Rated M for this chapter. Smut in here.
The rush of oblivious grocery shoppers surrounds them, but Piper's world seemed to stop and freeze. Nicky was in front of them. She hadn't seen nor heard anything from the woman in years. Nicky was still in prison serving her time when Piper was released. Piper cut all ties with everybody in prison when she got out, as she wanted to start everything new.
When the shocked subside for the bushy haired woman, she couldn't help but rush to her old friend.
"Vause..."
Piper felt Alex stiffened in her arms as the raven-haired woman released Piper and like a scared kid, went behind her girlfriend. Alex was familiar with accidental meetings, in which some ended by giving her resurfacing injuries. She didn't recognize the stranger in front of her, so her initial reaction was to shield herself. Nicky was puzzled on how Alex was being uneasy so she slowed her pace while Piper raised her right-hand signaling Nicky to stay put.
"Nicky, wait."
Nicky stops and stands still. She was puzzled on what was happening in front of her. She couldn't understand why Alex was acting weird.
"Al, this is Nicky. She was incarcerated the same time that we were."
"Oh, hi. I'm sorry. I didn't recognize you."
Confusion was plastered over Nicky's face. She didn't change that much for Alex not to recognized her. She looked at Piper as the blonde gave her a nervous look.
"What the hell is going on Chapman? Why can't she recognize me?"
Nicky was starting to get concern and frustrated at the same time. She couldn't comprehend why her friend was like this.
"Alex...Alex couldn't remember. She suffered from retrograde amnesia" Piper said as she paused and swallowed. "Due to a violent head trauma. She couldn't remember anything."
"What?...what the fuck!" Nicky whispered as her hand covered her mouth.
Nicky was stunned. Her eyes immediately gathered tears at the edge. She didn't think that Alex will suffer like that. Her friend didn't deserve the punishment. It was too harsh. She exhaled defeatedly as sadness overcomes her being. Piper felt Nicky's pain. She was Alex's closest friend in Litchfield. When Alex was attacked, Nicky hated Piper's guts, especially when Piper confessed about Stella, but she still helped the blonde on finding out what happened to Alex, as she herself was worried for her friend. Piper felt awful on being the bearer of the terrible news. She felt her guilt was consuming her again.
"Why don't we...let's finish this shopping and talk somewhere else, okay?" Piper suggested.
"Yeah, sure." Alex whispered.
Nicky looked at Alex with longing. She wanted to hug her friend, but she didn't want to make Alex uncomfortable. She wanted to give Alex some time to adjust to her.
"Yeah. That's great. I'll settle my things first."
"We'll meet you at the front. Let's go some place else and talk." Piper offered.
"Yeah, we should." Nicky said firmly.
Piper knew she had some explaining to do on what she was doing with Alex, and something tells her that Nicky wouldn't be happy on her news. Nicky left, leaving the two women by themselves again. Alex sense that Piper was anxious about talking with the bushy haired woman. She was puzzled as to why.
"Who is she?"
"She's your friend, Al." Piper said softly.
"Oh."
Piper looked at Alex with worry in her blue eyes, as the raven-haired woman felt the need to comfort her. She hugged Piper tightly, as the blonde melt on her embrace and exhaled anxiously.
...
They decided to have their much-needed talk, in the diner just across the street. Alex and Piper were seated together while Nicky sat across them. They just ordered drinks, as nobody had the appetite to eat. Nicky looked at Alex closely. She couldn't help but ache when she saw Alex's scars. She saw the scar above her eyebrows. She also saw the large one on Alex's arm and the one that was visible in Alex's chest. She wondered how many more was there in her friend's body. She swallowed her tears as she didn't want Alex to think that she pitied her. She knew Alex hated being pitied. Nicky was quietly observing the two women in front of her. She couldn't deny that even though time had passed and Alex didn't remember much of her history with Piper, these two women right in front of her, though had aged, held the same affection for each other. They didn't need to say it, their gaze, and their body language says it all.
"How are you, Nicky?" Piper asked.
"Fine. Everything's good."
"When were you released?" Alex asked.
"Oh, just two months ago."
"Oh, okay. Where are you staying then?"
