I have ECD. It stands for Easy Crying Disorder. I cry at almost anything. Scary movies, sad songs, even something as little as not going to a sleepover. I'm also a weak person. I can't play sports, interact with people, or express myself very well.

I'm a crybaby is what I'm saying. I wish I knew why I'm like this. Nobody in my family cries as easily as I can. Nobody in my family is as scared of people as I am. It's not fair. It's not fair at all. I always cry tears of frustration at this. I don't want to be somebody weak, but I can't help it. I want to be somebody strong, somebody who can protect herself on her own. Is it so bad to wish for that? To hope for something that can't come true? Maybe it is. Maybe weak people can never be strong.

Is that why we exist? We're the opposite of strong people. With strong, there is weak. With dark, there is light. With boys, there are girls. The world is made up of opposites. That's why we have balance, even if nobody sees it. Yes, there are famines around the world. Wars that have ended in great ruin/success in the years passed. There are illnesses that have yet to be cured. But that's why they're here. If everything was just one ball of happiness, then we couldn't advance in the world. Everything, everyone, would be at a time still.

Yet, I don't care for that. I just want to be a person that people could look up to. The star of the show. The moon in the sky. The person everybody admires and strives to be. I want to be somebody like that someday.

Of course, I'm too much of a chicken to try.