Authors Note : I probably put everyone in a little bit of a cliff hanger. This is another semi dramatically chapter. I could not wait to add more.

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Chapter Nine : Hit the Fan

Amy was slumped sadly during lunch. Amy and Emma frequented a small table in the cafeteria that had two seats, they mostly talked about all kinds of things but today the topic was Sean. "I don't understand, first he acts like I'm the worst girlfriend in the world and ditches me to hang out with Jay." Emma said as she tore a pretzel and put it in her mouth, "and then he you know wants to be friends, and that's cool. He saved my ass when he saw me in the ravine when it was raining but aside form that - I thought he was tryna do the right thing."

"Sean knows nothing about the right thing. I mean you could try to point him in the right direction, but it takes a really persistent person to get him to actually do anything." Amy pointed out angrily after she took a sip of her Dr. Pepper.

Emma shrugged, "With me it was really never like that, unless he was putting himself down. But things changed after he started hanging with Jay." she really seemed to find it odd that Amy had so much to say on Sean, "I guess you and Sean were pretty acquainted."

"Yeah I guess you could say that." Amy said glumly before adding, "I mean I always felt like I was. . . I don't know - second best? Like there would always be someone in his life, I mean a girl who he found better. I guess that girl was Ellie but what I think is that girl must've been you."

"Don't be silly. If he liked me - why would he let me go? Speaking of which, today he got real upset, Ames. He's all, shocked that I was moving on and he told me he loved me. I'm so confused."

"I wouldn't believe him; I don't think he's gotten any in awhile. . . "

"Amy I don't think it's like that, but okay."

"Em, Sean probably wasn't a jerk when he was with you. But he said he loved you?"

Emma nodded, Amy smirked light heartedly and sighed, "But then he started hanging out with the crew and he changed. Who is to say I love you isn't just a way to get in your pants."

"Amy he's already got in my pants. " Emma stated calmly before looking up at Amy's gaping mouth and blank stare eyes before she shook her head and sighed, "But that is beside the point."

"Look, same here."

"I assumed so since you know him oh so well."

Amy giggled, "Anyway."

"Anyway." Emma lingered, "It's so weird because I had these hopes and these dreams for Sean and I like that he'd somehow take me back and all that but then I figured it wasn't ever going to happen. Now I just feel so stupid for quitting and not believing in it as soon as I started to try to move on because I know for a fact I'm not completely over Sean."

"Sean was your first love of course it's hard to get over something so. . . raw and real. It's like that whole first time type thing with anything really. You'll always remember your very first date, your very first school dance your first kiss those kind of things they're unavoidable because it was new. They were first, they saw you as you started as a young kid to whenever the relationship or whatever died. It's normal, it's something you shouldn't or wouldn't want to forget. It's special, and that's why you feel as though you aren't over Sean."

"I see what your saying, Ames. But gosh - a mess, I feel like a mess. I had a great date with Brian, he was absolutely perfect. Like I told you everything like dinner and movie and he brought me flowers, we went stargazing and everything."

"Why do I feel a but coming on?"

"Our date was perfect, but every time there was a silence or something or anything I felt wrong and I thought of Sean. It was like I was like cheating. . And cheating is wrong but it also felt right because I like Brian, and he opened up to me a-and everything. But - then this morning when he brought up the whole moving on thing I said what I said because I wanted to hurt him and make him feel bad when he apologized an-and I said it was okay but it really wasn't. Amy, I love Sean, and I dated Brian. . Because- I don't know. I feel like I'm toying with Brian and I don't want that . . . what should I do?"

"Em for the first time, I really can't help. I've never been there. Every guy I've ever been with was a wam bam thank-you ma'am kind of guy. I've never had the opportunity to have an innocent harmless loving relationship. Sean was a guy I really liked and trusted for awhile but I felt so dirty compared to him, like he was trying to be this. . Bad guy and I was already the bad girl. Like I said I always felt second best like his mind was always elsewhere. I can't tell you what to do, Em. Brian could always find a good girl but if you just leave Sean where he's at the only place he's gonna wind up is in jail."

"I always worry that's where he'd end up. I tried protecting him earlier in this school year. "

"I know. I love him too." Em sighed wrapping her food up in the paper bag. She barely picked at her cheese sandwich because she mostly ate her pretzel and drank water.

Amy sighed, saying something out of nowhere "Em I just feel so dishonest."

"What do you mean?" Emma raised an eyebrow worriedly.

"I mean you're so honest with me and I feel like I haven't told you everything about me a-and I want to because you've been such a good friend these days."

"Well thanks but you don't have to if you don't want to."

"I feel as though I need to though, Em."

"Shoot." Emma told Amy.

Amy sighed, there was a slight pause before she began and she avoided Emma's eyes for a moment, "You remember my friend Lauren?"

"The pregnant one from Lakehurst?"

