So fanfic isn't showing all the reviews from chapter 8. They were sent to me through email but aren't appearing still. I hope that by updating this, it'll work itself out.

I can't think of anything to warn you about really. I know a few of you on Twitter want this now so I'll make this short lol.

Here we go again...;)


Here We Go Again: Chapter 9

I woke up a couple of hours later for dinner by Caitlyn who was kneeling down at my bed.

"Mitchie, dinner." She said softly, shaking me gently.

"Not hungry." I moaned.

"Your mom told me that you haven't eaten since breakfast. Come on, let's go."

I gave into her wishes and got up in defeat.

Dinner was good and none of us mentioned anything to do with the guys or my music either.

I was silent the entire time and I could tell that my parents and Caitlyn were concerned with me, especially when I began picking at my food with my fork.

"Mitchie, you have to eat." My mom told me.

I didn't bother to protest; I just brought my fork to my mouth and did as she asked.

I hadn't checked my phone since the morning and saw more missed calls from Shane but ignored them and rang back the missed call I had from Savannah.

"Mitchie, how are you?" She asked rather quickly, afraid that I'd possibly hang up or something.

"Great." I lied.

"I know you better than that, Mitchie."

"Okay, I'm managing." I answered honestly.

"You want me to come down sometime this week?" She questioned me.

"No, you have school and the baby to worry about. You should rest and not come down all the time to see us."

"Mitchie, I'm there if you need me. It's what friends do."

"I know that. Friends also make sure that their pregnant friends get as much rest as possible, especially when the doctor told them that they have to."

"If you need me at all Jason can drive me, he will be there for you too. You know that right?"

"Of course I know, he's like my brother...How's Shane?" I asked hesitantly.

"He has come out of his room once today and that was to get food. The guys have to leave soon to do an interview; I just hope that he comes out."

"He will." I sighed.

"I yelled at him last night for being such an idiot, it was stupid enough that he broke his promise but then he was stupid enough not to tell you...He didn't respond to me though, he went and slammed the door to his room shut."

"Don't take sides Savannah." I instructed her.

"I won't, I had sex before marriage as well. Even though I don't have a purity ring, I still believe that sex is for marriage and look where it's gotten me." She joked, trying to make light of the situation.

She was having a baby in approximately five months time and she had a guy who wouldn't dare lie to her. They were going to be facing so much scrutiny soon for sleeping together before marriage.

"You are going to have to announce the pregnancy soon." It dawned on me.

"I know, I'm getting bigger and bigger. A bump is definitely becoming evident and baggy clothes probably won't help in a month's time."

"I'll be there for you when you announce it." I told her.

"Thanks, Mitchie. I'll be there for you too. I will come see you."

...

Much to my dismay, I went to school the next day. No one was any the wiser that things had gone wrong between Shane and I. The media hadn't noticed, thus the fans hadn't noticed.

"Something's up, you aren't your usual cheery self." Ryan noted as we hung out in our free lesson together. I guess he knew me better than I thought.

"Nothing, I'm fine." I lied.

I could tell he didn't believe me, but he didn't push it any further.

I begun rehearsing lines with him again and we were soon interrupted by my phone ringing on the desk I was sitting at.

I let it ring out with Shane's ringtone.

"Isn't that Shane?" He asked, seeing a picture of Shane appear on the screen.

"It was Shane." I corrected him as I pushed the button to reject the call.

"Are you two fighting?" He asked me, curiously.

"Kind of. He...lied to me and I don't know where we stand right now."

"He lied to you? What a dick."

"He didn't cheat on me." I snapped. "Sorry." I apologized a moment later before breaking down into tears once again.

He came over and hugged me close to him, "What happened?"

"He slept with someone before we went out and never told me about it."

"He wears a purity ring though."

"It didn't stop him."

I looked at my hand to see the purity ring that was originally his...the one that he would have been wearing when he...

