Title: Unrequited Love
Author: Tara Kitaide
genre: romance/angst/humor
Pairing: Ichigo/Renji
Disclaimer: Wouldn't it be so cool to own bleach? Unfortunately, I don't. If I did, there'd be hot yaoi smut every chapter.
Warning: Yaoi, language, fantasy violence
Rating: M for yaoi scenes
Dedication: To Rachel S. If it wasn't for her constant annoyance I probably never would have picked this up again. Thanks Sakura-chan.
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Waking up in the morning was like loosing a beautiful dream.
Renji opened his eyes only to have his vision blur at the sudden blast of sunlight. He groaned and shut them instantly, pulling the covers closer to him. There was a groan next to him as he wiggled unconsciously out of a pair of skinny arms that held to his chest and neck. His eyes shot opened and he was instantly met by sight of orange bright hair and the feel of a soft kiss being placed on his chest. His arms were still draped around a trim waist and a pair of hands reached out to pull him closer again. His name was called sleepily and Renji jumped realizing who it belonged to. Ichigo... He was with Ichigo...
He panicked for a moment, his mind fuzzy and trying desperately to find an answer to his situation. He tried to push out of Ichigo's arms and get up but Ichigo grabbed his arm before he could stand. "Don't go." He grumbled. "Stay and sleep."
Renji stared at Ichigo for a moment before realization hit him as well as memories from last night. It was okay now. He had told Ichigo he loved him, kissed him, and then...
Renji blushed and for the first time realized he was still naked. He gulped and quickly ducked back under the covers, huddling against Ichigo and trying to hide his growing blush. Ichigo looked down at him, confused. Renji had cuddled against Ichigo's chest, hiding his face and wrapping his arms around Ichigo's chest. "Renji? What's wrong? Why are you getting so close?"
Renji didn't respond and just tightened his hold on Ichigo. Ichigo put a hand on Renji's cheek and tried to lift his face but wouldn't budge. "Renji? Renji, what's wrong? Why wont you let me see your face?" This time Renji grumbled in response and felt his face burn with embarrassment. He slowly allowed Ichigo to lift his face and look at him. His eyes didn't met Ichigo's but that didn't stop him from noticing the smug look that slowly grew on the boy's face.
"Huh? Hey, Renji, why are you blushing?" Ichigo mocked. Renji grumbled again and tried to lower his head but Ichigo held in place. "What? I didn't quite make that out. Could you say it again?" Renji grumbled again before scoffing and looking Ichigo in the face. He muttered something barley audible before ducking back down and hiding his face once more.
Ichigo whined and tried to pry Renji's face away from the pillow but to no avail. "Come on, Renji! Just say it once more, and clearly this time!" He demanded. Renji grumbled. "Come on! Stop acting like a baby!" "I am not acting like anything!" Renji retorted. Ichigo rolled his eyes and scoffed. "Yeah... sure ya aren't."
Renji glared at Ichigo for a moment before yelping as he felt Ichigo run his hand up his thigh. "I-Ichigo!" He gasped. Ichigo ignored the shinigami and continued his journey up the man's leg, enjoying the small sounds that came as a result. "Come to think of it Renji, you never did let me get a good look at you last night."
Ichigo gripped the sheets and slowly began to pull them off of Renji's body. Renji yelped and gripped the sheets, forcing them back up around to his neck. "Idiot, what are you doing?!" Renji gasped in a harsh whisper. Ichigo smirked as his hand reached Renji's growing member. "Come on, Renji, why so harsh?" Ichigo frowned as he gave Renji a light squeeze. Renji gasped and let a small moan escape his lips before biting down on his lower lip to keep silent. Ichigo smirked and used his free hand to untuck Renji's lip from his teeth and take it in his mouth. Renji moaned again, this time louder as he gave into Ichigo's touches.
Ichigo released Renji's lips and claimed his mouth with his own, using his free hand to explore Renji's body. Renji moaned into the kiss and felt as Ichigo rolled into him, him erection sliding over his leg.
"You're so tasty." Ichigo said between deep kisses and heavy breaths. "I want to taste more of ya." Ichigo purred, squeezing Renji roughly. "What's holding you back?" Renji moaned, rocking his hips in Ichigo's hand.
At that time, the door flung open, startling and halting them both.
"Good Morning Kurosaki-kun! It's time to get up for school! I hope you don't mind, your family... let... me..."
Apparently, the intruder was too busy with their greeting that it took them a moment to notice what sort of position the two men were in. Renji's mind froze. He searched his brain for a response or action that would be appropriate. It was only when the person said his name did he realize who they were.
"Ren... Renji-kun...?"
Renji stared into Orihime's horrified face and tried desperately to formulate a sentence. His mouth went dry and felt like someone stuffed it with peanut butter. All he could do was continuously open and close his mouth as he search for the right words.
