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The holidays flew by. Before I knew it I was back at school, longing to see Tonks again.
Ginny, Jan. 16th
So sorry it's taken so long to write you. I've been undercover with some other Aurors tracking Death Eaters. It's getting harder and harder. We can follow a group for a few days, and then we get pulled to follow another set. It isn't very effective. But who am I say? I haven't been doing this for very long. Maybe in the end it will lead into something worthwhile. I'm not really supposed to be talking about this, but he is getting stronger. Everyone's worried out of their minds about Harry. Will you keep an eye on him at school? I'm not sure if you are following the news at school or not…but it's getting dangerous out there…for everyone. The Order really hasn't a clue what to do now that Dumbledore is gone. Remus told me that Dumbledore left Harry a mission. He wanted to leave last summer to start this quest, but Remus convinced him school was the safest place for him. Can you imagine what would happen if Harry went and got himself killed?
Anyway, I really miss you. My letters are going to become farther and farther between if things keep going this way. I'm going to try and come up to the school for a day or two to see you, if I can. No promises though. So don't get your hopes up. I am really needing to see you if you know what I mean. Christmas seems like ages ago. I don't know if I'll be able to make it to July without seeing you before then.
I have to get ready for my shift. Promise that you will be careful. If I lost you, I don't know what I'd do.
Love,
Tonks
Tonks, Feb. 18th
I hope you've received my birthday gift by now. I know you told me not to write so often, but I can't help it. I'm going crazy here and my outlet is sending you letters. Hermione, Ron, and Harry have been acting very strangely lately. They are up to something I know it. People are starting to talk as if they are having some weird threesome relationship. I think it has something to do with You-Know-Who though. I hope they aren't going to do anything stupid. I know they (or at least Harry) are trying to track him down and go after him. Idiots. I can't even try to stop them since they haven't told me (or anyone for that matter) what the hell they are trying to do. I thought Hermione would have a little more sense to not go after the person trying to kill you, but Hermione has always believed Dumbledore knew what was best.
We have a Hogsmeade weekend in two weeks. Maybe we can meet up there? Maybe if you told someone (like Remus or Kingsley) that we were together and you were in desperate need of sex, they'd let you off for the day…I know you are shaking your head as you read this, it was just a suggestion. I know you won't do it. You are so content with us being a secret. People will find out though Tonks. Mark my words. People aren't stupid.
I love you,
Ginny
Ginny March 8th
I'm sorry I couldn't make it to Hogsmeade last weekend. I hope you weren't too upset to not see me. I told you I couldn't make any promises. Everyone is being questioned with every request. People are going missing left and right. Don't be shocked if all Hogsmeade weekends end. You guys are safer in the castle than you are out in the real world. I've been hearing talk of opening Hogwarts for the summer, just to keep those that are underage and attending safe. I know you don't wanna hear this and I couldn't stand to be away from you for much longer, but it is for the best. I'm torn between wanting to see you every single day and the risk of you getting killed.
I hope you like the picture I sent you. I love you.
Tonks
I was really missing Tonks. Every time we tried to meet up, something happened. It was usually her fault. The picture she sent me didn't really help with missing her. And the possibility of saying at school for the summer? I couldn't bear the thought of being away from her for any longer.
Attempting to distract myself from the hurt, I walked into the common room. Harry, Ron, and Hermione were huddled in a corner, as far away as possible from the crowd in the room.
"Hey guys!" I smiled knowing they would cheer me up.
They didn't return my smile. Harry began throwing some papers into his bag and Hermione blushed. Ron, on the other hand, didn't hold anything back.
"Geez Ginny! Can't you give us a minutes peace?" He huffed, hands on his hips.
"Ron, all I was doing was saying hi," I glared at him. "I'm sorry to interrupt your important plans on stopping You-Know-Who."
Tonks July 7th
I'm sure you already know this, but Harry, Ron, and Hermione have left. They are off hunting for You-Know-Who. Of course, my mother refuses to admit this to herself. She thinks they have just gone off to have fun. I'm scared though. Ron and I have never got on very well, but he is still my brother. And yeah, Harry and Hermione aren't blood relatives, but I still love them just the same as if they were born Weasleys. I don't know where you are…but if you run into them, can you give them my love and tell them (from me) not to do anything too stupid?
When are you coming home? Do you know yet? I miss you so much. I haven't seen you since Easter…
Ginny
Ginny Sept 4th
It is strange that I miss you so much and it's only been 3 days since I saw you last? I'm glad we made the most of it though. My body still tingled the same way when we kissed. Did yours? I hope so. I was so afraid one of our feelings would have changed over the time we were apart. Don't be sad we aren't together now though. Harry is off to save the world and you are graduating this year. Once all that is done, we can come out into the open and live our life.
I read in the paper this morning that Snape's headmaster now. I know you are extremely mad about this. DO NOT DO ANYTHING STUPID. You will be punished severely. I tried to convince Molly to let you come home, but she still feels that Hogwarts is the safest place for you. You are a pureblood after all. They won't kill you, just hurt you very bad.
I should be home for Christmas. As always, no promises.
Tonks
I suddenly slammed the notebook closed. I couldn't read the rest of what was written inside. I knew what the next letter said though. I had them all memorized, which isn't hard since I only read the notebook a million times over the past four years.
I knew the next letter was Tonks explaining to me that she did love me and she always would, but she couldn't be with me and that's why she hadn't shown up for Christmas. Not with everything that had been going on at the time. She then ended the letter 'In the future maybe we can be together,". It was followed by her standard, as always, no promises. Which I now knew was her way of telling me what I wanted to here.
"Damn," I muttered glancing at my watch. It was after one pm. I had already been in the attic for over an hour. I replaced the notebook in my box of old schoolwork and set it carefully back on the shelf. I then searched the attic for the box I had originally come up for.
"Anna, I couldn't find the Christmas ornaments." I kissed my girlfriend on the cheek and pulled her into a hug.
"I'm surprised. You were in the attic for ages!" She complained setting a cup of coffee down in front of me. "We'll just go up to the store and get some more in awhile."
"I don't see the point in decorating our own house. We've spent the past two Christmas's at my parents."
Anna rolled her eyes. "Because Ginny. Its tradition. Christmas is a special holiday for us."
Christmas was a special holiday for Anna and me. On the Christmas eve before the one year anniversary of Tonks and I's breakup, I stumbled, drunk of out my mind from drowning my sorrows in Muggle liquors, into the middle of the street in London. Anna nearly ran me over in her car. She stopped just in time though. It didn't stop her from getting out of her car and chewing me out for being a freaking idiot. From being drunk and getting yelled at by (from my drunken vision) a really pretty girl, I burst into tears and fell into the snow. Anna instantly stopped screaming at me and sat down next to me, asking me if I was alright. Since I'm a talkative drunk, I spilled the whole story. Anna listened to everything I said, then took me home to her place and cleaned me up. We spent Christmas day together and from that point on we were hardly ever apart. I even told my parents about being a lesbian when Anna and I officially became a couple a few weeks later. This would be our third Christmas spent together and I know my mom was itching for one of us to propose to the other so she could plan another wedding.
I grabbed Anna's hand. "Lets go to the store now. Christmas is our holiday and I want our house to look beautiful."
Though I had a moment in the attic when my feelings for Tonks resurfaced, I knew Anna was the one for me. Anna saved me from the death Tonks was causing me.
Sorry it took so long. Life had suddenly gotten crazy! As always reviews are welcome!
