Chapter 8
Ok this chapter is a bit different from my others. I thought it would be good to get in the characters heads and see how they are coping with the events. That has been thrown at them recently. Comment if you like this kind of chapter and I might do other one similar or try harder to get voiceovers in normal chapters more often ok thx.
Three weeks later
Kurt There was one name etched in Kurt mind Blaine. He needed to see him more they had been seeing each other one a week ever since Rachel's party it was hard because he went to school in Westerville. Kurt didn't want to admit it but he was falling for Blaine Anderson and he couldn't stop. Glee club was running smooth he still was controlling glee as captain but it was annoying always having a teacher. But Mr Shue had some Great ideas. "He had told Kurt he done a great job building the team and making a sense of family. But he needed to start trying to do group numbers. Kurt had always built the lessons for getting everyone to feel raw and real and improving vocals. But now they had to get ready for competitions next year. Maybe a mix of both would be good Kurt thought.
Rachel I love Brittney I really love her I have never felt this way about anyone before but yet. Brittney was in her life my sister, friend and lover I and I love, love her. Rachel couldn't believe her first love wold be a girl yet no one made her happier. She also got the best friend ever Santana and I have this unspoken bond we would defend Brittney from anyone. Then there's puck the best friend a girl could ask for he is fun to have around and he makes Santana happier. But above everyone Rachel had Kurt her first friend he believed in her when no one did Rachel knew she would always be there for Kurt and her friends no matter what.
Blaine Have you ever felt at war with your own feelings Blaine had, hell he felt that right now. On one hand all he wanted was to move to McKinley and see Kurt every day. The Problem was Sebastian his best friend, his gay best friend who was in love with him. He couldn't move with him because his foster parents lived in Westerville if there was a way to get Seb in Lima Blaine was going to find it because all Blaine could think of was Kurt. Could Sebastian live with Blaine in his house it was mostly empty but if my father signed the papers I'm sure he could get custody. Seb's foster parents wouldn't care they didn't like Sebastian anyway the convincing dad was the problem. He wasn't exactly that accepting of gays. How would he feel if I told him I was gay I would probably get kicked out I doubt he would house Seb. Ugh this is so annoying I need to work this out maybe Kurt will have some new ideas.
Brittney living with the Berry's is great I get to be around Rach all time. Hug her kiss her tell her how much I love her and Brittney wouldn't change things. Even if her parent asked for her back she would stay with Rachel. But her heart still hurt that Quinn and her parents rejected her. But Brittney still had San and lots of new people who love her for just who she was. That was the best thing feeling even better than when Brittney dreamed her and Rachel had Sex. But in real life they hadn't got past heated make outs and that was ok. Rachel and Her first time would be special and a while away. For now though her dreams were working in overdrive for her.
Puck Things are great for me I have Santana. Who is probably in love with Brittney and she says me to but I'm not sure regardless I'm happy. Quinn isn't though I need to find out what's wrong with that blonde she been losing weight and is distant from people. For Santana and Brittney I'm sure they would like their best friend back. But she organised that Gay bash on Kurt and Puck couldn't forgive that very easily. But there has to be a reason for her to be being so horrible.
Santana Brittney and Rachel are my best friends and outed lesbians and their dating. I should be happy for them but I'm not, I want to be. Rachel makes Brittany happy and vice versa. The weird thing is I'm not but I should be. I'm in love with puck, puck not Brittney and Rachel. I thought dating puck would help but it's doesn't and I keep having dreams about them. Last night I dreamed we had a three way and that was just to, too weird. So I will never act on these feelings because I love them and I don't want to lose either.
Sebastian Blaine, Blaine I hate that he fallen for someone else I always used to feel hurt went he went out with girls. But Kurt has completely changed everything and they are not even dating yet. I have to admit Kurt is gorgeous and his eyes are just wow. But have you seen Blaine eyes they are most beautiful thing in the whole world. Wow I am so whipped and Blaine doesn't even care. Kurt and Blaine will happen and Blaine will forget all about me so I'm not going to lash out. I will still have him in my life even as just a friend
Tina I miss artie I miss his smile I miss his gangsta attitude. I miss the way he used to make me feel and regret ever getting the chance to kiss him. He taught me many things and he got rid of my stutter for me. I will always love you artie. But I need to move on with life start dating new people stop ignoring my friends so much. Tina Cohen-Chang will no longer be background noise I will start living my life.
Mercedes Kurt seems happy that's nice I suppose I missed seeing him smile. Ever since artie Kurt hasn't been the same but he seems to be feeling better now. I'm happy he has accepted himself but. I still love him and I know he is gay but you know whatever. We will just be friends as we have always been. I think berry has had a good effect on him he is always happier when she or Blaine is around. But why doesn't he get that way with me I don't understand it. Glee club is running smoothly and it's all been great. Were still short members for sectionals next year but still all the same.
Burt my son seems happy for the first time since his mother died. I don't know what happened. But Kurt is always smiling now. I'm glad I have my son back again, he is my everything but I still feel like there's a big hole in my heart waiting for me to love someone else.
Finn I have two secrets I love to sing yes really and I'm in love with Rachel berry. The lesbian cheerleader gosh as if I couldn't choose any worse. She is in glee club and gay what kind of combo is that yet she is still one of the most popular girls in school. Since the fall of Quinn, the head bitches are Rachel, Santana and Brittany. I am part of the reason for this I slept with Santana to help her make Quinn jealous then I broke up with her. So what I wasn't in love with her she was a status symbol and that's all. Am I a bad person? I really want to join glee club but that's never going to happen the team would kill me. Puck rep is still fine though which is weird. But this is Puckerman were talking about he could wear a dress to school and people would think it is cool. But me, I'm on thin ice and I'm not going to shake the boat.
Quinn everything is gone all I built and all I was planning to build and there's a reason I have a secret and no one can ever know it. I have been terrible pushing everyone away hurting people. People like Brittney and Kurt. If I push people away there will be less damage when I explode. Explode how well 6 months ago I was diagnosed with brain cancer. Which sucks but I figure if I push people away then they won't be as sad when I die or turn stupid. Puck I miss him even thought I was dating Finn it was always puck I loved; now he is dating Santana. I was with my mum when they scanned my brain. She cried and said to the doctor I will miss her so much. She thought I couldn't hear her but I could. She had already given up on me huh. I was heartbroken but then I realized I could hurt people I loved with this cancer. So I would rather slightly hurt them then break them. So that's how it will be until I till I die.