"Get out."
Renji put a hand to his throat and wondered whether or not he spoke. It was when Orihime's eyes shifted to Ichigo that he realized it was the orange haired boy who had made the command vocal. Orihime didn't move and instead stared on as if the order went unheard.
Ichigo growled and quickly took the pillow from under Renji's head. "I SAID, GET OUT!!" Ichigo tossed the pillow at Orihime, forcing the girl to flee from the room with a startled yelp. The door slammed behind her and Renji tensed briefly before looking into Ichigo's eyes which were still fixed on the spot where Orihime was standing.
Renji reached out a hand and put it to Ichigo's cheek cautiously. "Ichigo..."
Ichigo jumped and his eyes locked with Renji's. Renji saw the sheer fear and terror that shone in Ichigo's eyes. He gazed at him, his eyes narrowing as they lost their surprise. "Ichigo... are you okay?" Ichigo stared back at him before sitting up, releasing Renji and dangling his legs off the bed.
Concern and worry overcame Renji as he rushed up to Ichigo's side resting a hand on his back to comfort the boy. "Ichi...?" Ichigo ignored him and stared down at his hands. "Did you see...? Did you see the expression on her face?" Ichigo's breath began to become short and shaky as his eyes remained wide. "She... She wasn't suppose to know... no one was..."
Renji gulped and closed his eyes for a moment, clearing his head. So he didn't want anyone to know after all... Renji wrapped an arm around Ichigo's shoulders and felt as the boy leaned into him for support. "Renji... she was mortified..."
Renji sighed and nodded. "I know, Ichi... This is why I wanted to talk to you before any of this happened. We needed to talk about what it would do, not only to us but everyone else around us." Ichigo growled and shrugged Renji's arm away as he stood. "So you're saying this is my fault?!" Ichigo shouted at Renji. Renji's eyes widened, this time in fear. "No! Ichi, I'm just saying we maybe should have done things a little differently." Renji's voice was low, barley a whisper as he tried to calm Ichigo. "Please, Ichigo, just sit down so we can talk about this rationally."
Ichigo growled again and clenched his fist before sitting back down next to Renji. Renji didn't extend an arm to wrap around Ichigo's shoulders or try to touch him. He knew that with Ichigo the way he was now, if he tried to calm him Ichigo would just fly off the handle and scream again. Instead, Renji took up the top his shihakushÅ up off the floor and slipped into it, soon after retrieving his bottoms and sash. He gathered Ichigo's cloths too and handed them to him wordlessly. Ichigo slipped into them and sat back down next to Renji.
A heavy silence rest between the two of them. Renji would shift uncomfortably from time to time as he waited for Ichigo to simmer down. It seemed like forever until Ichigo sighed, his shoulders dropping. Renji let out a breath he didn't even know he was holding and cautiously took Ichigo's hand in his, their fingers intertwining. Ichigo breathed deeply again and leaned his head against Renji's shoulder. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that."
Renji let a soft smile adorn his lips as he kissed the top of Ichigo's head before speaking. "No, it's okay. I understand. You're... scared..." Ichigo nodded and tightened the grip on Renji's hand. "She just... looked so hurt, so betrayed, horrified."
Renji sighed and closed his eyes. "I know, Ichi, but... we can't expect everyone to take it well. Some may shun and scorn us or disown us completely while others will stay behind us and support everything we do, One Hundred percent." Ichigo nodded and wrapped his free arm around Renji's waist. "I know, but... I don't know... what to do when I see her next."
Renji wrapped an arm around Ichigo's waist in turn and nuzzled the boy's soft orange hair. He was about to speak when Ichigo continued. "Renji, I don't care... If I lose everyone... I don't care if all my friends and family shun me... I don't care if I lose everything... All I need, all I want is you. I can't live without you, Renji... Your everything to me, my whole world. I love you, Renji."
Renji gulped at the speech and open confession. "Ichigo..." Ichigo looked up into Renji's startled eyes and smiled. Renji stared back for a moment before calming and smiling back at the boy. "I love you too, Ichigo." Renji leaned down and kissed Ichigo's lips lightly. Ichigo happily kissed back and ran his fingers through Renji's hair. The two stayed like that for a long time, only pulling away momentarily to breath. They were oblivious to the listening ears of Orihime from the other side of the door or the fact that she was glaring heavily at the door, holding back the murderous jealousy that rose from within her.
"Damn you... Renji..."
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A/N: YAY for quick update! BOO for the shortness of the chappy. T.T Well, I already have one hater down. I guess Ishida will oppose them too and other than that, I've got nutin'. I hope to end this fic some time in the near future but not too near future. Well, I hope you enjoyed and keep putting up suggestions and votes! I need as many as I can get!
HAPPY EARLY B-DAY TO SILVERSHELL!!! HOPE YOU ENJOYED, DUDE!!
