Wow this chapter was long. I didn't realize how long it was when I left it unfinished a couple months ago. Sorry for the delays, I've been adjusting to my new life in New York City where I go to school and I just haven't had time to write. But since I've been on break I've had the chance to finish this chapter up. I did some editing on the first half but not the second half of it, I really just wanted t get this up for now since it's been so long and fix it in a day or so. Anyways, please enjoy.
Chapter 9: -Usagi-
My hospital stay wasn't nearly as long as the last and I was sent home in no time. Partially because there was no need and partially because hospital stays did not run cheap to say the least. To my displeasure I had been told I could still attend school, but the good news was I wasn't allowed to attend gym for a whole month. I wasn't too torn up about having to still go to school though. I knew that I could see Seiya there. I hadn't seen him since he brought me to the hospital but I still had fantasies about his last visit. I guessed he never returned for fear of my mother, that was understandable, but I was wondering if he was thinking about me as much as I was thinking about him.
On my first morning home, my mother slapped a little rectangular box on the breakfast table. It was a translucent green color and was separated into compartments with letters representing the days of the weeks on top. I felt I didn't really need to ask what it was, but my mother explained to me anyways that I was to take two Aspirin in the morning to thin out my blood and make living easier on my heart. I sighed as I looked at the little case of pills, it wasn't that much of a burden but I knew the load I'd have to carry would get heavier as I got older. By just looking at the small green box I could tell the value of my youth had gone up considerably.
The school day hadn't been particularly exciting. I had many people stopping me in the halls telling me they were happy to see me back and that they were glad that I was okay. Judging from the fact that I didn't know any of them, I figured they were all secretly trying to catch glimpses of the damage from the event everyone was talking about. I didn't know why they even tried, it wasn't like I was going to lift up my shirt and show them. The one thing I did find interesting were the amount of people giving me odd looks. I could walk by a group of boys and be seemingly invisible, but when I walked by the girls they would shoot daggers at me. Well, more than usual.
During lunch that afternoon I saw Haruka leaning over the fence, blowing her sandy bangs out of her face with her lower lip stuck out. It was good to see she had finally battled out her bout with the flu and was back in action as my crazy, overzealous, sidekick. "Happy to be back?" She asked me as she hung her arms limply over the side of the fence. I wanted to say yes but it would be dishonest, I wanted to come back to see Seiya but I hadn't seen him all day and it seemed strange to me. I normally bumped into him once or twice. I worried he was avoiding me.
"It makes sense," I thought, "If you get the nerd girl all riled up she'll never leave you alone!" I mentally kicked myself. I had to stop thinking so negatively.
"Usagi, are you listening?" Haruka asked waving her hands in front of my eyes.
"Yeah, sorry I was just thinking."
"About what?"
I took a second to figure out how to answer her question. As my friend she deserved to know what I was thinking but I wasn't sure if she would grab on to the idea of me having interests in Seiya. The car incident was a while ago and I assumed that she was over it after having exacted her revenge. "To be honest…I've been thinking about Seiya." I started quietly.
"Seiya?" She questioned, leaning a little more over the fence.
"He visited me in the hospital and well, things got interesting."
She cocked an eyebrow at me, "What kind of interesting?"
"Like, boy – girl interesting." I tried to make it sound as innocent as possible but I could see her face winding up in disgust and regretted ever saying anything. I tried to take it back and pretend that it wasn't important but Haruka's short fuse was lit.
"Oh, don't fall for his bullshit; the guy is a wolf in sheep's clothing! He's either A. trying to make fun of you or B. trying to get an easy lay!"
"I really don't think he's like that. He genuinely seems to care about me; I mean he brought me a get well card while I was in the hospital. That's got to mean something, doesn't it?"
"Well if you think like that then he's already hooked you!" She spat "You're like that you know."
Frowning, I placed my hands on my hips. "I'm like how?!" I snapped.
