Minor bulling warning: Physical body/Gender identity

Jay felt her face slam onto something hard, heard Sans scream no, and was greeted by the nothingness again. This time the nothingness was warmer. Like there was sunlight heating up one side of their face. There was red seeping through her eyelids, which somewhat comforted Jay. It was familiar. However, Jay couldn't open her eyes or even move her body. She wanted to wake up, but couldn't.


¨You always do this Jay!¨ A child snapped.

¨Yeah, quit taking our stuff and putting it in the tree!¨ Another snarled.

¨Make me!¨ Jay barked and chucked the small box from the tree and over the fence.

¨You piece of shit!¨ The two kept shouting curses while they marched off to fetch the item. Jay peered down and noticed Frisk, staring up at them.

¨What?¨ Jay asked playfully. ¨You gonna make fun of my eyes too? If you do, your stuff is coming up here with me!¨

¨Temerity.¨ Frisk said. ¨Excessive confidence and boldness.¨

¨What about it?¨ Jay asked, crawling down a few branches.

¨You have quite the temerity when provoked.¨ Frisk murmured.

¨And?¨ Jay crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow.

¨Nothing really. It just makes me determined.¨ Frisk turned and started to walk off.

¨Determined to do what?¨ Jay called after them.

¨Succeed.¨ Frisk smiled as they slid inside the ratty orphanage.


Jay shot up from her bed with a gasp. Wait... her bed? Jay peered at the clock on the wall and released a shaky breath. It was seven in the morning. Jay peeled the covers off and quickly began to fill her bag with her hiking items. Flashlight, little watch, more containers for dust this time. Once all the items were packed, Jay took a moment to assess what was going on. Her room was empty, that was no surprise. She never had a roommate, but that was a plus in Jay's mind.

Jay opened the door of her room and peered out into the hall. A girl yawned and trotted down the stairs. The feeling of déjá vu was almost suffocating. Jay slid down the banister and landed on the main floor with a soft thud. She peered around once again. Chip and Molly playing connect four, Rachel coloring, Matthew braiding Rachel's hair. This was all normal everyday stuff.

She paused for a moment to pull up her socks like she did every day, but when she looked up, she was face to face with Frisk.

¨Frisk are-¨

¨Are you going to follow me again?¨ Frisk growled. ¨Planning to ruin my run? Just let me get it out of my system.¨

¨What? I-it isn't a game! Killing them isn't a game Frisk. It's murder.¨ Jay hissed loudly, drawing attention from those in the room.

¨You... Just. Piss. Off.¨ Frisk pushed Jay over and marched outside. Jay darted upstairs to grab her bag and her sandals, then outside. Her nightgown fluttered as she ran toward Frisk. They flipped over the fence, giving Jay the finger before darting away.

Jay dropped her bag and climbed over. She didn't need it that much. Not this time!

Jay dropped to the ground and scraped her hands and knees. She didn't feel it. Instead, she ran faster. Her mind was locked on stopping Frisk. She darted around trees and leaped over bushes and roots. Birds were singing, but the tune seemed dreadful. It was as if the birds knew Frisk would kill them. The mourning doves were loud and the soprano of the robins were surprisingly buried under the contralto. They knew. The birds were singing for the monsters, Jay could feel it.

Jay managed to just catch up to Frisk. The ground was sloped upward, and thick mud made from morning dew would be helpful in slowing them down. Using this to her advantage, Jay snagged their ankle and pulled. Frisk dropped down into the mud, but quickly snapped their other foot down onto Jay's wrist. She gave a yell, eyes glassing with tears. Frisk charged ahead, Jay close behind.

Jay grabbed onto Frisk's waist a few moments later and let her legs go limp. Frisk tried to peel her fingers off, but made no other attempt than that. Jay let go once they entered the cave. Frisk now stood at the edge of the hole, eyes narrowed and teeth barred like an animal.

Jay charged past Frisk, startling the child. Time seemed to slow as Frisk watched Jay turn awkwardly in the air. They watched in fear as her hand reached out for Frisk, as if they didn't want to go alone. Frisk felt their heart throb for a moment, body turning to maybe grab her hand.

At the last moment, Jay took hold of the back of Frisk's shirt. The two held onto each other as they fell, Frisk feeling a slightly different fear than before.

¨Oh my goodness!¨ A voice shrieked from below. It was Toriel.

The two children were full of adrenaline. The fall hardly seemed to affect them. Flowers were flattened and pulled from the ground as the scuffle quickly began.

Jay pulled Frisk's hair and Frisk sunk her teeth in Jay's arm. Fists were flying and blood was being spilled. Toriel gave another shriek, attempting to pull the two apart.

