Chapter 9
NOTE: More memories still not in italic
I look over to Agito's bed. His hair is covering the eye but his breathing is regular so he must be sleeping... last thing I want is a sleep deprived shark on my tail. Slowly I get out of bed and pass the back of my hand on his cheek before getting my clothes and ATs. Closing the trailers door gives me a strange feeling... can't really point the cause but... my heart is aching. Doubts are passing through my head and my hand is trembling. I have to see her... I need to know I'm not at fault. It's childish I know... with everything I've done and seen... why do I seek so desperately her forgiveness?
When I reach the meeting place I take one last look over my shoulder. On the ride here I've been thinking about what to say... I prepared this whole speech about the reason of what I'm doing and the obvious mistake... go figure the moment I saw her on the bench looking at me with sad eyes everything went to hell. I just sit beside her continually mumbling sorry.
"I'm sorry... I really am..." I apologize again and again.
"It's fine... already" wow... no... wait... what?... is she serious?
"But..." I mumble in surprise. Was I actually forgiven... was it this easy to take away all the torments I've been subjecting myself to these last months?
"It's fine already! Even if you apologize so much... I... worry...! Big brother... became friends, bad people... They use AT for bad things, really. Even if I unable to return to my country... that can't be helped... You saved my life. It's the opposite... I, to thank you, want ... "
I look at her peaceful face, so different from the feeling she gave me when I arrived. I don't really understand but maybe I did something right in all this mess.
"Thank me!? No way… why…"
"My… leg as it is… so… I yearn to fly in the sky… These AT can make it come true, a great footwear… but there are… people who use AT for bad things. That I cannot forgive. You arrest people using AT for bad things. That's really great thing. I… really respect you."
I look at her and with every word she says my heart beats faster and faster. No one has ever told me these things… I've been working for the special forces because I don't know what else I can do. I was raised in this AT violent world and never realized that this is all I know. All this time I've been doing my job and didn't realized I was the mold of the beast Kaito wanted.
"Go fuckers!" I hear Kaito-nii's voice and quickly hide the cell phone. I've been talking to Ren about a trip to the sea so I was just putting the last details in place. She's a nice kid with an ugly past and doesn't have anyone in Japan. That's why lately I've been taking her out but… because of it I've been slowly losing him. The atmosphere in the trailer is cold and tense. Agito has been paying attention to the last indications for today's mission… it's a pain in the ass anyway the AT riders only flew in a restricted zone… the strategy is easy, the shark flushes them out and I capture them. As we get out I look over to him… his small frame becomes tense as he prepares for the hunt and quickly builds speed in the AT's… My hand instinctively goes for his... but slips away and all I catch is the dust he left behind… Why the hell did I just do that? My heart feels heavy again as I go to the ambushing place. The phone starts to vibrate… I reach for it thinking that it's Ren's answer but as I open the phone I see a mail from Spitfire. "Was cleaning my phone and found this. Damn you two haven't changed a bit, are you eating properly? " (N/A why do they not grow anyway?) I open the enclosed file just to see a photo me and Agito took before all this mess happened. I've been talking to Spit about Ren's situation and I guess he felt the tension in my heart… I can't help a smile… I owe you one man.
"AKIRA! THIS WAY!"
"Eh?" I look over to Agito and notice a rider flying right beside me "… oh well…"
Agito land's beside me "Sorry Agito. I lost 'em" I wasn't really in the mood for this kind of mission… why the hell are we going after innocent people anyway? He surprises me when he takes me by the neck and pins me to the ruined airplane behind me.
"Don't take this lightly… fuck! What's wrong with you? Have you fallen for that girl balls and soul? Ah?" You always think you know everything "If you don't have the guts to fight just disappear now… or should I knock you out right here?" Is this all you think about? Fighting? Are we just Kaito's beasts? I grab his hand angry at his numbness. If being a trapped beast hurts you so much why don't you do something about it?
"Fuck!" and pulls his hand away "Hey! Withdraw your forces…"
"Uh… but…"
"There's no meaning to go further, you're becoming useless idiots for that stupid Udou who can't even stand on his own."
It's weird but lately my life has been suffocating me... I need a change... with myself and the shit Kaito has been making us do… with Agito, until now I've been happy to just have him around but I'm starting to go insane. I belong to him body and soul… every day I watch him suck away my sanity but lately he's been also taking my nights... I dream of him, his lips, I yearn for his touch… I want to bite down in his skin and feel his blood, I want to fuck him so hard he'd start yelling my name in ecstasy, grabbing my back as his small frame arches under me in pleasure while he comes and his tight ass sucks me deeper inside. I always wake up with a hard dick and end up jacking off while looking at him in the bed beside me imagining him taking me deep throat. I always get pissed off because he sleeps so innocently while he makes my whole body ache in pain and pleasure.
hmm... left myself go at the end a little -.-
p.s school is a fucking pain in the ass