"You know what I'm talking about. You get all gooey when people give you gifts or compliment you. If you say or think one bad thought about them you immediately think about the good stuff they've done and you immediately kick yourself and guilt trip over it. One sincere looking smile and someone can erase every terrible thing they've done to you."
"That is absolutely baseless!" I shouted.
"Is it? Already you have forgotten all the awful stuff he's said to you, not to mention what he's done to me!" She paused for a second and squinted her eyes at me, "Now that I look at it I can't tell what team you're playing on anymore."
"Since when were there teams? Actually embracing those that tried to hurt me instead of doing things your way has made me more friends than enemies. If there really are teams, you're the only one standing on your end of the field!" I could see that she wasn't taking the conversation well. Her rage was beginning to flood into her white knuckled grip on the fence and her bottom lip was being pinned down to keep her from saying anything further.
After taking two deep breathes she rose up her hand and acted as if she was swatting me away. "You know what, Usagi? You can do whatever the hell you want! If it means you want to pick some guy over your best friend; go for it. I just hope you know how much of a stupid twit you are right now."
I was livid. She had never called me a name in the whole time I knew her. I was almost positive that she was actually trying to hurt me. I rushed to the fence, with my fists curled up into tight little balls, "You want to resort to name calling now? That's kind of low! If you want to play it that way, I don't give a damn what a mannish dyke like you thinks anyways!" I suddenly envisioned my words hitting her square in the jaw. She winced and pulled away from the fence like she had been burned by it. She swallowed and just stared at me. I covered up my mouth quickly wishing that it would undo what I said; but it didn't. I had laid down a sizable scar on our previously flawless friendship.
Haruka blinked a few times trying to hide the fact that her eyes were watering, she clenched her jaw and in a low steady tone told me, "Yeah, you embraced your new friends alright. If I'm not mistaken you also embraced some of their views."
"Haruka, I am so sorry. I didn't mean it!" I quickly said to her but my words hit her in the back as she sped off, leaving me alone at her fence staring at her disappearing figure in a catatonic state.
"I think Haruka feels you're putting your relationship in jeopardy by trying to be close to Seiya." Michiru announced from behind me. I spun around to see her standing by the cherry tree with her pale hand draped lightly over her lips.
"Oh. Michiru! I'm so sorry! I didn't know you were here!" I stammered praying she hadn't been there the entire time, "You didn't hear what I said to Haruka did you?"
"I did."
"I'm sorry about the word I used…I didn't mean it…"
"I know, you were upset, we all do it sometimes." She said with a small smile as she stepped closer to me."
"I really don't see how Haruka thinks Seiya could hurt our friendship, I thought that maybe I could get everyone to be friends with each other if he and I got together – which I'm not sure if it will. That's why I decided to tell her. I wanted to ask her what to do…"
Michiru laughed and placed her hands on her lap, "Well, I don't think Haruka is the person to ask about that sort of thing anyways. First of all, she has no experience with guys and second of all she has trouble enough expressing herself in her own relationship. I wouldn't expect her to give you any acceptable advice," she paused as she watched my frustration rattle out of me in a sigh, "I think Minako might be out behind the science wing smoking. Why don't you go talk to her?"
I nodded in agreement while thanking Michiru and apologizing once again for being so rude. She waved it off as nothing and I went to look for Minako out back.
The science wing was pretty well populated but due to the time of year all of the college level courses had ended leaving some of the classrooms vacant. I walked past Mr. Chiba's room as fast as I could. I hadn't seen him since our little "date" and I intended to skip his class in order to keep it that way. But to my displeasure I heard his voice calling me from inside. I pretended to not hear it but he got up from his chair shouting, "Usagi". I couldn't get out of it. I turned around with the politest face I could manage. I didn't say anything I just looked at him, I didn't want him to think I wanted to engage with him in conversation.
He swept his bangs from his eyes and smiled again, he had no idea what that sort of flirty attitude did to me last time. I backed away from him. I did not want to end up in the hospital again simply because I didn't have enough distance from him.
