comfortable they really were with each other. Nick knew her body inside out and the same thing went for Macy.
But Nick didn't just drive himself in and out of her in a steady rhythm. She felt his left hand snake down her body and very gently he began to caress her very sensitive nub of flesh right above where they were connected. This caused Macy to go numb with pleasure. She knew she was going to reach her climax sooner than expected because of the way Nick was satisfying her body. Nick felt her inner walls tighten around his manhood causing extra stimulation for him to reach his peak. They were both panting heavily now but the intensity only increased. Nick brought his head down to kiss her overpoweringly on the lips. He was grunting loudly in her mouth as he felt his own hardened member twitch with sexual gratification. His pace quickened even more which satisfied the petite girl immensely because she was rubbing her leg up and down his side urging him to go in deeper and faster.
"More…Nick…A little more…that's it…Keep going…YES," she moaned erotically. Because pleasure overcame her, she didn't realize that she was scratching her nails down his back. Nick felt it and he winced in pain since he was sure her scratches drew blood. Those will definitely leave some marks.
"Macy…you need…to…OH YES…let go…because…I'm about to…co-
"It's okay, Nick," she interrupted him as she tried to concentrate on the sensation Nick was giving her. "It's safe for you to stay inside of me…Oh god…Nick…please…go faster…"
However, they were unaware that when they both fell off his bed, Macy's phone, which she kept in the back pocket of her pants, accidentally dialed the last number she called, leaving one of their mutual friends to hear them in one of their most intimate and private moments.
"Hello? Macy? Hello?" Stella said when she picked up her phone. At first she didn't hear anything. From what she could make out, there was a lot of moving going on and jagged breaths. Was she exercising? She checked the caller ID again and sure enough it said Macy. Macy probably accidentally called her but before she hung up she distinctively heard the brunette girl say in a rather breathless voice, "Oh god…Nick…please…go faster…"
"Is this better?" she heard Nick ask her and by the sound of more movement, it seemed that he did indeed pick up the speed.
"YES…OH YES…that's it…Nick," Macy yelled in pure satisfaction.
It left little imagination for the blonde hair girl to figure out what her best friend was doing and who she was doing it with. Joe, who was sitting opposite from Stella in the Italian restaurant they were dining in, noticed the flustered look on his girlfriend's face.
"What is it, Stella?" he asked her curiously.
"That what just a call from Macy."
"Well, what did she say?"
"Um…she didn't exactly say anything, really…well not to me at least."
"Huh?" Joe said utterly clueless.
Stella chuckled and said in great amusement, "I think it's safe to say that Macy and Nick are definitely back together."
"How do you know that?" Joe asked her innocently.
She could feel her cheeks blushing even more and said, "Let's just say that the two of them are pretty busy at the moment."
Meanwhile, back in his room, Nick cradled Macy in his arms as they rested after their whole "intense reunion". They didn't bother moving back onto his bed because they were too exhausted to move. So they laid on his floor completely content with life.
Macy let out a loud sigh of pure satisfaction and turned her head to face Nick.
"How on earth did I forget all that?" she asked him in complete amazement.
"I have no idea," Nick answered matter of factly. He was in a daze because he felt so good both physically and mentally. He was beyond ecstatic to have Macy back.
She snuggled even closer to him but Nick tilted her head a bit so that she could expose her neck to him. She knew what he wanted to do. Every time the two of them made love, Nick always left his mark on her. He was a very possessive boy so by giving her a hickey it became a seal to show to the world that Macy was his and no one should dare take her away from him. So she laid still as Nick attacked a particular spot on her neck. While he did this, she gently caressed his back and ran her fingers through his hair.
"Nick," she gently called his name while he continued to suck on her skin.
"What is it?" he asked her when he broke away from her neck but this time he placed soft kisses along her jaw and worked his way up to her ear, which he gently nibbled.
"I think we should both thank Kevin," Macy finally said as she tried pushing Nick away because it was getting hard for her to speak, especially since Nick was now kissing down her body. "In any way you look at it, he was the one who brought us back together."
Nick stopped what he was doing and gazed unwaveringly into her eyes. She had a point. Even though he was furious with his oldest brother, he finally came around. Kevin brought Macy back to him. And he was really thankful that he did that because Kevin could have easily stolen Macy away from him.
"Yeah, you're right," Nick agreed. "And I think we should both try to apologize again. I mean he really loved you, Mace."
"I know," she replied quietly. "If there's one good thing that came out of this whole ordeal, it's that Kevin finally accepted us, Nick. He's starting to acknowledge our relationship on his own and I think that's the best way for him to move on because he can finally let me go."
Nick nodded his head and said, "That's true and I should also apologize for calling him an asshole and punching him."
"You hit Kevin?" Macy asked him quite shocked because she can't picture Nick using any form of violence. He was such a calm and nice guy.
"Yeah it was after we-um- had sex that afternoon. But I mean I was so furious with him because I really thought Kevin was going to steal you away. But I feel so bad especially now because he's the one who brought you back to me," Nick confessed. "Maybe we can go see him this weekend?"
"Sure," Macy said happily as she embraced Nick even tighter. "Anyway...the night's still young…I was wondering if you wanted to…um…do it again?"
Nick stared at her wide-eyed because he was still worn out from before.
"Are you serious, Mace? You're not tired?' he asked her incredulously.
She shook her head and said, "And I was wondering…if…this time…um…"
Macy was blushing hard now which caused Nick to become very concerned.
"What is it, Macy?"
She avoided his gaze because she was still embarrassed asking him what she wanted him to do, "I was wondering if this time…you could-um-wear your aviators?"
Nick looked at her appalled.
"No, Macy, I'm not going to wear my sunglasses!" he retorted as he loosened his embrace around her.
