Ok guys... Here is you first new chapter. I know its been a while. Sorry! It might take me a couple of chapters to get back in the grove of this story, so be patient, and kind! ha. Hope you like the chapter. If you don't, I will try my best to get better chapters! Anywho... Enjoy!
Christian left yesterday for Aspen. We haven't talked much about colleges since the night I broke my ankle. I can tell we are both holding back things we really want to say. I can't stop him from going to Harvard I wouldn't try. Harvard is an amazing school and I would feel horrible if I was the reason he didn't go.
I am sitting here all alone. Rainey is with Derrick and Kate is with Elliot.
*Ding* *Ding*
I glance at my phone and see I have a text from Christian.
I miss you already.
I miss you too Christian.
I'm sorry I left. I wish I could be there with you.
Me too.
I love you Anastasia Rose Steele.
You too, Christian.
Is something wrong?
No. Why?
It just seems like something is wrong.
Nope. I lie.
Okay. (:
OK.
I shake my head and struggle to get to the bathtub. I let the water fill up and carefully get in while propping my foot on the side. This really sucks. I have not received any letter back form Juilliard yet. I don't really expect to… If you don't have what it takes they move on without warning.
I grab my phone that I laid on the side of the tub and find some music. I close my eyes and let the music take over. I think I end up dosing off for a bit. I am woken by my phone ringing and realize the water is pretty cold. It has to be around midnight or so. I, as quickly as I can, jump out grabbing my towel and grab my phone.
"Hello," I say without even looking at who was calling.
"Hey Ana."
"…"
"Ana, are you there?" he asks.
"Umm.. Yeah… What's wrong?"
"I… I messed up Ana… Ana do you think you could come and get me?" Jackson pleaded, "I rode with some of my old friends over to a house and all they are doing is getting drunk and high…. Ana I am trying my best to stay sober. I don't want to be here and I didn't have anyone else to call…"
"Umm… Yeah Jackson," I say hesitantly, "Text me the address and be waiting outside."
I hang up the phone and I don't know if I am making a mistake or not. I know Christian is not going to like me doing this. He is going to be so pissed at me… I can't just not help Jackson... As much as he hurt me before, I loved him once. He was my first…
I quickly throw some sweats on and grab my purse. I see the address and realize it's about 10 minutes from my house. I debate whether I should let Christian know now… or let him find out. I think I will just get it over with and tell him now. I'm going to be a coward though and text him instead of calling. He will talk me out of going and I want to help Jackson. He is a good person when he isn't messed up. He was a good person until the end of our relationship.
Hey Christian… I just wanted to tell you before you found out from someone else and they twist the story around. I am going to pick up Jackson. He needed my help to get away from somewhere that he doesn't want to be. He is trying to stay clean and I hope you understand that I love you. I am only helping Jackson as a friend and that is all. I love you and miss you.
I hit send and put my phone down in the passenger seat.
It has been less than a minute and I hear my phone buzzing. I glance over and see he is calling me. I don't answer. I let it go to voicemail. Again my phone buzzes. I will call him back after I drop Jackson off.
Buzz- There is a text now.
Buzz- another.
I know he is going to be mad no matter what.
I hear buzzing again and see that it is Kate calling this time. Oh wow… He went to Kate.
I shake my head and don't look back at my phone even though it is constantly buzzing.
Finally I pull up to the address and see Jackson standing on the side walk looking lost. I pull up beside him and he gives me a shy smile.
"I'm sorry Ana," is all he could say as he got in.
"It's fine Jackson. I am just glad you didn't give into temptation. I am proud of you," I say smiling at him.
"Thank you," he says.
"So where do I need to take you?" I ask.
"Well… Could we just talk for a little bit?" he asked.
I was hesitant. I glance over at a broken guy. It breaks my heart seeing Jackson like this. In high school he was so confident and pretty smart… Especially for a jock, and now… he is so broken.
"Ok," I say.
"Wanna go to where we all used to hang out by the water?" he asks.
