*Forever and for Always*

As always I do not own any of these SOA characters they belong to Kurt Sutter. I hope you all enjoyed chapter 8 I promise it's going to get better. I may even have to leave you all hanging for a little while. This story has been on my mind since end of season 4 so I have already written the first 10 chapters and now I'm having writers block LOL but I promise I won't leave you hanging for too long. Enjoy

Gemma's POV

Piney gave me nothing. Told me that I was crazy to think that Jax knows about these letters. I remembered how close JT and Piney were. They built SAMCRO together. Piney told me that nothing good can come out of these letters and was happy that Tara gave them to me. Piney knew Tara wouldn't be able to keep them from Jax and right now Jax doesn't need to know the path the club is on is not what his father wanted.

Piney was right. Jax doesn't need to know that; there's too much hurt and pain in the truth. I should know. I helped with that tragedy.

Tara and Jax never left his dorm room last night. They didn't have the boys so there was no reason to rush home. They took their sweet time just being with each other. They loved every minute of it. Jax will be leaving with Bobby, Chibs and Happy to go on a run tomorrow and Tara will be staying with Opie and Lyla because Jax doesn't want her alone.

"I want another baby" Tara said as she sat up from the bed and put on an old SAMCRO t-shirt. Jax was speechless.

"Uh, ok babe I can try to work my magic" Jax responded as he winked at her.

"Jax it's not funny; don't joke around with me. I'm serious! Our babies are growing up and it's making me so sad" Tara said as she sat back on the bed. "I don't know what it is but I keep imagining us having a little girl with brown hair and your blue eyes; my attitude and your smile; I know it's not a good time with everything going on but can we at least talk about it or try?" Tara sighed. She didn't know where this was coming from. Maybe it was just the itch.

Jax walked over to Tara pulled her in to a hug and said "Babe I will do anything for you. I would love to have another baby with you. Can we get through this ordeal and then settle it?" Tara nodded. Jax squeezed her tighter. "Now come on babe you owe me a shower" Jax winked and headed towards the bathroom.

Lyla was already up before Opie. She loved getting up with Thomas and Abel at the crack of dawn. The older kids never liked getting out of bed before 11on the weekends so Lyla loved the extra attention.

"Come on guys get up out of bed; Abel and Thomas want to play outside" Lyla yelled to the 3 sleepy kids.

"Ok we are coming now" They all yelled in unison.

"Babe when they go outside I'm heading out to the clubhouse; will you be ok alone?" Opie asked as he rubbed her growing belly.

"Yes Ope, I'll be fine, I love you be careful" Lyla said kissing Opie.

"Clay where did you and Tig go last night? You didn't come in until late" Gemma said giving Clay a cup of coffee.

"Its club business; not yours" Clay said grabbing his coffee and walked away.

Something is going on Gemma thought to herself. I need to get to the bottom of this! I'll talk to Tig. Gemma got up from the table; grabbed her purse and headed out. Without saying a word to Clay.

Clay heard her car start and knew exactly where she would be going. He would have to meet up with her at TM.

When Tara got to Lyla's house she heard the kids playing in the backyard; she smiled at how peaceful it was. This is defiantly the life; she thought to herself.

"Hey Lyla how were my monsters for you last night?" Tara said as she hugged her.

"They were great! Thomas is totally a cuddle bug; I loved that by the way" Lyla said smirking. "I can't wait to find out what we are having" She said as she rubbed her belly.

"I can't wait either!" Tara said eager to know if she's going to welcome a new niece or new nephew. "Have you picked out names yet?"

"Opie is totally undecided but I have narrowed a few names; for a girl I love Winter Lynn or Maggie Lynn but Opie doesn't like either of those. For a boy I Charles Mathew or Ryan Mathew; I told Opie that it's not fair to Kenny to have a JR so Harry JR is out of the question. Charles was my grandfather's name. I love that name but I do want Opie to love it too. It's hard. It was easy for you with Thomas because of Jax's brother but I'm stuck" Lyla said.

