I haven't been able to update much because I've been extremely busy. My life is complicated but I'm getting through it!

Well, I hope I don't bore anybody:)


I walked a bit until I realized I didn't now which way I was supposed to go to get to Edward's car

I walked a bit until I realized I didn't now which way I was supposed to go to get to Edward's car. Giving up the search, I sat down on a stump. Tears were budding in my eyes. The sky seemed to be getting darker, too. It should be around 6:00 pm or something, I thought. I wanted to shout and just let it out. It was depressing enough having the Volturi after me again. Hurting Jacob just added to the pile. I sighed, trying to calm myself, wondering what they were doing, or saying.

A shadow suddenly came over me. I looked up to find Jacob with a still hurt face.

"Where's Edward?" I asked him, trying not to ask too coolly.

"He…I told him I wanted to talk to you. He's somewhere around…" he answered, looking around- avoiding my eyesight.

"Well, then talk so I can go find him," I urged.

"If you want to be with him so much, then go look for him." His words surprised me greatly, especially his harsh tone.

He was starting to walk away before I could get a word out of my mouth. I jumped up from the stump and ran after him. He acted as if he didn't notice, or maybe he didn't.

Of course, with the luck of dirt, I went down. There was a small sting on my thigh and knee, but before I could examine it, I was in two warm arms.

"You could have screamed, you know," he muttered.

"Would you have stopped?" I argued.

He seemed to think about it for a moment. "What difference would it have made? I bet you'd rather it be your bloodsucker right now."

"It would have made a difference, because I wanted to apologize for what I said. You have showed me that you love me, in your way. I shouldn't have said that. I guess I was just annoyed at how you two, especially you, fight over me. I have a right to choose, too. You know who I've chosen, so I'm surprised you're still here, waiting for something to happen. Though, I do know how stubborn you are, but still. You should try to live your life, and you should try to find who you were meant to be with."

His arms held me tighter. "I have, but she got taken away. I'm still fighting because I'm not giving up," he explained, looking at me in the eyes. He was looking so much like the young Jacob I had met.

I frowned. "I wish you didn't."

"Of course you do," he answered. I looked away then, not wanting to see how much pain I was inflicting on him.

"That's not what I meant," I mumbled. "Can you put me down?"

Instead of arguing, as I had suspected, he put me gently down on my feet until he was sure I was not going to fall again. His hand was still constricted around my waist. I tried to shove him away without hurting his feelings, but he didn't seem to notice. Instead, he held on to me tighter.

"Can you let go of me, now? I think I can make it back by myself," I said. "If I knew where I was going," I muttered to myself.

"I'll take you back, but I'm not letting you go. I don't want you getting hurt," he replied in a soft, serious voice. I don't want you getting hurt, either, I thought in my head.

"Fine. But you have to promise me you're not mad at me. Tell me you forgive me for the way I acted. Lie if you have to," I pleaded, looking up into his eyes.

"I'm not mad at you, and if it makes you happy, I forgive you for telling me off."

"I don't care if I'm happy, as long as I know I'm forgiven," I told him.

He smiled, his dark eyes softening. "Bells, sometimes you make me love you even more, so it's not my fault I'm such an 'obnoxious, moronic dog'."

"You are, aren't you? But I just can't stay mad at you for long. Being angry at you goes away fast, but then what I feel after that hurts." I was worried for a moment-he was holding his breath. "Can you help me find Edward? I need to talk to him. Looks like we're going to be here for a while unless we go into some town near by. I'd like to stay here though. Right now, being surrounded by all these trees, with the two most important people in my life makes me feel…safe."

I could see two cars from where we were now, but I didn't see Edward. I was about to ask Jacob if he knew where he was when a gust of wind made me stop.

"Bella. You're not mad at me, are you?" His velvet voice was soft as he took me from Jacob's arms, into a tight hug. Jacob didn't resist. He just stepped back and looked away as if distracted by something.

"No, I'm not, but I think you should apologize for saying what Jacob was thinking aloud. It wasn't nice," I said, holding on to him, not wanting to let go for a long time.

I felt him stiffen for a moment, but then, he slowly relaxed.

"I think you are right," he agreed sincerely, still holding on to me.

I tried to turn my head to see what Jacob's reaction was. It didn't look any different from before- he just didn't look happy. But then again, why would he be at this moment? He wasn't looking at me either. Though, he did look kind of worried, like he was about ready to spring at me for some reason.

"Sorry, Jacob, for saying your thoughts out loud. I was just a little aggravated. And thank you for bringing her back here. I'll get her cleaned up." He sounded sincere and kind. But why would he need to clean me up?

He let me go, but only to pick me up into his arms. That's when I noticed the dark, reddish stain. My stomach was getting nauseated. I thought I might throw up right there, but I tried my best to hold it in.