"I'm staying in my own apartment. My mother took care of everything."
Alex looked at her intently, as if she was reading Nicky. She wondered what kind of life Nicky had lived. Nicky recognized what Alex must be thinking.
"Mama's loaded just like Chapman here."
Piper smiled sullenly at Alex. They hadn't really talked about Piper's family except her brother Cal. Nicky wanted to ask so many things, but she knew it would take more than one day to answer all of her questions.
"How are you, Vause?"
"I'm fine Nicky. Thanks for asking."
"What happened to you?"
Alex narrated the things that she remembered from the time she woke up in a coma. Her friend listened intently, with misty eyes. She couldn't help but pity Alex for what happened to her. She hurts for Alex and what she went through, alone. A part of her resented Piper for what she had done but reminded herself that the blonde had changed a lot since Alex left.
Piper remained silent all throughout their conversation. She would only talk if she was asked to or when it concerned her. She didn't know what to tell Nicky. She had a feeling the bushy haired woman despised her on why she was with Alex again. Alex and Nicky seemed to bond again in the short time that they were talking. It was a familiar banter that their subconscious selves seemed to remember.
"Can I ask you something?" Alex said.
"Shoot!"
"Ugh, do you ever wash your hair?"
"Shut up! Of course man! I was just born with it."
The two women laughed as Piper smiled at them. They were getting comfortable in the conversation that Alex even asked Nicky's number so that they can catch up some other time.
They continued talking when Alex excused herself as she felt the need to use the bathroom. She looked at Piper and smile, as the blonde smiled back. As soon as she wasn't within earshot, Nicky started her rant.
"What the hell do you think you're doing Chapman?" Nicky said furiously.
"Nicky..."
"Have you lost your mind? She can't remember anything...and you are here with her like nothing happened? What does she know towards what you did?" Nicky asked as her tone rises.
"I haven't told her about Chicago yet...and onwards." Piper said softly.
"Fuck, Chapman! I told you before to make up your mind..." Nicky said as she glanced towards the bathroom to see if there was any sign that Alex was about to come back. "But no, you went back and forth over sweater vest and her, and then after you put her back into prison, and you asked her to be her girlfriend, you then decided to have an affair with The Biebs." Nicky seethed.
Piper dropped her gaze as she remained silent. Nicky was right. She had done a lot of awful things to Alex and only when the raven-haired woman was attacked, that she was able to come to her senses. Nicky calmed herself, as she saw Piper being eaten alive by her guilt. Something tells her than this was a natural occurrence for Piper.
"Don't you think, that maybe...just maybe, your time together has passed, and it's time to let her go? You didn't even think about letting me know?"
"I'm sorry. I wasn't sure where to find you."
"I was still in prison when you were released. You very well know where to find me! A fucking letter would be nice."
"I'm not aware of how long is your sentence." Piper reasoned as her tone rose a little.
There was a pause of silence as Nicky tried to calm down and sympathized with the blonde.
"How did you find her?"
"She found me at my store." Piper explained.
She didn't know if she would laugh or pity these two women. It felt like the universe had a cruel intention of making these two women suffer. Nicky looked at Piper as she saw how the blonde's eyes were hurting too. Nicky exhaled as she composed herself.
"Chapman, I hate to break it to you, but this...this thing you have with Vause now...this could blow up to your faces. One day, you'll have to come clean to her...and when you do, you will hurt her so much more, than you'd ever did, before.
"I know, Nicky...but I...love Alex. She needed me and I...I need her too." Piper said as her gazed went to the floor.
Her tears fell from her blue orbs, but she wiped it immediately, as she didn't want Nicky to feel sorry for her. Piper felt that nobody understood of how much her guilt was eating her. It pained her that she couldn't change what she had done in the past.
"It's like you're waiting for the train to come and hit you. As much as I am Alex's friend, I care about you too. This can break you...into gazillion pieces." Nicky jokes as she tried to lighten up their conversation.
She held Piper's gaze as the blonde smiled sadly.
"I'll take my chances, Nicky...any chance is worth taking with Alex."
Piper smiled sullenly as Nicky smiled back and looked at her with sadness in her eyes.
...
