Felicia rose slowly out of bed, the cold wind blowing in through the opened window as moon beams illuminated the room. Looking questioningly at the opened window, she then turned to her left to see the empty space beside her. Getting to her feet she closed the window, the white noise of the city silencing with it. With a small breath she went into the bathroom looking into the mirror at her stomach. The bump was larger than she would have expected as she placed a shaky hand over it. The room hummed in silence as the mirror darkened closing in on her reflection of confusion. She turned to look over her shoulder as a large shadow appeared in the doorway.

"Raph…" Her voice was muffled and quiet, like being carried through water as the large shadow reached down to her stomach and placed a hand flat on it. The touch was familiar and warm as she looked down at his three fingered green hand. The touched turned hot as the fingers changed and became human, familiar still but smaller with nail polish and rings she was so used to seeing growing up.

"You're not having this child." The woman said before her as she raised her head to see her mother, reaching into her stomach. Felicia's eyes went wide in horror as she grabbed her mother's forearm, trying to push her back and away from her stomach and baby but, the hand went deeper into her abdomen. Felicia fell over in pain, clutching her now flat, empty stomach as she watched her mother raise the screaming baby. Felicia's mother looked at it with disgust and all Felicia could see was a beautiful baby boy, screaming from being torn from his mother too soon.

"Mom stop!" Felicia said, but again her words were muffled. Her voice burned from screams as she reached out with bloody hands, trying to grab hold of her baby. Felicia's mother looked down at her with a smirk, her face morphing from someone she's known for her life and loved, to someone that she knew only a short time. In that time she was beaten and tortured, left for dead in a crate. Felicia's body ranked with shivers as Karai held her baby in her arms, cooing softly down at it. Felicia noticed a shimmer metal from the moonlight seeping in from the bedroom against Karai's armor and wrist. A single sharp blade went across the babies cheek as it screamed in pain and Felicia raced to her feet to attack this nightmare before her.

Foot ninja grabbed her arms from behind her as Felicia looked around frantically, they were no longer in her apartment. She was back at that warehouse. The smell of stale sea water stung in her nose and made bile rise in her throat as she shook her arms to get free, but the harder she tried the tighter their grip became.

"Let him go!" Felicia could feel her words in her throat but couldn't hear them. Karai's smile just grew as she held the baby, green skinned with a gash down his small cheek up to Felicia, just out of reach.

"This is what you've done. This is what you'll have to live with." Karai spat at her. Foot opened the large doors to the ocean, the cold breeze falling into the dank space as Felicia's hair whipped around her face. Foot ninja dragged in a large body, as Felicia's stomach sank. The body was thrown in between Karai and herself as the Foot kicked at it, rolling him onto his shell. Felicia fell to her knees as she reached out to Raphael's lifeless body, placing bloodied hand over his.

"No…" She breathed out, as tears streamed down her face. She looked back up at Karai and her baby as Karai held him up over her head. Her fingers slowly released him, one by one as Felicia jumped to her feet to catch him…

"… And then I wake up covered in sweat and Raph is all what happened and I can't explained to him all that. He's stressed over me enough as it is with Donnie's constant checking on me and making sure 'mommy' isn't too stressed out, and 'mommy' is getting enough pre-natal vitamins. I want to throat punch them both." Felicia huffs at a close by coffee shop where Willow teaches."

"That's incredibly intense… and weird." Willow sighed, sipping her coffee. "Have you at least told him a little about the dream?"

"No… What would I say? I can't bring up Karai he'll freak. He won't understand the mom thing… I mean, why my mom?" She sighed, smacking down the lemon in her decaf iced tea with her straw. "And, the baby was green, that'll open up a can of worms for him because he's already freaking out about that…"

"OK, but he understands that you are allowed to freak out too right?"

"I don't know…"

"Exactly because you don't tell him. You need to tell him what you're thinking. It's hard, obviously but… OK, think of it this way, before has Raphael dated anyone long term or serious besides you?"

"Well Mere…"

"No! Long term, serious relationship."

"Then no."

"OK, so you are his first. Has he had a kid with anyone else, or even fathomed that a kid was possible in his life?"

"Well… Obviously no Willow, what's your point?"

"My point is that it's Raphael and all of this is just as new to him as it is to you. You cannot walk around with all of this inside of you and just except him to know, or understand what you're going through. I made that mistake with Leo and… It's biting me in the ass and I hate myself for it now. Let everything out there with you guys, it's the only thing you can do if you want to be together and last…" Willow sighed as Felicia nodded, completely understanding her best friend's words.