"Maybe I should help her." Jacob was suddenly at my side, besides Edward, though he was leaning away.

"I can handle it. It doesn't bother me," Edward insisted, declining to let me go.

"No?" Jacob asked sarcastically, in an insulting way.

"Jake, I'll be fine. Edward isn't going to do anything to me. You'll be right there anyways. Watch if you want," I suggested.

Jacob snorted. "You're damn right I will!"

He followed us to Edward's car. The sunlight was almost all gone, hiding behind the horizon. Edward set me down on the ground. I started to feel faint instantly. He opened the passenger door for me, holding my hand.

"Why can't you just check the wound out here, bloodsucker?" Jacob asked, irritated.

"Because it would embarrass Bella and you'd have too many dreams at night," he explained calmly, trying to get me inside.

"Why would I be embarrassed? It's just a wound," I noted, confused.

Edward turned to me with a small smile. "Silly Bella, how will I be able to clean the injury if you have those pants on?" Jacob looked disgusted for a second. "There's blood from your thigh down," he observed, ignoring Jacob.

I felt myself going red. For a moment I was sad Jacob was there. That meant no Edward and me time.

I looked up at Jacob. He didn't seem to agree with Edward.

"I'm sure you would like to help her instead, but I'm here and I think she'd rather have me look at it. I am her boyfriend," Edward recalled, answering a question in Jacob's head.

"Yeah, but that still makes you a pervert," Jacob muttered almost inaudibly as he walked away to his car. I could tell he was going to be watching carefully. It made me blush even more.

I turned back to Edward, who looked worried, as if he were in another world.

"You're not really going to make me take my pants off, are you? I don't have anything else to wear," I complained, shivering as the cold wind swept past me.

He didn't answer, but he helped me in his car. Then he took a bag from the back seat and took out some bandages.

He must have seen the surprised look on my face because he explained quickly. "Alice thought you'd be needing this."

"Oh."

"She also bought you some clothes, so don't worry, everything is going to be fine," he assured. "Now, can you take those jeans off so I can bandage you up?"

I sighed. Taking one last look at Jacob, he was looking my way. I felt myself blushing again, but I started t unbutton my pants. When they were off, my stomach almost twisted completely. It wasn't that bad, but it smelled too much of rust and salt. I breathed through my mouth. Edward was grinning as he worked. He was looking intensely at my leg, but I felt he was trying not to touch me more than needed.

I didn't want to look in Jacob's direction, knowing I'd probably make him feel awkward. He probably hadn't seen many pantless girls though I did have on underwear.

I cringed whenever Edward's cool fingertips did touch my burning flesh. I was much too embarrassed to notice how cold they were. It left a tingly feeling where he touched me on my knee. I thought I was being selfish for feeling that way at that moment. Edward was trying hard not to hurt me.

He wiped the blood from my leg and put the bandage on. I couldn't even feel anything. It felt numb, but I didn't know if it was because of the chilly wind or Edward's cool hands.

When he was done, he was gone in a flash, and then back with some clothes.

"Alice wanted to pick them out, but I kind of told her what to get you, since I thought you might not like what she had in mind. I hope you'll at least wear it. I don't exactly have a sense for girl fashion," he said, grinning.

I took the clothes without looking at it twice and got into the pants. They were a reddish- brown color, which reminded me of Jacob, and the T-shirt was green. I was about to pull up my shirt when I noticed their gazes on me- neither of their eyes on my face.

"Some privacy, please," I demanded, embarrassed again.

I was dressed, ready for bed. But where were we supposed to spend the night?

The sun was lost behind the tree tops and dark shadows fell upon us, now. Jacob had gone for a "walk" and Edward was by my side.

"Are we going to sty here?" I asked. He was pulling out a blanket from the trunk.

"Unfortunately. I'm sorry if you mind, but I thought it would be better to be away from other humans if they decide to come this way." His voice was low. It made me shudder and he misunderstood. Picking me up in one arm, he walked back to the passenger side and put me gently down. "You better get some rest. I'll keep an eye on things."

Without complaint, I climbed in and pulled the blanket over me in the back seat. I didn't want to go to sleep. I wanted to stay up with him, but I already felt drowsy.

"What about Jake?" I asked, concerned about where he was.

"He'll be back. He just needed some time alone for a little while," he responded in his usual velvet voice.

I didn't know if at this point I was asleep or awake, but I sat up, searching for Edward. I heard the sound of crickets chirping outside, but that was it. In a second, I felt Edward's arms around me. I lay my head on his chest and whispered something I didn't even understand. At that moment, I felt Edward's cool lips in my hair saying something like 'I do.'

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