Author's note: I know it has been so long but I found inspiration to finish this story. I do not want to leave this incomplete as I really like the way it is going and anyone who might be enjoying it, I wan't you to have the happy ending. Special thank you to who wrote to me, and inspired me to continue as well.
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Chapter 9: Heaven & Hell.
Austin's POV
I wake up early the next day feeling happy. The same goofy grin on my face. I head immediately to my bathroom and take a shower and start getting ready for my day. Although, I don't have any specific plans for today, I feel like today is important.
Just as I am putting some clothes on (my favorite dark blue jeans and a plain black t-shirt) someone knocks my door.
"Austin" I hear my mom's voice on the other side "get ready quickly, someone is waiting for you downstairs, I'll see you tonight sweetie, your daddy and I are running late for a meeting" she says hurriedly.
"Who is waiting for me?" I ask her confused still putting my shoes on, but she already headed downstairs.
For a moment I instinctively think that it's Ally and my heart skips a beat. I look at my reflection and start grooming my hair. Once, I am satisfied with my look (about 5 minutes later) I head downstairs quickly and feeling excited.
"Hey, it's me Austin" I hear a girl call my name from the living room. I know that voice, and it is not Ally's. Oh brother…
Sure enough, Kira is sitting on the couch of my living room. She smiles at me timidly as I enter the room. I stare at her feeling confused as to what she might be doing here so early, it is only 8:00 am.
"Um... hi Kira" I say with a forced smile "What are you doing here … so early?"
She gives me a weak smile and pats the couch right beside her, asking me to sit down. I take the seat and look at her my eyebrows raised in confusion.
"Austin, I've been thinking so much since yesterday regarding the talk we had" She says apologetically and looking embarrassed. "I know I shouldn't have acted the way I did and it was really selfish for me to ask you to stop being friends with Ally. I still want to be with you and I promise that this won't happen again if you give me another chance".
I was startled and didn't know what say to her. I mean, I should be happy. Right? But for some reason, I felt cornered, like I had no other option than to give Kira another chance even though what I really wanted was to be with … Ally.
Holy Shit! I want to be with Ally. I like Ally, no, that's not right. I love Ally! How on earth did this happen? Just a few days ago, I felt like the luckiest guy because Kira was my girlfriend and now this?
But this can't be. I cannot do this to Kira, I said if she accepted to change I would definitely giver her another chance. Kira interrupts my train of thoughts.
"Well?" She says smiling cheerfully "Everything is ok between us now right? Look Austin I know I was wrong, I am so sorry but I just love you so much that I was afraid to lose you to someone else"
"Um … Kira … yeah, everything is ok again" I tell her hoping my voice does not sound as unconvinced as I feel. I wanted to tell her no, but what can I do?
She throws her arms around me and hugs me. It is weird how she is supposed to be my girlfriend and we've been dating for a while and at the moment it feels so wrong. Yet, I've always been a guy who hates to make girls cry and I honestly cannot get the courage to break things with her. After all, I did tell her that if she changed her mind about Ally, I could give her another chance. I guess it is only fair try to make things work again with her. Maybe I'm just confused, maybe it is all this kissing lessons thing that has made me confuse things with Ally.
I think for a moment that today should be the day that I tell Ally that maybe she and I could be more than just friends, that I should tell Kira that it is over between us and then reality hits me: tomorrow Ally has a date with Dallas and absolutely everything that has happened between us is because she likes him and to help her with that date. I feel it would be selfish for me to ruin her chance with Dallas when maybe I'm just confused about what I want. We are perfect as we are right now, I don't want to ruin our friendship.
As Kira let's go of me, I feel my heart sink again, knowing tonight will be last night I kiss Ally and that I should bury any left feelings or whatever this is with that last kiss.
I smile at Kira and I set my mind that I have to be happy with this decision.
"So… are you sure we won't have problems over this again?" I ask her smiling and trying to feel positive.
"I promise Austin".
Ally's POV
I had a dream last night. One of the most happy and beautiful ones I've had in a long time. I dreamed that I had the courage to tell Austin how I felt about him and he said he felt the same way and that he would hate to see me go on a date with Dallas. Then he said something cheesy about wanting to give me kissing lessons forever (haha) and then I woke up.
I woke up with a great smile and feeling like my stomach would blow up with a thousand butterflies. Even though I am wide awake, I stay lying in my bed and staring at the ceiling for a few minutes and reliving my dream over and over again.