"Sure," I smile at him and drive away.
The ride there is quiet. We get there and he gets out and walks toward the water. I follow, hobbling along.
"It seems like forever ago that we all hung out here," he says.
"It does… doesn't it?" I agree.
"We had good times right?" he asks.
"Of course we did," I assure him, "You are not a bad guy Jackson. You made some bad choices in your life… but that doesn't make you a bad person."
"Thanks Ana," he says finally glancing my way, "Shit Ana, what happened to your leg?"
"Oh you just noticed it. I broke my ankle acting crazy and pretty much ruined any chance I had to getting into Juilliard."
"Im sorry Ana," he says.
We sit down near the water quietly for a while. I am just looking out across it thinking about my future while Jackson throws stray rocks in.
I break the silence by asking about how college is going for him. He tells me not so well from when he was on drugs and drinking all the time.
We talk about the future and what we plan on doing.
This is the Jackson I knew before. Everyone saw the jock… but I saw this side of him while we were dating. I am glad this Jackson is back.
"Sooo.. Where's your boyfriend?" he asks.
"Aspen," I say.
"Ohhh…"
"Yeah… It sucks." I say.
"So is he the one?" he blurts out.
I glance over at him and he looks at me serious.
"Umm… He could be… I really like him if that is what you mean. We have only been dating for a few months, so I don't know."
I change the subject and ask what his plans are for Christmas and stuff. That doesn't last long though.
"He seems very protective over you. I think he is a good guy." He says.
"That he is…" I say, "What time is it?
He looks at his phone and tells me it's almost 3.
"Oh my God," I scream trying to get up quickly but failing miserably.
Jackson helped me up and back to the car.
I grab my phone and see that I have about 25 missed calls and even more texts from Christian and Kate.
"Crap…" I mumble.
"I umm… I think we should be getting back," I tell Jackson.
He agrees. I drop him at his parent's house and hurry home.
I sneak in the house and up to my room.
I grab my phone and dread the phone call I am fixing to make.
I only read about half of the text messages.
Hell No Ana!
Im not OK with this.
Answer your phone!
ANASTASIA!
If you don't answer me now I am getting on a plane and heading back to Seattle!
That's it I just booked my flight.
Oh shit…
I quickly find his number and it call.
It barely rings once..
"GOD DAMMIT ANASTASIA. Where the hell have you been? I have been so worried."
"Calm down Christian," I say calmly.
"CALM DOWN? CALM DOWN? You are telling me to calm down?" He breathes hard.
"I was talking with Jackson," I say.
"OHH so the guy who caused the last fight between us is the reason you wouldn't answer mine and Kate's calls and texts… This is just great," he says.
"I am gone for one damn day and you are already running to your ex's beck and call…"
"It wasn't like that Christian. He needed my help,"
"Oh I'm sure you gave him help. I hope it was better for you this time," he spits out.
"You did not just say that to me," I am shocked, "How could you even think that?"
"What in the hell do you expect me to think Ana? You text me at midnight about going to pick your ex up… didn't answer anyone's texts or calls and don't get back in touch with anyone until after 3 a.m. What did you really do?" he said coldly.
I can't really blame him for being mad, but he doesn't have to talk to me like this.
"Look I'm sorry Christian, but that is no excuse for the way you are talking to me right now. I will just talk to you tomorrow or something," Ana hangs up.
She sends him a quick text.
I love you Christian and only you. I hope you know that. I'm sorry for doing what I felt was right.
I never get a text back. I finally fall asleep only to be woken up by my alarm for school.
Ughhh only for more days I have to deal with this and I have a break.
I quickly grab my phone to see if Christian ever text me back but he didn't.
I send him a text telling him good morning and that I loved and missed him.
I change and slowly make my way downstairs.
"Good morning Ana," my dad smiles at me.
"Morning Daddy," I say before hobbling to the table.
"What would you like for breakfast," he asked.
"Ummm… I'm not really hungry, I will just take a granola bar this morning," I tell him.