Raphael was anything but a mind reader, especially when it came to being emotional. She was new to this and scared, nervous that she'd mess it up or say something stupid. But, she needed to remember this was new to him too. Even more so because he's never thought this would be possible, making a life with someone he loved. Felicia knew in her head even at a young age she could and would get married start a family but, not Raph. Raph thought his life was built to protect this City, live underground and never been seen. He never thought that this, a baby and a love life would ever be possible.

"You're right… So, I should just tell him?" She asked, scared and shy as Willow reached over the table with a smile grabbing her friends hand.

"Yes. Tell him and let him know he's not the only one that is scared about this, all of this and whatever happens you two will work it out. Also, you have a whole support system behind you both." She said as Felicia sighed happily.

"What about the mom thing?" She asked with a cringe. Willow chuckled shaking her head.

"She has to find out soon rather than later. You can't waddle up to her house with Raph one day."

"Ugh… I know. Dad is going to freak. A baby out of wedlock is just not Christian." She said with a roll of her eyes as she used her father's words she'd heard him use time and time again.

"Well it's a different day and age and you're not even Christian anymore, or at least practice it. And Raph is… Nothing? Does he even believe in God or…?

"I don't know we've never talked about it. Maybe, Buddhist?" She asked as Willow laughed.

"Oh yeah, he's real Zen." She said as Felicia chuckled. "But, regardless of what your dad or mom say it's still happening and you're still having a baby with the man you love, that is what is important." Willow said with a nod of finality as Felicia smiled, nodding her head in agreement.

"Even if it is a turtle baby." She said with a sigh as Willow rolled her eyes.

"We don't know that for certain. When's your appointment with for the ultrasound?"

"Today at 3…" Felicia said letting out a deep breath, her head hung low as she placed it heavily on her hand, elbow resting on the table top. "I am so happy about this and fucking hate this at the same time." She mumbled, poking down her lemon with her straw watching it bob in her half drunk tea.

"Well love, I think you just figure out what motherhood means."


Raphael bounced nervously from foot to foot in front of the Felicia's doctor's office. The wind with hints of winter blowing over him did nothing to help the feeling in the pit of his stomach. He pulled his brown Carhart jacket a little tighter around him as he looked up and down the side walk for the beautiful mother to be.

He tried for hours to wrap his head around what was happening. He stood in the break room with the same unfolded shirt in his hands for an hours before Leo took it from him with a concerned look on his face.

"Bro, let's go sit for a minuet." He said as Raphael blindly followed his older brother to the black couch. "You alright?" He asked, taking a cup from the water bubbler and handing it to his brother who took it with shaky hands.

"Dude, what the fuck?" He asked in a breath as Leo smiled a little.

"Finally hitting you, dad?" He asked as Raphael put his head in his hands, rubbing his human face hard with calloused palms.

"Does that make even a little bit of sense to you? I mean, even this!" He said opening his arms and looking around the small break room. "We own a fuckin' business!" He said as Leo smiled, sitting next to his brother and clapping a hand over his shoulder.

"It's weird and amazing but, do I miss what we were and what we did? Of course I do. I mean, I can barely make my way to the bathroom at night now without waking Willow. That's not exactly ninja." He sighed as Raph chuckled.

"Your knees probably wake her up with that grinding sound they make." He said as Leo laughed. "We're old as fuck now…" He sighed "… and I'm gonna be a dad… What if the picture comes back lookin' not so human?" Raph asked as Leo shrugged.

"It's a chance you're gonna have to take to know Felicia is going to be safe and healthy, along with your baby. The doctor isn't going to know that you're a turtle just from a picture. If there is something wrong with the baby, which I'm not saying there will be but, if there is then Donnie will handle the rest of the pregnancy." Leo said with a smile.

"And after the pregnancy? What then? We can't pump a baby with this shit and he won't be able to live a normal life. It took us twenty five years before we could."

"You can't worry about that now, you need to focus on today and the happiness you have for sharing something so wonderful with the woman you love." Leo smiled as Raph looked over at him with a small smile of his own.

"You sound like Splinter." He sighed as Leo nodded, his smile growing.

"Well, I try and figure what he would say to you in this situation. It's comforting." Leo shrugged as Raph nodded.

"Thanks bro."

