Chapter 9:

No one POV

"Not our son, Austin, mine, and he is not here anymore, he is dead. Well he really was alive for 24 hours but still." Dez told Austin harshly, leaving the blonde even more confused.

"What?" Was all he was able to let out of his mouth hearing what his best friend said.

"It was about 18 months ago…" Dez started but was cut off by Trish.

"It's a long story, Dez we really shouldn't go in to it now guys it's late." Trish lied looking at the redhead. The truthwas Trish didn't want to live what happened again, it was enough that it happened anyway and the fact DJ and his mom came in her dreams almost every night, blaming her for what happened, even though it was obvious it couldn't be avoided, Trish saw herself as the guilty one, the fact DJ's maternal grandparents blamed her for what happened to their daughter and grandson.

"It's not that long story, but I know that you don't want to hear it again though maybe if you hear the all story again you would stop blaming yourself for what happened, since what happened was not your fault!" Dez told her. Did I mention that Trish is feeling that way even though Dez kept telling her that it wasn't her fault? Well he did, but Trish who is more stubborn than anyone you would have ever met or will meet in the future, won't realize it.

"Yeah well Carrie's parents don't seem to think so!" She said angry, but kept the volume down, remembering the sleeping child in the room down the hall.

"Who is Carrie?" Austin asked, confused more and more each minute that passed.

"Just tell him Dez, I'm going to Anna's room, I am tried, just come get me when you want to go home." Trish said quietly, getting up for on the sofa. She was still feeling guilty, no matter what her fiancé said, she knew that he didn't really mean it, but said it only to make her feel good with herself.

"Are you sure?" Dez asked.

"Yeah, I'll just go make sure Anna's okay and take a nap on her window seat." she said and without another word she headed to the child's room. Few seconds later the two men heard the soft sound of the door being closed.

"Okay Austin I will tell you everything, please don't interrupt me, okay?" Dez said in the blonde nodded, he wanted to understand what was going on with his friends.

"Like I said before it all started about 18 months ago, around the time Anna was diagnosed." Dez started.

Flash back

Dez and Trish were fighting, again. They have been fighting for the past 3 weeks, actually, everything started about a week after Anna was released from the hospital. Dez was always worried about the girl and her mother, and didn't want to leave them alone. Trish on the other hand, while being worried about her god daughter and her best friend, she knew that Ally and Anna didn't need them there all the time, Ally was perfectly capable of caring for her daughter.

Dos conflicted opinions drown the capital to stop fighting. They fought about the smallest things but if you didn't know about water fighting about, using the door fighting about matters so critical that can have a life or death consequences.

Needless to say Ally hated those arguments and fights, can just wanted some peace to be able to care for her little girl. So when one day Dez came home angry about all he and Trish fought about, she had enough so didn't let him in, but told him to go to Trish' hotel room and apologize so that they can work everything through.

Dez' anger didn't let him do that, so instead of going to Trish he went to a bar. Already being 21 he was allowed in and started to drink is anger. He drunk few drinks even after losing a sobriety and right mind.

The next morning he woke up with a headache then he felt a head on his chest looking down he saw a woman who looked to be around his age. He of course freaked out, sensing he had no clothes on and a woman, who was not his girlfriend, was sharing a bed with him, a bed he didn't recognize.

Before he could figure out what happened to the woman woke up and once she saw him she tried to kiss him, which of course he didn't let her.

After they got dressed, they sat in her living room, as it was her apartment which they woke up in, with a cup of coffee. They drunk their coffee silently, neither wanted to break the silence, or rather wanting as it was an awkward silence, but not knowing what to say. The only spoken their names, he told her he's name was Dez, and she told him her name is Carrie.

At last it was Dez who broke the awkward silence, my asking her if she remembers what happened the previous night.

Her head, which was down, snapped up by the sound of his voice. "Look I came to the club, and saw you sitting and drinking, I thought you looked upset so I came to you and we start talking, you told me about your ex girlfriend and how you keep fighting and something about a little girl who is not your daughter, I suggested that we should go to the dance floor and dance. You agree then after dancing and beast you start kissing me we went up to my apartment and well you know the rest..." She said recalling all she remembered from the events from the night before.