"Are you sure you don't want me to drive you to school?" he asked.
"No dad. Kate was nice enough to let me borrow her car while she was gone," I said. I'm guessing she might be regretting that right now since I had to use it to pick up Jackson last night.
"Ok but please be careful," he said handing her a granola bar.
Ana's day went by slow. Without Kate and Christian at school she felt like a third wheel with Rainey and Derrick. Garrett helps with that a little but he is no Christian. Who, by the way still has not text me. When school lets out I hobble to Kate's car and get in. I grab my phone and dial his number.
It rings a few times…
"Hello,"-
"Umm… This is Christian's phone right?" I pull the phone away from my ear to make sure I hit the right person, I did.
"Yes, this is his mother," she said.
"Oh, Hello Mrs. Grey. This is Ana," I say, "Is he around by chance?"
"I'm sorry dear, the kids went sledding. They will be back in a few hours. I guess Christian accidently left his phone behind. I will have him call you when he gets back." She says.
"That's ok. I will just call Kate's phone," I tell her.
I quickly dial Kate's number.
"Oh, so now you want to talk to me," is how she answers the phone.
"I'm sorry Kate," I tell her.
"I forgive you Ana, but I'm still pissed," she tells me.
"He won't talk to me Kate," I tell her.
"You scared the shit out of him Ana, you did all of us," she confessed.
"I know," I tell her.
"I mean, how would you feel if you went out of town and the next day he ran to an ex?" She said.
"I get it Kate, I messed up," I tell her, "Can I talk to him…"
"I will try," she says.
I hear Kate lie and tell Christian that Mia needed to talk to him.
"Hello," he answered happily.
"Hi," I say shyly.
"Kate," I hear him curse at her.
"Hello Anastasia," he says a little cold.
It literally sends a shiver down my spine.
"I'm sorry," is all I could say to him.
"Dammit Ana," his voice changes back to my Christian, "I was so worried about you. Promise me that you won't be wreck less like that again."
"I promise," I cry to him, "I love you Christian."
"I love you too Ana," he says, "We are fixing to sled, can I call you when I get back at the house?"
"Sure. Be careful," I tell him.
"Always," he says.
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Finally! It's my last day of school before Christmas break! I crawl out of bed and look at my phone. I have a text from Christian like I do every morning.
If you're a bird, I'm a bird –C
I smiled at my phone. I managed to talk Christian into watching one of my all-time favorite movies with me and he liked it just as much as I do. We have our own little inside jokes from it now; hence if you're a bird, I'm a bird.
I love seeing this side of Christian. He doesn't let anyone but me see his softer side. I miss him!
You sure know how to make a girl smile –A
I hurry to the shower and quickly get ready for school. I owe Kate so much for leaving her car for me.
"So Ana Banana," Garrett says as we walk to our class together, "What plans do you have for Christmas break?"
"Probably just spend time with my dad," I tell him. I don't have Christian here to spend it with, "You?"
"Well I guess we are gonna head to Mississippi to spend Christmas with my family there," he tells me.
"That will be fun. I bet you have really missed your friends and family," I say sitting down in my desk.
"Yea," he said, "Im hoping I see Ashley."
I look at him surprised. He has never mention this Ashley or any girl from back home before.
"Who's Ashley?" I quickly ask him.
"She was a girl I was talking to before I left," he confesses, "It was hard on both of us."
I could tell he really liked this girl. I can only imagine his pain. Christian was just going to be away from me for a few weeks and I am devastated. I couldn't imagine him or myself up and moving across the country from each other.
You will be experiencing that soon. My subconscious speaks. He is going to Harvard and you will be here!
I shake that thought out of my mind. I don't want to think about him leaving!
Soon, but not soon enough school was over. I was walking to Kate's car, digging in my purse looking for the keys, when someone walks right into me. I could tell it was intentional because they threw their shoulder into me hard causing me to drop everything I was holding.
I look up and see Sara smirk and start to walk away.
Oh hell no.