Raphael smirked to himself as he stood waiting, looking back down the street as he noticed Felicia squeeze herself in between two men talking in the middle of the sidewalk.

"Excuse me." She said with a furrowed brow, hands on her hips as the men moved aside to make room. "Jesus Christ…" She sighed, making her way over the Raph, brushing the hair from her face with the fingerless gloves she wore with little foxes on them. "Fuckin sidewalk is for everyone!" She said loudly over her shoulder at the men that walked down the street in the opposite direction. Raphael chuckled to himself putting an arm around her shoulders.

"I like pregnant you, you're feisty." He said as they entered the building. Raphael took Felicia's scarf and jean jacket as he hung up his own.

"Yeah well pregnant me is also bitchy and hungry and needs to pee, again." She sighed, walking towards the bathroom as the woman at the reception desk smiled over at the couple.

"The name please sir." She said as Raph walked up to the desk.

"Felicia McCarty." Raph said with a smirk as the woman behind the desk hesitated for a moment before checking the name and appointment.

"Alright, your wife will need fill this out and the Doctor will see you shortly." She said handing Raphael a clipboard. Raph took it with a furrowed brow.

"She's not… Never mind." He chuckled, sitting down in one of the group of empty chairs as another woman with a pregnant belly sat across from him, eyeing him as he adjusted his hoodie he had under his jacket. Their eyes met and she quickly looked down rubbing her belly as Raph shifted uncomfortably in his seat. Felicia finally came out and a sigh of relief left his lips as she sat down heavily in the chair next to him. "Here, ya need to fill this out." He said handing her the clipboard as she sighed, taking it from him.

"Fuckin stupid, like they don't already have this bullshit information." She whispered over to him as she started filling in her name and date of birth. "Weight? Really?" She hissed to herself, filling in the last time she weighed herself.

"Mrs. McCarty." The nurse said from the doorway as she rolled her eyes.

"I didn't finish this." She said holding up the clipboard as the nurse shook her head.

"That's fine, this way." She said nodding her head inside the doors as she stood with a huff getting from her chair and handing the clipboard to the nurse. "Your husband can wait out here if you like." She said as Felicia chuckled.

"He's my boyfriend, and no, he's coming in with me." She said as the nurse nodded, with Raphael following.

"On the scale please." The nurse said stepping beside a digital scale as Felicia sighed, handing Raphael her bag and slipping off her Doc Martin boots.

"Of course…" Felicia sighed, watching as the numbers went up slightly. "Seems about right." She sighed again as Raph looked over at her.

"You're pregnant what did you think was gonna happen?" He asked as she glared at him.

"Well, no shit but it's not awesome." She shrugged as Raph put an arm around her shoulders as they followed the nurse into an examine room.

"If you could please, change into this and the doctor will be with you shortly." The nurse said after checking Felicia's vitals and blood pressure taking her laptop with her.

"I didn't like the way she was looking at you." Felicia grumbled as she started to take off her shirt. Raph chuckled a little taking a seat in an extra chair off to the side of the room. He watched as Felicia undressed, her belly sticking out a little more than usual. Not too much, just a slight bump like she had drank too much beer the night before. He chuckled again to himself as she looked over at him.

"Really? I didn't even notice." He said as Felicia rolled her eyes changing into the hospital gown. "That is a good look." He said as she glared at him, hopping onto the chair.

"Shut the fuck up, just wait until you have a prostate examine." She chuckled, putting her arms behind her head, trying to get as comfortable as she could in the paper feeling gown. Raph got up and walked over to the exam bed, running a hand up and down Felicia's arm as she took a slow breath. "You OK?" She asked, looking up at him as she felt her stomach twist and churn with nervousness.

She has no idea what the doctor was going to say but, all morning in her head, ever since she booked this appointment all she could hear or see was the doctor grimace at the screen and get out of the room quickly in horror. More doctor's would come in and take her away from Raphael and haul her to some mad scientist exam room to do test after test on her and the baby. She of course knew this was ridiculous and impossible but, the fear was real and she wanted, needed to know what Raphael was thinking about this whole situation. He was excited, she knew that but, what about the fear of it being not human…

"Of course I'm OK." He smiled down at her as she reached for his warm, loving hand that was still rubbing and smoothing her worries away. She grasped his hand in hers and looked up at him, her face serious as she could make it and his finally morphed. "You're worried." He said softly as she nodded, biting down hard on her bottom lip. He smirked at her nervous habit, putting his thumb against her lips and pulling it slowly from her teeth. "Babe, I am nervous and worried too."