Nicky's words echoed on Piper's memory. She thought about how right she was, that maybe she should have let Alex go. She should've let her be in her new world without Piper interfering. She could've just helped her remember but then stayed as far as she could. But how could she, when every time Alex laugh, she fell in love? How could she gave her up, when each time, Alex's touch, Alex's presence, made her forget how painful her past was? She was close on giving up, but each time she looked at her green eyes, Piper knew she wouldn't want a life without seeing them every waking day.
They were on Alex's apartment resting on her couch after their draining talk with the bushy haired woman. Alex fell asleep spooning the blonde, as Piper continued to watch a movie. She felt Alex stirred slightly behind her, as though she was dreaming. Piper faces her and observed as Alex brows furrowed. She felt the need to wake her up as the blonde worries that she was having a terrible dream.
"Babe...Al?" Piper said as she gently shake the raven-haired woman.
"Alex..."
Alex blinked slowly as she adjusts to her surroundings and remembered where she was. She saw Piper besides her, staring worriedly.
"You're dreaming." Piper said as she brushed Alex's hair away from her face.
Alex closed her eyes firmly and exhaled anxiously.
"I am. Nicky...she..." She hesitantly said as she didn't know how to tell Piper about her dream.
"What? What was it?"
"I felt her. I mean...did...did Nicky and I were...close?"
Piper's brows furrowed. She was confused on what Alex was asking. She already told her that Nicky was her closest friend in prison. It dawns unto her that Alex maybe, was dreaming of something else.
"What was your dream exactly?"
Alex closed her eyes and covered them with her right hand, as her left hand was wrapped in Piper's shoulder. She felt suddenly ashamed of her girlfriend's gaze.
"Alex?"
Piper took her hand off her eyes and waited for Alex to say something.
"Nicky and I...on the bunk..."
"And?" Piper said.
She knew what the raven-haired woman was asking, but she wanted to let Alex tell her.
"Do you really want me to say it?"
"Yeah."
"We were having...a moment."
Piper exhaled audibly. She was right on what Alex might have dreamt of.
"Yes. It was the time where...I picked Larry...and Nicky was going through something too. You bonded...found comfort in each other."
Alex observed her intently. She saw guilt and jealousy on Piper's face.
"We have so much history, don't we?" Alex asked.
"Yeah. We do have."
"I'm glad you're still with me, Pipes."
She smiled tenderly at the blonde as Piper relaxed on her words. All those thoughts that she had on why they shouldn't be together anymore, vanished.
"I am glad too. Should I be worried that you're dreaming about your "moment" with Nicky?"
"No, stupid! I'm sure it was just brought about our unexpected meeting with Nicky." Alex said and laughed at Piper's obvious jealousy.
"Really?"
"Yeah, babe. She just reminded me of Drew, only wilder." Alex said.
Piper looked at Alex intently analyzing her sincerity and sensing sadness on her tone over Drew's sudden disappearance on her life, as the raven-haired woman smiled affectionately at her. Piper took a mental note to talk to Drew and end Alex's misery. She kissed Alex briefly as she buried her face on Alex's neck smelling her girlfriend's warm and inviting smell of sandalwood. She felt Alex gave her a bone-crushing hug as her right hand found its way inside her shirt, caressing the skin on her back. She placed light feathery kisses on Alex's neck and collarbone as she felt the raven-haired woman relaxed. They stayed that way holding each other and eventually falling on a deep slumber together.
...
When Monday came, Piper decided she will meet Drew without Alex's knowledge. She didn't want to worry her with unnecessary things anymore. She took Drew's number from Jackie and called the auburn-haired woman right away. For whatever reason, Drew agreed to meet her. They decided to talk by lunch on Drew's office. Piper agreed as she didn't have any plans on making their awkward talk longer than thirty minutes. She just wanted to do it for Alex.
