SakuraHarunoInsanity: Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but wow. That was scary, wasn't it?
Sakura: *still rocking back and forth in a corner* h-he…and then…it…th-the…*shiver*
Sasuke: You seriously can't be that scared…*secretly knows it in the back of his mind*
SakuraHarunoInsanity: No…that was really that scary…we have every right to be scared.
Sasuke: Tch. Whatever.
SakuraHarunoInsanity: Well, since poor Sakura-chan is still sitting in the corner, scared for her life, I will do the disclaimer. I do not own Naruto. Masashi-sama and Hinata-chan do. Now, say it with me…ON WITH THE FANFIC!!!
Sakura: *whimper* get it away!!!!! *hiding from Sasuke*
Re-cap
"Choke a smurf?" he says.
"Yeah"
"…Is that what they're calling it these days?"
I let out a laugh, but then, something beside me is shaking. I turn and see Sasuke with his head turned and his hand over his mouth. There is a muffled sound coming from him. I push his arm.
"Uh, Sasuke? Are you, like, okay?"
"*snicker* I'm –I'm f-fine". Walter continues to talk, Jeff continues to act dumb, and Sasuke continues to shake, until the most unexpected thing happens.
He busts out laughing. THE Uchiha Sasuke. Is laughing. Like crazy.
The chains on his pants rattle while he holds his stomach as he laughs like there's no tomorrow. When he manages to calm down, he just has a smile on his face. He catches my wide-eyed gaze and just looks at me, still smiling. Which scares me.
"What?" he says.
"Y-you laughed"
"Yeah, and?"
"Y-you never laugh. And now, you're smiling". I put a hand on his forehead to check if he's sick. "Are you okay? Are you dizzy? What's my name? Do you feel queasy?" He rolls his eyes and resumes his stoic face.
"Sakura, I'm fine. I'm in a good mood, don't ruin it, please", he says, taking my hand off his forehead. My jaw hits the floor.
"YOU'RE IN A GOOD MOOD???!!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THIS PLACE??!!"
He rolls his eyes and just continues to watch the movie. I am honestly scared. I have to live with him for three years.
Save my soul.
Sakura p.o.v.
We're still sitting here, watching the movie and everything is normal. Except for the fact I'm fearing for my life, because I've just found out that the great Uchiha Sasuke is capable of laughter. Discomfort is floating all over the room (or at least all around me) and I think he's starting to sense it. Or he might have seen me staring at him with a scared look on my face. He lets out a deep sigh.
"Is it really that hard to believe, Sakura?" he says, turning towards me. I nod my head.
"Uh huh. And I have to be in the same house as you for three years"
"Well, think about it this way. At least you're not a fangirl anymore". I let out a sigh.
"True. That was a weight off my shoulders"
"Yeah. Which reminds me. I've been meaning to ask you this. How did you manage to get over me? All the other fangirls are still trying to eat me alive"
"Why? Sad that you lost your number one fangirl?" I joke. He rolls his eyes.
"No, it was just a question"
"Well…I just busied myself in other stuff and pretty soon, I was just over you. One time, I actually forgot who you were, until Naruto told me", I say. Sadly, that wasn't the truth about why I don't feel for him anymore, but no one can know how I really got over him. If anybody found out, I would be in some serious trouble. It's sad, in a way, the method that I used to forget about my stupid crush on him. But it was for the best and I'm happy. The part about forgetting who he was, though, was true. But I'm over him anyway.
'That's what you've made yourself think, sweetums'
'Shut up and stop ruining my good mood'
"You still hate my guts, don't you?" he asks in a bored tone.
"Oh, yeah. If hatred were a weapon, you'da been dead a long time ago"
"I see. It's gonna take a while to get you to forgive me, isn't it?"
"Yup"
"What will happen when you do?"
"Why are you caring about my forgiveness and what I think? Shouldn't you be worrying about…I don't know…drowning a sack of puppies? Stabbing someone in the head to relieve anger? Something violent like that?"