"I thought I was alone in this." She said, starting to feel tears well in her eyes as he sighed, leaning down and kissing her forehead.

"Of course not, you're never gonna be alone in anythin' concernin' us, or our baby." He said, putting his free hand down on her stomach. "This is gonna be us, and perfect and beautiful no matter what… Form is takes. It's you and me and, we made it… That is somethin' that no matter how hard we try we wouldn't be able to mess up." He said with a breath of a laugh. She put both hands on the side of his human face, leaning up and kissing him, taking him in and his words of reassurances that, this baby no matter what was theirs and it was going to be beautiful.

"I love you so much." She said, tears running down her cheeks as he smiled, wiping them away.

"I love you too babe." He said softly as the door opened to the doctor stepping in as she knocked.

"Hello, I'm Doctor Perkins." A middle aged woman with a white lab coat said as walked over to the counter, placing a laptop down, turning towards the couple. She was dark haired and petite with a kind smile. "This must be Felicia." She said extending her hand to the young woman lying in on the exam table as Felicia shook it. "And, father or friend?" She asked giving her hand to Raph who shook it.

"Father." He said with a smile as Doctor Perkins nodded.

"So, we wanna see how far along this little one is?" She asked as Felicia nodded. "When was your last period?"

"About two months ago… I'm very regular." She said as Perkins nodded, writing in her notes.

"Good, and you took a pregnancy test?" Doctor asked as Felicia nodded again. "How long ago was that?"

"About a month ago…?" Felicia asked, looking over at Raphael for confirmation who nodded. "Yeah, about a month."

"Was that the only one?" She asked as Felicia nodded.

"Should I have done more?"

"No, no… just wondering dear." Perkins smiled as Felicia nodded. "Now, I'm going to do a quick exam see if I can see how far along we are before we look on the screen, would you like daddy in or out?" She asked as Felicia smirked.

"Well, he's already been in so, go for it." Felicia chuckled as Raphael looked at her confused.

"OK, here's sheet for privacy, put your legs in the stirrups please." The doctor said, rolling a chair over and putting on a pair of latex gloves. Felicia placed the paper sheet over her lap as she laid back, moving her backside to the edge of the table as her feet rested in the stirrups. She sighed, looking up at the ceiling as Raph tilted his head a little trying to see what the doctor was doing under the sheet as Doctor Perkins turned on a bright light that attached to the table. "You're just gonna feel a gloved hand touching and me moving your uterus." Perkins said as Felicia took a breath in through her nose and out through her mouth.

"How the hell is she touching your uterus." Raphael asked, leaning closer to Felicia's ear as she chuckled.

"Don't make me laugh." She whispered back as doctor came back up, turning off the light.

"Ok, you can relax." She said putting down Felicia's gown. "Well, from what I can tell you're about eight weeks along." Doctor Perkins said with a smile, tossing her gloves into a waist bin. "Let's hear this heart beat shall we." She said with a smile, getting from her stool. "Come over here for a second." She said to Raph, motioning for him to move out of the way of the ultrasound machine that was set in the corner of the room, next to the exam table. She pulled it out, turning the screen so Felicia could see it, before turning it on. "Dad, I want you right there with mom." She said, pointing to Felicia's other side as she grabbed the transducer. Doctor Perkins lifted up Felicia's gown, keeping the paper blanket over her knees and squirted some gel onto Felicia's stomach. "It may take a bit to find the heart beat." She said, looking down at Felicia as she kept her eyes on the screen. Doctor Perkins ran the transducer over the gel and around Felicia's abdomen for a couple moments, circling before a whooshing noise started slowly, softly and then became louder. Perkins smiled down at Felicia and over at Raphael before pressing a couple buttons on the monitor. "There's your baby." She said pointing towards white area in the middle of all black. It was small and blob like, a little bigger than what Donnie had shown them a couple weeks before but, still beautiful.

Raphael grabbed tightly onto Felicia's hand as he smiled down at her, leaning forward to kiss her forehead. Felicia looked at the screen in amazement, hearing the noise that she would cherish forever.

"That's our baby." She said, tears starting in her eyes as Raphael smiled, feeling tears prickle in his.

"Yup." He said, clearing his throat as Felicia clenched his hand in hers. "Is uh…" He started, clearing his throat again "…Is there anything wrong or… Um anything…" He asked hesitantly as Perkins looked over at him from the screen.