Piper went on Drew's workplace and was assisted by her secretary. She was asked to wait for a few minutes in her office while Drew finished her meeting. Drew's office was on the 20th floor, giving her a sky-scraping view. The auburn-haired woman's office was roomy. She had her own bookshelf in which several photo's are displayed. There was a picture of Drew on various finished projects, her family, a picture of her and a younger girl who resembled the auburn-haired woman, in which Piper assumed her sister, but what caught her eye was a picture of her and Alex, with Alex's legs still on casts. Her face had few bruises, but they were barely visible anymore. There was a freshly stitched wound above her eye and although she looked tired, she was smiling happily, having Drew by her side. Piper felt her heart ached to see how close they were. It must have been really painful to Alex that Drew was avoiding her. She was lost on her thoughts that she didn't notice Drew arrived.
"Piper." Drew said.
Piper snapped out of her trance and faced the auburn-haired woman.
"Hi."
"Hi. Take a seat. Do you want something to drink?"
"No, that's fine. I won't be long anyway."
They both sat on the couch at Drew's office.
"What can I do for you?"
"I'm here for Alex."
"Alex? What happened?"
Piper didn't miss Drew's worried tone. She realized that Drew genuinely cared about the raven-haired woman so much.
"No. She's fine...but she's...missing you."
"Oh."
"Drew, please...you don't have to like me, but Alex...she's miserable not having you around."
"You're right, I don't like you."
Piper's brow raised on the statement. She was there for Alex, but she wasn't going to allow Drew to assume that she knew her. She will defend herself if she had to.
"The feeling is mutual...but Alex doesn't deserve it." Piper said.
She noticed Drew's expression softened. She was aware she was hurting her friend.
"You can hate me all you want, but please take Alex out of this."
Drew observed the blonde. She noticed how genuinely Piper cared for Alex. She didn't like Piper because there were things that she thought that Piper wasn't being honest about. Plus, Alex chose Piper and not her.
"Good then. Let me be clear, you're being shady. There are things I think you're not being honest about, so I don't like you." Drew said firmly.
"There are things that aren't easy to say."
Drew saw an aching look on the blonde's blue orbs before she masked it away. It made her fear for Alex but at the same time, feel sorry for the blonde. She was suffering over something that nobody knew about.
"I appreciate you coming here. I'll talk to Alex soon."
"Thank you, that's all I ask."
Drew smiled at her timidly, as Piper did the same. Piper was about to leave when she heard Drew call her name.
"Piper...don't you hurt her. If you do and she comes running back to me, I swear...you would never have her, ever again. I won't let her go." Drew threatened.
Piper stared at the auburn-haired woman and saw the truth in her eyes. She nods a little as she slowly closed the door. She realized that Drew's affection for Alex was so much deeper than she thought. They were both genuinely in love with the same woman and cared deeply about her. For the first time in more than a decade of loving Alex Vause, Piper Chapman feared she would lose her, entirely.
...
After that talked with Drew, Piper felt a little worried and agitated, so she wanted to see Alex and be assured that she was still with her. Being at her store until 6 in the evening didn't help as she haven't seen Alex all day. The raven-haired woman called her and said that she wasn't able to drop by Piper's store as she had two client meetings that day, and probably will end by 7 pm. It was close to 8 in the evening when Piper decided to call Alex to asked about her day. When the raven-haired woman said it was hectic and haven't taken her dinner yet, Piper volunteered to grab something for her and bring it at Alex's apartment. Alex was touched by the gesture and said that she would wait for the blonde to come.
Half an hour later, and Piper was at Alex's front door. She knocks twice before the raven-haired woman opened her door.
"Hey." Alex said as she pecked Piper on the lips.
She let Piper in and locked the door. Piper was surprised to see her girlfriend wearing only a long white t-shirt that falls in the middle of her thigh, and just her black undies.
"Heeeyy." Piper answered.
Alex signaled by her index finger to give her a second, that's the only time Piper noticed she was talking with someone in the phone.
Piper couldn't take her eyes on Alex's exposed legs. Her lover didn't change. Alex's form was still the same, as all those years ago. She decided to prepare the food in Alex's kitchen to distract her momentarily.
A few minutes after, Alex found Piper in the kitchen as she observed the blonde by the door. Alex was still talking with someone on the phone when Piper heard her name.
'Wait a sec. Let me ask Piper.' Alex told the person on the phone.
She moved her cell phone away from her mouth.
"Babe, do we have plans tomorrow?"
"Hmm, none. Why?"
"Ugh, Drew wants to hang out. Is it okay?"
