Emotions Surface
So, in light of Update 18 revealing a lot, I have decided to not have the story follow the canon with the Tenno operators, this will remain how the Tenno are their own minds and bodies, and they each control one warframe. Not having the Tenno operators controlling a body. Anyways, with that said, let's continue. I have also revised chapter 8 if you, my readers, did not know yet.
I woke in a start, sweat beading on my brow, my breath fast and shallow like I had just ran for miles.
'That was just a dream right?' I thought to myself, "Damn...why did I..."
"Huh?" I heard a yawn followed by a confused response.
I looked over and saw Kitalla, laying on her side at the end of the bed, she must have fallen asleep after I had passed out.
"Oh, sorry, I just..." I ran my fingers through my hair, sighing.
"Don't worry about it." Kitalla stretched and looked at me, "What woke you?"
"Another...damn...nightmare...vision...memory...whatever they are!" I slumped my head, my white hair dangling over my eyes, "I just want them to stop, they are distracting my thoughts and emotions. I...I got scared before..."
"What do you mean 'scared'?" She inquired with worry in her voice.
"I felt fear, genuine worry for my life, I wanted to keep living, I always had accepted before that I could die at anytime I leave the dojo, draw a sword, load a gun, anything I do could mean my death, but now...I have a feeling, of wanting to live on and not be just a soldier, a Tenno in service to war. I feel like I want to live for and fight for something, or someone..." I looked over to her, my eyes then being down cast to the bed.
"It's okay to be afraid," Kitalla sent me a warm and gentle smile, resting her hand on my shoulder, scooting closer to me, "fear and worry are natural, I worry for you and want you to feel better, that is why I have been staying by your side. When you stood up for me back when I up was just brought out of that Corpus Zanuka lab..."
"Kit, you don't have to bring it u..." I started to interrupt, but she silenced my words with a finger over my lips.
"Kano, you have done so much for me that I can't begin to thank you for. I just want to stay by your side and be with you when I can be." She pulled me into a hug, and I wrapped my arms around her lithe torso, "I worry about you because I care about you." She smiled, her arms getting a little tighter.
My downer mood had just been erased, to which I smile.
"Thank you Kit..." I say softly.
"Anything for a friend." She said quietly.
While her words were supposed to be kind and gentle, which they were, I felt a pang of regret for my feelings, the word 'friend' being directed to me by the person I have been growing so close to, starting to have stronger feelings for, had sent me back to square one...but if I could only be her friend, so be it. It is better than not having known her at all.
'Shit shit shit shit shit...' She thought to herself, 'stupid stupid stupid, why did you say friend!'
She held onto Kano tighter, hating her slip up in words, 'it was supposed to be anything for you, not anything for a friend...why...'
She felt like she had screwed up big time, but she came to a realization. She would rather be his friend than to not know him at all. She would want to have him call her his, to hold her close, to...
'Not that word yet, you have to be sure. But what if you already do?' The voices of Kitalla's emotions and feelings were racing around, trying to grasp the right words that she felt. She just was so confused.
She would have to fix this, some how.
"Hirashi?" She muttered softly.
"Yes?"
She buried her head in his chest, "You scared me," her voice was shaky, "when you collapsed." She could feel his heartbeat, a rhythmic beating that proved the person before her was alright, at least physically. Her personal savior, her...friend, was alright.
I was a little in shock, but kept the feeling to myself.
"I'm sorry, Kit, I never meant to scare you." I held her close to my chest.
A thought dawned on me, such a fearless warrior, one who would tear her enemies apart limb from limb, was just human at heart, or rather, Tenno at heart. She has had so much negativity acted towards her. I was one of the only people who treated her like one of us, several others acknowledged she was Tenno, but they didn't treat her as such. I was an anchor for her, trying to be at least some of the good in her life.
"I'd never try to hurt you, or make you feel sad, you have had enough of that in your life already." I tilt her head up so her eyes could meet my own, and upon seeing her face and eyes, I felt something in my chest, an urge to hold her close and protect her, a sort of defensiveness for her. I didn't understand it, emotions tend to be difficult to understand, as I have learned. But I had learned to trust my emotions over the years.
"Kit, I promise you. I will be here whenever you need me. I'm not going to leave you. Not now or ever. I promise you that." I said, softly stroking her auburn hair.
"Kano..." Her voice was quiet, her gaze shifted up to my own, her brilliant green eyes meeting my cerulean-gold ones, her face lit with a small and warm smile. "You are just..."
"I'm not just saying it, I mean it. I feel there is something here, between us, a link of some sort, something that connects us to before...I want to stay by your side, to be there for you, I promise that."
She didn't know what to do, she was filled with emotions, her yearning heart was pounding in her chest, I could feel it against my own, we were both thinking the same thing.
She decided to give into her feelings and began to close the distance between me and her, her eyes closed and mine began to as well...