"Yeah . . . well she really doesn't exist at all."

Amy just knew Emma's eyes were widening, "So you lied-"

"Let me finish." Amy started before finishing, "Lauren isn't pregnant. There's no Lauren. I just used her name to cover up the truth. It's me, Em. I was too ashamed I guess? I'm pregnant and you know why I really don't like Sean? You know in my Lauren story the father wanted nothing to do with the baby. Sean wants nothing to do with the baby. In fact he wants me to abort it or somehow get rid of it. We had an argument this morning about it."

"Let me process this. Sean's the father?"

Amy nodded.

"And you know how I feel about abortion, Ames."

"I know. I don't know, I just know I can't raise the baby on my own. . I'm what? Fifteen in two weeks and with child? I told him to use a friggin' condom and we were being drunk and stupid but I wasn't that wasted I remember telling him. . "

"I know . . Ames there's more than one option. I didn't say I forbid you. It's not my body or child. Do what's for you. I had a friend who had gone through a similar thing and she chose abortion. Just whatever you do make sure it's the choice you want to make."

Amy sighed.

"As for Sean. . . I don't know now."

"Em. Don't let how he's treating me influence you - I- I just know he's honest with you."

"How am I supposed to know that, Amy? He could do the same thing to me if I was ever in a boat like yours."

"I suppose your right." Amy took her book bag and her trash with Emma has the bell rang. "You are going to walk with me to Kwan's?"

"Actually cover for me, Ames. I need to make a little bit of a pit-stop." Emma told her friend looking determined as the two girls went their separate ways.

Emma took the cafeteria door towards the shoppe room. Since Sean didn't always have the money for lunch he spends the lunch hour in with Mr. Elh. So when the lunch bell for dismissal rang out he was on his way to Kwan's and Emma was on her way to him.

Emma walked up to him and he looked somewhat confused, "What is it?"

"Don't what is it me? Does the summer we spent together mean anything to you? You were also the one who said, oh how I love you today when you don't remember any of the things I told you this past summer!"

"Emma what is with you? Calm down. "Sean backed up some.

Emma stepped forward, "So the true colors really come out huh Sean?"

"Em, calm down and slow down. Please stop yelling."

"Remember Sean, if I were an abortion I wouldn't be here! My mom went to the clinic and she backed out! You're the one who is trying to tell Amy to get one. I don't care because I believe it's her choice.

"Emma I do love you, but-y-you said you wanted to move on - a-and I'm so confused too! How do you think I feel I found out a week ago I'm about to be a father! I'm fifteen years old!"

"Just because you're angry doesn't mean you got to take out on Amy!"

"Amy is my ex."

"She's also a human! God dam nit, what happened to you?! Where is the Sean I fell in love with?!" Emma's face was red with anger and pain, she just laid it all out on the table her eyes welled up with tears, she caught her breath after a pause or two before adding, and "Where is the Sean who last week took me out of the rain? Pregnant with Amy or not, you aren't Sean. I would've understood, you know? I mean you're you. I would've made do. Amy's my friend too. Sean I mean you've changed . . . you've really changed. You've disappointed me. Sean, I thought you changed for the better at first, like last week from months ago when we broke up I thought you and I could be friends and I thought I was falling for you all over again and this morning gave me the one shred of hope there was left of ever salvaging anything ever again for you!" Emma shouted, she didn't care who heard. She put her whole heart into everything she was telling Sean, but he needed to hear it. "You know when I was on that date with Brian; I couldn't keep my mind off of you? I couldn't even enjoy myself! I tried to not think about you, but all I did was think about not thinking about you. It's why I said that I need to move on."

"Emma please. . . " Sean plead as he was hearing things but speaking rapidly too soon, "I do love you. Amy isn't you so what does it matter. I love you, I've always loved you! I loved you ever since you asked me to dance at that stupid Starlight Starbright dance and I suffered through that year when we stopped talking when my anger got the best of me! You were the greatest girl in the world to me; I made a mistake this year when I ditched you! I was hoping we could've taken it slow start off as friends. Please hear me out, you truly, truly are everything to me. Sean stepped closer to Emma at this time sighed shaking his head trying to avoid tears, he had never in his life seen Emma so hurt, and so strong, "you've stood up for me and you've made me a better person - you really have! You gotta believe me and us. You just gotta believe in us. I know you want to, but you're just so persistent in your own belief. Emma I love you. I'll do something, I'll fix this I promise."

"Amy wants nothing to do with you either. It's too late to help that little thing you've blundered. No Sean. I-" Emma began to cry cupping her face in her hands and wiping any remaining tears away, "Goodbye."

Emma stepped backward, "Don't follow me. Goodbye." before turning around and walking away. Sean leaned against the nearest locker and sighed. A tear slid down Sean's cheek as he hit the locker with his back.