Piper seemed to contemplate what she would say. She was glad Drew finally contacted Alex, but at the same time she felt a little possessive over her, especially when Drew's words still lingered in her mind. She decided to be unselfish and let Alex go with her friend, especially when she saw how giddy Alex was, as Drew was finally speaking to her again.
"Yeah, sure. Why not?"
Alex smiled at her warmly. She paced back and forth on her living room, as she talked to Drew for a little more. She decided to end the call when she saw Piper patiently waiting for her, and was seated at the counter stool in her kitchen.
"Hey, sorry. I was just happy Drew finally called." Alex said.
She stood in front of the blonde and wrapped her arms on Piper's shoulder. Piper welcomed the embrace, as she enveloped her arms on Alex's torso and buried her face on her chest.
"I miss you."
"I miss you too, babe."
They released each other after, as Piper instructed Alex to seat beside her. She brought Alex some Thai food and a few choices of desserts. Alex started eating and shared some to the blonde since Piper purchased enough for two people.
"Should I be worried that you answer the door wearing only those?"
Alex laughed at her as she saw the look Piper was giving her.
"Well, I just came home and I feel the need to just slack off...and I'm just waiting for you, so I didn't bother."
"Or you purposely dressed like this to seduce me." Piper said as she held Alex's white shirt.
"Maybe." Alex said as her brows raise playfully.
She saw the look of desire in Piper's face as she couldn't help but giggled.
"Eat your dinner."
They cleaned up after their dinner as they decided to seat on the couch and watch Alex's favorite tv show. They were seated closely as Piper was lying by her left side, with her legs bent on the couch and Alex was seated, leaning on the blonde's stomach, as her legs are elevated on the coffee table. Alex was seriously watching as she absentmindedly rubs her right hand at the back of Piper's thigh, close to her ass. It was sending chills on Piper's spine, as her bare legs were exposed on her shorts. Piper observed the raven-haired woman that was unaware of her inner struggle. She looked at her girlfriend intently, as a wave of affection came rushing into her. Alex's jet-black hair falls perfectly on her shoulders, her glasses seated at her beautiful face, her figure still feeds Piper's desire, and although she had visible scars, it only made her more appealing. Piper wanted to feel her, she wanted Alex. She wanted to make love to her. Piper seated a little and gazed at Alex, boring holes to the side of her face. The raven-haired woman felt her stare and face the blonde.
"What?"
Piper slowly leaned in and kissed her girlfriend gently. Her hands were holding her face in place as she conveyed what she wanted. The kissed was broken slightly, as they looked at each other. Alex saw Piper's dilated pupils. It sends shivers into her as her own desire captured her being. They kissed once again, as their lips enveloped each other's, passionately. Piper straddled the raven-haired woman as Alex's hand traveled to her stomach, and reached under her bra. Piper tugged at Alex's shirt lightly indicating she wanted it off when Alex held her hand and broke their kiss. She rested her forehead on Piper's cheek as both of their breathing were labored.
"Pipes.." Alex said hesitantly.
"What's wrong?"
Alex looked at her anxiously as Piper was immediately worried that she crossed a line.
"I have...I have scars." Alex said shamefully.
Piper felt her heart ache. She didn't want Alex feeling ashamed of herself this way. She took Alex's face firmly and looked at her intently.
"Baby...Alex, I don't care...I love you...and your scars."
Alex looked at her with love in her green eyes.
"I love you too, Pipes."
It made Alex feel intense emotions towards Piper. They kissed each other with passion as Alex's hands gently pulled Piper towards her. Alex broke their kiss again as she slowly stood up. She turn the tv off and grab Piper's hand and pulled her towards the bedroom.
Alex gently seated Piper at her king size bed, as they looked at each other intently. Piper took Alex's glasses and placed it at the side table. Alex leaned in at the blonde as she kissed Piper at the side of her neck. The blonde shivered at the contact, as Alex straddled her, and she gently laid Piper on her bed.