What if it was not just a dream? What if all I needed to do to be happy is to finally be brave and not be afraid to say how I really feel and what I really want?
I get up feeling already pumped up and head directly to the bathroom. Today will be the day, the day I tell Austin that I don't want to go on a stupid date with Dallas. The day I tell him that I don't want to be with anyone else if it is not him. I smile stupidly at my reflection in the mirror and start to get ready to go to work.
About 20 minutes later, I am ready and have already put in my perfume in my bag and the pancake lip balm. Today will be perfect I tell myself as I head to Sonic Boom.
The day goes by slowly. I keep checking the clock which I believe is only making matters worse but I can't help it. Trish comes to have lunch with me and I tell her about the plans I have to tell Austin how I really feel.
"I'm so happy to hear that Ally" She says as she genuinely smiles at me. "Does that mean I should cancel the date with Dallas?"
"Mmm … not just yet". I reply "in case everything goes well tonight and I cancel the date, I think it would be better if I personally apologize to Dallas".
"Yeah, you are right, that may be the best thing to do" She says nodding.
We finish our lunch and Trish heads back to her new job. What is it today? Oh, I think she is working as a cashier in a costume shop.
As 6:00 pm is getting closer and closer, I just start feeling that weird pulling in my stomach
again. I head to the bathroom and brush my teeth, start putting on my lip balm and a bit of perfume.
When I'm ready I head out to the counter and wait. Just a couple minutes later my heart skips a beat as I see Austin standing in the door looking as hot as always with that black t-shirt. I make my way to the door trying not to trip and open it so he can come in.
He smiles sweetly as he enters and I can't help but throwing my arms around him "uff… someone is happy to see me" he says while he wraps his arms around my waist and lifts me.
Once he puts me back on the floor, I grab his hand and tell him "Hurry, there is something I need to tell you" and I pull him towards the stairs to the practice room. He follows me quickly and closes the door behind him and locks it.
"Um, actually I also have something to tell you" He says smiling excitedly and my stomach flips. What if he also wants to tell me that he has feelings for me?
"Really? Alright then you go first". I say nervously.
"Why me?" Austin narrows his eyes at me.
"Because, please, you know I'm curious and I will not concentrate on what I have to tell you, unless I know what you are going to tell me first"
"Alright then…" he rolls his eyes jokingly "well, what I have to say is not a big great of a deal, but I am happy because I know you have been worried and well everything is good now" I stare at him in confusion, having no idea what the hell he is talking about but I don't think this heading where I thought.
"Everything is good now?" I ask him confused.
"Yeah. Me and Kira, she came to talk to me today and she apologized for the way she has behaved. She says she understands now how you will always be important to me and promised to not act that way again. So we agreed to get back together and that it would never happen again" he tells me happily.
I feel a deep ache awakening in my chest and a knot forming in my throat. I try to speak but I can't find my voice. He stares at me with a big grin on his face like expecting for me to be happy and to tell him what great news this is but all I feel inside is as if someone shattered my heart.
I look to the floor and concentrate in breathing slowly and try my best not to cry. I understand now that I have been the most stupid person to think that Austin could ever see me as more than his friend. All this time, I was falling harder and harder for him, his mind has only been on one girl. Kira. I force myself to smile and look up again. He has a worried expression.
"Wow Austin! You honestly took me by surprise that I had no idea what to say but I guess what I really want to say is… I'm happy that you are happy and I hope everything works out with Kira now. You guys are perfect for each other" I say this last phrase with all the strength I have left in me.
"Really Ally?" He says with an awkward smile on his beautiful lips.
"Yeah totally. I mean you worked so hard to be with her, it is only fair that you worked out through your differences and remain together." I can't look him straight to the eye while I say this however I make sure I sound super convincing. After all, my second best talent after singing is acting.
"Thank you Ally, you are truly a great friend" he replies softly.
"Yes you know me. Always your friend no matter what" I say almost sounding bitter but I'm sure he didn't catch it.
"So… what do you want to tell me?" He asks me curiously.
He catches me off guard. Oh crap! Now what am I supposed to tell him? This was the night I was going to confess everything I feel for him. Now I cannot do that! I will not make a fool out of myself.
"Actually, I was going to tell you that … I feel ready, for tomorrow, and I wanted to thank you for everything you have done for me these past days, I feel really positive about how things will work out with Dallas. Hopefully I will have the same luck you and Kira have. A match made in heaven". I keep forcing a smile.
