Ben...Ben. I don't even care anymore. And now that I think about it, what he did to me can be forgiven. Yeah sure. "Hey Ben." I said and smiled. Whats wrong with me? He looked surprised. "Hey Anna, aren't you mad at me?" Yeah unbelievably so. So much that I would kill you right now. Without a doubt. "No, why would I be?" he smiled and it struck my heart like a knife. A thousand of them. All coming at me at once. "Can I kiss you?" he asked. Yeah like he really would even not kiss me if I refused. He isn't good at rejection. "Yes." I said and his lips melted with mine. So many memories of that night came back to me. So many unpleasent and unloving wrods were spoken that night. And now I am forgiving him. That makes alot of sense.
He continued to kiss me and the entire time I tried to pretend it was Jacob. Someone help me...
"Anna?" Edward stepped into the room. His eyes raging fire. Thanks. He nodded and looked pleading. "Does my mom need me Edward?" I asked. "Yes, she asked me to come and find you." I nodded and smiled sheepishly at Ben. "Be right back." I wispered and he kissed me once more. Jacob, Jacob. I kept repeating in my mind. Once he let me go I got off the bed and rolled my eyes. Edward chuckled and waved at Ben. "Nice to meet you." he said and Ben didn't reply. That made me giggle a little. Edward shut the door on Ben so it was just him and I in the hallway.
"You know Anna, anytime you need me, just call." You mean through my mind? "Yes." he sounded serious. Thats not strange at all. He chuckled and looked at me seriously. "I'm not kidding Anna. Anytime. Remember that. And I know about what Ben did. I won't let him do that again." Thanks. Really. Edward nodded and we walked down the remaining wooden stairs. Once we reached the bottom I froze in place. Jacob was sitting in the living room on the couch and Bella and the rest of the Cullen's were sprawled on the floors and remaing chairs. Nobody was next to Jacob....good. I went down the long hallway and into the kitchen where my mom and Uncle Charlie sat at the long kitchen table sipping their coffee quietly. I went to the fridge and got out a can of soda. I opened it and began chugging. I hadn't realized how thirsty I really was. Weird.
"Honey, do you want to talk about anything?" my mother asked quietly. She set down her coffee and walked to the kitchen sink. "No, why would you think so?" I tried to sound nonchalant. "Oh, no reason. Just heard you screaming at people, leaving with a complete stranger, passing out. No reason." I rolled my eyes and sighed. "I don't need any talking too. I'm fine." I could tell Charlie was about to speak to me too so I said that loud enough for both of them to hear. "Alright well remember I am here you can talk to me." Yeah I am getting that a lot lately. I just nodded and grabbed my laptop off of the kitchen counter. I went into the dining room and grabbed a chair and brought it into the living room. I put it at the opposite end of the couch that Jacob was sitting at and sat down. I placed my feet on the foot of the couch and turned on my laptop.
Once it was on I went to the internet and went to my e-mail. 34 new messages. Great. I skimmed them quickly most of them were new fanfiction stories or ones that were being canceled or continued. I opened the one that called to me. The title was 'Jacob Dies' I put my hand over my mouth to hold back the oncoming laughter. That title is just so straughtforward. There was no summary so I skipped that one. The rest of them were oddly just about 'NessieXJake' or 'BellaXJake' why can't they just leave him out of the stories period? Then there was a review I clicked on it. I forgot I had written any fanfiction. It read:
"Depressing...try to lighten it up a bit. I mean does Jacob ALWAYS have to die? A little cruel don't you think? And come on Edward and Bella would never I repeat NEVER do that"
I exited out before I remembered what I had read. I don't want Edward to find out. If anything it probably wasn't good. I looked over at him. He was rubbing Bella's head and she was smiling that a friggen maniac. Not that special princess. I looked at Jake he was reading a book. Wow..thats a new one. And then he looked up at me. His black eyes peircing. "Anna can I speak with you?" he asked. "Speak." I felt like I was commanding a dog...oh thats right I am. I saw Edward smile from the corner of my eye. "Privately." now he is commanding me? "No sorry I'm busy. And I wouldn't want to trouble you, since you loathe me and all." He rolled his eyes and put the book down. "Stop being so childish." , "It's hard ya know since I'm a child." Edward chuckled this time and Jacob looked angry. Let him be. "You really can't be mature can you?" he asked. "Guess not." I said returning my eyes to my computer. "Look at me Anna." Who does he think he is? "Rather not. I have 20, 20 vision don't want to mess it up." Emmett laughed this time. I didn't if you haven't noticed sarcasm is my favorite! "Nice Anna." of course Emmett is the only one brave enough to say that. Jacob was now off the wall. "Can you try to be an adult for a few minutes. Please." Oh, now he asks nicely. I pretended to be really into my pinball game. "Can you shut up for a few minutes?" I asked. He got up and left the room. "Wow. That was intense." Jasper said and I finally smiled. I shut my laptop and - somone was coming down the stairs. Ben. I frogot him up there. Now I'm in for it. And to my 'surprise' it was Ben. He was angry. He came to where I sat and grabbed my hand. He pulled me up and Edward almost got up. Don't. I said and he backed off.