Alex was thankful that the table lamp was the only light on the room, as she still felt a little uneasy on Piper seeing her scarred body. Their desires to feel each other intensified, as Alex tugged on Piper's shorts to be removed. The blonde complies on her request, as Alex helped her discard the said clothing. They had the fair amount of clothing left as Alex fought her nerves on letting Piper saw her scars. Piper felt her anxiety, as the raven-haired woman tried to hide it by kissing her neck and collarbone.
"Alex...let me feel you."
Piper said with labored breathing and obvious desire on her tone. All that Alex needed was those words to snapped out of her shame. She removed Piper's shirt, as she willingly let Piper removed hers. Piper saw her lover's scarred torso. There were few diagonal long scars to her stomach and several few short ones near her chest and shoulders, that probably brought by the rake that was used by her attacker. What caught Piper's eye was the bullet-like scar on Alex's upper left breast, a little close to her heart. Panic rose on Piper's lungs as her eyes gathered tears, so she shifted her gaze on Alex's eyes. She saw her lover a little worried, so Piper swallowed her tears and assured Alex by kissing her fervently. She straddled the raven-haired woman as their places switched and Piper was now hovering above Alex. Her hands freed Alex from her bra, as she alone discarded hers. She kissed the scars that Alex had as her hand travels on the raven-haired woman's center. Piper worked on her over her remaining clothing, as Alex felt her underwear begins to soak. Piper gently relieves Alex of her panties as Alex removed hers. Piper's need escalated when she felt Alex's hand cupping her breasts. The blonde took Alex right away to placate her longing towards the raven-haired woman.
Piper never thought that she would ever feel Alex this way again. Her emotions are everywhere as she did her best not to be consumed by them. Alex kissed her with desire as Piper finally went inside her. The familiar stroke of Piper's finger and her mouth giving much attention over her breasts made Alex reached her peak not long after. Alex's passionate moans echoed throughout the room, as Piper groan in unison with hers. Alex closed her eyes and emit a powerful release as Piper continued to stroke inside her, helping her come down to a high. She came back to her senses when Piper pulled out but continued to assault the scar above her heart, with fervent kisses. She gently bumped her cheeks over the blonde affectionately and gave Piper a lingering kiss on her cheek. Alex shifted their position, as she was now hovering above Piper and her mouth continued its assault at the side of Piper's neck, near her pulse. Alex felt Piper's need as the blonde opened up to her and guided her hand where she wanted it to be. Alex gave in to her need and caress her throbbing opening as Piper moaned on the touch. Alex's mouth found Piper's taut nipples as the blonde danced with the rhythm of Alex's fingers. She grabbed Alex's face and kissed her lover fervently, as Alex pushed on her more. They released each other's mouth as their breathing got labored and Alex rested her forehead on Piper's cheek. Alex felt Piper pushed her body more towards her, feeling her all over. Alex pumped relentlessly inside Piper as the blonde's hips rode over Alex's fingers. Piper felt overwhelming emotion on feeling Alex again, as she couldn't help her tears from falling. Alex felt Piper's cheek gathered wetness so she pulled back a little to check the blonde.
"Pipes...babe, did I hurt you?"
"No...no, I was just...happy." Piper said with a heaving breath as she brushed Alex's hair, away from her face. Piper moved her hips again with the rhythm that Alex had set until the blonde reached her peak and cried out her pleasure. Alex continued pumping on her until Piper came down from her high. Alex collapsed on top of the blonde and buried her face on Piper's neck, as Piper hugged her tightly. She placed a lingering kiss on Alex's temple as the raven-haired woman catches her breath.
Alex recovered but was still on top of Piper as she felt her lover opened up to her more and tightly pushed Alex more towards her body. Piper's hand roamed over Alex back reaching her ass and caressed Alex's gifted buns. Alex leaned on her elbows and looked at Piper.
"Are you okay, babe?"
"Yes. I'm just very, happy...Are you happy Alex?"
"Hmmm...yes, so much."
Alex wiped Piper's tear stained cheeks and placed a lingering kiss on them both.
"I love you, Al."
"I love you too, Pipes."
Their noses brushed with affection, as they shared a passionate kiss once again. Their bodies melded again as they shared a passionate love making, all through the night.
There it is! I hope you guys enjoyed. Things will soon go down, I can feel it...lol...I would like to hear your thoughts on this. Write me up!
