Driving away, I let my mind wander. What would I do now? Bella would undoubtedly hate me. And who could blame her? I nearly took her life, all for something within me, which I had no desire to resurrect in my thoughts. My eyes strayed from the road to stare at my reflection in the rear-view mirror. My eyes, despite their usual gold color, were pitch black with red clearly visible near my pupil. I took a labored breath and planned my escape. Looking down, I took note of my nearly empty gas tank. Driving was certainly out of the question. A new plan formed in my head. I would drop my car at the house and run west. That would give me plenty of time to think, and no boundaries grouped with using a car. I cringed in making this decision just as my phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled it out and answered it, not checking to see who was calling.

"Alice." I stated in a monotone voice.

"Edward, please, we can figure something out. Just don't leave again. I don't think any of us could stand it if you went there again." I nodded, catching the double meaning in her words. She referred, obviously, to my going into the deep and dark depths that were depression and my trip to Italy. Both of which, I knew I would not be seeing any time in the near future.

"Alice," I repeated, "I'm not leaving in that sense. I'm none too in control of myself at the moment, so I need to take a little... vacation, to clear my head." I sighed and let my eyes wander again. "At any rate, I couldn't face the family in my state." I added, my reflection catching my attention again.

"All right, just don't be long. And Edward, please take care of yourself. For Bella." I could feel the sorrow in her voice. If anyone, she was the one who would hate me leaving most, at the moment.

"Don't worry, I will. And Alice, could you do me couple of small favors? If I were to leave the car a mile or so out from the house, could you pick it up? I'd take it, but it's nearly out of gas. And more importantly, keep a close watch over Bella for me. I'd hate for her to be hurt with that dog while I'm away." My lips pulled up over my teeth in rage, and I concentrated on not hurting my steering wheel.

"I will. Please be careful, Edward. Bye." I shut my phone off and threw it into the center consol. I was already at my pre-planned parking spot, so I pulled over and climbed out, leaving the cell phone in the car for Alice. I could hear her nearing the area from the southeast, so I ran as fast as I was capable in the opposite direction. I let my knowledge of the country ahead of me fill my thoughts. Planning routes and hunting grounds, staying away from all signs of humanity and as far into the thick northwestern forest as was possible. Anything to keep her out of my head. Anything, to keep me from losing my mind.


A/N: Okay, here you go. This is the second chapter in Edward's point of view. Obviously, it's not all of chapter two. If you remember correctly, chapter two is over the course of about a week, and Bella was numb, in many ways. The time passed unnoticed and in a blur. But with Edward, the week dragged on, minute by minute, with the guilt of hurting his beloved and the horror that she might not take him back. All in all, the week will probably be summed up in a chapter or two, seeing as it's the same thing everyday. Why would I want to bore you with that?

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