"Mitchie, maybe you are better off without him then." Ryan said, cutting off my thoughts.

"I don't know if I can live with without him, then again I don't know if I can live with him at the same time." I sobbed.

He began singing a song to me, which was from the school play that he was supposed to sing, it was about being there for the ones you cared about. I tried not to laugh into his chest; he wasn't the greatest singer out there.

It cheered me up though, for the time being.

...

Brown called me after school to tell me he had arranged a concert for me here in New Jersey for the Saturday night.

He didn't know that Shane and I were over or whatever we were right now. I was still ignoring his calls and messages and didn't intend on talking to him at all. I couldn't deal with him right now; I had too much school work to focus on anyway.

Caitlyn and I sat in my room to do our home work, it had become routine for us to do it on the floor of my room, spreading everything out around us.

"Nate says Shane hasn't stopped sulking around...did you watch him on television last night?"

"No, I didn't watch it."

"He seemed upset; I think it was kind of obvious something was up with him. The guys are on another show tonight, if he's still like that I think rumors will definitely start."

I shrugged in response.

Caitlyn made me watch the guys that night; Shane definitely was not okay, and it was definitely obvious.

I heard Caitlyn crying that night through the wall of our rooms; I had been crying myself to sleep still, so I made my way into her room.

"Mitchie?" She sniffled.

"Yeah, it's me." I blubbered.

She held back her covers and I got into her bed with her, "Are you okay?" She asked.

"It's just Shane still...more importantly, what's wrong with you?"

"My grandmother would have turned eighty-one today." She replied sadly.

"I'm sorry, Cait."

"I'm sorry too."

We fell asleep together, both in tears.

...

The next morning, the rumors of course begun to fly.

"So are you and Shane broken up again?" Brianna asked in home room

"It's none of your business." I replied.

As we left school the paparazzi were hanging around, I ignored their calls to come over as I knew they would just ask about Shane and me.

I decided to go for a walk on my own when I got home, not bothering to go inside first.

I walked a few blocks away before I say a poster of Alison Belle on display out the front of a store I walked past.

I walked inside to buy one of her posters before rushing home just so I could rip up the poster.

"Stupid, Alison Belle." I muttered as I ripped the poster up.

"Mitchie!" Caitlyn walked in and saw what I had been doing. I dropped the remaining pieces of the posters and tried to look innocent.

"Why are you doing tha-"

I cut her off before she could finish, "It's not what it looks like." I said hurriedly.

"I was going to say, why are you doing that without me?"

She rushed over and began jumping up and down on the ripped up posters, scrunching it up with her feet.

I began laughing at her and almost wet myself when she dropped to the ground and literally began rolling around in the ripped up pieces of the poster.

She could never fail to make me laugh.

It was this moment that I realized that she was my best friend, as in the best friend out of my best friends. I loved Sierra and considered her one of my closest friends but the time apart kind of was taking its toll and it didn't help that we didn't have a lot in common. Sierra had become good friends with a girl from Boston that was studying with her in China since she shifted there.

Caitlyn and I however had a lot in common, music being the main one.

We spent practically all our time together and lived together now. We definitely were like sisters.

...

Jason and Savannah drove down the Wednesday afternoon to come see us. Jason engulfed me in a huge hug and wasn't going to let go of me until Savannah pried me out of his arms so she could hug me as well.

Caitlyn came downstairs once hearing us and hugged the both of them as well.

"You okay?" Savannah asked.

"I'm fine." I lied a bit more convincingly this time. Truth was that I had been crying myself to sleep every night.

"You spoken to Shane yet?" Jason asked me.

I shook my head, "I can't, just...not yet anyway."

He nodded at this in understanding.

Together, the three of them managed to take my mind off Shane completely by talking about the baby mainly. I was genuinely interested in everything they had to say.

"Jason here wants to name the baby Raven if it's a girl...as in a bird." She added, rolling her eyes at him.