"You better be glad I have a broken ankle right now," I scream at her.
"What would poor little Ana do about it if it wasn't broken?" she mocked me, "Nothing. Because you are nothing without your little friends here to save you."
She was really pissing me off. If only I did not have a broken ankle.
"Why do you hate me?" I finally ask.
"Because you take everything I want." She spit at me, "First Garrett and now Christian!"
"You can't be serious," I laughed at her, "If you quit acting like a slut, someone might actually want to be with you." I said before I could stop myself.
Her facial expression said it all. She was ready to fight…. What in the hell was I going to do if she tried to hit me? I have a broken ankle for Pete's sake.
I knew it was coming, I just knew it. Before I could do anything her hand is slapping me hard on my left cheek.
I stumble a little but am able to grab ahold of her arm and we both fall to the ground.
Now is the only chance I can do what I have wanted to for over a year.
I get to my knees and blackout.
The next thing I knew Garrett had me in his arms followed by Derrick and Rainey.
"Holy shit Steele," Derrick says, "You just beat her ass."
"I think you misconfigured her face Ana," Rainey jokes looking back at the scene that had just unfolded.
I could feel the adrenaline running through my veins still. I look over and see a bloody Sara finally getting to her feet. Wow. I didn't know you had it in you Steele. My subconscious beamed proudly at me.
"Ana… Hello…" Garret waves his hand in my face, "I think she is in shock."
"I'm fine Garrett," I tell him finally.
"Good! What in the hell happened?" they ask me. I proceed to tell them the whole story.
"That bitch," Rainey says.
"Ummm… Can you get my phone for me please," I ask them.
"Yeah," Derrick tells me, "We grabbed all of your things for you. Do you need one of us to drive you home?"
"Ummm… Actually yes please. My adrenaline is still going strong and I am a little shaky," I tell them.
Rainey decides to drive me home and Derrick is going to follow behind.
"If I don't see you before you leave," I tell Garrett before getting in the car, "good luck with Ashley. Let me know how it goes!"
"Will do Ana," he tells me.
I am about to dial Christian's number when my phone starts ringing. It's Kate.
"Hello," I answer.
"OH MY GOD STEELE," she screams in phone.
"What," I ask confused.
"You fought Sara?" she says.
"How do you know? It literally just happened?" I ask her.
"It's all over Facebook. Someone recorded it and posted it," she tells me, "I just so happened to look at my phone when I was getting ready and saw it."
"Yea, she started it," I tell her.
"I want every detail Steele," Kate tells me.
"Every detail about what," I hear a familiar voice in the background now.
"Have you been on Facebook anytime in the last… oh 5 minutes?" Kate asks Christian.
"No, why?" he asks.
"You have yourself your own little Ronda Rousey for a girlfriend," Kate jokes.
"What?" Christian screams. I can already see him facial expression through the phone.
I hear a scuffle and then the most beautiful voice talking on the phone to me.
"Are you ok Ana," he asks me.
"I'm fine… Sara… Im not so sure," I joke with him.
"You fought Sara?" he says.
"Yes," I tell him.
"Damn bro," I hear Elliot say, "She is a little scrapper. Broke ankle and all!"
I can hear them watching the video. I sit silently in the car as we make our way to my house.
"Ana," Christian says softly, "You beat her ass… What did she do or say"
"Please put me on speaker," I tell him, "I know I will just have to repeat myself to Kate if you don't."
I proceed to tell them everything that happened. They are all shocked.
"Who knew you had it in you Steele," Kate says.
We laugh.
"I need a nap now," I joke, sort of.
"Go rest Ana," Christian say in the phone, "Call me when you wake up."
Rainey helps me inside and I do just that. I make it to the couch and fall right asleep.
I am awoken to my dad saying my name.
I open my eyes and see the look on his face.
He is giving me the 'we need to talk now' face.
Great!
Hope you liked it... I didn't really read over it after typing it up. I wanted to hurry and get you guys a chapter! Message me and let me know what you think!