"Oh come on, Nick! Didn't you offer last time?" she pointed out, while she propped herself up on her elbows to get a better look at him.
"Well, that's because I was desperate to make you remember me," answered Nick. "The offer is no longer valid. Besides you were the one who said it was kinky!"
Macy scrunched her nose because she couldn't believe she missed her chance to fulfill one of her sexual fantasies.
"But I wasn't thinking straight. I don't mind now. Please, Nick?"
"NO!"
"Hmph!" Macy said clearly upset that Nick wasn't going to give in and then she thought of something. "If you wear your sunglasses, I might do that thing that you wanted me to try on you before but I was just too scared to do."
This piqued his interest.
"Really?" he asked her as shifted his position slightly.
"Yup," she replied seductively as she pressed her body against his. "That is only if you wear your aviators...So what do you say, Nicholas?"
Nick was going to actually accept her offer but then he reconsidered because it really was kinky. Nick was the most proper boy after all so as much as he wanted to be 'adventurous' with Macy he had his limitations.
"No, I can't do it," he said flat out. "You have your memory back so there's no reason for me to wear them."
Crap. She can't believe she passed up a once in a lifetime offer, all because she forgot who Nick was to her. She pouted her lips but because Macy was still aroused and she really wanted Nick to fulfill her fetish, she jokingly feigned her memory loss and said, "Hm…where am I? Who am I? I don't remember anything! Who are you, young man? Do I know you? Hm…What could you do to help me remember you…perhaps you can wear something..."
Nick glared at her because he knew exactly what she was doing and said, "Quit joking around, Mace."
She laughed out loud because she knew she was being ridiculous. But that just proved that Macy was back to normal because she always loved to joke around even during their most intimate moments. And so the two lovers took comfort laying next to each other. And Macy gave up her attempts to get Nick to wear his sunglasses but that didn't mean the two of them didn't stop doing some daring acts.
And so, the drama began to die down between Nick, Macy, and Kevin. The secrecy, lies, and deception reached its peak destroying the three individuals involved. However, in the end the reign of love prevailed. Nick had Macy. Macy was his again. It was as it should have been in the very beginning. However, it was unfortunate that Kevin was lured into their tangled love life. But if there was one thing that Kevin learned in this situation it's that love in all its forms always finds a way to win in the end. His time will come. He'll find his own princess. He just needs to keep on looking. As one smart girl once told him, you should never give up on love.
It was a beautiful Saturday morning and Nick and Macy went over exactly what they wanted to say to him. They freed their whole Saturday to visit Kevin at NYU. Unlike Macy who went for the 'whatever-comes-to-her-mind-approach', Nick typed up a two page speech to explain himself. It was a typical Nick Lucas thing to do because he always wanted to come prepared and even though it was his brother, Nick needed to make sure everything that needed to be said was out in the open. He didn't want to have anymore secrets between him and his brother. The two of them woke up extra early just to bake a fresh batch of blueberry muffins as a peace offering if anything.
"I'm nervous," Macy said but Nick gave her hand a comforting squeeze.
"Don't worry. I'm here," Nick assured her. But the Lucas boy was honestly just as scared as her because the last time he saw his brother was during their fight. However, when they knocked on Kevin's door in his NYU dorm, there was no response.
"Are you looking for Kevin?" asked one of his college dorm-mates.
"Yeah. Do you know where he is?" Nick asked him.
"Well, last time I heard he went out on a date with a girl named Danielle…that was last night," the boy replied with a rather amused expression on his face. "God knows when he'll be coming back…you know what I mean? HAHAHAHA."
A blush came across their cheeks when they realized what the boy was implying. Nick and Macy both exchanged a glance with each other.
"Woah. Someone got lucky last night," Macy stated the obvious.
"We should come back another time, then," Nick replied. "I'm surprised that Kevin moved on fast. I guess you're forgettable, Mace."
"HEY!"
"I mean that in the nicest way possible," Nick defended himself. "It just means that he's finally letting you go. You're not forgettable to me, Mace!"
He embraced her to show that he didn't mean to offend her but Macy really didn't take offense because she was in a way happy that Kevin was finally moving on. It will only be a matter of time before he'll find his one true love.
"Hey, Nick?"
"What is it?"
"Since we don't know when Kev will be back, why don't we have a little picnic date at Central Park," Macy suggested. "We can eat your muffins and maybe go ice-skating there."
"Sure. That sounds fun. We don't want to waste our trip to the city."
"Yup," Macy said as she planted a quick kiss on his lips. "And this time, when we go ice skating, I'm going to hold onto your hand."
Nick laughed because he remembered the last time they went ice-skating and how Macy ignored him because she was too busy helping Kevin. But because they were back to their usual selves, he teased, "No, I don't think I want to hold your hand."
"WHAT! Why?"
"You skate too slow, Mace," Nick said. "You're just going to hold me back."
"WHAT! You got to be kidding me," Macy retorted. "I'm one of the fastest skaters out there."
"Uh-huh. Okaaay."
"Nicholas Lucas! I'll show you," Macy said loudly. And so the young couple argued the whole way to Central Park about who can skate the fastest but when they got there, Nick ended up holding her hand because to be honest, he wouldn't have it any other way. And he will never let her go no matter what because she completed him. She was his other half. If there was one thing this whole ordeal taught them, it was that neither one of them can live without the other. And thus a story that started off with so much trouble had a fairy tale ending for Nick and Macy. And slowly but surely, Kevin was on his way to create his own happy ending. It will only be a matter of time before things returned back to normal.
The End.
Closing Remarks:
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Once again this was a long chapter (11,000+ words) so I'm sorry if I forgot to fix some typos!
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