He pulled me into the hallway and pushed me up against the wall. "So do you have a reason for leaving me up there? Are you to busy chatting with those useless pervs online?" he slammed me against the wall and I winced. I hope nobody's in the kitchen. And obviously they weren't because he pushed me up against it even harder. "Answer me." he growled and I scanned my mind for something coherent to say. "I-I..I forgot Ben. I-I'm sorry. Please." I wispered but no tears escaped. "You forgot? Thats all you have to say? You make me feel like a complete idiot because you forgot? I'll have to make sure you don't forget again." I went to move then something hit my lower stomach. I gasped and grasped my stomach. No tears escaped. I am strong. "Maybe you won't forget next time." he said and kissed me on the forehead. "I don't like hurting you Anna. But you bring it upon yourself. I love you."I nodded and he let me go. I grasped my stomach and he pulled my hand away from my stomach and placed it in his hand. We walked hand in hand into the living room. I forced on a smile. We sat down on the couch and he pulled me up against him. Still no tears escaped. I took a deep breathe and turned up to him and smiled. He smiled back. He played with my fingers in his hand. I didn't move away or even flinch in fear of him scretly hitting me or punishing me later. And this is the life I live. A life of fear and pain. Edward shook his head. I didn't know if it was in answer to my thoughts I didn't care.
We sat on that couch while everyone else talked quietly until there was no more light outside the window. I guess Devan and the rest of my cousins went out drinking or something. God, I wish I was with them. Forgetting all of my fears in alcohol. I smiled to myself. "Anna, honey I have to go. I'll be back tomarrow." he said and leaned down to kiss me. It wasn't a short kiss either. He was friggen eating my face. He finally pulled away. "I love you." he said and I saw the warning in his eyes. " I love you too." I wispered my voice breaking. He kissed my forehead again and I winced. I hope he didn't notice. He turned around and left in a hurry. I sighed when he was gone. An acutal weight was just lifted off of my chest.
I rubbed my eyes and faked a tired yawn. "Well I'm tired. I'm going to bed. Unless...Bella do you want to sleep in my bed? Since your room is kind of nonexistant." I fake chuckled and hoped to God nobody could see past my facade. "Yeah, I guess. But where will you sleep?" well I won't be sleeping, I will be plotting suicide...."I'll sleep on the couch, it's no big deal. There are extra blankets up there and stuff in the closet kay?" she nodded and I turned to the rest of the Cullen kids. "You guys don't sleep, so what are you guys going to be doing?" Emmett shrugged. "I dont' know.","Lets go hunting." Alice said exitedly and they all agreed. In a matter of three seconds all of the Cullen's except Edward were gone. "Bella why don't you head up, I would like to speak with Anna." she nodded and went upstairs. I pulled my legs up on the couch next to me and Edward sighed. "I am not going to let you kill yourself, or drink away your problems. I don't sleep. I can't. And I can read you mind. So I will be in the know of everything you do.", "Are you warning me?" I asked. He nodded. "Yes...Bella loves you, and I don't want to see her in pain."I rolled my eyes. I do. He ignored that and walked upstairs.
After that I turned all the lights out and layed down on the couch. I layed there a while when I felt heat behind me. I turned around. Jacob was sitting on the floor beside the couch. "I lied Anna. I love you. I don't want you to be exposed ot this world of mythical creatures but I love you to much. Please forgive me." Jacob is here saying that he loves me. Should I forgive him?
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Okay so if you havent noticed there is a major bonding thing going on bewteen Edward and Anna. Not like love but like sibling love. Edward is begining to care for her. So tell me, do you think Anna should forgive Jacob?