"Usagi," He said again his voice hesitating on my name just a little too long, "I…I just wanted to remind you to pick up your cap and gown for your graduation ceremony." It was creepy. It was as if he was counting down the days till he could legally start "the hunt". It sickened me just looking at him. He didn't know who I was enough for him to want me for my personality. It was all lust, he probably would have taken me back to his apartment for some seedy entertainment if I hadn't run away from him at the aquarium. The thought of him touching me made my stomach churn.
"Oh. Okay." I responded quickly turning to leave. I felt a hand on my shoulder turn me around gently. I felt my body stiffen up at the strange softness of his hand, had I not known what he tried to pull off days ago I would have strangely wanted it to stay there.
"Um…Since you've been out lately, I'm willing to help you with review for the final exam."
"Of course you are." I thought to myself still maintaining my politeness in a slight smile. "Ah, that won't be necessary. I've been studying with friends for the last couple days. In fact! I'm on my way to meet her now! Have a good afternoon now!" Before he could bring up another excuse to get me alone with him, I stormed off to the back door like a bat out of hell.
Minako jumped up at my sudden burst through the exit, dropping her cigarette onto the floor. I braced my back against the door and tilted my head against it; she looked at me as if I had lost my mind.
"Oh, it's just Mr. Chiba." I stated waving my thumb over my shoulder, "He's been creeping me out."
"Oh…Okay…" She said still looking confused, I hadn't told anyone about Chiba not even Seiya, though I was sure he knew anyways. Minako bent over to pick her cigarette up. She stared at it bobbing her head a little to the side. I could tell she was wondering if the thirty second rule applied to cigarettes. Apparently it did. "So, what's up? looks like you got your shit ruined."
I stared at her, silently asking for her to explain what that blatant abuse of language meant.
She chuckled and pulled her cigarette from her mouth, "You don't look so good."
"Oh!" I said feeling a little stupid, "Life's just gotten really complicated lately, is all."
"How so?"
"I got in a fight with Haruka."
She cocked an eye brow and hopped onto the short brick divider. "Over?"
"A guy."
"Which guy?" She said with a mischievous smile rolling her cigarette delicately between her fingers. I didn't say anything I just blushed and looked down at the ground. I felt like such an ass. Seiya seemed like he liked me but only as a friend, I took the incident in the hospital as just some playful teasing but I wanted for it to be so much more. I had seen stuff like that on T.V. and it never meant anything. It was the sort of thing done just for tension and if that was what happened with Seiya, I didn't want ruin our whole relationship based on that.
"Well, it's not Haruka since she's really a chick and you're not into that," Minako pondered dramatically rubbing her chin, "and you don't really have any other male friends around you besides Seiya..."
I felt my face get hot at his name. It was so strange being put under the microscope by Minako, the queen of relationships. She had had more boyfriends than I could count so it was like judgment from God himself. She knew how to manipulate, charm, and romance any guy on the Earth I was honestly surprised she never tried it on Seiya. She was so pretty and popular, just like him, I had a hard time thinking that it wouldn't work between them.
"OH! It is Seiya!" She squealed inching closer to me, "That is so adorable. I wondered how you were able to resist his good looks but it looks like you've succumbed to it like the rest of the world."
I laughed a little, suddenly feeling uncomfortable. "Yeah, that's why I need your advice. I need to know, honestly, if you think I have a chance with him. We seem to be getting closer. We've had some pretty ambiguously flirtatious moments and I was wondering if you think it might mean something."
"Clarify these moments, please." She said popping the cigarette back into her mouth. I told her about the whole situation with Mr. Chiba and how Seiya had saved my life, by not only trying to stop my bleeding but donating his own blood to me. I then, through much whining from Minako, told her about the heart monitor incident. Her reaction was odd at first. She was silent and unresponsive to the story as I told it and by the end of it she was just staring at me. With her mouth slightly opened.