"No. Because everyone else has forgiven me, and whether you like it or not, we were part of the same team. Like I said, I'm trying to make amends with people. We can die at any given moment on this earth and I'd like to be able to leave it without too many haters. And yes, I am fully aware of how corny that sounded, so don't mention it"
"Whatever", I mumble. I don't believe him.
"You don't believe me, do you?". did he just read my freaking mind?
"Would it really matter if I did?" I say, still looking at the TV. The answer he gives me makes me almost choke on my pizza.
"Yes"
"*cough, cough, hack, choke* YOU ARE NOT UCHIHA SASUKE!!! YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY AN IMPOSTER!!!! THERE IS NO POSSIBLE WAY THAT MY OPINION WOULD MATTER TO HIM, BECAUSE HE WAS MORE WORRIED ABOUT BEATING UP NARUTO AND TRYING TO KILL I-", but I'm stopped when his hand goes over my mouth. I yank his sleeved hand off of my mouth. "Who the crap are you, for real?" I ask. He pauses the movie and turns around to face me.
"You honestly don't believe anything I say, do you?"
"To be completely honest with you, no. Not at all". He runs his hands through his hair in a frustrated manner and takes a deep breath.
Sasuke p.o.v.
She really doesn't believe me. At all. This is what I get for abandoning them. And her. I really lost that much of her trust.
"Look, Naruto, Kakashi, and you are the main people that mean close to anything to me. I'm still not sure about Sai though, but you guys do. Believe me if you want to, you guys do. It would really suck if I just dropped dead and one of you guys didn't bother to show up to my funeral, much less, spit on my grave. You guys are all I have left now. Yes, I got my revenge, and you know what? As much as I hate to admit it, you were right, it didn't make me happy. Coming back here made me happy. I wanted to come back and see you guys again. I want to stay here and be able to be a part of Team seven again. You can hate it all you want, I just wanted to be back", I say. I blink a few times before realizing what I just said. Dang. For the most part, I didn't admit how I REALLY feel about her, or else I would be in for some serious rejection.
"I see", she says, not much emotion in her voice. Why? Why does it hurt so much to hear her say she doesn't care? Why does it hurt when I see her with other guys at her side? Why does it hurt when I see her in Tori's arms and not mine? Why does it hurt when she doesn't say 'Sasuke-kun' anymore? I wipe my face with my hands and look up at her. Such an emotionless face. Just like the one I've been looking at her with for years. "Well, do as you wish, Sasuke. I honestly don't have much to say about this"
"*sigh* what exactly do you feel towards me anymore anyway?" I ask. She thinks for a minute, tapping her finger on her chin.
"Hate, rage, the mad urge to choke the life out of you, and the strong feeling to just stay as far away from you as possible"
"…can we at least be friends?" I ask, trying to at least be of some importance to her.
"I guess so". I feel a slight wave of relief go through my stomach. I look at her and smirk. "What?" she says.
"Do you have any idea how many rules you broke?"
"OH, GIMME A BREAK!!! YOU SAID YOU WOULD LET UP TONIGHT AND YOU WANTED MY HONEST OPINION!!!!" I let out a small laugh. She still has that rambunctious side to her.
"Tell you what, I'll let it go this time, but if I do, you have to…" I tap my finger on my chin and look at her, seeing the freaked out expression on her face.
"What do I have to do?"
"You have to…you know what? I'll tell you later". Her eyes go wide, but she just shakes her head. I laugh at her. It feels good to be able to laugh again.
"Hey, Sasuke", I hear her say," Since when did you get so talkative?"
"I dunno. It just…happened. I really can't explain it"
"Ah, I see"
No, she doesn't. Chances are that she doesn't care and doesn't want to talk about it. But I can't help having the feeling that she's hiding something from me. Something big. Then again, it could just be me and I could be paranoid, but I highly doubt that. She looks at the clock and turns back to the TV.
"Waiting on something important?" I ask her. She just shrugs.