"Yeah, I know the rest." Dez said, the frustration he felt about the all thing clear in his voice.

"Why are you so frustrated about it? I mean, so what we had a one night stand, now we can just go to our separate ways and never contact each other again. Don't worry it's not like I have some disease or something, I promise!" Carrie said, raising her hands as if she was defending herself.

"I am, not talking about that! I am talking about the fact that by sleeping with you last night I cheated on my girlfriend, who I love so much and want to marry, but now she would break up with me and would never want to see me again!" Dez said angry and frustrate.

"What? Last night you said you two broke up! I can't believe I slept with someone else's boyfriend!" Carrie exclaimed.

"How do you think I feel? I am the one who cheated on my girlfriend!"

"Look, maybe it's the best if you go, go to your girlfriend, and tell her what happened, don't let her find out from another source, it would be much worse." Carrie said, and got up.

"Okay, look, I am sorry, for everything." Dez said, in that moment he thought he apologized for sleeping with her without meaning, he didn't know he was really apologized for something much bigger, much much bigger.

"You have nothing to apologize for, I was the sober one last night, anyway, goodbye, and please don't take it the wrong way when I say I wish I would never see you again."

Dez chuckled. "Well, goodbye and I hope I never see you again, and if I do it would be under better circumstances." He said with a small, hint of a smile. He then got up and went to the door and left.

After leaving Carrie's he went to Trish, he apologized for all the fights and arguments they had the past few weeks, and just as she said she forgives him and went to kiss him, he stopped her. He couldn't let her kissing him without knowing about his betrayal. So he told her everything, from reaching the apartment he shared with Ally and her not letting him in, to going to club and waking up next to Carrie and their talk that morning.

After he told her everything she slapped him, hard. But then she hugged him, and told him that it's okay, he was drunk, and at least he was honest and told her everything straight away.

For the next five months everything was fine, Anna got better, Ally got used to their new lives and the relationship of Dez and Trish got better and stronger, neither forgot the betrayal, but they didn't speak of it.

Everything was good, that is until one day Dez opened the door and saw Carrie at the doorway, an obvious baby bump was formed in her midsection, her face were stained from tears and bruise was forming on her cheek.

"Carrie." Was Dez was able to say as he saw the woman whom he cheated on his girlfriend with.

"Dez, who is at the door?" Ally asked as she came to the door, wandering why her friend didn't come back to the table where they were eating lunch. "Who are you?" Ally asked Carrie as she reached the door and saw a woman she did not recognize there.

"Ally, this is Carrie." Dez introduced his friend to the woman at the door.

"Carrie, as in the one you…" She asked Dez. She knew about the incident, and now that she saw the woman, who was clearly pregnant, she knew exactly what's going on.

"Yes, that Carrie." Dez answered.

"Dez, can I please talk to you?" Carrie asked him, finally speaking.

"Yeah, sure, Ally, we will be in the living room, okay?" Dez asked the other woman, who felt really out of place and awkward.

"Sure, I will make sure Anna stays away.' She said and turned to go.

"Thanks Als." He said and only got a nod in replay.

"Carrie what are you doing here? How did you know where I live? And what happened?" Dez asked her, in his last question he pointed to the bruise on her face.

"First I found you by goggling your name; you would maybe be surprised to find that you are the only 'Dez' in all New York." She said, giggling a bit, bef0re her face turned serious. "Look, I am here because I need help and as you can see I am pregnant, and the baby is yours." She said and stopped to let him take everything in.

"What? How do you know it's mine?" He asked.

"I know because you are the only option, I have only been with two men in the past seven months, my ex and you, and my ex can't have children. And this baby is not a 'it' this baby is a 'he'." She explained.

"You mean I am about to become a father and I m gonna have a son?" He asked, his voice had some excitement in it. He always wanted to be a father, especially since Anna came into his life, he was practically raising her with Ally, but he was just Uncle Dez, he wanted to be Daddy!

"Yeah."

"What about that bruise? What happened?" Dez asked concerned.