"Lyla all those names are beautiful. Opie will come around. Once you find out exactly what you are having then it'll be easier to narrow the names down. Guess what I told Jax today?" Tara said as she smiled.

Tara didn't even wait for a response before she quickly said "I told him I want another baby"

"Oh my God Tara that would be amazing if we were pregnant together" Lyla said excitedly.

"Hold on Lyla I didn't say I was pregnant" Tara said laughing. "I don't even know where it came from I just blurted it out this morning"

"Oh Tara it's a woman thing. We all want babies" Lyla said laughing.

"I'm glad you find this amusing Lyla. With all this shit going on if I was pregnant Jax wouldn't let me go forward with our plan and then we would be stuck with this poison for the rest of our lives" Tara sighed "I'm going to hold off trying to get pregnant until I can get through this"

Lyla just nodded. She knew that Tara wanted to get rid of Gemma and Clay but wanted to do it the right way so all we can do is just wait. Wait until the law takes over and the club can vote for mayhem.

"I tell you what Tara; let's get this plan set up in motion and then together we can watch it all come together and then we can talk about how often you need to fuck Jax" Lyla said. Both girls started laughing. Ellie walked in and said "What's so funny?"

As Lyla and Tara were both red in the face; Lyla turned to her step daughter and said "Oh just boy problems sweetie" and kissed her on the cheek.

Lyla loved Ellie and Ellie finally opened up to Lyla. It was hard to let another woman in. Ellie missed her mom and Lyla knew that. After Lyla sat down with Ellie and Kenny and explained that she would never try to replace their mother; both kids seemed at ease more and Lyla couldn't be happier.

After they all ate lunch together Tara packed up the boys and was heading to TM. Lyla decided she also wanted to go so they got in the van together and drove with all 5 kids.

When they pulled up to TM there were a few bikes and Gemma's suv. "Oh look mommy dearest is here yay" Tara said as she unbuckled Thomas. The kids ran right for the playground that they loved to play on. Lyla and Tara decided to just sit at the picnic table and watch the kids.

As Gemma walked out of the office she spotted her grandkids and quickly looked around to see where Tara or Lyla was. Meeting Tara's eyes; Gemma looked guilty of something, Tara thought as she glimpsed towards Gemma.

"Hey grandma" Tara shouted as she waved to Gemma.

Gemma just nodded and smiled as she walked back to her office.

"Doc. Can I have a minute of your time please?" Tig asked as he walked towards the picnic table from the clubhouse.

"Sure Tig, do I need my medical bag?" Tara asked.

"No just your listening ears please" Tig gave a sad smirk and walked back in the clubhouse.

"Lyla can you keep an eye on them for a few?" Tara asked pointing to the boys.

"Of course; just be careful Tara, Tig scares me" Lyla whispered.

Lyla has no idea how scary Tig really is Tara thought to herself.

As Tara and Tig came out of the clubhouse all the guys were back and running around the yard with the kids. It was so beautiful watching all these grown, scary looking men playing with these 5 innocent children. It was pure joy.

"Hey babe, why were you in the clubhouse with Tig" Jax asked as he kissed Tara's forehead.

"Teller, we will talk later; right now I need to go see the monster house" Tara said smirking and pointing at the office.

"umm so brother wanna tell me what the hell monster house is?" Opie said chuckling. Jax shook his head. "You have never seen that movie Ope?"

Opie looked at Lyla and she shrugged her shoulders. "Apparently not can I borrow it from you?" Opie asked laughing.

"Well uncle Opie you will have to ask that little man right there" as he pointed to Abel who was smiling at them. "That's his favorite movie, Tara and I can't get the kid to watch anything else" Jax said laughing.

"Hey Abel, come here Uncle Opie needs to ask you something" Opie yelled to Abel. Abel just ran right to Opie. "Can uncle Opie and aunt Lyla borrow Monster House from you tonight?"

Abel looked directly at Jax; "I told him he had to ask you buddy it's your movie" Jax said shrugging his shoulders.

"Can I stay at your house again aunt Lyla?" Abel asked with the cutest little voice anyone has ever heard.

