Chapter Nine Shadows Of My Mind
Turning point...
Richard Castle was ready for today with his wife Kate Beckett. But before anything, he needs to have her read his letter that he wrote for her last night. It felt that it needed to said on paper, even though having been sick these past weeks, I haven't been able to until the shadows of Adam Lane had disappeared, But I do know not completely from my mind.
It's been hard for me to finally come back from the thrones of death, having been kidnapped, I should of known that he would pull something like that in the first place. And then be tortured by that mad man to do things that was beyond my control.
I have suffered a great deal having been given that Blue Light drug to really screw me up in the first place, and then the physical tortured of being raped by Lane to do the real damage, along with all of the physical injuries by his knife.
Now that I have fought back, now comes time for the real up hill battle, of trying to prove that I am still a man after all.
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Dr. Middleton was going over Richard Castle case file, including last night's notes by Castle's nurse to be a great sign towards the road of recovery.
He was waiting for Mrs. Castle to arrive, she had called earlier, telling me that she was on her way over.
A minute later there was a knock on his door. He tells the person to come in.
It's Kate Beckett. Dr. Middleton I am sorry about being late, I could not find a close parking spot, it seems that the center is really busy today."
"That's fine Kate, I just need to let you know your husband is quite ready for today, and believe me I am very happy that he's doing so much better, but not fully recovered." He points out with his concern statement.
"I understand that Dr. Middleton, believe me I know very well."
"Very well then, let me take you to level five for where he is waiting for you."
"One thing Doctor, what are the boundaries for when it comes to touching and sex? She asked rather scared by the question.
"None!, anything goes, but remember there won't be any cameras inside or out, you will have all of the time in the world to be with Richard Castle."
"And if something happens like with Rick having an episode?
"Then you just have to start hollering for help, I will have my aids standing by with a syringe to calm him down just in case.,and before I forget, Richard had a letter for you to read when you get inside."
"Do you happen to know what's it about Dr. Middleton?"
"To answer your question, no I don't at this point, so let's get going."
The both of them take the elevator up to the fifth floor, while walking out, they head to walk down the hall to room 534, there are two aids waiting for them. "Mrs. Castle this is James and Ronald, they will be on the outside sitting and listening for your request of any type of help, plus there are all types of items inside for you and Richard to use for your first session.
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Inside Richard Castle was waiting for his wife, he had a white towel around his waste, along with the letter in his hand.
When she walked in, she was nervous wreck, her stomach was doing flips, however she would try to calm her nerves down. She just could not believe on just how her husband was looking in that white towel around him with any clothes.
"Rick...In a soft, tender voice. She moves over to him near the double bed."My god!" She was touching his face with both of her hands before kissing him ever so gentle.
Castle responds to her with bringing her body into his. "I believe you have way too many clothes on for this therapy." She laughs at him with his statement."Kate before we start, I need for you to read the letter I wrote." He hands her the letter, while her hand was shaking.
Inside the letter.
My darling wife, I must say that I truly love you a great deal, I have been in love with you for a very long time, and I truly do need to express my love today to you, and in the way I feel finally having to fight back from the nightmare of Adam Lane.
Kate, I am trying this therapy to prove to myself, that I am truly a man to love you from the bottom of my heart and soul. Please be patient with me, if I am not able to finish today, without having to disappoint you or myself.
I would very much like to come home soon, but I do know Kate, that I am not fully recovered from the nightmare of the shadows that are within my mind.
I love you with all of my heart and soul...Your husband Richard Castle.
When Kate finished reading the letter, she was crying her eyes out. She needed to start now by taking all of her clothes in front of him to reveal her entire body.
She goes to take off the white towel to reveal his hard maleness. She takes her husband's hand over to the bed laying him down onto his back, he takes pulls down his wife onto his body to start kissing him very hard for the first time in awhile.
His hands reach for her breasts playing with them very gentle without having to hurt her in the first place, since he has always remembered, that she likes him to be rough with them between the toys and his mouth.
He takes one of them into his mouth to make her moan somewhat from the sensation, it was at this point, he moves down her body to give butterfly kisses onto her stomach and the area for where the baby is inside.
He says to the baby that he can't wait to see you born in the up and coming months, to make Kate cry again from his loving words. She was holding onto to him for dear life.
They continued to kiss very roughly using both there lips and tongues to have them both heated.
She tells him in a very whispered voice, that she wants all of him right now inside of of her, while guiding his maleness to her opening. He tells her that I am ready, since she was already wet, he would not have any problems entering, he takes a deep breath, lifting her legs up into the air to thrust into her, making her feel the pressure fully having to been a long time. He starts to move quicker with his hips along with his wife coaxing, as well with her body.
He continued with his thrusting back and forth, until a few moments later, he felt the orgasm coming from with his lower part of his body to have the powerful released into his wife's body.
She as well came together to be feeling the full sensation to be shaking and feeling the orgasm that hit her.
The both of them fell back onto the bed to hold each other. He was happy for himself that he was finally able to perform, after what Adam Lane had done to him.
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Two hours later
After having intercourse two more times, and other sexual pleasures, the both of them were totally exhausted. She and Castle were able to take a shower, since there was one in the room, along with a few snacks.
Inside the shower...
"Babe, I love you, I was somewhat disappointed that today would not work between the both of you."
"I know Kate." He takes the shampoo to wash her hair, while she does the same with the soap to wash his front including his now hard maleness once again, he pushes her into the wall lifting her leg, while she holds onto the window cell, as he pushes up into her opening, she starts to moan from the fullness from inside of her, this time it was quick, with Castle having to be breathing very hard.
She had to make sure, he was all right, he was catching his breath to be smiling at her before going back to there washing each other.
After the shower, they were able to have the drinks and snacks before she was able to leave.
"Rick, I am sorry about having to leave, maybe we can do this again depending on what the doctor has to say."
"Of course, Kate, I completely understand!, I love you."
He gives her the final kiss of this day, and hopefully not for the last.
