Hey! I know it's been ages since my last update, but I had a fair bit of homework and catching up to do for school. I have decided to update twice a week, or at least once a week. I am so sorry for leaving you all hanging, but I hope this makes up for it. I am truly thankful for every single review, favourite and follow. You guys make me wake up and go to bed with a smile. I would like to give a very special thanks to the incredible RebeccaRipple, my lovely beta reader and friend, for making my life so much easier.

Disclaimer: I do not own Glee… If I did, the episodes would come out in Australia at the same time as in America…

Santana's face is unreadable as I reach the doors to the cafeteria. I begin to get nervous. Is she going to tell me I can't be her friend anymore? Because I don't think I could take it if she does.

We reach the library, and I take a deep breath before stepping in, letting Santana get a few steps ahead of me before I start following her again. Her hips sway slightly and her ponytail swings from side to side as she walks. I close my eyes and shake my head, reminding myself that it wasn't Santana; it was Emily that I see.

Santana turns on one of the library computers, and the screen appears much too quickly for my liking. I don't know what is happening, but I sense it can't be good. She goes onto the Internet, my curiosity peaking now.

"I hope you don't mind, but after you came over to my house, I was so blown away by your voice, so I decided to see if I could find any videos of you singing…" Santana's voice is tentative, and she keeps her eyes on the screen as she goes onto YouTube. I do not like where this is going.

"There are some amazing ones of you, Rach, you are truly talented. But, what I noticed was that they were all before…" Santana clears her throat, not knowing how to say that they were all before my accident. This can't be all this is about though, right?

"Then I found this one. I- Well, here it is." I go into shock as I recognise the title and thumbnail of the video. Oh, no. Not that. She clicks on the video and as it starts I am hit with the memories from that day.

-Flashback-

"Emily, camera shy?" I giggled a little and Emily's face went bright red.

"No!" Her voice contradicted her face and she smiled when she realised I was just teasing her.

"Okay, maybe a little." Emily's laugh made me smile even wider. I pulled her into a hug, kissing her forehead. "As much as I want to stay in your arms, we have a video to shoot," Emily said suddenly, gently pushing me away.

"Alright, then." I walked over to the camera, and pressed on the recording button. I gestured to Emily, who started off, her voice a little off pitch, but nice none-the-less.

You're stuck on me

and my laughing eyes

I can't pretend though

I try to hide, I like you

I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat

I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe, you got me, yeah

You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet

And that crooked smile of yours

it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough

Find my stoup I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of.

I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.

Cause no matter what I do,

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like

Livin each day in this life, without you.

Without you.

One look from you I know you understand

This mess we're in

you know is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough

Find my stoup I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of.

I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.

Cause no matter what I do,

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way

I know we will

and in my heart I know that

you'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough

Find my stoup I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.

Cause no matter what I do

Oh, I just can't get enough

Find my stoup I need to fill me up

It feels so good it musIt's everything that I've been dreaming of.t be love

I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.

Cause no matter what I do,

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

Oh (oh)

You got me. You got me.

Oh (oh)

You got me. You got me.

We had drifted together while singing, out of habit, I guess. I looked into her eyes, muttering, "I love you," as our lips met. I didn't realise that the camera was still rolling for another 30 seconds or so, and I walked over and turned it off, smiling at my girlfriend the entire time.

-End Flashback-

The video ends and I cast my eyes down, not meeting Santana's gaze.

"That was Emily, wasn't it? My cousin." It is more a statement than a question but I nod, confirming it. My heart starts breaking all over again and it hurts to stand. Looking back at that, knowing what she did to me, it kills me to see how much I trusted and loved her. I walk back a few steps and sit down on the table, not noticing the tears coming out of my eyes until I hear myself sobbing.

"She hurt you." Santana breathes, and this time I don't answer. Instead, I continue crying, my chest heaving up and down. I sense Santana sitting next to me, and she wraps her arms around me, hugging me. I don't stop crying, but I am immediately comforted.

I try to tell myself it's because of Emily, but this time I don't truly believe it. Santana's hug is nothing like Emily's hugs. Emily's hugs were always missing something. She had always felt awkward in my arms, like she didn't quite fit. She was never completely comfortable hugging me, it was obvious, but I had always cast that thought away, thinking I must have been imagining it.

Santana's hug felt different. It offered warmth, and comfort. I could feel her heart beat against my head, and it felt like I had something I hadn't had for years. It felt like home.

My sobs faded away and I looked up at her. This time it's Santana who doesn't meet my eyes. She clears her throat and stands up. "Are you coming?" She says suddenly. I take a second to collect my thoughts and stand up as well.

"Yes." We walk back to the cafeteria, more distance between us than usual, or so it seems. My thoughts drift back to Emily, and I feel a surge of anger rush through me, even though she is dead. If I had my time again, I would have spent more time with my sister. But maybe it was for the best, after all, the closer I had gotten with my sister, the more it would've hurt when she left me.

Xx

I am walking back to my locker, after the last of my classes. I walk though the yard and shiver slightly as I feel a drop of water land on the tip of my nose. It was starting to rain.

"Rachel!" I whip around at the sound of a male voice, half-expecting it to be Puck with another Slushie. Instead, I am greeted with the face of Finn, who is standing a few meters away, the light raindrops falling on his face.

"Finn?" I am surprised by his presence; most boys wouldn't be caught dead calling my name.

"I, um, wanted to thank you for the other day. It helped, talking to you." Finn shuffles his feet nervously, and I am shocked to realize that I am being the more confident one.

"That's okay... I didn't say much, though." I try to think back to what I said, which was probably just 'I'm so sorry'.

"I know, but it was the way you said it. You sounded like you really meant it, like you knew how I felt." Finn shortens the distance between us, and I start to fidget.

"Well– I…" I don't know what to say. I did know how he felt, but I wasn't going to tell him that.

"I was wondering… if you would like to go on a date, at Breadstix."

It takes a few seconds for me to register what he is saying. "With who?" I ask stupidly, in shock from the question.

"Me." Finn laughs good-naturedly, and his eyes search me for an answer.

"I-I…" I had never been asked out before. I have no idea what to say or do. I know there is no way he could actually like me, and he is probably doing it so he can hurt me later to boost his popularity, but it would be just what my aunt wanted. "Okay." I force a smile.

"Great! I'll pick you up tomorrow night, then," Finn says, a grin on his face.

"No!" I say far too quickly and forcefully. "I mean, um I'll meet you there. What time?" I did not want him to come to my house, especially with my aunt there.

"Is eight pm okay?" Finn looks confused, probably as to why I lashed out like that.

I nod, biting my lip as I look up at his face.

"See you there, then," he says before walking off. I look around, trying to see if anyone had witnessed what had just happened. When I see no one, I start walking again towards my locker, rain falling heavily now. The thought that Finn might actually like me does not even cross my mind.

Short chapter, I know, and I am sorry. Please let me know what you think about what happened in Rachel's past (believe me, we've barely scratched the surface, and what will happen to her. There will be an update soon (I hope). Very big thanks to iamirreplazable, amazinglife18, HolyShootItzKori, Det (Guest), FlatWeasley, sammywammy1120, Guest and I Love Santana for reviewing, your reviews make me feel like I am on cloud 9. I don't know how I can repay you for the happiness you've given me, so for now, I'll just do it with updates. Please review, they are the reason I love to write, and just a few seconds of your time to review will make me feel so happy.