Chapter 9
Beichte (confession)
I looked into Georg's eyes and hesitated as he watched me, waiting. I slowly reached out for his hand and took his hand I stood up slowly, my eyes not moving from his from the moment he asked if I'd dance with him. We stood face to face at the side of the dance floor gazing into each others eyes. He then turned and led me silently out on to the dance floor slowly holding my hand with both of his behind him. He then stopped and turned to me when we'd reached the centre of the dance floor, as he did, I stopped too. We slowly moved into each others arms as he put his arms around my waist and I placed mine around his shoulders. As we danced we looked into each others eyes. We rocked slowly to the song and nearer the end of the song I stepped closer to him and put my head on his chest as he tightened his grip slightly on me.
Georg and I didn't notice that the song had finished. He looked down lovingly into my eyes and I likewise looked up into his, I could see the love in his eyes and my heart warmed with every second I looked at him, as we looked into each others eyes he moved closer and bent to kiss me. He stopped moving closer to kiss me and we both became nervous, I wasn't sure what this is that I felt but I had to be sure about my feelings before anything happened. I stepped back from Georg's arms and he loosened his grip on me and as I looked up at him I saw a rejected look in his eyes.
"I need some air" I said to him, he slowly and gently let me go and I stepped back a couple of strides and turned around at walked outside through the glass double doors leading onto a balcony that overlooked the city, I walked over to the comfy beige sofa type chairs in front of me placed with it's back to the double doors, with the best view of the city I went around the right of the chair and sat down.
I looked out across the city, thinking about Georg and wondering what it would be like if he and I had actually kissed, what would be different? What would be the same? – If anything, maybe I want to be with Georg, maybe I don't want to be with anyone. I had so many more questions I had in my mind One thing I am sure of however, that is it is really cold out here but I didn't want to go back inside just in case I got myself into an awkward situation.
A few minutes later I heard someone walk out onto the balcony and I felt them place a suit jacket on my shoulders and then they sat next to me. I didn't know who was there, and was more relieved than I thought I would be when I saw Georg sat next to me. He looked at me fondly and said, "You look freezing, come back inside"
"I know I'm cold, but the view is so nice out here, so romantic" I yawned.
"Am I boring you?" Georg asked jokingly.
"No, of course not" I replied quickly "I'm just a little tired, you know, it is late."
"I'll take you back to the flat then" Georg said, "but there's something I want to show you first..." there was a gap filled with silence in the air between us, I broke the silence, He held his hand out for me like he had earlier, he looked me in the eyes and I took his hand, not losing eye contact again, we then slowly worked our way out of the party. Bill saw us leaving and came over to us as quickly as he could through the crowd and asked;
"Where are you guys going?
"I'm taking Dorinda back to the flat, she's a bit tired." Georg replied.
"Ok, bye" Bill said happily and walked away. Georg started to turn and slightly tugged on my hand to signal me to move with him.
We walked in silence down the road back towards the flat and ambled across the lobby of the flats and we entered the elevator to go back up to the room. Georg pressed the 'rooftop' button but I didn't say anything about it, I just looked at him with a puzzled expression which he passed off and just smiled at me. I guessed he that knew that I noticed we weren't going to the flat, my mind was wondering with thoughts of what did he had on the rooftops that he wanted to show me, is it a good or bad thing? My thoughts were interrupted when the lift came to a halt at the rooftop and the doors opened. He didn't move but looked at me and nodded as if to say, 'step out the lift and I'll follow'.
I hesitated for a moment in the lift; I then slowly walked out of the lift, as I did so I felt the cool February breeze on my skin and blowing through my long hair. I saw a small two seated sofa with its back to us and on a small table. Around the sofa there were lit candles flickering in the gentle breeze. As I walked forward I started to be able to see a beautiful view of the city and the cars on the streets lighting up the roads and office buildings lights being switched off one at a time. I saw outlines of people walking across rooms in the windows through the thin blinds they had, and there was a police car speeding down the straight roads and the stars twinkling in the night sky, it is perfect.
I looked at Georg shocked but flattered. "Wow! I, um, I don't know what to say" I bit my bottom lip.
"Nothing. Just sit with me." He took my hand and led me over to the sofa and sat down looking up at me, I smiled and sat down next to him. We sat in silence for a few moments and he stirred and as he put his arm around me, I watched him. I cuddled up closer to him, resting my head on his chest and placing my arm around his waist I looked out at the city for a moment and suddenly Georg made a funny noise I lifted my head up and I looked up towards his face, he was looking out at the city.
Later I noticed out of the corner of my eye that Georg was looking right at me, but I pretended not to see him. "Dorinda" He said, he made my name sound like a question,
"Yeah" I replied as I looked up at him.
"There's something I've been meaning to tell you for quite a long time, in fact since I met you." I looked in his eyes and he likewise looked into my eyes. "I... um..."
"You what?" I asked trying to get more information from him, I looked quizzically at him.
"I don't know how to say this but, I um... I love you"