"So…what do you think?" I asked cautiously.
"That's hot." She laughed fanning herself with one hand while holding her almost finished cigarette in the other. I could feel myself blushing again and I laughed with her nervously. I never thought of my own life as "hot". It always seemed like my life with boys was shaky and awkward, every time I tried to ask someone out I would do something incredibly embarrassing. I've fallen down the stairs while attempting to ask someone to a dance, another time I accidentally sneezed milk in my crush's face. I won't explain how that happened though.
"Well," Minako said, ramming the butt of her cigarette against the school's brick wall, "I think that you should take the plunge. From what it sounds, Seiya might have something to offer you."
"But what if he just thinks I'm cute?"
She looked at me with a blond eyebrow cocked, "What if?" She repeated.
"I mean what if he doesn't love me. What if he just likes me for the way I look."
It looked like I was dragging her into foreign territory. She started to get a little fidgety once she started thinking about my question. "Is there anything wrong with that? I mean love just doesn't happen if you aren't physically attracted to someone. It's like fishing, you show them a nice piece of bate and reel 'em in for the long term. It's long after all that when real love sets in. Right?"
I wanted to answer her question but I just didn't know. I had never felt love before, I couldn't even say myself if I was just attracted to Seiya because I thought he was cute or if I actually loved him. I was always more concerned whether people actually liked me for me or if they had some darker intentions. That's all lust is after all.
Minako shrugged and waved at the question like it was hanging invisibly in front of her, "I'm sure all that doesn't matter right now anyways! What I think you should do is go, find him, and tell him you've been thinking about him every waking minute!" She then gave me a big painful pat on the back and scooted me energetically to the door.
"But I don't even know where he is right now!" I said frantically trying to avoid such a sudden confrontation with him.
"Well it's still lunch time, he's probably outside or in the cafeteria. Now go! I don't want to hear that you chickened out at the last minute so expect to give me the 411 when the day is over."
Without another word I was pushed back into the halls of the school. I searched around most of the usual places to find him but he wasn't there. I found one or two people I would see him hang around with for lunch about his whereabouts. A boy with short brown hair directed me to a hallway behind the cafeteria. I thought it was a little strange that he seemed to be hiding and I worried that maybe something was wrong with him. I walked over to the little hall that was pointed out to me and I saw Seiya leaning against the wall, his face pointing toward a corner. I saw his back rising and falling rapidly as if his breathing was inhibited. It almost looked like he was crying…
Feeling awkward I approached him "Seiya…is something wrong?" I asked reaching my hand out to him. He quickly turned around with the strangest grin on his face. In his hand was a cell phone. I heard him finish up his conversation and then he slapped it shut. Gave a loud content sigh and held his arms out as if he was stretching for the first time in months.
"This is the greatest day of your life!" He announce in a sing song voice as he took me into a strange embrace, spinning me around almost picking me up off the ground. I felt a sudden surge of pure happiness as I smiled and wrapped my arms around his warm neck all the while inhaling his wonderful scent.
"Is it?" I laughed and played dumb. I guessed he had been looking for me too but we never met up. I could feel the joy rising in my chest. He stopped swinging me around and placed me gently on my feet. He gazed down at me with excited blue eyes and took a deep breath.
"They want me back!" He announced.
"What?"
"I've been on the phone with a new record company all day and they said that even though my previous contract was shredded because of my lip sinking I still have the image they want. They'll sign me on and I'll have a job again!"
It wasn't exactly what I was expecting, I felt a little disappointed but happy at the same time knowing that the wrongs I had done to him were fixed. Lord knew that incident at his concert had put up far too many barriers. "Oh. So, when are you going to be back to work?"
"Well, once I get there. I've already booked my flight for tomorrow night, the soonest I could get was midnight but I don't really care."
