A/N: This is Monday night to Tuesday morning :] just so you know.
Chapter 8
Still Edward's P.O.V
"What is it?" I asked, sitting in a chair beside her. "I wanted to tell you the significance of this mere window. After Charlie was done, I would stare out of it, waiting on someone to just come and take me away, just take me away and never bring me back. And every night, my request was rejected. You can see here, that I had wrote a simple request to Santa one year." She traced her finger over the inscription. "It says, 'Santa, if you are real, this is my only request from you. I want you to send someone to take me away from this house, away from my father. That is my only Christmas wish Santa, and hopefully you will make it come true.' I wrote that when I was about 11. Christmas day, my father gave me one of the worst beatings I have had to that point, I stopped believing in Santa Claus that year.
"This, I drew when I was about 13. It's a horse with Prince Charming riding on the back of it coming to save me, I had drawn it right before my 14th birthday. Every year, since my 14th birthday, my father raped me, on my birthday. He said it was his present to me and that I should appreciate it considering that he would be the only person who would want and who would touch me in that way. If he just saw me talking to a boy, other than Jacob, he would go ballistic. He would accuse me of sleeping with him, or going out with him behind his back, or some other crazy accusation.
"I drew this one, last year actually, right before my 16th birthday. I drew a couple of babies, and I drew an 'X' over them, because I found out that the reason why I hadn't had my period since my 15th birthday was because I was sterile. My father didn't just rape me on my birthdays, some nights he would do it every night for a week, and sometimes he would only do it a couple times a month. It just depended on his mood really."
"What's that?" I pointed to a newly inscribed drawing. "That one was when I first met you. I drew you and your Volvo the best I could. Then I inscribed under it 'It wasn't Prince Charming riding on a white horse, but a gorgeous vampire in his silver Volvo, who came and took me away.' I did the inscribtion the next day, before you even telling me that you were, I just kind of knew."
"How did you inscribe these?" I asked. "I had a knife that Jacob had given to me, right before..." She looked out the window, and to the sky, as if searching for an answer of some sort. "Right before what Bella?" She shook her head, refusing to answer my question. I turned her around to face me. Her face was red, and blotchy, she had tears running down her cheeks. "What happened to him? Did Charlie do something to him?" She nodded. "What did he do?"
"He killed my best friend and his father okay? He killed the only two people that stood up for me, and the reason that they're not here is because they were standing up for me. It's my fault that they're not here anymore, if I hadn't had said anything to Billy when Charlie first hit me, they would still be here, and I wouldn't be here right now, hiding from my father and grieving for them." I pulled her into my arms and I layed her on her bed.
"Bella, you have to promise me that you won't blame your friends' deaths on yourself. They would've noticed the damage and said something to him anyways without you having to say a word, promise me Bella." She opened her mouth to object, "Just nod if you are promising." She nodded reluctantly. "You need to go to sleep, though we're not going to school tomorrow, well we arn't at least. You still need you're rest." I started to get out of her bed when she clutched onto my fore arm. "Don't go." She barely wispered. "Okay, I'll stay here as long as you want."
"Just so you know, I'll always want you here beside me." She half-smiled. "Then I'll always be here by your side, forever and always." I kissed her forehead, and she drifted to sleep automatically.
Bella's P.O.V
I woke up on Tuesday morning, and noticed that Edward wasn't there. "Edward?" I questioned the empty space beside me. I looked away for a second, and when I looked back he was there with breakfast in hand. "Sorry, I figured that you would be hungry, so I made you some breakfast. I didn't think that you would wake up before I got back." He handed me the breakfast tray that held blueberry pancakes, polish sausage, a banana-nut muffin and a glass of orange juice. "It looks delicious Edward, thank you." I dug in without another word.
It seemed as if he was just facinated watching me eat. "What?" I asked. "It's nothing." He answered. I finished quickly, and thanked him. "That was delicious, thank you." He nodded and placed the tray on the floor. "Your very welcome, now what do you want to do today? We have to house to ourselves, what do you want to do?" I thought about it for a minute.
"Edward, are you willing to do anything for me?" He nodded. "Even if you might not want to?" He raised his eyebrow in suspension. "It depends, why? What do you want that you might think I wouldn't want to do for you?" He thought about it for a second. "No, and no discussing it." I exhaled sharply. "You don't even know what I was going to ask of you."
"Oh don't I? Then what was it?"
"I want you to change me, into a vampire." I went to grab his hand, but he moved it too fast. "No, I'm not going to end your life." I wasn't going to argue with him today, another day probably, but not today. "What do you want to do today?" I asked him. He was happy to change the subject. "I don't know really, that's why I asked you." I thought for a mintute and decided. "I want to go see their graves. They're buried next to Jacob's mom right outside the reservation. Charlie wouldn't let me go to their funeral, and I never told them goodbye."
Edward nodded in understandment. "Do you want to go alone? Or.." I gave him the glare of a lifetime. "I'll come with you." Edward kissed me, it was simple and sweet. "Let's go, shall we?" I nodded and we left.
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