"No, everything looks normal. The heart beat is healthy and everything sounds good." She said with a smile. "But, I want to see you both once a month to check on this little one. We'll do that for about the first twenty eight weeks and then once we get going I'll need to see you about every two weeks until your due date." She said with a smile as Felicia nodded.

"When, um… Do we know the due date?"

"Well, it's primarily forty weeks from the first day of your last period. Do you know the exact date?" Perkins asked, going over to the counter where her laptop sat.

"Um… September… third? Maybe…" She asked questioningly looking over at Raph who just shrugged.

"So, I would think being eight weeks along and we're in October, we're looking at June sometime." She said turning towards the couple with a smile after taping a few things into her laptop.

"Wow…" Raphael said with a smile, looking down at Felicia as she sat up a little from her lying position.

"Yeah… So, if there are any complications or… Um, abnormalities we'd be able to detect it with the ultrasounds?" She asked as Perkins looked at her confused for a moment.

"Do you have history of drug abuse?" She asked as Felicia's face reddened.

"No… I've never smoked, or done drugs. I drink a little but…"

"Then, you're fine. Everything should go smoothly for your two. Does your family have any history of diseases or, abnormal pregnancies?" She asked again, going back over to where Felicia sat on the exam table placing a concerning hand on the young woman's shoulder.

"No, not that I know of… My mom had three kids and they all turned out OK I guess…" She said softly as Perkins looked towards Raphael.

"You have any family history of abnormalities?" She asked as Raph, looked down at Felicia with a grimace and back towards the doctor.

"No…" He said slowly as she smiled, putting her hands over Felicia's that were being held tightly by Raphael.

"Then, there are no worries. I'll give you a list of some vitamins and things to look out for but, don't worry yourselves about anything until there is something to worry about. From what I saw this little one is healthy, and has a loving family." She said with a smile, going back to her laptop to print out a summary of the visit. "I'll be back with that list and a date for your next appointment and your first picture of baby" She said with a large smile as Felicia nodded. "Felicia sweetheart, you can get dressed." Perkins said, leaving the two alone in the room.

Felicia sat for a moment on the table looking at the screen with the image of their baby still saved there. She put her hand to the monitor, touching the little white circle as tears filled her eyes.

"What if he's not OK?" She asked softly, looking over at Raphael. He sighed, going to the other side of the bed, next to the monitor and taking Felicia's hands into his. He kissed her knuckles softly before helping her onto her feet.

"He's going to be good, he's a Hamato and regardless of anything, he'll be loved." He said placing Felicia's clothing on the exam table for her. She looked at them, picking up her bra slowly and putting it on.

"I love you." She said, looking over at him as he waiting for her to get dressed.

"I love you too." He chuckled, kissing the side of her head. "We'll be good, everythin' is gonna be great." He said as she chuckled a little, wiping tears from her cheeks.

"You suck at being optimistic." She said as he sighed with a roll of his eyes. "I believe you though, well I am gonna try and… I want to tell you something when we get back to the apartment. I've been having weird dreams lately and you said early I'm not gonna be alone in this and I don't want to be, not now, not after seeing he's OK and…" She sighed, pulling her pants up and tugging her shirt over her head.

"You're not alone in this, and I am here, for whatever. Weird dreams, weird cravings… I was built on weird." He said with a chuckle as she was able to give one back. "Babe, please anythin' and everythin' tell me, I want to know everythin' about this pregnancy. I don't want to be left out." He said softly as she looked at him confused, buttoning up her cardigan she wore under her jacket.

"Be left out?" She asked softly as he sighed.

"Just, with the girls being all over you and happy about the baby… It's our baby." He said looking at her as she nodded, grabbing his hands in hers.

"It is our baby, and our journey. I wouldn't leave you behind in this." He smiled, feeling tears start to prickle in his eyes again as he nodded his head quickly, clearing his throat.

"Good. Where the hell is she with that list?" He asked, changing the subject as Felicia chuckled, leaning up on her toes to kiss his scruffy cheek.


Author Note:

I have been working on this for awhile, here and there. I am going continuing with this story and others, so don't lose hope on me yet! Life gets in the way and adulting is hard but, I appreciate all the comments and reviews. Everyone who has read this Saga since the beginning, you're all amazing! I am so happy to be writing and creating something you enjoy!

Thank you!