I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. It was stupid of me to think that singing was just a job for him, it was an entire lifestyle. High school and college didn't mean anything to him it was all about where he was performing next. I wanted to cry, he was leaving just as I decided I wanted him to stay. But he looked so happy; happy to be leaving. As much as I didn't want to, I had to face the facts. If he saw no reason to stay then he didn't see me as anything more than a friend. I tried to give my best congratulatory smile and he accepted it as genuine. I wondered if he was too dumb to see I was faking or if maybe he just didn't know me well enough.
"A flight…So where are you going?" I asked him.
"Kyoto, I'll be there for a while since they want to do a promotional photo shoot. Some sort of Kabuki themed thing. Then after that I have no clue. Don't worry though, I'll send you a post card probably."
I smiled again, "Oh. Okay, that'll be great..."
"Is there something wrong?" He asked now seeing my visible displeasure with the situation.
"Oh, no," I laughed sadly. There was no way I'd make a fool of myself. I couldn't tell him anymore. "I was just thinking about how little time I have to organize a going away party for you."
He smiled and looked touched, "That's really sweet of you. Maybe you and Minako can do a little something at her place. I heard her parents are still out of town so it seems like the perfect place to hold it."
"You're probably right. I think I'll go back and talk to her about it a little later." I then turned around casually.
"Odango," He called from behind me, "We're friends now aren't we?"
"Yeah, I suppose we are." I said with a sad smile. I then walked away pretending that Seiya Kou didn't exist, it would be hard to forget him though, his face would have no doubt been plastered on the cover of every magazine within the week. Instead of going to see Minako I went and actually attended Mr. Chiba's class just to get my mind off of it all. I noticed he was looking at me more than usual. His face looked too concerned for a predator's. It could have also been because I was clearly not concentrating; instead I stared at a jar of formaldehyde thinking about curling up and dying in it.
-
"You what?!" Minako screamed after promptly spitting all of her latte back into it's Styrofoam cup. I'm not sure if she was angry about me telling her about it the day of the party or if it was about me basically helping Seiya pack. "How could you do that? You're kicking him out the door!"
"I can't stop it. He's going to go back to being rich and famous again. He'll have all sorts of women at his disposal, and they'll probably be prettier than me. Not to mention he'll have money and influence and I can't really give him any of that if I can get him to stay."
"But throwing him a party isn't going to make things better. You're basically telling him you want him to leave."
"Maybe I do."
"Now you're just being dramatic. You still have a chance to make things right. Tell him at the party." I tried to make up an excuse but she cut me off expecting it from me, "I don't want to hear it. I just want to see you and him making out in my closet by the end of the night. Thank God we have a half day today, I need to get home and clean up my house for this thing."
"We have a half day today?" I asked.
"Yeah it's for the freshman exams I think. Can you believe the year is over already? We graduate in like four days."
Normally I would have been happy for the end of the year but this year was my last. The stress I was feeling was unbearable. Once I graduated my childhood was over and my clock would begin to tick and all the things I hadn't done up until then would begin to ride me down into the ground. I was a virgin who didn't know what she wanted from life; I had applied to no colleges and had no ambitions for anything after high school. I was a little girl still afraid of the dark unsuccessfully still trying to figure out boys.
"Yeah," I said quietly, "It's amazing how little time we have to get things done."
"I know!" She said excitedly, "Anyways I think I'm going to skip class all together today, no use it sticking around. I might as well get a head start on the party. I'll see you later!" She then skipped off bumping into Seiya as he turned the corner.
"Ah, Odango." He said waving to me with a smile on his face. "Can you believe it's all over?"
"Yeah, I was just talking to Minako about that. Everyone will be leaving and going off to different schools."
"Which reminds me, is that party still on for tonight?"
"Yeah, it's still on." I said, there was a sad silence between us.
"I didn't know any of you for very long, but I feel sad to go." He said in a melancholy tone.
