"What about adoption?"Spencer asked not looking up from the news paper in her hand. Emily looked up from her breakfast and studied Spencer's face. "You want to adopt?"Emily asked. Spencer looked up at her wife and smiled. "Why not? There are tons of teenagers out there having babies and not being able to take care of them or they just don't want them."
Spencer's tone and face was serious but Emily couldn't tell if she really was. They had never talked about adoption, Emily thought since they didn't talk about it that it was off the table. When Emily didn't say anything Spencer sat her paper down and moved next to Emily.
"This way there would be no what if we lose another baby, it's safe and you won't have to live through lossing another you're not happy, the only time you're not faking a smile is when you're holding Jaiden or Catherine. I just want you to be happy and having a baby whether it's adopted or not will make you happy. Think about it Em, not only will you be happy again, we'll be helping someone who isn't ready to be a parent."Spencer stood and kissed Emily on the head.
It broke Spencer's heart every time Emily faked a smile. Spencer didn't know what to do anymore, she started to doubt if she could ever make Emily happy again. Spencer had been crushed like Emily had, if not more when they lost the baby but she was slowly starting to heal.
She knew that they could never replace the baby they lost, nor would she want to but the need to give Emily a family grew everyday, which lead her to the idea of adoption. She could give Emily the family she deserved and help someone else out too. The idea had been bouncing around in her head for a few days and after finding everything there was about adoption, she finally said something to Emily about it.
It hadn't gone the way she thought, she thought Emily would be happy about the idea but when Emily didn't say anything, she knew that Emily would never go for it.
"Think about it, I have to go to work. I love you Emmy."Spencer whispered then left the kitchen and headed out the front door to her SUV. Emily sat at the table and listened to Spencer shut the car door, start the car up and pull out of the driveway. It was true Emily wasn't happy, even though Spencer had been doing everything in the world to make her happy. Emily couldn't bring herself to be happy.
Every time she was happy, she felt guilty, she felt that she should forever be depressed for the loss of her baby. Emily stood from the table and moved to grab her cell phone. She called Aria knowing the other woman would be free.
"Aria do you want to get some coffee?" "Hello to you too Emily."Aria laughed. "That sounds good Em, Jaiden and I will meet you at the cafe in an hour."
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An hour passed and Emily found herself sitting in the cafe telling Aria about Spencer wanting to adopted a child. "I think it's a great idea Em, Spencer's right not only would y'all have the family y'all want but you would really be helping someone who is too young to take care of a baby."
"I don't know I'll have to look into it."Emily said taking a sip of her coffee and watching baby Jaiden sleep in her mothers arms. "Spencer has already looked into it if she came to you about it, she's doing everything she can to make you happy Emily, maybe you should do something to make her happy."
"She wants a family as much as you if not more, she's never thought about adoption, not even when she found out she couldn't have kids, she wants to do this to save you any kind of pain Em. Think about it for Spencer."Aria said passing Jaiden over to her Aunt and taking a drink from her coffee.
Emily stared down at the baby in her arms and thought about what Spencer and Aria had said. Was she only thinking of her pain? Was she so caught up in herself that she didn't even thinking of everything Spencer felt and was trying to do for her?
"I'm a horrible Wife."Emily whispered looking up at Aria with a lone tear rolling down her cheek. "Oh Emmy, no you're not things have been hard on you two, y'all will figure everything out." "She's done so much for me and I repay her by thinking of myself, I need to go see her."Emily said handing Jaiden back to her mother and throwing money down on the table for the coffees before standing up and running towards her car.
"I'll call you later, thanks for the talk Ari."Emily yelled over her shoulder as she got in her car. Aria watched her drive away with a big smile on her face. 'She's going to say yes.'Aria thought to herself as she watched Emily drive away.
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Emily made it to Spencer's work in half an hour. She parked her car and made her way into the building. As the walked through the building, she was greeted by Spencer's co-workers. All of which asked her how she was doing and was quick to give her a hug. The people at the crime lab were like another family to Spencer and Emily.
"Hey Emily, Spencer just left to go to a crime scene, why don't you go wait in her office she shouldn't be too long."Toby, a long time friend of Spencer's said greeting Emily as she made her way towards Spencer's office. Emily smiled at the tall man and followed him to the office.
"How have you been Emily?I know Spencer has been worried about you."Toby said as he opened the door to Spencer's office for Emily. "I've been as good as I can be I guess, I wish Spencer wouldn't worry so much."She said as they both entered the office. Toby took a seat on the couch in the corner of the room while Emily sat in the chair behind Spencer's desk.
"She's always going to worry about you Emily. Your her whole world. When Spencer and I first met, she talked about you the whole time, it was annoying at first but I understand why she talks about you the way she did, she loved you more than anything in this world, she still does."He said giving Emily a comforting smile.
"She wants to adopted and I'm not sure how I feel about that, I want to have a baby, go through everything being pregnant throws at me. I want to give birth to a baby and I want to make Spencer happy and give back to her for everything she's done for me."Emily whispered playing with some papers on the desk in front of her.
Toby was quiet for a few minutes before he looked up at Emily and smiled again. "You can adopt then after a year or so try to get pregnant again. That way you both win and even in you can't get pregnant again or you do and something happens, you still have one child to love and care for. Spencer will be happy as long as you are Emily."Toby said.
The beeper on Toby's side went off causing him to jump up and move to the door in a hurry. "I have to go, feel free to stay as long as you like, I'll get ahold of Spencer and let her know you're here as soon as I can."
Emily moved from the chair and laid down on the couch Toby had just been sitting on. After a few minutes her eye lids started to grow heavy and then closed as she fell into a restless sleep.
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Spencer walked through the halls of the lab, dropping off evidence as she made her way to her office. "Hastings!"Toby yelled from down the hall stopping Spencer and causing her to turn around towards him. "Yes Cavanaugh?"
"I got the blood test back, no match and your Wife is waiting for you in your office."He said handing Spencer a file. "Run the Dad's and the Brother's, theres something off about their stories. Is she okay?"Spencer asked looking up from the file in her hand. "She's fine Spence. Did you find the weapon at the scene?"
"No, she wasn't killed there. I dropped some evidence off, maybe that will tell us where she was killed. The BD is on it's way, page me when it gets here. I'll be in my office."Spencer said turning and walking away from Toby. Spencer contuined to look through the file in her hand as she entered the office, not noticing that Emily was asleep on the couch.
When she finally looked up and saw Emily, she couldn't help but smile. She loved how peaceful her Wife looked when she slept, she loved the way Emily would curle in a ball and hug a pillow when she slept alone. Spencer sat the file down on the desk and sat on the floor by Emily's head.
She brushed hair out of Emily's face and pressed her lips to the sleeping woman's lips. "Spence?"Emily mumbled slowly opening her eyes. "Hey Love, are you okay?"Spencer asked cupping Emily's cheek. Emily leaned into Spencer's hand and closed her eyes. "I'm sorry for only thinking of myself, you're hurting too I know that and I should be taking care of you like you take care of me."
"Baby, don't worry about it. It was just an idea." "No Spencer, Adoption is a great Idea we shou-"Emily's words were cut off by Spencer's beeper. Spencer looked down at the beeper and saw Toby's number flashed on the screen. "I have to go Love, we'll talk about this at dinner."Spencer said giving Emily a quick kiss then stood up and left the room to find Toby.
Hey guys, So sorry this took forever to get out, writers block sucks! I hope to get back to updating this story every week again. I hope everyone one had a great Christmas and New you to everyone who has read and reviewed the last chapter. Also thank you for reading this chapter, I love you guys :) Untill next time.
