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9 Be a Man Zigzag

Telling Zigzag would be hard. To be honest I didn't know who I would do it. I love him so much but he is very paranoid and pretty crazy. Maybe that's what attracted me to him.

It's been four days since Aunt Lou took me to the doctors. She told me that I would stop digging and do other things when my stomach got bigger. Until then I would dig. The boys and I are done digging for the day. Now they are in the rec room.

I'm lying on my bed looking at the sonogram picture of my baby. Quickly I shove the picture into my pocket as I heard someone enter the tent.

"Hey, Macon why aren't you in the rec room with us?" I look over to the speaker.

"I don't feel like it, Zig."

I say to him as I turned my head so I could look at the tent wall in front of me. He walks over to me. In my peripheral vision I see him bend down and pick something up. 'Oh shit the picture. How did it fall out?' I scream to my self. Zigzag studies it for a moment than looks at me. Confusion filled his eyes yet he held a blank face.

"What is this?" He asks somewhat hardened voice.

So much I wanted to turn away from him at the moment, but I knew I had to look at him. Tell him the truth. I swing my feet of my bed and stood up. Quickly I unbuttoned my suit enough so it was two inches bellow my belly button. Grabbing the hand without the picture I placed it on my lower stomach, placing it on my baby bump. Before I spoke I chose my words carefully.

"Ricky, you have to listen to me before you say anything ok. I'm going to have a baby. Ricky I'm three months pregnant. That bump you feel…that's our baby."

Tears had filled up Zigzag's eyes. To be honest I had no idea what was going on in his head. He moves his hand around the baby bump. It kind of looked like he was thinking. Slowly he moved his hand away and started to button up my suit.

"That explains something. Your chest has gotten bigger. We have been having a lot of sex. I knew something like this was going to happen."

Did he know before me? This is crazy. I took a step back. Zigzag takes one towards me. The sonogram picture was still in his hand. Maybe he wanted to keep it.

"So you knew before I said anything?"

I asked with confusion in his voice. Zigzag seemed to back to normal. What we considered as his normal anyways. His eyes go wide before talking.

"You haven't gotten your period in three months. You haven't been bitchy. You've been throwing up. Like I said before your chest has gotten bigger."

It was all true so, but he didn't have to put it so blunt. I sat down on my bed so I had to look up at him. But then I always have to look up at him. Was he mad at me? Sometimes we can never tell. Other times we could. Sometimes I didn't want to know.

"Are you mad at me?"

Quietly those five words come out of my mouth. Zigzag looks down at me. He just shrugs. It's not like we will ever see each other when he leaves. So I guess it doesn't matter much.

"Why should I be? It's not like you can get your self pregnant. Could you? I don't think I would make a good dad. Did you sleep with Squid? Is it Squids?"

How could he think that? I love him. Squid is just a friend. Zigzag didn't wait for me to answer to his ramblings. He just left the tent with the picture in his hand. I don't know what to tell the other guys. Maybe I wouldn't. No one knows I'm a girl except for my tent and Lump. If this doesn't blow my cover when it is time for me to give birth will. In the middle of my ranting thoughts the dinner bell rang. Slowly I get up and walk to the mess hall with hands in my pockets. I was the last in line and the last to sit down. I sit in my normal place. The guys were talking like always even Ziggy. He acted like nothing happened today. But he didn't look or talk to me. When dinner was done I left with the guys. I grabbed my shower stuff and headed to the showers.

"Switch, wait up."

Knowing it was Squid I stopped and waited. When he caught up I continued to walk. I don't know if Zigzag said anything to him. But if Ziggy thinks that Squids the dad he would have. We walked in silence to the showers.

"Hey, are you ok? You didn't talk at dinner."

Squid asks as we reach the showers. He turns around as I start to undress and put in my tokens. Quietly debating before I answer him.

"I guess you could say Zigzag and I got into a fight."

"What?"

With that he turned around. Luckily for me I had a towel on. I raise my eye brow and motioned for him to turn around before I said anything. Squid did and crossed his arms. As I got dressed I left my suit unbuttoned. Tonight I felt extra hot for some reason.

"Before dinner I told Zigzag something. I guess he didn't like it."

I pick up my stuff to show that I am ready to leave. It looked like Squid wasn't. Why did I feel like I was going to be here a while.

"What did you tell him? I couldn't have been that bad right? His grudge can't last that long. It never does."

With that I looked down at the ground. Personally I don't think what I did was bad. I sit down on the bench in front of Squid.

"This grudge might last six more months."

"Why? Are you pregn..?"

Before he could get the rest out I put my head in my hands and start to cry. He sits down with me. Not knowing what to do he pulled me closer letting me cry on his shoulder. After a few minutes I was done, for now at least.

"For some reason he thinks you're the dad. I tried to tell him that we were friends. But he ran out the door. He took one of the pictures with him."

Squid just looks at me. It looks like he is thinking hard before he speaks again.

"Why would he think that?"

"I don't know. That why I don't understand."

Squid gets up pulling me with him. He pulls me all the way to the tent letting me go before we walk into the tent. I go to my crate and put my stuff in then sit on my bed.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?"

I hear Squid yell. Quickly I look up Squid had Zigzag pined up against a pole.

"IT'S NOT MINE. IT'S YOURS GOT THAT. AND IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HELP HER I WILL."