"I have work tomorrow and you have to go see the elders"
"Yeah, I do. How bad do you think it's gonna be?"
"Shouldn't be too bad. You're already stuck in a house with me for three years instead of two, so I highly doubt there's much more they can do"
"Probably. Do you think they would let me live a normal life after words if I'm a good boy?"
"Depends on how long you can bare the whole 'good boy' act before you finally snapped"
Sakura p.o.v.
GOOD BOY MY $$!!!!! There's a better chance of Hell freezing over than that ever happening! I flick my pink hair behind my shoulder and adjust in my seat, looking at the screen. Suddenly, a lock of my hair is grabbed and I turn to see him fiddling with it.
"Uh, what are you doing?" I ask, raising an eyebrow. He just sternly looks at it and then, asks.
"Did you ever grow your hair out again?"
"Um, yeah, why?"
"Why did you cut it?". I shift in my seat slightly. Maybe I should or maybe I shouldn't tell him. "Why do you wanna know?"
"Just plain curiosity". Smirking, I turn to him.
"Do you really wanna know?"
"Yeah"
"Come with me to work Wednesday and I'll show you"
Sasuke p.o.v.
…should I be worried in anyway possible? Yes or no? Whatever, I'll find out later. I don't feel like having to go through another long explanation of our lives. Heck, today I've said the most out of my entire life. That should be enough for one night.
But I'm still gonna find out what she's hiding from me. I just wish I knew what to ask to find out. Oh well, I'll figure it out later. Now, I'm just gonna sit here and watch the movie until I have to sleep. If I actually sleep. Sleeping wasn't always a very common thing back in the hideout.
1 hour later
The movie ends and I stretch my stiff arms, just to hear the joints pop and crack. I pop my neck and yawn. The pressure next to me on the couch leaves and I see Sakura get up to put the movie and pizza up.
"Oh, crap!" I hear her say, while she rushes upstairs. Slowly, I follow her and see her turn into the computer room. She quickly logs on and checks her e-mail. Her face turns a few different shades of red I didn't even know existed before she starts frantically typing. A few giggles and squeals tells me it's from 'Tori-kun'.
'Ugh. What's that guy have that I don't?'
'Oh, I don't know, maybe its something called manners and decency'
'Dang it!! You stay out of this!!!'
'I'm you. How can I stay out of this when we're the same person?'
'…you know what? Just shut up'
'Whatever you say, dude. Just don't let the jealousy overflow or else something you're gonna regret is gonna happen'
'WHATEVER JUST GO AWAY!!!!'
I lean against the wall by the doorway and squeeze my eyes shut for a moment. This 'Tori' guy. He's going down. Six feet down if it comes to it.
Sakura p.o.v.
AAAHHH!!!! Tori-kun messaged me back!!! YAY!!!! I read over it to see what he said.
To:DeadlyBladesofSakura
From:TwistedintheBrain
Subject:the party
hey sakura-chan it was great seeing you at the party. after work tomorrow we should hang out for a while. i have to go on a three month mission the day after tomorrow and i meant to tell you at the party but i didnt want to ruin your mood. we can hang wherever you want to just as long as i see you. as long as youre the last person i see before leaving then im good. i know that sounded a bit…corny but its true. i'll see you then.
Tori-kun
I let out a smile. I can't believe it. I'm the last person he wants to see. My chest flutters a little at the thought of what he said. My fingers fly across the keyboard as I respond to his message.
To:TwistedintheBrain
From: DeadlyBladesofSakura
Subject:Re:the party
it was great seeing you too. ugh i cant believe i wont see you for three months!! thats too long!!! you will be coming back alive right? plz tell me you are or else i may hurt my shishou. i think its really nice that i'm the last person you want to see. if i didnt have any self control i'd probably cry lol. i'll see you too.
Sakura-chan
I hit send and lean back in the chair. Tsunade-shishou just had to pick him, didn't she? Of all the shinobi she could've picked, he had to be on the list. That's just depressing, but I'll live. As long as he comes back alive, I'm happy. Something hits the wall outside the door, so I get up to see what it was. My head pokes out of the door and I see the Uchiha leaning against the wall with his eyes shut and a fisted hand buried to his side.
