God, how many times do I have to say it? In don't own black butler or any of its characters :p
I have totally ignored this story for a long time O_O
Yeahh, I should stop doing that.
Also I've looked over some of the reviews and it seems that I need to add some scenes where Sebby is jealous and where the lemon gets more lemony ;)
The things I have to say to that are…Yes, yes Sebby will be jealous in a soon chappie and the lemon will get verry lemony…but you'll all have to wait for the lemons a while longer
Hehe….well here's da story (Alois and Ciel have just met and in the story, they're not total rivals, just business partners—sorta)
It's really too bad that understanding human emotions well wasn't one of the things that came as a default when you were a demon. Well, we do understand hate, jealousy, happiness, joy, sadness and sometimes, love. But piecing actions together to form a rational reason for these feelings was out of our boundaries. To me, everything my young master did was surprising and sometimes very confusing. Like now, which I still didn't understand.
Why would he be mad at me, and then kiss me? Why wouldn't he want to hear what really happened? Usually, he would be happy to know that it wasn't me that seduced her. So, what was up with him now?
Normal POV
As he sat dejected in his empty room, Ciel sobbed and went through countless memories of Sebastian. He was just trying to find tiny little hints and clues that maybe he really was loved, just some kind of solace that would pull him out of this awful feeling people called rejection. Not exactly that his butler had said "I don't love you." But his actions spoke for him, anyways.
He remembered when he willingly gave Sebastian that kiss, a part of his soul. At the time, it seemed like a good idea. Maybe he was thinking that Sebastian could develop feelings from a physical relationship? Guess not. There were many other kisses after that and Ciel remembered a sweet, tender night where he had hope for a progressing relationship with the demon.
Flashback
The two had just finished kissing and were lying on the Earl's comfy bed. Their breath was short and fast and Ciel had closed his eyes, trying to pretend he didn't see Sebastian smiling at him.
"Stay here," he commanded, feeling stupid that he had to command for this kind of thing. Just a bit weak, too. Was it strange to ask someone to stay with you while you slept? Yes, yes it was. Why couldn't Sebastian just stay of his own accord?
"Yes, My Lord," Sebastian started to get up. He didn't realize that "stay here" meant "sleep in my bed" until his master tugged his shirt and gave him a small pleading look. Very uncharacteristic, but also very cute. The demon obliged and slid under the covers smirking.
"That kiss…," the boy started hesitantly, "Was really…uhm…nice," he coughed out, wishing he could be better at not saying what was on his mind. He felt as though he was floating after every kiss and it made him say things that he wouldn't have said otherwise, not helpful at all.
"It is only natural for the butler of the Phantomhive Family to be able to do such a simple thing," was the predictable reply. It did hurt Ciel a bit to know that kissing for Sebastian was like doing any other household chore, but he secretly cherished it as his impossible fantasy.
"Stop that."
"Stop what?"
"…I don't know…whatever it is you're doing."
"…"
All he wanted was for Sebastian to stop acting so casual about the kiss, but no matter how drowsy he was, there was no way that was coming out of his mouth. Sliding closer to his butler under the sheets, Ciel started to tug at Sebastian's shirt absentmindedly.
"Young Master?" there was confusion and amusement in the demon's voice.
"Take off your shirt." Another awkward moment followed.
"My Lord?" Ciel just pulled it off himself, seeing as Sebastian was too confused to be doing it anytime soon. Sebastian smirked at his Young Master. What was he doing now? This ought to be interesting as his bocchan always was.
After he successfully pulled off the shirt, he looked at Sebastian with a certain expression on his face that the demon couldn't determine. Maybe it was sadness, pity or anger? While he tried to figure it out, Ciel gently traced the lines of Angela's whipping marks across his butler's muscular chest. So they hadn't healed completely, there was still more kissing to be done. Not that he minded, in fact he was happy that Sebastian healed slowly. It was just a pitiful excuse to give him kisses every day. Once they were gone, it would be life as usual in the manor and he would have to stop staring at him constantly.
The Earl sighed and flipped to the side, his back facing Sebastian. "Wait till I fall asleep."
"Yes My Lord," came another predictable answer. But after that predictable answer came a not so predictable action. As Ciel waited to fall asleep, Sebastian suddenly came a bit closer to him…and hugged him lightly, possessively. Only for a moment, a very sweet moment, and then he let go quickly as though he had done something wrong.
And the night went on with Ciel hoping that it meant something.