"Oh my God how can I say no" Lyla reached for Abel who wilfully went right to her. "Of course you can little man" Lyla said as she kissed Abel.

"Mommy mommy; I'm staying at aunt Lyla's again" Abel said searching for Tara. "Daddy where is my mommy?" Abel said to Jax after not finding Tara.

"She's talking to grandma; how about we go tell her" Jax said as he reached out for Abel who refused to leave Lyla's arms.

"Noooooooooo daddy I want to stay with aunt Lyla; you go get my mommy pleaseeeeeeee" Abel said as he laid his head on Lyla.

Jax just shook his head and smiled. Yup Abel is defiantly his son. He thought as he walked away.

"Babe" Jax said as he opened the office door. As he opened the door the yelling was very clear, even the guys heard it in the lot. Opie, Happy, Kozik and Chibs all ran towards the office.

"YOU DON'T TELL ME WHAT I CAN AND CANNOT DO WITH MY BOYS. GET THAT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL GEMMA THEY ARE MY BOYS NOT YOURS" Tara screamed.

"OVER MY DEAD BODY WILL YOU TAKE MY BOYS AWAY FROM ME YOU HEAR ME TARA OVER MY DEAD BODY WILL YOU TAKE THEM TO OREGON" Gemma yelled back.

Jax, Opie and Happy stepped in the middle of the two woman

"Stop it now" Jax yelled. "Ma what the hell is wrong with you" Jax said looking at Gemma.

"Jackson you tell that mother of yours that I will do whatever the hell I want with my boys. They are MY boys Jackson not hers!" Tara demanded.

"Tara relax you're going to give yourself a heart attack" Opie said trying to calm Tara down. "Abel was looking for you; why don't you go see him" Opie scooted Tara out the door and shut it behind her.

"Gemma this is the reason I told Tara to go" Jax said shaking his head. "I'm done telling you to back off; pat yourself on the back ma, I'm making Tara pack up the boys they are leaving and I won't be telling you where they are going either" Jax yelled and stormed out of the office.

"Jax" Gemma yelled but Happy stopped her.

"Let him go Gemma" Happy said. Gemma just looked at him and sat down with her head in her hands weeping.

"Jax we need to take care of this now" Tara said as she walked in their front door. Thankfully Lyla and Opie took both boys again.

"Tig told me that Clay is going behind your backs to the cartel and the Irish. He's trying to make as much money as possible before he splits from the club. We need to vote mayhem for him before he skips town and we never find him" Tara said; pacing the kitchen.

"Tara sit down and RELAX" Jax said loudly. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell but Jesus Christ Tara you were fine one minute and then screaming at my mom at the top of your lungs the next minute what the hell happened?" Jax asked as he took her hand in his.

"Jax she told me that I am forbidden to take HER boys away from her. I'm sick of her saying they are her boys Jax they are mine. Ours" Tara corrected.

"What did Tig tell you Tara; How do you know we can trust him?" Jax asked.

"Because Jax he cried. The first time I've ever seen that man use emotions. He cried as he was telling me how sorry he was for killing Donna and for following orders from Clay. He told me that he's done being Clay's bitch Jax, he knows something is going on and he's being pushed aside because of Clay. He's ready to move forward Jax. He told me that last night him and Clay met with the Irish and the deal that Clay made with them he does not back. They are going to hurt you guys. Jax you need to be more careful" Tara began to sob.

Jax got up pulled her to him and said "we will take care of all of this. I promise you Tara we are going to get through this together. I love you"

"I love you too Jax. I think we need to talk to Alvarez. Stop putting it off. It's time now" Tara said as she wiped her tears. "Come on Teller; let's go make love" Tara said as she walked towards their bedroom leaving a trail of clothes behind. Jax sighed. 'I'm not ready for that step of our plan' he thought.

"Let's go TELLER" Tara yelled from the bedroom. Jax hurried down the hall.

TBC—what do you think the deal is with Tig confessing to Tara? Do you think it's true or is it what Clay wants them to think? Please tell me what you think is going to happen next!