"Sasuke, what are you doing?" I ask. Onyx eyes fly open and meet my jade ones.
"Uh, nothing. I-I just have a headache and my arm fell to my side", he says, quickly. He goes to walk away, but I grab his sleeve and pull him back a little.
Sasuke p.o.v.
I go to walk away, but I feel a tug on my sleeve and look back to see her staring straight at me…why does she have to be so freakin innocent and cute?
"Are you sure its just a headache? You were fine a minute ago", she asks. I just nod.
"Yeah, it just hit me like a brick wall. I'm going to bed, so see you tomorrow", I mumble. I feel her let go of my shirt and head up to my room to think. Why do I feel so confused? This has never happened to me before, so why should it be happening now? What is it with her presence that makes me feel relieved like I've been holding in this deep breath and can only let it go when she's near me? I know I like her, but I think this is more than simply a slight crush. Can I really be……in love? I run my hands through my raven black hair as the door shuts behind me. This is gonna take a lot of thought.
I shake my head and take a deep breath to calm my already shot nerves, as I pull my shirt over my head and toss it in the corner next to the dresser. The air from the fan hits my back, making me shiver slightly and my thoughts turn to my check up at the hospital and Sakura's warm hands on the old wound. I'm so frustrated, the only other things I take off is my sleeve and wristband before I go face first into my bed. The chains on my pants make a chiming noise as they fall to my sides, making me think about the melodic laughter that would come from Sakura's lips when she laughed. As much as I miss that sound, I don't hear it anymore and if I do hear her laugh, it's not the same. Nothings the same anymore. Nothing will be the same anymore, will it? And all of it is because I'm such a selfish fool. I'm selfish for caring more about killing than about the new family I had. I'm selfish for putting up with a freak and his assistant for almost three years, knowing he would've taken my body, instead of staying with the only people that cared about more than my popularity or looks. I'm selfish for trying to kill my best friend that's like my brother just so I could kill my real brother. I'm selfish for ignoring the only girl that didn't just like me because of my looks, but wanted to get rid of the gaping hole of darkness and hate in my heart, even if it was only a little bit. I'm selfish for leaving her on a cold stone bench, knocked out in the middle of the night by herself just to obtain something I could've gotten in the village. And now, I'm more selfish than I ever have been all these years. I'm selfish now, because…
I want her to love only me, even though I know I've already lost her to somebody that treats her the way she should've been treated a long time ago. I'm losing the only person that loved me and there's almost nothing I can do about it.
Nothing. And the only thing I can do so she won't hate me anymore than she does, is sit back and let her be happy.
Even if it's not with me.
Sakura p.o.v.
Well, he's starting to act a bit…strange. But he said it was a headache, so I'll go along with it. My back pops as I stretch out while heading towards my room. A click noise echoes in the hall when the door opens and shuts and after that, pure silence. So quiet, it's screaming. Yes, screaming silence. I like the sound of it. Shuffling noises interrupt the silence when I start changing into my baggy 'Emily the Strange' sleep pants and black shirt. Pulling my blanket over me, I let out a yawn when the comfortable warmth sets into my cold skin. My thoughts go to Tori-kun and the mission he's going on. I don't want him to go. I care so much about him, it hurts on the inside. Maybe that's unhealthy, but at the present moment, I don't care. I just want him to stay here with me, so I know he's okay. He knows me just as much as Naruto does. He knows things about me even shishou doesn't know. For now, I just need my sleep. I have a lot to do tomorrow at the hospital.
SakuraHarunoInsanity: Sounds like Uchiha is a bit annoyed.
Sakura:……*still in corner twitching*…
SakuraHarunoInsanity: Well, I guess it's time for that visit to therapy. REVIEW TO HELP POOR SAKURA OUT OF HER PARANOIA!!!!
