Update! Vaguely light hearted chapter, so I'm not piling on the angst. Because that's definitely a thing that will happen. In the future.


It's a cruel world, and I can't blame myself for hating it completely.

Okay, I'm lying, and this should probably be credited. I love it. I love this world too, too much for it to be okay, when all I've ever wanted to do was get back home, to see my first family and have them hug me and slap my old enemies and hug my old friends, but I can't do that when I've gotten so stupidly attached.

I'm an idiot. I'm a huge, huge idiot. I can't imagine going home anymore, not that I even could after I... died.

I would leave behind all the people. Okay, maybe not all the people, but...

A sound alerts me that I'm needed elsewhere.

Training time. I'll go out into an open area and stretch, practice katas, jutsus, exercises... It's monotonous and somewhat painful. Only the occasional noise blocks out my thoughts. Mindlessness is what I'd like to achieve, but at the same time I feel like I need to think more.

I'm a lot more in shape than I was the last time I was this age, although that's not to say I wasn't in shape. I used to do dance class, gymnastics, and cheer leading I loved to dance. I still do, but it's usually a music-less balter, in the privacy of my bedroom. I miss my music. I miss singing loudly and breaking out into song when someone says a certain word like I'm in High School Musical or something. Like: Naruto: The Musical! ...I probably would have seen it. Would I have?

I don't have a lot of jutsus to practice. There's the academy crap that is unfortunately more difficult than it would seem on-show, a few Uchiha jutsus from scrolls Sasuke and I found in a house wide expedition, and, of course, there's experimental things.

Which I should not be experimenting with [Don't do bad science, kids], but I'm reckless and arrogant because of my genetics, and I'm gonna get myself killed, but not training, so I'm more careful than I would like to be.

I'm better than pretty much everyone in my grade with chakra control, and most kids in the Academy other than Hyugas. Which still doesn't help me build my reserves from 'more than more than most kids but basically shit' to literally anything else. I'm impatient. Guess who's dying on her first mission? If you guessed Uchiha Kaiya, you guessed absolutely freaking correct. Congrats, you've won the prize of watching me try to pull my hair out.

My sarcasm's becoming more evident with the teachers, as well. I've been seeing some disapproving looks. Is it the correct time to say, "#YOLO"? Yeah, it never is. Especially considering how I got here, you know. After dying. You only live several times! If I said that out loud, I think someone would punch me in the face.

Tch.

I'm almost done with my practices, so I'm planning on going to my favorite place to walk around and spy on people—The market in the town square. I'm going to waste a lot of money and feel happy about it when it's over! Besides, I need more pencils, so that's my reasoning.


Sasuke's making dinner tonight, so I can stay out in the town square a little longer than usual. We have a schedule. I take it more seriously than death.

I'd like to see if I can find western food—it's a little game of mine. One time someone was selling 'sliced potatoes' and I flipped my shit so hard. But usually, I can find cakes and such that you would probably not find in Japan. Then again, where Konoha would be placed in time is a little wonky.

I figure the future. Years, years after a horrifying human purge, the groups of people survived and evolved and forgot, and used old technology they found, and came to create society again. It's a truly beautiful fantasy. I waste way too much time thinking about crap like this, and that's why I only have a 98 in my classes.

I scan over everything again, and I'm become disappointed. There's no western food today, but there is... Wait, is that Kakashi? Oh my god. Do I talk to this guy? He'll be a pretty important person in two of the most important people in my life's lives. I'm gonna bump into him. And then apologize in the rudest possible way. He's not even dressed like a ninja. I can show disrespect.

...Should I?

I bump into him while I'm thinking about bumping into him. Fuck you, choices that choose themselves if you don't choose them in enough time.

"Sorry," He states amusedly. "You were in the way."

I'm gonna kill this guy, oh my god. I'm gonna kill him with troll logic.

"Well if you had noticed that I was in the way, which you probably would have, considering you're a ninja. Don't try and hide it, you're wearing shinobi clothes, the way you hold yourself, in a way that you can defend yourself at a moment's notice. Plus, you've got a mask on, and since it's not flu season, it's highly unlikely that you're sick. So, you bumped into me on purpose. Wow, what a pedophile, you dirty scum. Trying to feel up a little girl, have you no shame? Go fuck yourself," I said vehemently. I turned around and walked briskly back to the Uchiha district while he was protesting.

I won that fight. I definitely won my first fight with a jounin. I'm going to bake a cake.

...Okay, maybe not because that sounded so immature, the whole speech. I feel like a twelve point nine year old on Reddit trying to argue why sexism is okay. Kakashi is going to ruin my life now.

Okay, he's a mature adult, so probably not, right?

Who am I even thinking of kidding? I'm doomed.


Doomed? This isn't the nineties, jeez, Kaiya. Well, I'm sure your awful vocabulary will stop once I take over my body again and kill off your personality. Swoon.


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