"That would be my ex, we got back together a week after the night we were together and then I found out about the pregnancy I thought he was the father, but two days ago he found out from his doctor that he can't have children, because of some medical stuff, he got home and got do med at me, when I told him had a night with someone about a week before I got back with him, he got med, said I cheated and started to beat me up, Dez I am afraid of my baby, that's why I came!" she explained, at some point in her story she started to cry.

"Don't worry, I'll take you to the doctor and we will make sure everything is okay, don't worry." Dez told her, while holding her hand.

"Thank you." She said quietly.

Dez took her to the doctors that day, and they made sure their little baby boy was okay.

Later that day Dez called Trish to come to their apartment and they told her, at first she was angry but then Carrie told her that she is sorry but she was thinking that maybe she would give Dez full custody, and she would only have their son for a weekend every other week and in birthdays and so, since she knew she can't care for him on her own. Trish realized that this boy was Dez' son, whatever she liked it or not, and this boy was going to grow up with Dez and if she wanted to be with Dez, which was what she wanted since she loved him, she had to accept him. So she agreed to raise him as her own but with Carrie as his mother.

Everything was okay, that is until everything went downhill two months later when Carrie was eight months pregnant. Dez and Trish found an apartment, he moved out from the apartment he shared with Ally and she moved out from her parents' home in Miami. At that time Austin was on a mini tour in the West Coast so he didn't even know what was happening.

It all happened on a sunny Wednesday morning. Dez was at work and Carrie had an appointment with her doctor and so Trish took her.

When they reached the doctor's they had to climb 16 stairs to reach the second floor, and even though Trish told her that they should take the elevator, Carrie insisted on taking the stairs, saying that the exercise was good for the baby.

They climbed and they were on the last stair. Trish climbed it and when she looked back she saw Carrie put a hand on her abdomen and not climbing the last stair. When she asked what happened, Carrie didn't answer, so Trish was about to put a hand on her shoulder, think the other woman didn't hear her, but suddenly Carrie let out a piercing scream and folded herself as if she wanted to go into fetuses position, her knees gave up and she fell backwards, falling all 16 stairs hitting both her head and abdomen. Trish screamed for help.

That night the doctors in the hospital preformed an emergency C-section to try to save the baby, even though Carrie died before even reaching the hospital. The baby was born really small as he was born on the 33th week, and was rushed to the NICU.

Dez and Trish named him Dezmond Wade Junior, just like Carrie wanted. But 23 hours later, little Dez junior's little lungs and heart gave up and the doctors couldn't do anything but call time of death.

End of flashback

"So then, Carrie's parents blamed Trish for Carrie and DJ's death, said she did it on purpose, because DJ was Carrie's and mine not hers and that she was jealous, I think that it's complete bull, Trish wanted DJ and Carrie and her became pretty good friends, they were decorating the nursery and couldn't wait for him to be born." Dez said after telling Austin about everything that happened to his son.

"I am really sorry Dez, and from what you told me, Trish had nothing to do with their death." Austin said. He felt horrible for Dez and Trish, he never last a child but now that he had Anna he couldn't let anything happened to her.

"Yeah, me too." Dez said, his voice had no feelings in it. "I think it's time for Trish and me to go home." He added and got up.

"Yeah, you are right." Austin said and Dez went to get Trish and after a quick goodbye and a promise to come by tomorrow after they visit Ally they left.

Austin made sure the doors and windows were locked and then went to get ready to bed. When he was ready he went to Anna's room. After he made sure her blankets were covering her totally and that her injured arm was elevated on a pillow like the doctors said it needed to be, he just stood there, looking at his sleeping daughter and thought how much his live change in the past 4 days. Only four days ago he was a hart broken men who just wanted to go to sleep and to never wake up, and now, now he was a father, and his daughter needed him now more than ever.

"I love you baby girl, and I promise you I will never let anything happen to you!" He whispered quietly and kissed her forehead.

He quietly left the room, leaving the door open so that if she would call at night he would hear her, and went to Ally's bedroom, where he would sleep for the next days, until Ally wakes up.