"I know, there is so much we didn't do. If you had been nicer to me sooner maybe you could have made a 'special' friend out of me." I tried to make the joke but part of me was hoping he would pick up on the hint I was so desperately trying to drop. Oddly enough he didn't laugh like I expected him to. He just smiled with sad eyes and agreed with me.
"Well…I should be going to class. I'll see you later tonight." He said waving to me. I waved back and watched his figure disappear into the school.
I was half tempted just to give up and go home. All my energy for the week had escaped me when I heard he was leaving. For the rest of my half day I daydreamed and brooded through all of my classes. After picking up my cap and gown as Mr. Chiba suggested I went home to see my mother sitting at the kitchen table eating breakfast even though it was noon. I guessed that she had a night shift and was readying herself for a long day. I sat down with a sigh at the table and she arched an eyebrow at me.
"Why are you home so soon?" She asked suspiciously, I knew exactly what she was thinking. She was expecting me to have skipped out on class thinking she was away for the day. I had to chuckle to my self though, I had never played hooky a day in my life and she was still suspicious of me even on the last day of school.
"Half day, for freshman exams." I stated, playing with my cap's tassel in its plastic bag.
"You do know you're getting a job this summer. I won't have you just loafing around while you search for a college." She said coldly stirring her coffee with a spoon. It was always business with her.
"I know." I whined, I didn't want to think about it so I tried to change the conversation. "You remember Minako, right?"
"Yeah."
"There is a goodbye party for someone tonight and I was thinking of going." Before I could say anything more my mother shook her head without a word. I should have expected it to be that way, I wanted to fight with her but I just didn't have it in me. Calming reason might have worked just fine.
"It's Seiya though. And he's leaving for good so I'll never see him again."
"Good, you're still not going." She said again not looking away from her coffee.
"Why are you like this, Mom?" I asked her out of frustration, she looked up at me with a startled expression.
"Like what?" She asked.
"Why do you treat me like I'm eight? If I'd chosen I college I would have been miles away from you and you would have no idea what I was doing."
"My house my rules. If you're in my house I don't want to have to deal with some drunken pregnant girl with no motivation. If you went and lived on your own you would be your own problem not mine."
"You're automatically thinking I'd be going out and having drunken sex with strangers. Doesn't that seem a little unrealistic?"
"Is it? I have yet to see you drunk or pregnant so I'm doing something right."
"But you never got the chance to see if you were wrong either." I said. She immediately saw where I was going with the conversation and went to the sink to dump her coffee out.
"Usagi, I don't have time for this, I have to go to work in two hours and I need to do things around the house before this." She then left the kitchen leaving me to myself. Exhausted from everything I went up stairs and fell asleep on my bed.
-
I woke up to the sound of my cell phone ringing. At first I had no idea what it was, I rarely used it and the noise was alarming to me. I flipped it open to hear Minako's voice through the speaker. "Usagi, where are you?!" She shouted through the sound of other people in the background.
"I'm at home."
"The party's been going on for two hours now! Why aren't you here!?" She asked frantically. I rolled over on my side and spotted the time on my alarm clock. It was nine thirty already, my mother was gone by then. I moaned and covered my eyes with my hand.
"My mom won't let me go out tonight?"
"What? Why? You need to tell Seiya how you feel!"
"I know, I know. But it's my mom…"
"Screw your mom, she's a bitch anyways! This is more important than being grounded for a week. Sneak out and come here. Anyways, I got to go. I'll talk to you later." Without another word she hung up leaving me to stare at my clock. She was right, being grounded was worth being with Seiya and saying goodbye to him. I pulled a sweater over my school uniform and walked down the front door. I slipped my shoes on and placed my hands on the cool doorknob. It was so easy to walk out of my empty house and see him but it was like there was a barrier between me and the door. But what did it matter, so I told Seiya, what then? He wouldn't stay for me, a goofy girl in pigtails wasn't worth forty million a year. Defeated by myself, I took my shoes off again and walked back to my room.