As I say this I think of how ironic this last phrase is. A match made in heaven, ha! Then why do I feel I'm knocking on hell's door?
"Oh… right" He says pausing for a few seconds and staring at the floor, his hand rubs the back of his neck. "You know I'm here for you always Ally".
An awkward silence fills the room but I'm not really sure I'm interested in breaking it. I just want to wake up from this bad dream.
"So …" his voice interrupts my thoughts "I know you feel ready but, we do still have one lesson left"
Yes. One lesson left, my chance to say goodbye and finally give up on him. One last kiss to let him go. I nod quietly and without looking at him I sit on the couch.
He stays in his place for a few seconds and the follows me.
I finally look at him. He seems nervous but maybe it is just my thoughts betraying me like all these last days.
He stares at my lips and gets closer. This time my heart does not skip a beat like the last times. It just aches, because I know this is the end.
After what seems like an eternity, our lips meet and while I know this is most likely the last time we will kiss, I can't help but thinking in the side of my mind that it has to be the best goodbye I can get and I should make it count.
His mouth is warm against mine and I moan softly, my arms instinctively reach for his hair, grabbing it softly and holding him in place as to make sure he won't cut the kiss. I hear his breathing staring to get a bit heavier and it is turning me on. His hands start moving almost desperately trying to caress all he can reach at once: my arms, my back, my waist and even my legs. I gasp when nibbles my lower lip and pulls me closer to his body at the same time.
This is kiss is different than any kiss we have shared before. Yes, I'm aroused by it and yes his kissing makes me feel weak like every time. But it also has this sad and yearning touch to it. Like we know this is the last one.
Thinking this it makes me a bit braver and I place my hands on his back beneath the material of his black t-shirt. He breaks the kiss for just an instant and hisses, then he starts kissing me again even harder.
He makes me lay on the couch and gets delicately on top of me. His arms roam on my sides and I feel he is getting closer to second base although I know he would never do that since this is merely educational.
I feel him getting harder on my leg and I feel like my eyes will roll to the back of my head. Then his tongue starts playing with mine and I hear him groan in pleasure. He stops kissing me and starts sucking on my earlobe again, I can't help but murmur his name which only makes him more aroused as far as my leg can tell.
My breathing is basically gasps of air I manage to take between our kisses. He presses his body down on mine and we both moan in unison.
As much as I don't want to end this, I know that If I keep going I won't be able to stop so I start to slowdown the kisses, he seems to understand and does the same. Soon it is just short pecks we are giving to each other and then we just stare into each other's eyes. Not saying anything, no sound in the room except our agitated breathing.
Not much later we realize in which position we have gotten ourselves into, Austin clears his throat and sits down and helps me up.
No one says anything. I feel my heart sink again thinking that was it. That was my goodbye to him, it feels like lasted forever and ended way too soon.
"So… do I get some sort of diploma or something?" I ask jokingly trying to lighten up the mood that is palpable.
Austin looks up, mirroring my sadness through his eyes but chuckles anyway. "You've graduated with honors Ms. Dawson".
I smile at him and stand up from the couch and he follows.
"Where is Dallas taking you tomorrow by the way?" He asks suddenly as we are exiting the practice room.
"Mmm … to be honest with you, the only thing I know is he is picking me up right here at 7 pm. I think I will ask him to take me to pastafari, that new Italian restaurant."
"Right" he says shortly as we get to Sonic's Boom entrance.
"Austin" I say shyly "Thank you very much for doing everything you can to help me".
He is quite for a moment and just starts and opens his mouth. He wants to say something but in the end he says nothing.
"What?" I ask softly.
"It's nothing Ally, I just…" He murmurs not meeting my eyes.
"You just what?" My heart beats faster in my chest but then sinks with his answer.
"I just want to wish you the best of luck tomorrow" He says smiling but it seems forced. Or at least my mind seems to be playing tricks with me. "Have fun".
I nod at him. "I guess I'll see you on Saturday? Due to the lessons we haven't really worked on our songs"
His eyes widen "Oh you're right! Great, see you Saturday".
There is a short awkward silence, we are saying goodbye, but no one seems to move or want to go.
Then I get closer to him and without thinking I give him a short peck on the lips and without waiting for his reaction or saying anything else, I turn on my heel and leave.
A peck. The peck: is a short tight lipped kiss on the lips or cheeks. If it is on the cheek it could be strictly friendly, whilst on the lips it could mean something more. Definitely, something more…
I feel tears streaming down my face softly as I make my way home.