"What, I like the name." He defended himself.

"At least he didn't suggest naming the baby, Bird." Caitlyn laughed but soon stopped seeing Savannah's expression, "He already suggested it didn't he?"

Savannah nodded, "Jason, I don't know where your mind is half the time." She joked.

"Well I know my heart is always with you." He told her, resulting in her giving him a kiss on the cheek.

They were too adorable.

...

I found myself in my room watching Hot Tunes later that night when a clip of Shane and Alison together at an awards show from over two years ago, came on.

Shane was all smiles looking over at Alison.

It made me so angry to know that she could give Shane something that I couldn't. She made me so angry in general and Shane was simply frustrating. He wouldn't stop with the calls still and I still wouldn't answer or listen to any of his messages.

I spent twenty minutes writing down a whole new song before playing the whole thing through properly on my guitar, reading it out of my songbook as I played.

"I've been bruised and I've been broken
Can't believe that I put up with all this pain
I've been used and I was choking on the promise
I would never fall again

I used to sing to your twisted symphony
The words that had me trapped inside your misery
But now I know the reason why I couldn't breathe

'Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
'Cause you can't shut me out
No I don't, I don't care what you say
'Cause all I really, all I really want
Is everything you're not
(Never gonna break my heart again)
(Never gonna see your face again)
Everything you're not, not, not
(Never wanna feel this way again)

Your darkness was my weakness
But it turns out that it only went so deep, deep
A meaningless diversion that is all that you
Ever meant to me, me, me, me

And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe

'Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
'Cause you can't shut me out
No I don't, I don't care what you say
'Cause all I really, all I really want
Is everything you're not
(Never gonna break my heart again)
(Never gonna see your face again)

I want a gentleman who treats me like a queen
I need respect, I need love, nothing in between

I will not spell it out for you if you can't see
'Cause you're not worth it, you don't deserve me
A now I'm gone

Everything you're not, not, not
Everything you're not, not, not

One, two, three
'Cause all I want is everything you're not (thing you're not)
So go ahead and slam the door
'Cause you can't shut me out (shut me out)
No I don't, I don't care what you say
All I really, all I really want
Is everything you're not

(Never gonna break my heart again
Never gonna see your face again
Never wanna feel this way again
Oh oh oh oh)"

Still feeling angry, I got up and went into Caitlyn's room, "Do you have any boxes left?"

I asked her, knowing we had used some to move her in.

"Yeah, under my bed, you'll just have to pop them back into shape." She informed me.

I thanked her and grabbed one hastily, in my rage, and stormed back to my room.

"Whoa, why so angry all of a sudden?" She asked, following me.

"I'm done with Shane. We're through. I don't care if I haven't spoken to him, he and Alison can go sleep together for all I care." I fumed, popping out the cardboard box.

"Mitchie, you don't mean that."

"Okay, I'd care about that, but I'm done with him. I won't let him break my heart again." I told her, pulling out the drawer where he kept all his clothes and threw them into the cardboard box.

"Mitchie, what are you doing?" She asked me.

"Throwing all his stuff away." I replied simply, going over to get rid of all the photos of him and me together, placing them in the box as well.

"Mitchie, you will regret it."

"I won't." I told her, taking off the necklace and earrings that Shane had gotten me and placing them on the top.

"At least let me get rid of it all for you."

"Okay." I mumbled, handing the box over to her and noticing the ring on my hand.

She noticed this as well, "Mitchie, that may have been his ring but it symbolizes the promise you made."

I wanted to take it off but couldn't bring myself do it; I let out a sigh, "You're right."

Caitlyn left me alone, taking the box of Shane's things with her, allowing me to be to myself.

I forgot about the Connect 3 poster that I had had since before Camp Rock. I tore it down and folded it up, I couldn't rip it as Nate and Jason were on their too.

I didn't cry myself to sleep that night for the first time since Saturday night.

I was so much better without Shane Gray.

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