I felt so sad. I wanted to tell him to stay with me but instead I laid on my bed for hours watching the sky darken as the night went on without me. I wondered what he was doing at the party, if he was enjoying himself, if he was upset that I wasn't there. I guessed that he was having a good time; I didn't get another call from Minako saying anything about him. I guessed that his happiness was too sad to tell me about. Thinking about him going about his night not knowing or caring how I felt made my heart sink deep into my chest. I felt hot tears roll down my face; no one was there to watch so I sobbed my heart out as I watched the clock tick closer to his departure. I could see him in my mind hugging all his friends, laughing with them as he got into his cab to the airport. I tried to stop thinking about him but I couldn't help looking at my clock. If I were a stupider girl I would have jumped up off my bed and ran to him, catching him just minutes before he got onto his plane.
I fished around in my bag trying to find my cell phone. I figured that I would call and apologize to Haruka, it was stupid for me to lose a friend over someone who never cared about me the way I cared about him. I went into my address book, I rarely used it and it was bare for the most part. I had always quickly stored numbers in there for emergencies only, Haruka if I needed a ride, my mother for if I was hurt. Looking through my contacts I saw a number that had no name to it. The entire time I had the phone I never noticed it was there.
Suddenly my mind thought "What if?". I highlighted the name and clicked send. I held my breath as I listened to a mechanical ring on the other line. It rang for a few times with no answer, I began to wonder if I had dialed a number placed there by the phone company. Suddenly the ringing stopped; it was someone's voice mail message.
"Hi you have reached Seiya Kou I'm not here right now but leave me a message after the beep." I suddenly felt my eyes get hot and heavy and, once again, tears were pouring from my eyes. He never gave me his number. He gave me the phone. He was the one that left it on my doorstep. He knew how he felt about me the entire time but he must have been waiting for me to make the first move and say something. I looked over to my clock; it was almost a half hour till midnight. I still had time.
I quickly clutched my bag to my chest and I ran downstairs, I could hear my mother squawking at me in my head. She could have grounded me for the rest of my life and I wouldn't have cared I could run away with him and forget she even existed. "Fuck her." I laughed and repeated deliriously to myself as I slipped on my shoes and ran down the street. I sprinted into the subway just barely catching a train. I slid quickly through the metal doors and stood anxiously waiting for it to stop. I made sure I was the closest to the door so I could be the first to get off. Once it came to a screaming halt I quickly ran up the stairs and hailed the nearest cab. I falling into the cab, I demanded to be taken to the airport. I looked at the clock I had ten minutes to stop him. I sat back in the cab, trying to relax but I found it hard. My stomach felt like it was doing back flips and my body was almost completely tensed.
In the back seat of the taxi I heard the buzzing of the radio come from the speakers as I watched the street lamps strobe as we drove past them, "Well I'm not seventeen, but I've cuts on my knees...'Sit in the chair and be good now', and become all that they've told you…she's been everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own…."
The taxi screeched to a halt at the airport, I threw an uncounted amount of money at the driver and ran into the building and to the escalators. I pushed past it's riders ignoring their angry comments shot at my back. I heard the sound of Seiya's plane being boarded over the intercom as it made it's last call. With some difficulty I found the correct terminal, I flight attendant at the gate ushered the last flyer on to the ramp.
"Stop!" I screamed running toward the woman.
"May I see your ticket?" She asked in a pleasant tone.
"I don't have one. I need to talk to someone on the plane though! Please!"
"I'm sorry miss but we don't allow anyone who doesn't have a ticket on the plane. It's the law I'm afraid." She said still maintaining her manners. Fed up with her rules I tried to go past her screaming Seiya's name. The woman pushed me back and called to a security guard who pulled me from the ramp. After calming down the man let me go and I stood at the window watching the plane move down the runway and up into the sky, my wet face pressed into the purse he gave me, hoping I could get one last trace of his cinnamon scent. I was too late.