¨I won't let you attack them again! Papyrus and Undyne didn't deserve to die because you felt angry!¨ Jay snapped, raking her nails across Frisk's collarbone.

¨Leave me alone!¨ Frisk wiggled out of Toriel's grasp. Jay pushed the goat-woman off, standing in front of her.

¨Not until you see what you have done!¨ Jay was breathing heavily and her green eye was swollen and blackened.

¨Stop you two!¨ Toriel gave one last cry, unleashing a magic wall of fire in front of the two. ¨Who are you? What is going on?¨

¨Y-you don't remember me?¨ Jay turned to Toriel, hurt and confusion smeared across her face.

¨They never do!¨ Frisk explained. ¨You're new as well, so it will be awhile til you're etched into their brains a bit. Maybe Sans will remember you. He is quick to catch on. Too quick.¨

¨Look!¨ Toriel snapped. ¨I don't know what is going on, but we can solve this peacefully, can't we?¨

¨No!¨ Jay whined. ¨They killed you!¨

¨B-but I am right here, my child.¨ Toriel seemed slightly agitated, as if she knew she was part of a dumb prank.

¨I saved you! B-b-but that doesn't fix the fact you killed Papyrus! O-or Undyne! You're still a murderer. I don't care how many times you r-reset or how many times you do a p-pacifist r-run or whatever.¨ Jay felt tears run down her cheeks and an unfamiliar burn in her belly. ¨I will remember. I will remind you. I will haunt you. You killed the ones who showed you kindness. The ones who wanted to help you.¨

¨So-¨ Frisk was silenced when Jay's soul appeared before them.

¨I hate you!¨ Jay yowled. A thin crack had formed on her soul, and the glow it gave off dulled a considerable amount.


¨Leave me alone!¨ Frisk snapped, slapping away a hand from one of the older kids.

¨Come on, you go to school with us? Show us the orphanage.¨ They sneered.

¨No! You'll just do bad stuff to it. Y-¨ Frisk was flipped around and yanked up by the front of their shirt.

¨Any cash on ya orphan? Wha-? Yo, dude.¨ One had pushed his hand into Frisk's pocket and froze.

¨What are you doing?¨ The other asked roughly.

¨I think the kid is a both.¨ A grin spread across their face. ¨You a she-male?¨

¨Leave me alone!¨ Frisk flailed and screamed, but no one came.

¨You-Ow! The hell?¨ The boy had been hit with a rock. HE turned to the ally way. There was Jay, a make-shift sling shot in one hand, and a large chunk of broken glass in the other.

¨Put them down!¨ Jay snapped. ¨That was your only warning!¨

¨Or what?¨ They dropped Frisk and took a step closer.

Jay pushed the glass into the pocket and pulled back. The teens paled for a moment and stepped back.

¨You wouldn't!¨

¨I would! I was really hoping you guys were playing a game, but I can see I was wrong. Now, go away!" Jay snapped. The bullies peered to each other.

¨Whatever!¨ The tallest one marched off. ¨I don't need glass in my eyes.¨

¨What the? Come back here! Ugh!¨ The shorter one jogged off as well.

¨You okay?¨ Jay walked over and helped Frisk up.

¨Yeah. You're Jay?¨

¨Yeah. And you're Frisk.¨ Jay shrugged and turned away. ¨We better head back. I, uh, know a short cut. Although, we have to go over some fences. It isn't too bad.¨

¨Why did you help me?¨ Frisk asked, head cocked in confusion.

¨I try to see the best in things. I mean, what's it called? Opt-o-mist-tum? I've told I have that.¨ Jay pushed on Frisk's rear and then their feet so they could go over the first wire fence.

¨Oh.¨ Frisk watched Jay drop to the ground. ¨Thank you.¨

¨By the way... If you don't mind me asking? Do go by yes or no?¨

¨Huh?¨

¨If you have both. On T.V sometimes they have both and they say that have no gender. Are you a yes or a no?¨ Jay asked softly. ¨I don't wanna mix it up or anything.¨

¨No is just fine.¨ Frisk said with a kind smile.

¨Perfect.¨ Jay said loudly. ¨Frisk, I think we could be great friends.¨


Frisk seemed utterly shocked at Jay. Frisk had been told a lot of things, but they had never had a human say that they hated them. Let alone one who tried to be their friend, even after they had moved away from them. Jay had been clingy at the orphanage. But she had no one else. Frisk thought for a moment and shuddered. Now they had no one to go to on the surface.

¨That's my fault.¨ Frisk said to themself.

¨Yes it is your fault!¨ Jay screamed. ¨I hate you! You worthless murderer!¨

Frisk could hear sobbing from across the fire wall, but they could also hear the gleeful giggle of the child in their mind.

For once in Frisk's life, they felt ready to give up.