Flashback End
Maybe that hug had meant something? Or maybe Ciel was just getting hopeful and delusional like he always did when he started to think of Sebastian. It certainly wasn't getting him anywhere.
Crying was one way he let all his emotions out, but it was the thing he hated most to do. Showing any trace of weakness was something he hated to do, especially is Sebastian was there to mock him for it. Then reality hit him. Sebastian wasn't here to hear him crying pathetically over some stupid emotions…not yet. So he took the time he could to let all the frustration out. For hours, he just cried and sobbed and choked into his pillow, occasionally punching the bed as though it had done something wrong. Thank god for alone time. When Sebastian had asked what he did wrong, it was the least Ciel could do not to slap him or severely hurt him. All of his emotions, feelings, were flowing freely and he couldn't even hide anything from himself. Crying had just been the first stage to let everything out.
Now he had to try doing something more productive like thinking what he should say or do or pretend to do. Everything had just boiled down to one thing: unrequited love. He was being awfully childish about it and Sebastian was probably not even considering being in love with a human. The only thing that he could do was say he was sorry that everything was screwed up and try to let himself forget what had just happened. Sure, it was pathetic but it was the simplest thing to do when faced with something he sorrily regretted feeling. No doubt it would confuse everyone including himself because his emotions had been so fast and they changed all the time. He had only just realized that he loved someone about 3 hours ago and now he was ready to let it go? Nothing was simple anymore. All he wanted was for everything to blow over and for things to end. But shutting love out wouldn't be easy.
Again, his thoughts wandered to how strong love was. It wasn't as though he could just say "alright, I don't love you anymore. Let's get this over with, goodbye". No, that wouldn't work on him or his butler. What he could do was shut everything out like the logical part of his mind had told him to do for a long time. It was like closing a part of his heart, which he shouldn't have opened in the first place. That's right… never should have opened. With his mind made up, he stopped crying like a baby and regained his composure.
Every vile thing that Sebastian had done to him…it was all over in his mind.
Because he was the proud Earl Phantomhive, dog of the Queen and there was no room for emotions in his heart.
With that, he fell asleep.
Next Morning…uhm…geee…who's point of view should it be? Dunno…er…SEBBY
Some people say that after a good night's rest, things are clearer. I say those people are idiots. Whatever had just happened last night had certainly not become clearer after my sleep. Like I said before, Young Master's emotions changed every few seconds so unpredictably that I had no time to prepare for each one. Before that hooker assaulted me, I was sure that my Master was reasonably happy. Now he just blew up. I didn't even want to go in and have him scream at me. I hated it when he got mad at me for some reason. I used to think it was amusing and somehow cute but this kind of mad just made me feel sad…sick…regretful?
Oh well, being a butler to the core, I had to come to his room in the morning anyways. Surprisingly my Master was up and in a very different mood today. He actually smiled a bit when I came in and said good morning when I handed him the tea. Even when I gave him the letters for the day, he was still keeping a flowery exterior.
"You have an invitation, Bocchan." I handed him a fancy envelope with the Trancy seal on it.
"Oh? Sounds like he wants a business partnership…how interesting. We will take up their offer this afternoon, Sebastian. Prepare a carriage and a gift."
"Yes, My Lord."
I left to attend to my usual duties after dressing him but not before giving him a strange look. Something was different. And the strange part about different was that everything was back to normal. Normal was different and weird was normal? This was exactly why Ciel was so intruiging to me.
Later in the afternoon, in the Carriage :D :D :D Normal POV
The carriage ride was reasonably pleasant and the master and butler got to the Trancy's mansion on time. They were politely greeted by a cheerful blonde haired boy and his stoic serious butler.
"Bonjour~! Ciel! So glad you could make it for tea and business!" The blonde skipped towards said boy as he stepped out of the carriage.
"The pleasure is mine, Sir Trancy."
"Actually…Just call me Alois, ne? We're good friends, after all. And I'll just call you Ciel. Claude prepare some tea and cake!"
The boys headed inside the manor while the butlers stood outside. One smiling and one scowling.
"Do. Not. Touch. Him." Sebastian growled in a low voice.
"Hmm…do I ever listen to you, Michaelis? I think not." Claude actually smiled creepily.
This was going to be an interesting stay at the Trancy mansion.
Ouch. That was way too short, but my word count isn't broken so I can't really tell D:
Well, some spoilers:
Ciel is lonely and although he tries to shut love out of his life…it ain't working so well and Alois decides he wants Ciel for himself
DAMNIT I SCREWED THE STUPID SPOILER UP
